Savor

by Duncan, Megan

  As I waited, I could feel the adrenaline fading quickly and my body began to throb in pain from my injuries. I rested my head as I exhaled a painful breath and saw Arrick’s gaze flash toward me. Concern soaked his face and his eyes grew more vibrant as the emotion overtook him. All I could think of was how handsome he was, how grateful I was that he saved me. Since the first moment I saw him standing in the darkness of the palace grounds there had been a connection. Our joining in the Blood Mate ceremony only seemed to reinforce a bond that was already there. I thought about how unsure I was before the ceremony and then Dmitry’s face flashed in my mind.

  I knew he would be heartbroken. He had gone for help and when he returned I would be gone. It brought tears to my eyes to know the pain he would feel. Would he blame himself? I still cared deeply for him, despite my feelings for Arrick. I swore that someday I would return to the palace. I would find Robin and let her know I was okay and I would find Dmitry and tell him how much I cared. Then I realized that I made a lot of promises. That there were already two people waiting for me to come back and I never had. I knew there was a good chance that was going to happen again.

  Hot, angry tears ran across my face and I smeared them away with my fingers. “You okay?” Arrick asked. The commanding tone was gone from his voice and filled with genuine concern. I guessed the immediate threat was behind us and he was able to relax.

  “Honestly? I don’t know.” I was more frustrated than sad. Nothing was what I thought it would be. Since I became a vampire, the world didn’t seem to make sense any more. Somehow I knew it never would. “Tell me, Arrick,” my voice was neither pleading nor laced with desperation.

  I could feel him searching my emotions and he seemed to have found what he was looking for as he nodded silently. “You don’t belong here.”

  “Yeah, you’ve said that. Why don’t I belong here?” I wasn’t certain as to what here was. Did he mean the palace specifically?

  “I told you once that I have known for a very long time that I would be your Blood Mate.” I nodded remembering the conversation. “I have known for eighteen years.”

  My mouth fell open and my mind exploded with confusion. How could he have known for eighteen years when I just got tested? It didn’t make sense. I opened my mouth to rapid fire a million questions, but Arrick raised his hand to halt me. “You are not from this region. You are a Zakarian. You are from my region.”

  Zakarians. The name sounded familiar as I vaguely remembered it from history class. They were located in a region far to the east. A coastal vampire clan whose way of life was very different from our own, but I couldn’t quite remember the details as to how different. “How can I be from that… how can I be a Zakarian? My mom is from here.” I twisted in my seat to look at him.

  Arrick sighed, “She was not your mom.” The news rattled me to my core. A lifetime of depression crept back into me, taking hold in a strong way. I had always felt different, always out of place in my own life, but I never would have thought she couldn’t have been my mom. Not even in my worst imaginings did that thought ever arise.

  Feeling my panic, Arrick quickly continued. “She is not a bad person. I would not have let you stay with her if she had been. She wanted a child and was unable to have one, so you were chosen for her. The woman may not have birthed you, but she did love you.”

  My feelings altered into anger as my emotions took over my every thought. “You let me live with someone for my entire life, knowing that she wasn’t my mom?” Disdain dripped from my voice.

  “It wasn’t my choice. I would have taken you long ago, but I was forbidden.”

  “I can’t believe it. This is just great. My entire life is a lie. No one ever tells me the damn truth!” A deep growl escaped me as my animalistic nature crept out of its cage inside me.

  “I’m telling you the truth now,” Arrick pleaded and rested his hand on my shoulder. His touch softened me, yet I still huffed angrily.

  “Not long after you were born… you were stolen from your parents. I was tasked with the duty of finding and protecting you.” I gave him no response and let my gaze stay locked on an unfixed location in the distance. The darkness of the night sky was starting to fade and I could feel myself growing weary. “Damn it Claire,” Arrick hissed in frustration and hit his palm against the steering wheel. “Don’t you get it?”

  “No Arrick, I don’t get it. Obviously!” I hissed back at him. “I got kidnapped as a baby and given to some lady, whom until just now I had thought was my mom. I’m from an entirely different region that I know nothing about, so please tell me what I don’t get.” I stared at him unblinkingly as exhaustion and pain wrecked me body.

  “Nicolae had you kidnapped. In our region, we test blood at a very young age. You especially because you are so very special.” I raised my eyebrows and crossed my arms, silently demanding he explain why I am so special. “You are a Princess.”

  “Duh!” I exhaled and almost smirked through my anger at how much I sounded like my old friend Liz.

  “Claire, you are our Princess.” He gripped the steering wheel as he swerved through traffic in the fading night, letting the shock of his words sink into me.

  “I’m your…” I couldn’t even say the words. How could I be a Princess twice over? And then the truth hit me like a truck. It was my blood. “He took me because of my blood,” I said more to myself than to Arrick.

  Arrick nodded. “In this region, their hierarchy relies on blood alone. Resting its judgments on the pureness of the blood. There are very little pure bloods left in your region and Nicolae didn’t want to allow Ana and her family to ascend to the throne. He had a spy in our region and when word of your birth was announced he sent for you.”

  I had suspected from the very beginning I was being used for my blood, and against my initial judgment I believed everything everyone told me. “I was so stupid.”

  “No.” Arrick rested his hand on my knee gently. “They have been guiding you toward them since the very beginning. That’s why they chose that woman as your mom. They wanted you to be raised by her, because she was such a strong vampire activist. They hoped that she could give you the same values, instill you with the same unwavering trust and devotion in vampires.”

  I nodded silently as it all started to make sense. I was a pawn in an elaborate design just as I had suspected. I had lost everything and everyone I ever cared about. All things that were never meant to be mine to begin with, yet the loss was great and heavy on my heart. “Why didn’t they just take me and let me live at the palace from the very beginning?”

  “They didn’t want anyone to suspect who you really were, so they kept you in hiding letting you live a human life until the time was right to bring you forward.”

  “Why weren’t you allowed to take me back?”

  “The Zakarians fear war. They knew if they took you back, that would cause another great war as has not been seen since the dark ages. When I reported that I had found you, they asked if you had a good life. If you were happy. I watched you and when I confirmed that you were, they ordered me to watch over you, but to not intervene. I have watched you ever since.”

  “They would rather their daughter live with someone else…” I left the sentence unfinished. In a short time my life had turned upside down so many times. It was starting to feel like I would never know who my real parents were or who I really was.

  “They would rather not have their daughter be the cause of another global war. It broke their hearts to make the decision they did, but it was for the greater good. Would you have rather they saddled you with the burden of causing thousands if not millions of people to die?”

  I agreed with his logic, but the truth still hurt. I felt abandoned and used and no amount of vampire strength could defeat the sadness that crept within me. “No,” I said and turned away from Arrick.

  I lowered my seat again and willed sleep to take me. I wanted to block out the world and its painful realities for as long as I could.
As I lay against the cold leather, tears trickled down my blood stained face causing it to stick to the seat when a thought popped into my head. “Arrick?” I said almost as a whisper.

  “Mhm?”

  “How come you and I had a connection before the joining? Is it because we are from the same region?”

  He was silent for a moment and I worried that he wouldn’t answer. “No. It is because you are my Blood Mate. You have been for eighteen years. There has never been anyone like you before. You are both a vampire and a Blood Mate.”

  The truth stunned me, yet deep inside I felt I had known that truth all along. Our connection was undeniable. I wanted to respond to him, but words wouldn’t come. Only tears ran down my face as I sobbed silently. I didn’t know who or what I was anymore. Nothing in my life was mine.

  Arrick sensed my sadness and squeezed my hand tightly in his. “That’s not true. I’m yours and I’m taking you home.” He smiled at me briefly before shifting the Mercedes and continuing our journey through the dark. Toward what I could only hope was the truth and where I truly belonged.