by K. Renee
“You and I both know that isn’t true. You haven’t been here longer than enough time to drop off Blade. So, unless you’ve been fuckin’ my VP since the last time we fucked, that kid is mine.” Her brows furrow in anger, and she presses her finger into my chest.
“Fuck you.” The tips of her ears turn pink, and she looks like she’s about to blow a damn gasket. It’s fuckin’ hot when she gets all bent out of shape.
“He the father of your kid?” I ask in a low voice. She stares at me with just as much anger as I feel running though my veins. Before she can answer, I release her and storm out of the room. He’s been sniffing around her way too damn long. Making my way into the bar area, I find him and stalk towards him. The few guys are that hanging around don’t make a sound, as I get closer to Romeo.
“Have you been fuckin’ her?” The anger just takes a hold of me, and there is nothing I can do to control it. He looks over my shoulder and, when I turn my attention to who he’s looking at, I see Trix’s face. She has Blade on her hip, and she has a look of disgust on her face. It should bother me that she’s letting our son see this, but all my anger is being directed at Romeo.
When he turns his attention back to me, I stare into his eyes. “You really want to know how I’ve been taking her to bed every night?” He grins and I don’t think twice. I swing hard and my fist connects with his cheekbone. I watch the way his head jerks to the side and I swing again.
Someone steps between us and, when I look up, I see Stavros standing there facing me. He looks pissed, but it isn’t any different than how he’s been since Harlyn walked out on his ass again. “Get the fuck out of here. I don’t give a shit what your baby mama drama is. This shit is fuckin’ over.” I stare at Romeo over Stavros’s shoulder as he wipes at his cheek and grins. “Go!” Stavros growls.
Turning my attention back to Trix, I make my way over to her and grab Blade out of her grasp. I don’t give her the opportunity to say anything before I stalk off.
Walking into my room, I slam the door shut and Blade starts to cry. Closing my eyes, I run my hand up and down his back trying to soothe him. “I’m sorry, little man. Your momma just pisses me off so damn bad.”
Reaching into the bag on my bed, I grab his bottle and mix the water and formula like Trix showed me. Handing the bottle to him, he starts to drink and I take a seat on my bed and watch his features. Every time she brings Blade over, it’s his naptime and I almost think she does this just to piss me off. I lose an hour or two every damn time.
When he’s almost done with his bottle, his little eyes start to close and I just watch him. He’s breathtaking and by far the best damn thing I’ve ever done.
Shit with Tina still isn’t getting better, but I finally got those fuckin’ CPS fuckers off our backs. They made us jump through hoops to prove that Blade was well cared for and that there were no signs of abuse. I could kill that bitch.
His little feet start to kick like he’s running in his dream, and I can’t help but think about the type of sleeper his mom is. Every time I’ve had Trix in my bed, she’s done the same feet movements. Maybe it’s something in the genetics, but it’s cute as hell. A soft knock at the door brings my attention to it, and I see Trix peek her head inside.
“What Trixibella?” I murmur, running my fingers down Blade’s sweet chubby face. She walks in and shuts the door softly.
“I haven’t heard you call me that in a long time.” Her eyes are cast down towards the ground and she almost looks nervous.
“What do you want?” I ask again. I just want to spend time with my son, and there is no fuckin’ way I want to hear about her and Romeo.
“Elec…” she starts and pauses, almost like she doesn’t know what to say to me. She has to know how fuckin’ pissed I am at her right now. She’s fuckin’ my brother.
“Trixibella, I don’t have time for your shit. You haven’t talked to me in months and now you want to say something? Well, spit it the fuck out. It’s my time with our son and I don’t need your ass hanging around any longer than necessary.” Blade moves at my words, but he doesn’t open his eyes. Laying him in the crease of my legs, I turn my attention back to her.
“I didn’t mean for it to happen.” She looks at the floor, and I don’t know if she means the getting pregnant part or the fuckin’ Romeo part. “Honestly, I don’t know whose baby it is.” She closes her eyes and my hands itch to go to her. When she opens them and looks at me, I see the tears pooling in her eyes.
“You didn’t mean to fuck him? What happened, you just fell naked on his dick?” She glares at me, but I keep going. “What’s going to happen when he finds out it’s not his kid, or hell it’s not even mine? You just going to keep whoring yourself out to anyone who says they give a fuck about you?” Her eyes meet mine and, for the first time in a long time, I see regret.
“Elec. I already feel bad enough. You don’t have to be a bastard,” she whispers.
“You fuck him bareback, too?” The hurt in her eyes flashes bright and she frowns at my question.
“No. We used protection almost every time.” She looks down at our son, but doesn’t make a move to come closer. I can see the need to hold him written all over her face.
“What do you want?” I ask. It may sound like a simple question, but for us it’s nothing but complicated.
“I don’t know…” I don’t even bother to look at her this time. It’s probably going to piss me off.
“You want the baby to be his?” I’m still watching Blade because hearing her answer might be the end of us for good this time.
“I… I… Elec…” She starts to move closer to me and, when I look up at her, she stops. Her eyes stare into mine, and I wait for her to answer. When she doesn’t give me anything, I ask her another question.
“Is he who you want to be with? I’ll walk away right now, and let you go, if that’s what you really want. You say the word and I won’t come back.” My eyes pin her to the spot she’s standing, and I watch as tears fall down her face.
“What about Blade?” Her voice is choked up, and I want nothing more than to kill that bastard Romeo for taking my place in her heart.
“I’ll visit him. He’ll always be my son, and there is nothing that will change that.” I look past her towards the wall, and I ask her to do something for me real quick. “Can you watch him for a second? There is something I need to do.” She nods slightly, looking a little worried.
Getting off the bed, I walk over to her and kiss the top of her head before making my way towards the door. “What are you doing?” She asks with tears in her eyes.
“I’m giving you what you want. You and Romeo can be happy together.” I turn before she can stop me again and make my way out of the room and towards Prez’s office. Knocking on the door, I wait for him to answer and then make my way inside.
“You gonna tell me what the fuck happened before?” he asks from behind his desk.
“She’s pregnant,” I state. I don’t even bother to say anything else. He knows exactly what is running through my mind because he is going through the same damn thing. Harlyn still isn’t talking to him, and she’s pregnant with his kid.
“It yours?” he asks.
I shrug and sink into a chair across from him. “No fuckin’ clue. She doesn’t even know.” I close my eyes, and lean my head back against the chair. “I want to leave this charter and go nomad. I can’t watch them together. There is no fuckin’ way. It will just eat me alive if I have to watch him touch my girl.”
He regards me for a while before he responds to my request. “Does she know this is what you’re doing?”
“Doesn’t matter. I’ll visit with my son, and all that shit, but I can’t be here.” He nods and I sigh. “I love this club more than anything, but losing her to him isn’t ever going to mesh well for me. I’ll never trust the fucker again. He knows exactly how I feel about her, and he still made his move behind my back.”
“You know this has to go through a vote.”
I nod and go to stand up. “I’m sorry to see you go, but I understand, brother. I wouldn’t fuckin’ be able to stomach watching if my girl was with another one of you bastards either. I’ll schedule church for after she comes to get Blade tomorrow.” I nod and reach out my hand to shake his. He didn’t have to agree to give me the meeting, especially after the shit in the bar.
Walking out the door, I make my way back towards my room where I’ll get to spend at least one more night with my son before my fate is sealed. When I walk into the room, I see her sitting on my bed against the wall with our son curled up in her arms. Her eyes are closed and, when I shut the door, she doesn’t even move. Looks like my fate is already sealed. I get both of them in my bed one last time.
Waking up with an ass pressed tightly against my dick isn’t what I was expecting this morning, but I will take what I can get. Before I even realize that it’s Trix in my arms, I’m running my fingers down the soft skin of her belly towards the top of her panties. I feel the slight swell of her abdomen and my hand pauses. She pushes her ass back into me, and my hand slides down into her panties. She must have taken her jeans off sometime during the night.
Cupping her pussy, I don’t even bother thinking about the consequences of my actions. She’ll be pissed at me and herself in a few minutes, but the only thing I can think of is the feel of my fingers sliding into her juices.
Kissing her neck, I look over her towards the crib I got for Blade when we started these overnight visits. He’s still fast asleep with his finger in his mouth. She moans into the quiet room, and I slide her panties to the side. Dipping my fingers inside of her, I feel her pussy grip me tightly. Pregnant pussy is the best damn pussy.
My hand goes around her throat, and I pull her back into my body. Sliding my sweats down enough to get my dick out, I rub it between her wetness and slide it over her clit causing her to moan out my name. “Elec.”
She knows it’s me, and part of that makes me feel like there might be hope for us. Sinking inside of her, I slowly thrust in and out of her. My grip on her neck tightens, but not enough to leave marks on her skin. My other hand slowly makes its way over her belly. God, I wish this was my kid, too. I want to be the only man to ever be the father of her children.
We fuck slowly until we both come. Her pussy clenches around me tighter than ever before as she moans out. It’s a goodbye of sorts. I’m not sure she understood my meaning last night when I told her that I’d walk away if she chose him. Today, when they leave and if my request is granted, I’m leaving. I’m filing for divorce from Tina, and I’m getting the fuck out of this town.
That bitch will no longer run my damn life. I’ll finally be free of all of her drama and most importantly… her.
I feel a tear hit my skin. When I pull out of Trix, she turns in my arms and I see the tears in her eyes. “Elec… We shouldn’t…” I put my finger to her lips to stop her from talking.
“Don’t. Don’t regret it. Just know that whatever happens, I love you. I’ve loved you for the last three years, and I never meant to break my promise to you. Trixibella, don’t forget what we had even when it was fucked up and crazy. Know that it was the only time I’ve been truly happy. I love you and Blade more than life itself, and I just want you happy, even if it kills me.” I place one last kiss on her lips before I slide out of bed and fix my sweats.
Walking over to Blade, I press a kiss to his forehead and watch him for a minute before I walk into the bathroom to shower. I take the longest and hottest shower I can manage. I don’t hear her, so I assume that she still isn’t gone yet. I wonder what that bastard Romeo is going to think when he sees her coming out of my room wearing the same clothes as yesterday. Once I’m done in the shower, I shut the water off and toweldry. Tossing it on the curtain, I make my way back to my room to see her still sitting on my bed.
She’s fully clothed when I make it over to the bed and her eyes are trained on the floor. She doesn’t even move when I take a seat next to her. Before I can even say one word to her, my phone rings out with a message.
Prez: Church. Now.
Taking a deep breath, I toss my phone on the bed and walk naked over to my dresser to pull on a pair of jeans. My eye catches on the divorce papers I filled out two years ago. I reach forward and touch them, but I don’t move them from their resting place. I had every intention of taking them to the club lawyer, but then Tina threatened to commit suicide. She was still my wife, and I couldn’t let her take her own life because of me.
Instead, I broke the heart of the woman who matters the most to me. I’m a coward and a bastard, this much I know. Letting that bitch run my life was the worst mistake I ever made. Pulling on socks and my boots next, I look over at the crib to see Blade’s eyes open. He reaches out his hand to me, and I grin at him.
Even with this shit that is going on, he never fails to put a smile on my face. “Dadda,” he coos into the quiet room. I hear Trix’s gasp at his word and, when I turn my face to look at her, she has a look of shock written all over her face.
“He’s never said a word before,” she whispers. My eyebrows bunch in confusion and I look back at him before looking at Trix one more time. “You’re his first word.” A tear slides down her cheek and I walk over to him and pick him up.
“Hey, buddy.” His hand comes to my face, so I grab it with my free hand and pull it to my mouth. He has no fuckin’ clue what I would do for him.
He starts to do his baby talk thing where you can’t understand a damn thing that is coming out of his mouth and I hand him over to Trix. “I have church in a minute.” She takes him without a word, and starts to make his bottle.
Everything she does with him is effortless. I watch as she cuddles him into her body and hands him his bottle. He watches her and me as he drinks it. Pulling on a shirt and my cut, I take a look around the room. In the next ten to fifteen minutes, I’ll know my fate. I have a feeling they will give me what I want in order to keep the peace between the club.
“Come on, I’ll walk you out.” I reach a hand out to her and she stares at it for a minute. “It’s not like I’ll say anything to the bastard,” I state when she doesn’t move. Her eyes roam over my body before landing back on my outstretched hand.
She takes my hand, and I pull them both up from the bed. I grab the diaper bag and shove everything back inside. Leading them towards the door, I open it and lead them out into the hall. The silence consumes me, and I have a feeling that everyone is already in church. Making our way through the quiet room, I see Prez and Romeo standing together by the church door.
Neither of them says anything as I lead Trix and Blade outside and towards her car. Once I get them settled in the car, and I give him one last kiss on the cheek, I pull away and watch as she starts the car and takes off into the morning light. Closing my eyes, I stand there for a second as my decision weights on my mind.
I’m going to be leaving them both in the matter of hours. She doesn’t know, either. As much as I want to pick up the phone and call her to tell her, I don’t. I just let her keep driving further away from me.
Making my way back into the clubhouse, I see the look on Romeo’s face. He’s pissed, and I’m pretty damn sure he knows that she stayed with me last night. The church doors are closed, and Prez is nowhere in sight.
“Why?” His voice is on edge and, as much as I want to fuck with him, I don’t.
“Because I love her enough to walk away,” I state. He rolls his eyes at me, and takes a few steps closer.
“Is that why she spent the night in your bed last night?” he sneers. “You trying to prove to her one last time that you’re the one for her.” I shake my head and laugh.
“No fuck head. I didn’t even ask her to stay. She fell asleep before I even got back to my room. Could I have sent her away? Yeah, probably, but I wanted to see the look on your face when you saw her doing the walk of shame from my room one last time.” Before I even finish the statement, his fist clocks me in the side of my jaw.
I don’t bother hitting him back because the door to church opens, and I see Prez standing there watching us. “Get your asses in here. We don’t have all fuckin’ day.” I rub at my jaw and follow orders. When I take my seat at the table, I sit in silence as everyone’s eyes are on me. Prez already told them what I was asking for. The only thing left is to vote.
“We ready to vote on E’s fate?” he asks the room. I hear a smart-ass remark from Romeo, but I shake it off. I just need a majority and I’m gone.
One by one, I hear the yay’s until two of the brothers say nay. My eyes meet them, and they’re the ones I’ve been friends with since we prospected together. I don’t say anything, but I continue to listen to all the rest of the votes until it comes to Romeo and Prez. Romeo says nay and so does Prez. Surprising. “I’d rather you watch as I fuck your girl,” Romeo spits out.
“You’d like that, wouldn’t you? What are you going to do, adopt my kid, too?” I ask with a bitter laugh.
“You’ll never see him again,” he laughs.
He doesn’t know she’s pregnant and, although I want to let that fuckin’ cat out of the bag, I don’t. I’ll keep that one in my arsenal for when I come back to see my boy. “Keep him from me and you’ll wish you never laid eyes on her.” Prez hits the gavel on the table, and every one turns their attention to him.
“Enough. You fuckers act like goddamn children.” He runs his hand over his short beard, and I wait for him to give the ruling. Once church is done, I’m packing my shit and leaving.
“Although I hate this shit, the majority rules and, in this case, Easy E you are now a nomad. Be sure you come to visit and don’t forget your brothers here. I wish you nothing but the best, and I hope you and Trix figure out your shit for Blade’s sake.” I nod to him and wait for him to dismiss us. When the gavel hits the table again, I bounce out of my seat and make a beeline towards the door. Before I can get through it, a hand grabs my arm.