Complete Works of E W Hornung

by E. W. Hornung

  That was where I had come in. My water-bag was nearly full; his had sprung a leak and was empty. To give the dog a drink out of his wide-awake was the boundary-rider’s first act when I handed him my bag; then he took a pull himself. The suggestion that we should off-saddle and do a spell together came from me. The dog had found its voice and rounded up the mob before Jim finished drinking; we set him to watch the sheep in the shade, tethered our horses, and carried our saddles to a tree apart, leaving marks like inkstains on the animals’ backs. The place was a sandy gully thickly timbered with pines. We chose the tree with the closest warp and woof of shadow underneath, and there made short work of such provisions as we carried, with further reductions in the bulk of my water-bag.

  It was the very hottest day I can remember in the bush; in the shade of the homestead verandah the thermometer touched 116°; and I recollect my companion showing me a tear in his moleskins, done that morning by a pine-branch, and the little triangle of exposed skin on which an hour’s sun had left the mark of a mustard leaf. The fellow was near to physical perfection, a sterling specimen of the Saxon type, with the fair skin which naturally burns red; but his blue eyes were sunken, and had the strange rickety look of one who has drunk both deep and long at some period of his life. Jim still knocked down his cheque, but not oftener or with worse effects than another. We regarded him, however, as our biggest blackguard, and as such he interested me, so that my eye was on him as we ate: I afterwards remembered his way of eating.

  Our snack over, Jim had his cutty in his mouth and was paring a plug of black tobacco before I thought of my cigars. He laughed and swore as I produced the case, but when I opened it, and the silver cones stuck out under his nose, he helped himself without a word. His easy method of slipping off the silver paper (which had visibly embarrassed the manager of our station), and the way the boundary-rider held out his hand for my knife, are two more things which struck one later. The shape of that sun-chapped hand is a third. Heaven knows I was not consciously observant at the time. I rolled over on my back, my saddle for a pillow, and took to sending up soft, chastening clouds into the garish blue overhead. The subtle fragrance of the smoke mingled with the pungent smell of the pines, the hot still air grew rich with both; a vertical sun stabbed the fronds above us with pins and needles of dazzling light that struck to the ground like golden rain; and, but for my cigar, I had yielded to these sensuous influences and thrown it aside to close my eyes. Thus was I the slave of my luxury, but consoled myself with the thought that Jim’s enjoyment would at least be heart-whole. Yet he never said so, and as we lay I could see no more of him than a single sidespring boot, a long spur, and three inches of shiny brown legging.

  “You don’t say how it strikes you, Jim.”

  “The cigar?”

  “To be sure.”

  “Oh, it’s not a bad smoke.”

  “No?” I raised myself on one elbow to look at the fellow. He had the cigar between his forefinger and thumb, and was blowing the most perfect rings of tobacco-smoke I ever saw.

  “Yes, it’s a good cigar,” our boundary-rider went so far as to concede; then he replaced it between his teeth, after a moment’s scrutiny with his unkempt head on one side.

  “Quite sure?” I smiled.

  “Quite. For my part, mind you, I prefer a good Muria — they’re not so rich. It’s purely a matter of taste, however, and certainly these are much more expensive.”

  “Indeed! Perhaps you can price them, Jim?”

  “The cigar that I am smoking,” said Hell-fire Jim, “would cost you a shilling at the club. If a shilling or two were an object, I suppose you could get them by the box at about ninety-two the hundred.”

  It was no longer what he said that astonished me, but the soft tone of his voice and the sudden absence from his conversation of the ingenious oath-combinations for which it was notorious. I sat bolt upright now, and must have shown my feelings pretty plainly, for he hastened to explain.

  “I was once a waiter in a London club,” he said. “That’s how I know.”

  “Not a waiter, Jim,” said I, looking him steadily in his sunken eyes. Then I begged his pardon. But Jim seemed pleased.

  “Mean to say you think I was a member?”

  “If you ask me, that was my idea.”

  “Then you were right. I was a member of several. Does it surprise you?” he added, with, I think, a rather wistful smile. I cannot be sure of that smile. His whole manner was agreeably free from sentiment.

  “It doesn’t surprise me a bit,” I said.

  “Not to find me the stump-end of a gentleman, eh?”

  “No; I see that you are one.”

  “Was, my boy — was,” corrected Jim. “I say,” he went on, “this is a great cigar! You have to puff a bit to appreciate it properly.”

  He threw back his head and left a number of his little grey rings curling into thin air against the blue. I was not going to ask him any questions. We smoked for some time in silence. Then he exclaimed, with his eyebrows right up on his forehead, as though he himself could hardly credit it:

  “Yes, by Jove! I was at Eton and the House.”

  “Nothing surprises me in this country,” I remarked.

  “Yet you’re about the first that ever spotted me. By the way, I’m not the wicked baronet or the disguised duke, don’t you know? My father’s only a country squire of sorts — if he’s alive. But he sent me to Eton and from there to Oxford; and from Oxford I went to the Temple, and from the Temple to the devil and all his angels. There I’ve stuck. And that’s the genesis of Hell-fire Jimmie, if you care to know it.”

  I cared to know infinitely more. These crude headings were small satisfaction to me looking at the handsome sunburnt stockman and realising that I was alone in the wilderness with the romantic ruin of a noble manhood. I turned away from the quiet devil-may-care smile in the sunken blue eyes, in order to conceal the curiosity which was consuming me. I dropped back on my elbow to the ground, and stared into the unbroken unsuggestive blue of the southern summer sky. When I sucked at my cigar I discovered that I had let it out. Turning once more to my companion, I found him puffing his with the loving deliberation of a connoisseur.

  “Like velvet, isn’t it?” he murmured, stroking the brown leaf gently with his finger. “That’s one of the points of a good cigar, and another’s the ash. You never saw a firmer nor a whiter ash than this. My good fellow, it’s a cigar for the gods!”

  He held it admiringly at arm’s length, as I relit mine. Then he smoked on in silence, but very slowly and caressingly, for some minutes longer. At length he said musingly:

  “I wonder how long it is since I smoked my last cigar? How long is it since I came out here? I’m losing count of the years, and I’ve just about forgotten Oxford and London, and the wine and the women, and the old country altogether. All but one woman and one village.... I suppose you couldn’t put a fellow in the way of forgetting them?”

  I was still wondering what on earth to say to him — for once more I seemed to detect a wistful ring in his voice — when he settled the question himself by laughing in my face.

  “How could you help me when you don’t know the yarn?” he asked, with his blue eyes full of amusement. “Look here, I’ve a good mind to inflict it on you!”

  “Wouldn’t that hurt?” I could not help asking him.

  “Nothing hurts now,” he answered, with a queer, quiet sort of swagger in his tone and manner. “If anything ever did hurt, it’s what I’m thinking of now; it might hurt less if I told you something about it.”

  “Then go on by all means. You may trust me to hold my tongue.”

  “My good fellow, why should you? Tell whom you like. It makes no difference. Nothing has made any difference for years. Besides, it’s well enough known in the old country, though I’ve never spoken of it, drunk or sober, out here. I can’t think why I should want to speak of it now — but I do.”

  He leant towards me and paused, admiring the white unbr
oken ash of his cigar, and half smiling. That half-smile was to me the saddest feature of a narrative of which it was the constant accompaniment. The tragic story which affected me so deeply seemed simply to interest the man who had brought the tragedy about. He told it in the fewest and the coolest words.

  “One village and one woman — that’s all. Deuce knows how many other women there were who could claim to come into the yarn, but I’ve forgotten them all but that one. There were plenty of villages, too, round about, including our own, but I’m only going to tell you of hers. Ours was not so much a village as a kingdom under the absolute rule of the most tyrannical old despot in this world — if he is in it still — I mean my father. He bullied and bossed the whole parish, including the parson, insulting the poor devil and threatening to have him suspended every other Sunday. He himself snarled out the lessons in church, and he made me learn texts by rote before I could read; for my father was one of those hard-bitten old saints who breed sinners like me the whole world over.

  “But three miles from our village, which was in a constant simmer of discontent and suppressed rebellion, lay just the sweetest and most peaceful spot on earth, where it seems to me now that the sun was always shining. It was one long, old street of yellow walls and red tiles, and when you got to the end of it, there was the thatched church and the rectory, and the good old rector with his two hands stretched out to greet you, and hovering about him, to a certainty, the purest angel that ever wasted her love on a devil incarnate. I won’t tell you the name of the village nor yet of the county. You’ll be going back to the old dust one of these days, and you might run across my people. I don’t want you to know it if you do. You may take your oath you won’t hear of me from them; they’ve done their best to forget my existence. Oh, dear, yes, my name on the station books is as false as hell, like the rest of me. But I don’t mind telling you her name. It was Edith, and I used to call her Edie. Jolly name, Edie, sweet and simple like the poor little thing herself. Rum thing, isn’t it, how easily it still slips off my tongue?”

  He stopped to smile me his strange impersonal smile, and to attend to his cigar. So far he had been holding it between finger and thumb, and admiring it as he talked.

  “You will see how rum this is presently,” he continued, with his eye on three fresh rings that were circling upward from his mouth. “We had been boy and girl together, but when we wanted to be man and wife, Edie’s old father would not let us be engaged, because he knew of my blackguard ways. He did not give that as his reason. Edie was very young, a delicate slip of a girl, too, and it must have been a long engagement in any case. We were to remain friends, however. I think the dear old boy trusted to his girl to straighten me out first; if she couldn’t, then nobody else could.

  “But I was a hopeless case. The country-side rang with my sins long before I was sent down from Oxford; and went on ringing afterwards, louder and louder, when I settled in London and was nominally reading for the bar; but so long as I came down in time for prayers when I was at home, and went to hear our poor brow-beaten devil on Sundays, my father stopped his ears and shook his stick at those who tried to tell him of my misdeeds. I don’t think he much cared what I did so long as he saw the soles of my boots at morning prayers. But my good old friend in the next parish was different. I can see him now, and the sorrow in his kind old face, when he forbade me the rectory once and for all. I felt that, too, and on my way home whom should I meet in the fields but Edith herself? So I made as clean a breast of everything as one could to a young girl. Young as she was though, you wouldn’t believe how that girl sympathised and understood; and you won’t believe this either, but her kindness fetched the tears to my eyes. She was a God’s angel to me that summer day. I took her in my arms, little white feather that she was, and I vowed and vowed that I would keep straight for her sake even if I never saw her any more. And when I wouldn’t touch her with my foul mouth she raised her pure lips — I can feel them now — and kissed my cheek of her own accord. She did indeed!”

  His voice had become very sad and soft — so soft that I had to bend forward to catch some of the words — but there was a quiet bitter note in it that cut to the heart. And as he paused, and went on smoking, the queer sardonic smile came back to him. His cigar was now one half snowy ash, the other glossy brown leaf, and as he smoked a little red ring divided the two. He remarked afresh on the excellence of the ash before resuming his story in a lighter, louder tone that lasted him almost to the end.

  “Now I’m going to tell you a very singular thing. I made my peace with the old rector, partly by letter, partly by Edie’s intervention, and at Christmas-time I was to have her if she was still of her old mind; so at Christmas-time down I came from town with the engagement ring in my pocket. I knew that the girl would keep true to me through thick and thin, though I did hope that she had not heard of a certain matter which had got my name into the papers that autumn. Never mind what it was. My father had written very violently on the subject, but I had not heard a word from hers. So I hoped for the best. I was not as yet a fully reformed character, but I was about to become one. The night before I left town I never went to bed at all. It was my last orgy; but I was sober enough in the early morning to go to Covent Garden in my dress clothes, and to buy flowers to take down to Edie with the ring. I chose roses, because they were the most expensive at that time of year; and red ones, because the girl was naturally so pale. Then I had a sleep in my chambers all the morning, and went down by an afternoon train.

  “It was dark when I landed at the market-town where the dog-cart used to meet one. I hadn’t ordered it this time, because I wasn’t going straight home. I found it freezing down there, and I thought I would walk out to the rectory through the crisp night air, so as to arrive there fresh, for by now I felt the effects of the previous night. It was so very dark, however, that I bought a lantern and made them light it before I would set out on my three miles’ walk. I remember going out of my way to a shop where I was not known. That market-town was our nearest one of any size, I had made it too hot to hold me before I was one-and-twenty, and it hadn’t cooled down yet.

  “The frost had followed a long spell of dirty weather, and the roads were fluted ribbons of frozen mud. My footsteps resounded merrily as I pushed into the darkness, the centre of a moving circle of light thrown upon the ground by my lantern. I shall never forget that walk. The box of flowers I carried in one hand, my lantern in the other, and for all my full hands I must needs keep feeling for the ring in my pocket, to make sure that I had it safe. And I felt as though my back was turned forever upon the town, and all that. We would be married without unnecessary delay, and we would live well outside London — either in the Thames Valley or among the Surrey Hills, I thought. At any price we would keep clear of the town; I would go in as late as possible in the mornings and return quite early in the afternoon. My old haunts should know me no more. With such a prospect and so many good resolutions to occupy my mind, the way seemed short enough, and I was glowing as much from my own thoughts as from the keen clean air when I swung open the rectory gate and walked briskly up the well-known drive; my heart was beating mountains high, for the dear old place had always been infinitely more homelike to me than my own home.

  “The house struck me as being poorly lighted, but then I was purposely taking them by surprise. As I came up to it, my eyes mounted to Edie’s bedroom window, and I was astonished to see it standing wide open to the bitter air. There was no light in the room either. The front door was opened by the rector himself. He seemed agitated at the sight of me; nor would he shake my hand, and I knew, then, that he had seen in the papers that which I hoped had escaped his notice. With a sinking heart I asked for Edie. The old man peered at me for a moment; then he answered that she was gone.

  “‘Gone away?’

  “He nodded.

  “‘And when?’

  “‘This morning.’

  “‘And where to?’ I asked, for you must see how disappointed I
was.

  “‘Do not ask me,’ he says. ‘May God forgive you, for I, His minister, never can!’ he sings out. And with that the door was shut in my face, and the key turned on the inside.

  “God knows how long I remained standing like a fool on the gravel drive. The gravel must have been very soft before the hard frost which had set in that afternoon, for the light of my lantern struck down upon recent wheel-marks frozen stiff and clean. Instinctively I began to follow them. Edie had gone away, I was on her track. My thoughts were confused, but that was the drift of them. I followed the frozen wheel-marks out into the road, and on, on, on; it was not until I was following them in at the churchyard gate that my confusion fell from me, and left what soul there was in me naked to the freezing night air. Still my lantern fell upon the wheel-marks, and my feet followed them, until the light shone cold upon a narrow mound half hidden with white flowers. The fresh brown clay was already frozen as hard as the roads. I spent the night upon it, and should have frozen too, but I had started to run a hell of my own in my own heart. I’m running it still. When I crawled away before dawn there were some warm red roses among the cold white things. I was glad I had them. They’re the one part of it I don’t want ever to forget!”

  His voice had sunk almost to a whisper, and for all the heat he gave such a shudder that the long ash was shaken at last from his cigar. I saw him gazing at the glowing end. All at once a fiery arc ran from his fingers through the air, and nearly the half of a prime Villar lay smouldering in the Riverina sun. I watched it meditatively, and the reed of heavy smoke ascending from it into the breathless air. I thought of the prostrate penitent upon the frozen grave. I marvelled at the refining spell which had bound the entire man for the last twenty minutes, utterly changing him. And I wondered how long that spell would survive its obvious source.

  I wondered for one moment — with the soft, sad, gentlemanly voice still ringing in my ears — and for one moment only. The next, a bellow at my side drowned that voice forever; and Hell-fire Jim was himself again, screaming curses at his dog and his sheep, as one who realised that his reputation was at stake.