Soldiers of Pearl 6: A Touch of Fear (Siren Publishing Ménage Everlasting)
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“Maggie, are you trying to tell us that he molested you?” Logan asked as the thought hit his head. He didn’t think first. He just asked. The rest of the team freaked, and one look at Maggie’s face and the stray tear that fell said he was on the right track.
“He didn’t rape me. You need to know that.”
“Shit,” Stack said and ran his fingers through his hair.
“He just hounded me all the time. He pressured me into kissing him and made me believe that I couldn’t like a boy, a man, anyone but him because I belonged to him and one day he promised to make me his one and only.”
“That’s sick. How the hell did you get away from him?” Bandit asked her.
“College.”
“College? If you were fourteen, that means he hounded you for what? Like, four or five years?” Breaker asked.
“What did you do when school was closed or on break?” Logan asked.
“I stayed with friends. I didn’t come home. My parents and I didn’t get along for many reasons, but he showed up at my college graduation with my parents, and he pushed his ideas on me, talked to me about taking my virginity and that he would kill any man who tried to take what belonged to him. He kissed me and touched me, and it got out of hand, and the things he said and threatened me with got to me.”
“Honey, none of that is your fault. You know that, don’t you?” Logan asked her.
“I know it now, but until I met the four of you, I thought I could handle the nightmares, but that wasn’t the case.”
“Nightmares?” Stack asked.
“Every night since the night he showed up at a party I was attending.”
“What happened that night?” Logan asked.
He watched as tears rolled down her cheeks, and she kept her hands clasped on her lap.
“He decided he didn’t want to wait. He saw me talking to some older men. They were involved with business with my father, and he got jealous. He pulled me into the basement to talk, and he made his threats. Even when I try to force the memories of him touching me, threatening me, from my head, I can’t seem to do it. I can feel his fingers dig into my groin. I feel his hot breath against my ear and the tip of the knife at my throat as he demanded that I open my legs. Every night I wake up in a cold sweat thinking that he’s there in my room and that he tracked me down and never gave up.”
Logan pulled her closer. “I’m so sorry, baby. I’m sorry I tried pushing you tonight.”
“No, Logan. I want to feel you touch me.”
He squinted at her, and she blushed and then lowered her head, took a deep breath, and then looked at his team and then back at him.
“I like how you make feel. Your touch, none of you make me feel dirty or like I’m in pain. I want to open up to you. I want to make love to each of you and give you the one thing he didn’t damage or take from me. My virginity. I do want to be with each of you so badly, but then I panic. I totally panic.”
Breaker slid down off his chair and knelt on the floor next to her. He took her hand into his.
“You don’t have to do anything you’re not ready for. Everything you shared with us lets us know that we can get through this. The attraction between the five of us is here. We just need to get through the demons standing in the way.”
She reached out and caressed Breaker’s cheek. “I want that. Can you help me?” she asked him.
“Tonight? You want to be with us tonight?” he asked, and she nodded.
* * * *
Maggie could hardly swallow, her throat felt so tight. She took a sip from her wine glass and then placed it back down before she stood up.
She walked away from them and then turned around to face them.
“I talked to one of the counselors at the shelter two weeks ago. She helped me to see that I was letting my own fears and mistrust get in the way of being happy. I hope you don’t mind that I talked about you, the four of you, and what scares me about you the most.”
“You’re scared of us?” Stack asked, standing up.
“Look at you. You’re all at least six feet three with bulging muscles, and you’re Marines. That means you’re capable of things I don’t even want to think of. You’re also good-looking, bossy, and complete Alpha males. Which, by the way, I thought I would stay clear of and totally be turned off by, but I’m not. I love when you say things like I belong to only you and that I’m your woman and you want only me.”
Stack smiled and then took her hand and held her gaze. “It’s all true, especially the possessive part and about you being our woman.”
She smiled.
“I don’t know how this will work. How I’ll react to being touched intimately by each of you, never mind making love, but I know that I want you. I want to feel more of the care and compassion you’ve shown me.”
Stack placed his hand against her cheek. “That’s a great start. Don’t worry about the past. Just let go, and we’ll catch you, Maggie. I swear we will.”
She held his gaze and hesitated only a moment before she placed her palm against his cheek, stood up on tiptoes, and prepared to kiss him. Stack lowered so she could reach him and when their lips touched, she wanted desperately to let go, and believe that they would indeed catch her. This was the scariest moment of her life. If they failed her, and weren’t the strong, honorable American soldiers she thought they were, then she would never open up her heart again and remain alone for the rest of her life.
* * * *
Stack’s heart was racing. He couldn’t get over Maggie’s revelation. She was a victim. An evil, manipulative man had hurt her and made her incapable of trusting men He caused this wall around her heart, and it was his and his team’s responsibility to break that wall down and show her what love was. As he kissed her deeply, he thought for a moment how a man like him, with all his faults, his history of fighting, of violence, and being a tracker and hunter could possibly know the first thing about love. But then the connection, the deep strength of the desire he felt for Maggie outshined it all. He wanted to make her happy. He wanted to possess her in every way and ensure that she was never in pain, never sad, lonely, or unloved ever again. He also wanted to find the man who’d hurt her and kill the fucking bastard.
He would deal with that another day. Tonight, Maggie would become part of his team and, hopefully, their family.
He slowly released her lips and held her gaze. He lifted her up into his arms and began to carry her.
“Remember what I said about letting go and letting us catch you?”
“Yes.”
“We’re going to take our time. We’ll go as far as you want and can handle, okay?”
She nodded and then laid her head against his chest as he headed out of the room. He exchanged looks with his team, who all appeared on edge as they followed.
Stack placed Maggie’s feet down on the rug in front of the bed.
He held her waist with one hand and cupped her neck and cheek with the other. He lowered his head slightly to lock gazes with her stunning green eyes.
“Okay so far?”
She nodded.
“Maggie?”
Stack looked at Bandit, who approached cautiously. He ran his palm along her belly, and then she smiled at him.
He smiled back, the excitement and relief apparent on Bandit’s face. Bandit cupped her chin and jaw then leaned down and slowly kissed her. Stack watched, feeling his cock harden and his own desire to make love to Maggie fill his mind. But he forced the need to claim her down. He needed to keep his promise, even if waiting killed him.
* * * *
Bandit delved his tongue deeper, getting a full taste of Maggie as he trailed his palm upward and cupped her large breast. She didn’t pull away and, instead, pressed her chest against his palm, indicating she was okay with him touching her. He massaged the large mound then trailed a thumb and finger along the nipple back and forth. She moaned into his mouth. He heard the rustling of clothing and then felt Maggie tense a moment and then relax.
Logan stood behind her, and as Bandit released her lips, he heard the zipper to her dress lower and then the dress fell to the floor at her feet.
“You’re perfect, Maggie. Absolutely perfect,” he told her, and then Logan began to kiss her shoulder.
They all watched her, waiting for her to stop them, and knowing that she could at any moment drove them insane. But she didn’t. She let her arms fall to her sides, allowing them a full view of her breasts.
Bandit couldn’t resist touching her as he placed his hands on her hips and squeezed her to him. When she ran her palms up and down his chest, he felt his cock grow thick and hard. “Undress me, Maggie. I’m all yours to do as you please and desire.” Her fingers stopped moving. He panicked wondering if he’d said something wrong, and then she stared at him.
“Are you certain I can do anything I please with you?” And then she smiled.
The relief that hit his chest made him realize how intense he felt. He was shaking as much as she was.
“Anything, baby. You can strip me naked and have your wicked way with me, and I won’t even touch you without your permission.”
Her eyes widened, and even he was shocked at his words.
“I think I like this side of you, Bandit.” She undid his shirt and pressed it away from his chest, and it fell to the floor.
When Maggie leaned closer and licked along his nipples, he closed his eyes and willed his hands to not squeeze her to him.
But as she gripped his arms and continued to lick his skin, she tightened up a moment. Bandit opened his eyes and saw that Logan was kissing Maggie’s neck.
“Don’t mind me. I’m just getting a better look at this sexy, firm round ass of yours.”
He pressed her panties down, and Maggie held on to Bandit tightly.
“So sexy,” Breaker said and trailed a finger along her breast and nipple.
She closed her eyes, and Bandit remained still as she gripped his arms. Her fingers dug into his skin and muscles, but he didn’t care. He wanted her to feel safe and to let go with them. He would never let her feel pain again. They would never hurt her.
She gasped as Breaker began to caress lower, down her belly to her cunt. “Breaker.”
Her voice cracked as she said his name.
“That’s right, Maggie. It’s me. It’s your men touching you. No one else,” Breaker told her as he took his time.
“No one but the four of us ever again,” Bandit added, and she looked at him with tears in her eyes.
“Easy, baby. Just feel. Let us love you,” Logan whispered as he suckled the skin of her neck.
“Let us pleasure you and get this body used to the four of us touching you, loving you,” Stack told her and began to caress her hair.
She tilted her head up toward him and gasped, realizing that Stack was naked, as were the others. Then Breaker pressed a finger to her pussy, and she gripped Bandit and opened her mouth as tears filled her eyes.
“Ours. You’re going to be all ours,” Stack said and then leaned forward and kissed her.
They worked together to caress, kiss, and help her to relax her body.
Stack released her lips and lowered to the floor. He cupped her breast and then licked the tip, making her moan.
Bandit watched Logan smooth his palm up and down her neck and clavicle then over the front to her breast. He moved so slowly, so gently, that Maggie loosened her hold on Bandit. He didn’t mind one bit, being her rock, the one solid person to hold on to as she fought her demons and allowed him and his team to touch her and love her. It made their bond and connections stronger. He knew that, and he wanted nothing for himself at this moment, only for Maggie and for his team.
“Oh God, what is that? Oh God, Breaker, please.” She began to rock her hips as Breaker stroked her cunt faster and faster.
“It feels good, doesn’t it, baby? This is how a man’s touch should be. You’re meant for us. We’re all going to be one,” Breaker told her.
Stack suckled her breast harder and pulled as Logan pinched her nipple.
“Oh. Oh.” She moaned louder.
“Come for us. Give us that orgasm. Let go, Maggie. Let it all go, and we’ll catch you,” Bandit demanded, and she cried out her orgasm and hugged Bandit tightly as the others kissed her skin and caressed her body. Bandit caught her in his arms and lifted her up to carry her to the bed. He laid her down and gently caressed her skin. She was still panting and looked so aroused, even though tears streaked her cheeks.
“Are you okay, sweetness?” Breaker asked her as he clutched her chin and smiled down at her.
She smiled back. “Perfect. Being with the four of you is perfect.”
* * * *
Maggie couldn’t believe how free she felt. Just letting go and believing that they wouldn’t hurt her had taken so much out of her. But now she was faced with another anxiety per se. They were all naked, except for Bandit, who had only his dress pants on. Breaker was on her left side, caressing her belly and massaging her breast while Logan was on her right side, leaning on his elbow, watching her and trailing fingers along her inner arm. Her pussy clenched and released more cream. She glanced down and saw how well endowed these men were, and she looked at Bandit.
“Are you ready for more?” he asked as he leaned above her.
He was waiting for her to undo his pants, to give the sign that she was ready to make love to them. She wanted to. She already felt so safe with them. They were her protectors. She knew it and felt it instantly.
She reached up and began to undo his pants.
Logan caressed her hair. “Are you on birth control?”
She nodded. She couldn’t speak or she would sound like a freaking scaredy-cat. She swallowed hard. And then Bandit stood up and stepped from his pants. She looked down and saw his thick, long cock. Then she saw Stack stroking his cock as he watched her, and suddenly she felt so much desire and need she parted her lips and felt her pussy cream.
“That’s right, baby. Listen to your body. It knows that you belong to us. That we’re going to make love to our woman tonight and bind our hearts forever,” Bandit said and pressed a finger to her cunt.
His eyes widened as hers did, and then she locked onto his.
“So wet for us, aren’t you?”
“Yes,” she whispered, and he smiled.
“First a taste.”
She wasn’t sure what he meant as he used his fingers to stroke her pussy, but then he lowered down, and before she could react, he replaced his fingers with his tongue.
She gripped his head and lifted her pelvis.
“Bandit. Oh God, what are you doing?” She panted for air. Then she felt Logan and Breaker caress her hands and then lay her back down and lifted her arms above her head. Bandit widened her thighs as he suckled and licked her pussy and then tugged on her clit, making her moan louder. Logan and Breaker kissed along her inner arms and then down to her breasts as they kept her arms pinned above her head. She wasn’t scared or panicked by their control but, instead, completely turned on and needy.
“Oh please, please,” she begged and then felt Logan and Breaker lick across her nipple and pull hard.
She cried out another orgasm, and Bandit lifted up.
“You ready for me, baby?” he asked her as he stroked his cock.
“Yes,” she told him, still trying to recover from the second orgasm.
Bandit aligned his cock with her pussy and held her gaze.
“You’re ours. All ours to love and care for.” He slid into her slick cunt. She tightened up, and Stack appeared next to him.
“Let him in. Let go and just feel,” Stack told her as she locked gazes with him and then Bandit.
She cried out another release and then did as they said and let go. Bandit slid in deeper and deeper until she felt him fully inside of her.
Logan and Breaker released her arms, and she grabbed on to Breaker as he covered her mouth and kissed her. In a flash she felt so frantic. She raised her thighs higher, wanting, needing Bandit to penetrate her harder and deeper and eliminate any negative feelings or fears from her mind and her body. The bed rocked, and when Breaker released her lips, he was panting and moaning with her.
“So tight and sweet. I’ll never get enough of you. Never,” Bandit professed.
She gripped his waist and held on as Breaker stepped back and Bandit continued to stroke into her faster and faster. “Oh. Oh, Bandit.” She cried out and came again.
“Damn. Damn, baby, I’m there.” He thrust three more times and then grunted as he came inside of her then hugged her to him. She hugged him back and cried as he held her in his arms.
“Don’t cry, baby. Everything is going to be just fine now. You’re so special. So very perfect. I’ll always be here for you. Always.”
They kissed again, and she hugged him tightly until they both calmed their breathing, and Logan began kissing her shoulder and arm.
* * * *
The need to make love to Maggie next was overwhelming. There was this invisible power in the room. A connection, a rightness that Logan just couldn’t explain. As Bandit released her to him, and Maggie smiled at him, Logan couldn’t help but feel relieved and blessed. She would always be their woman and no one else’s.
He maneuvered between her legs and cupped her cheeks.
“Are you okay?” he asked.
She smiled. “Yes, Logan.”
“Can you handle more?”
“Yes.” She smiled.
He leaned down and kissed her deeply, and when she ran her hands along his body and began to lift her hips against his, he knew she was aroused and ready.
He cupped her breasts and then began to feast on them again. Breaker was kissing her neck and shoulder, and now Stack had taken Bandit’s place and was kissing her skin on the other side.
They both began to raise her arms above her head.
“Do you like giving us control of your body?” Stack thought to ask her.
“Yes.”
“Are you sure it doesn’t scare you to give up all control to us, so we can have our wicked way with you?” Breaker asked and then nibbled her ear. She chuckled and squirmed, making Logan’s cock grow thicker.
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