One With You

by Sylvia Day

  “Good.” I headed over to him, kicking off my heels on the way. I figured I should enjoy doing that while I could. I couldn’t picture myself leaving shoes strewn around Gideon’s penthouse. I thought it might drive him a little crazy. And since I was sure there were other things I’d drive him crazy with, it was probably best to pick my vices carefully. “How was yours? Smells like you cooked.”

  “Pizza. Semi-homemade. It’s what Tat was craving.”

  “Who doesn’t crave pizza?” I said, plopping gracelessly onto the couch. “Is she still here?”

  “Nah.” He glanced away from the TV to look at me, his green eyes serious. “She left all pissed off. I told her we wouldn’t be moving in together.”

  “Oh.” To be honest, I didn’t like Tatiana Cherlin. Like Cary, she was a successful model, although she hadn’t yet attained his level of recognition.

  Cary had met her on a job. Their purely sexual relationship had shifted drastically when she’d found out she was pregnant. Unfortunately, she’d discovered she was expecting around the same time Cary found a great guy he wanted to work on a relationship with.

  “Big decision,” I said.

  “And I’m not sure it’s the right one.” He ran a hand over his gorgeous face. “If Trey weren’t in the picture, I’d be doing the right thing by Tat.”

  “Who says you aren’t? Being a good parent doesn’t mean you have to live together. Look at my mom and dad.”

  “Fuck.” He groaned. “I feel like I’m choosing myself over my child, Eva. What does that make me, if not a selfish bastard?”

  “It’s not like you’re cutting her off. I know you’ll be there for her and the baby, just not in that way.” Reaching over, I twirled a lock of his chocolate brown hair around my finger. My best friend had suffered through so much in his life. The twisted way he’d been introduced to sex and love had left him with a lot of baggage and bad habits. “So Trey’s going to stick?”

  “He hasn’t decided.”

  “Did he call you?”

  Cary shook his head. “No. I broke down and called him before he forgot about me altogether.”

  I gave him a little push. “As if that could ever happen. You, Cary Taylor, are utterly unforgettable.”

  “Ha.” He stretched out with a sigh. “He didn’t sound too happy to hear from me. Said he’s still working some stuff out in his head.”

  “Which means he’s thinking about you.”

  “Yeah, thinking he dodged a bullet,” Cary muttered. “He said it was never going to work for us if I was living with Tat, but when I told him I’d fix that, he said that would just make him feel like an asshole for getting in the way. It’s a no-win, but I laid it all out for Tat anyway, because I have to try.”

  “It’s a tough spot to be in.” I couldn’t imagine it myself. “Just try to make the best decisions you can. You have a right to be happy. That’s the best thing for everyone around you, including the baby.”

  “If there is a baby.” His eyes closed. “Tat says she’s not doing this alone. If I’m not going to be there, she doesn’t want to go through with it.”

  “Isn’t it getting a little late for her to say that?” I couldn’t keep the anger out of my voice. Tatiana was a manipulator. It was impossible not to look ahead and see that being a source of misery for an innocent kid.

  “I can’t even think about it, Eva. I lose my shit. It’s all so fucked up.” He huffed out a humorless laugh. “And to think I once said she was easy to deal with. She’s never cared that I’m bisexual, and she didn’t care if I slept around …. Part of me feels good that she cares enough now to want to be exclusive, but I can’t help how I feel about Trey.”

  He turned his troubled gaze away. It tore me up to see him so down.

  “Maybe I should talk to her,” I offered.

  He tilted his head back to look at me. “How is that supposed to help? You two don’t get along.”

  “I’m not a fan,” I admitted. “But I can work around that. A woman-to-woman talk—if it’s done right—could help. It really couldn’t make things worse, right?” I hesitated before saying more. I meant well, but my good intentions did sound naïve.

  He snorted. “There’s always worse.”

  “Way to look on the bright side,” I chastised. “Does Trey know that you talked to Tatiana and she’s not moving in?”

  “I texted him. Got nada back. But I really didn’t expect to.”

  “Give him a little more time.”

  “Eva, at the end of the day, he wishes I were totally gay. In his mind, being bisexual means I have to sleep around. He doesn’t get that just because I’m attracted to men and women doesn’t mean I can’t be faithful to one person. Or maybe he just doesn’t want to get it.”

  I blew out my breath. “I don’t think I helped with that. He brought it up to me once and I didn’t explain things well.”

  That had been eating at me for a while. I needed to reach out to Trey and set that straight. Cary had been in the hospital recovering from a vicious assault when Trey approached me. My mind hadn’t been at its sharpest at the time.

  “You can’t fix everything for me, baby girl.” He rolled over onto his stomach and looked at me. “But I love you so much for trying.”

  “You’re part of me.” I struggled to find the right words. “I need you to be okay, Cary.”

  “I’m working on it.” He scooped his hair back from his face. “I’m taking this weekend in Westport to deal with the possibility that Trey might be out of the mix. I have to be realistic about that.”

  “You be realistic, I’ll be hopeful.”

  “Have fun with that.” He sat up and put his elbows on his knees, his head hanging. “Which brings me back to Tatiana. I guess I am clear about that. We can’t be together. Baby or not, it wouldn’t work for her or me.”

  “I respect that.”

  It was hard not to say more. I would always give my best friend the support and reassurance he needed, but there were some hard lessons to be learned here. Trey, Tatiana, and Cary were all hurting—with a baby on the way to join them—because of Cary’s choices. He pushed those who loved him away with his actions, daring them to stay. It was a test rigged for failure. Facing the consequences might just get him to make a change for the better.

  His grin was wry, one beautiful green eye peeking through the fall of his long bangs. “I can’t pick and choose based on what I’m going to get out of it. Sucks, but hey … I gotta grow up sometime.”

  “Don’t we all?” I gave him an encouraging smile. “I quit my job today.”

  Accepting what I’d done got easier every time I said it aloud.

  “No shit?”

  Looking up at the ceiling, I replied, “No shit.”

  He whistled. “Should I break out the bourbon and some shot glasses?”

  I shuddered. “Ugh. You know I can’t stand bourbon. And really, Cristal and flutes would be more appropriate for my resignation.”

  “Seriously? You want to celebrate?”

  “I don’t need to drown any sorrows, that’s for sure.” I stretched my arms out over my head and let the last of my tension go. “I’ve been thinking about it all day, though.”

  “And?”

  “I’m good. Maybe if Mark had taken the news differently, I’d have second thoughts, but he’s leaving, too, and he’s been there way longer than the three months I’ve been there. It wouldn’t make sense for me to be more upset about moving on than he is.”

  “Baby girl, things don’t have to make sense to be true.” Grabbing the remote, he turned the speaker volume down.

  “You’re right, but I found Gideon at the same time I started at Waters Field and Leaman. Practically speaking, there’s no comparison between a job you’ve had three months and a husband you’re going to spend the rest of your life with.”

  He shot me a look. “You went from sensible to practical. This just keeps getting worse.”

  “Oh, shut up.” Cary never let me get aw
ay with the easy explanation. Since I was often good at deluding myself, his no-bullshit policy was a mirror I needed.

  My smile faded. “I want more.”

  “More what?”

  “More of everything.” I looked his way again. “Gideon’s got this presence, you know? When he walks into a room, everyone straightens up and pays attention. I want that.”

  “You married that. You get it de facto with the name and the bank balance.”

  I sat up. “I want it because I’ve earned it, Cary. Geoffrey Cross left behind a lot of people who want some payback from his son. And Gideon’s made his own enemies, like the Lucases.”

  “The who?”

  I wrinkled my nose. “The bat-shit Anne Lucas and her equally insane husband.” Then it hit me. “Oh my God, Cary! I didn’t tell you. About the redhead you messed around with at that dinner a few weeks back. That was Anne Lucas.”

  “What the hell are you talking about?”

  “Remember when I asked you to run a search on Dr. Terrence Lucas? Anne is his wife.”

  Cary’s confusion was obvious.

  I couldn’t go into how Terry Lucas had examined Gideon as a child and lied about finding signs of sexual trauma. He’d done so in order to shield his brother-in-law, Hugh, from prosecution. I would never understand how he could do that, no matter how much he loved his wife. As for Anne, Gideon had slept with her to get back at her husband, but her physical resemblance to her brother had led to sexual depravity that haunted Gideon. He’d punished Anne for the sins of her brother, leaving both himself and her mentally warped in the process.

  That left Gideon and me with two very vicious enemies to contend with.

  I explained as much as I could. “The Lucases have this whole twisted history thing with Gideon that I can’t get into, but it’s no coincidence that you two ended up together that night. She planned it that way.”

  “Why?”

  “Because she’s nuts and she knows it’ll fuck with my head.”

  “Why the hell would you care who I tangle with?”

  “Cary … I always care.” I heard my mobile phone start ringing. The “Hanging by a Moment” ring tone told me it was my husband calling. I stood. “But in this case, it’s the calculation behind it. You weren’t just some random hot fling. She targeted you specifically because you’re my best friend.”

  “I’m not seeing how that accomplishes anything.”

  “It’s flipping the bird at Gideon. Getting his attention is what she wants more than anything.”

  Cary arched a brow. “The whole thing sounds loopy, but whatever. I ran into her again not too long ago.”

  “What? When?”

  “Last week, maybe.” He shrugged. “I’d just wrapped up a shoot and my Uber was waiting outside the studio. She was stepping out of a café with a girlfriend at the same time. It was totally out of the blue.”

  I shook my head. My phone stopped ringing. “No way. Did she say anything to you?”

  “Sure. She kinda flirted a little, which isn’t surprising considering the last time we saw each other. I shut her down, told her I was working on a relationship. She was cool about it. Wished me luck, said thanks again for a fun time. She took off down the street. End of story.”

  My phone started ringing again. “If you ever see her, walk the other way and call me. Okay?”

  “O-kay, but you’re not telling me enough for this to make any sense.”

  “Let me talk with Gideon.” I hurried toward my phone and answered it. “Hey.”

  “Were you in the shower?” Gideon purred. “Are you naked and wet, angel?”

  “Oh, God. Hang on a minute.” I dropped the phone to my shoulder and walked back to Cary. “Was she wearing a wig when you saw her?”

  Cary’s brows shot up. “How the hell would I know?”

  “Was it long like when you first met her?”

  “Yeah. Same.”

  I nodded grimly. Anne wore her hair cropped and I’d never seen a picture of her otherwise. She’d worn a wig when she pursued Cary at the dinner, which had thrown me off and hidden her from Gideon.

  Maybe it was a new style for her.

  Or maybe it was another indication that she had special plans when it came to Cary.

  I put the phone to my ear. “I need you to come back over, Gideon. And bring Angus up with you.”

  Something in my tone must have relayed my concern, because Gideon showed up with both Angus and Raúl. I opened the door and found the three men filling the hallway, my husband front and center, with both bodyguards flanking him. To call the sight of them intense would be an understatement.

  Gideon had loosened his tie and unbuttoned his collar and vest but was otherwise dressed as he’d been when we parted earlier. The slight dishevelment was sexy as hell, sending an instant tingle of arousal through my blood. It was a temptation, an enticement for me to finish taking off those expensive, elegant layers and reveal the powerful, primal male underneath. As smoking hot as Gideon was with clothes on, there was nothing like the sight of him purely nude.

  My gaze locked with Gideon’s and gave me away. One darkly winged brow arched upward, and the corner of his mouth lifted in amusement.

  “Hello to you, too,” he teased, in reply to my heated look.

  The two men behind him stood in contrast with their bespoke but starkly basic black suits, white shirts, and unembellished black ties all perfectly arranged.

  I’d never really noticed before how superfluous Angus and Raúl appeared when standing beside Gideon, a man who could clearly manage a hand-to-hand confrontation without any help.

  Raúl stood stone-faced, as per his usual. Angus, too, was stoic, but the mischievous glance he sent my way told me he’d caught me eye-fucking his boss.

  I felt my face get hot.

  Stepping back and out of the way, I let them in. Angus and Raúl headed into the living room where Cary waited. Gideon hung back with me as I shut the door.

  “You’re giving me that look, angel, but you wanted Angus with me. Explain.”

  That made me laugh, which was just what I needed to break the tension. “How can I help it when it looks like you were stripping when I called you?”

  “I can finish here.”

  “You realize I may have to burn all your clothes after the wedding. You should always be naked.”

  “Would make for interesting meetings at work.”

  “Umm … maybe not, then. For my eyes only and all that.” I leaned into the door and took a deep breath. “Anne’s made contact with Cary since the dinner.”

  All the warmth and lightness left Gideon’s eyes, replaced by a chill that warned of bad things ahead.

  He started toward the living room. I raced to catch up, linking our hands to remind him that we were in this together. I knew it was a concept that was going to take some getting used to. Gideon had been standing alone for so long, fighting his own battles and those of the people he loved.

  Taking a seat on the coffee table, he faced Cary and said, “Tell me what you told Eva.”

  Gideon looked ready to tackle Wall Street while Cary looked ready to tackle a nap, but that didn’t seem to impact my husband at all.

  Cary ran through it all again, his gaze darting occasionally toward Angus and Raúl, who stood nearby. “That’s it,” he finished. “No offense, guys, but you seem like a lot of muscle for a redhead who’s maybe a hundred twenty pounds soaking wet.”

  I would’ve pegged Anne at a hundred thirty, but that was neither here nor there. “Better safe than sorry,” I said.

  He shot me a look. “What can she do? Seriously. What’s everyone all anxious about?”

  Gideon shifted restlessly. “We had an … affair. That’s not the right word. It wasn’t pretty.”

  “You fucked her,” Cary said bluntly. “I figured that much.”

  “Fucked her over,” I elaborated, stepping closer so I could rest my hand on Gideon’s shoulder. I supported my husband, even though I couldn’
t condone what he’d done. And truthfully, the part of me that was obsessed with Gideon pitied Anne. There had been times when I believed I’d lost Gideon forever, and I had gone a little crazy myself.

  Still, she was dangerous in a way I could never be, and that danger was directed at people I loved. “She’s not taking it well that he’s with me.”

  “What? Are we talking Fatal Attraction–type stuff ?”

  “Well, she’s a psychologist, so Fatal Attraction meets Basic Instinct would be more accurate. It’s a Michael Douglas marathon wrapped up in one woman.”

  “Don’t joke, Eva,” Gideon said tightly.

  “Who’s joking?” I shot back. “Cary saw her in that long wig she wore to the dinner. I’m thinking she wanted him to recognize her so they could chat.”

  Cary snorted. “So she’s crazy town. What do you want me to do? Let you know if I run into her again?”

  “I want a protection detail on you,” I said.

  Gideon nodded. “Agreed.”

  “Wow.” Cary rubbed at the five o’clock shadow on his jaw. “You guys are hard-core about this.”

  “You’ve got enough going on,” I reminded him. “If she’s got an agenda, you don’t need to deal with it.”

  His lips twisted wryly. “Can’t argue with that.”

  “We’ll take care of it,” Angus said. Raúl nodded, and then both men headed downstairs.

  Gideon stayed behind.

  Cary looked back and forth between us, then stood. “I don’t think you two need me anymore, so I’m hitting it. I’ll catch you in the morning,” he said to me, before sauntering down the hall to his bedroom.

  “Are you worried?” I asked Gideon when we were alone.

  “You are. That’s enough.”

  I took the spot on the sofa directly across from him. “It’s not so much worry. More like curiosity. What does she think she can accomplish through Cary?”

  Gideon exhaled wearily. “She’s playing head games, Eva. That’s all.”