The Beach

by Alex Garland

  ‘Have good dreams,’ I said, maybe too quietly for him to hear.

  I pegged the tent-flap open behind me as I left. I wanted to keep Jed from breathing too much of that dying air.

  FNG, KIA

  Fuckin’ A

  Bugs and Keaty left just after five thirty. Sal gave me my instructions at a quarter to six.

  I liked being up while everyone else was asleep. I almost always was, since I’d started working up on the island, but usually there were a few signs of stirring: a spot of movement in one of the tents or someone padding their way across the clearing to the Khyber Pass. That morning the camp was as still and quiet and cool as it could ever be. It made everything more exciting. While I talked with Sal and Jed outside the hospital tent, I was so keyed up for the day ahead that I had to keep hopping from one foot to the other. I could tell it was pissing Sal off but I couldn’t stop myself. If I hadn’t channelled my energy somewhere I’d have started shouting or running around in little circles.

  Sal and Jed were arguing. They both agreed that I should head into the DMZ and track Zeph and Sammy’s progress across the island. The disagreement was over the interception point. Sal said not until they reached the top of the waterfall, putting some faith in the obstacle course. Jed said earlier, as early as possible, although he seemed reluctant to explain why. Personally, I was siding with Sal, although I kept my mouth shut.

  Interception point aside, they both agreed on what to do next. I was to tell the rafters that they weren’t welcome and that they should leave at once. That failing, I was to keep them from descending the waterfall. Any way I saw fit to delay them was acceptable, in Sal’s words. If necessary I would stay up there with them, missing Tet. It could be explained to the rest of the beach later. Nothing was more important than making sure they didn’t arrive at camp until Christo was dead. After that, we would work out whether to let them down or keep them out.

  By the way Sal was talking, I was sure she had a fall-back plan that she wasn’t telling us. I knew the way her head worked and she wasn’t the type to say, ‘We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.’ Especially with something so important. The thing I particularly didn’t understand was the idea of turning Zeph and Sammy’s group back. If we got to the point where I was forced to intercept them, turning them back seemed as problematic as letting them stay. You could as good as guarantee they would talk about what they’d found back on Ko Pha-Ngan or Ko Samui, and we’d have lost our secret status.

  If it had been anyone else but Sal, I’d have pointed this out, but with her I didn’t feel it was worth bothering. I felt sure that if I’d been able to think of it, she would have too. I don’t think I remember her asking my opinion about anything, unless it was to lead me into something by making it seem like my idea. Come to think of it, I don’t remember her asking anyone’s opinion. Not even Bugs’.

  If it needs saying, the argument about the interception point was eventually won by Sal. A big surprise. I honestly don’t know why Jed even tried.

  Mister Duck was waiting for me at the pass. He was dressed in full combat fatigues with an M16 over his shoulder and his face all painted up with green and black camouflage stripes.

  ‘What’s with the gun?’ I said when I saw him.

  ‘Just making sure I fit the bill,’ he replied flatly.

  ‘Does it work?’

  ‘Works for me.’

  ‘Guess that’s a yes…’I walked past him so I could see down the pass to the DMZ. ‘So how you feeling? Nervous?’

  ‘I feel good. I feel ready.’

  ‘Ready for the recon?’

  ‘Well…’ He smiled. ‘Just ready, that’s all.’

  ‘Just ready,’ I muttered. I always felt suspicious of his lopsided grin. ‘Daffy, there’d better not be something going on here that I don’t know about.’

  ‘Mmm.’

  ‘Mmm what?’

  ‘Mmm let’s get going.’

  ‘I’m serious. Don’t start any of your shit. Not today.’

  ‘Time is ticking, Rich. We’ve got an RV to keep.’

  I hesitated, then nodded. ‘OK… If you’re all set.’

  ‘All set.’

  ‘Then let’s do it.’

  ‘Fuckin’ A.’

  Their Big Mistake

  By setting off so early, I was hoping that Zeph and Sammy would still be with their raft. Finding them would be a lot harder if they’d already entered the jungle. I was also trusting that they’d have landed on the same stretch of beach where Étienne, Françoise and I had first come ashore. I was fairly confident that they would have, but you never knew. They might have tried to circle the island, not realizing they’d passed the only open stretch of sand. Either way, the more time I gave myself to play with the better.

  At least dodging the guards wasn’t a problem. They were dozy enough at the best of times, but at seven a.m. they’d definitely still be sleeping off their dope hangovers. In a way, my biggest problem was Mister Duck. He was badly out of shape, wheezing like an old coalminer, frequently pausing to lean against trees and catch his breath. I tried to tell myself that his ghostly status made it unlikely that anyone else could hear him, but all the same, each time he barked a swear-word my heart would miss a beat. I’d turn and glare at him, and he’d raise his hands apologetically. ‘Sorry,’ he muttered after a stream of abuse at a razor-leaf thicket. ‘I’m not as good at jungle warfare as I’d imagined.’ A few minutes later he tripped and fell on his gun, letting off a round into the bushes. He didn’t have his safety-catch on, the idiot, and he’d been walking with his finger on the trigger. After that we decided the gun was more trouble than it was worth – seeing as it couldn’t kill anything real – and we left it hidden in the undergrowth.

  About thirty metres before the tree-line along the beach, I made him wait behind. Even though I was sure that no one else could see or hear him, he distracted me. If I wanted to get close to the rafting group, I couldn’t afford to be compromised.

  Unexpectedly – though clearly hurt – he took it in good grace.

  ‘I understand, Richie,’ he said gamely. ‘You hate me.’

  ‘I don’t hate you,’ I sighed. ‘But like I said, this is serious.’

  ‘I know, I know. You go ahead. Anyway…’ His eyes became slits and flicked to the side. ‘In my experience these types of jobs are one-man affairs.’

  ‘Exactly.’

  I left him under a coconut tree, using a serrated bowie knife to pick the dirt from under his nails.

  The early-morning effort paid off. The rafters were still on the beach.

  Even though I’d been watching them for months, it was a shock to see the group close up. It confirmed that it actually was Zeph and Sammy we’d been watching; that our assumption had been correct and that the blame for their presence could only come down to me. It was also curious because I’d been anticipating this moment for what seemed like ages, but the reality of their presence left me feeling cold. I’d anticipated something more dramatic than the bedraggled figures who sat huddled around their raft. Something a lot more sinister, considering that – as outsiders – they represented a threat to the secrecy of the camp and a threat to me. I still hadn’t worked out what I was going to say to Sal about the map. I didn’t have the nerve to countermand her orders, so I just had to rely on the island’s obstacle course. That failing, my only hope was that I could explain the situation to Zeph and Sammy while I kept them delayed above the waterfall.

  From my spy point – about twenty metres from where they sat, lying flat under the shelter of some ferns – I could see only four of them. The fifth was obscured behind their raft. Of the two visible Germans, one was a boy and one was a girl. With some satisfaction, I saw that the girl was pretty but not as pretty as Françoise. No one on the beach was as pretty as Françoise and I didn’t want her usurped by a stranger. The girl would have been prettier if it weren’t for her nose, which was tiny and turned-up so she looked like a tanned skull. The guy,
however, was a different matter. Even though he was clearly exhausted, weakly hauling his (pink-pastel) backpack off the raft, he had the same build and appearance as Bugs. They could have been brothers, even down to the long hair which he kept having to flick out of his eyes. I took a comfortably instant dislike to him.

  Eventually the fifth popped up to finish off the team. Another girl, and annoyingly, I was unable to find anything to hold against her. She was short and curvy, and she had an attractive quiet laugh that rolled cleanly across the sand to where I lay. She also had very long brown hair that at one point, for a reason I couldn’t fathom, she wrapped around her neck like a scarf. It was a surreal sight, and it made me smile, until I remembered I should be scowling.

  I was mildly put out that the rafters didn’t make the same mistake as I had with Étienne and Françoise – walking to each end of the arrival beach before realizing that the only way to get around the island was to go across it. But this was more than compensated by another, far more serious, mistake they made.

  Actually, I knew they were about to make the mistake even before it had happened. Firstly, they hadn’t properly hidden their raft – only dragging it up beyond the high-tide mark – and secondly, they chatted loudly as they walked. In German, I noticed with grudging respect. (Grudging respect for Zeph and Sammy rather than the Germans, obviously.) To me, this clearly suggested one thing: they were entirely unaware of any need for caution. Mister Duck, who had rejoined me when the group turned inland, noticed it too.

  ‘Not very perceptive,’ he said, just under an hour into the trek.

  I nodded, putting a warning finger to my lips. I didn’t want to talk because we were following them so closely. Not closely enough to see them through the thick foliage, but always close enough to hear.

  ‘If they carry on like that they’ll get caught,’ he continued, undeterred.

  I nodded.

  ‘Maybe you should do something, don’t you think?’

  ‘No,’ I whispered. ‘Now shut up.’

  I was a bit perplexed by Mister Duck’s concern, but no more than that. The next time he opened his mouth I put the warning finger to his lips instead of mine, and he got the message.

  So anyway. That was the rafters’ big mistake, not being very perceptive. When they came to the first plateau, not one of them realized they were in a field.

  I Know Abou’ Tha’

  Sammy whooped, just as he’d whooped six months ago, running through the rain on Ko Samui. And he shouted, ‘This is way outa fuckin’ line, man! I’ve never seen so much fuckin’ weed! This is more weed than I’ve ever fuckin’ seen!’ Then he started ripping up big handfuls of leaves and throwing them in the air, and the other four started whooping and throwing leaves in the air too. They looked like million-dollar bank-robbers throwing their loot around. Completely out of control. Completely dead meat. It was ten a.m. The guards would have been patrolling for two hours at least, and if they hadn’t heard them crashing through the jungle, they’d heard them now.

  By a twist of fate, nothing intentional about it, Mister Duck and I were hiding in the same bush that I’d hidden in with Étienne and Françoise. It certainly gave the scene an extra edge. Watching Zeph and Sammy was like watching myself – what could have come to pass six months ago if not for Étienne’s cool head – and I felt a peculiarly vivid blast of empathy for Scrooge. Perhaps Mister Duck is my Ghost of Christmas Future, I remember thinking, as my stomach knotted with the memories of my fear. But I was also buzzing. It looked like the problem with our uninvited guests was about to be solved, and as if that wasn’t enough, I was also going to find out what happened when the dope guards caught someone. Better than that, I was actually going to see it.

  Not that I’d want anyone thinking I was without pity for them. I didn’t want Zeph and Sammy on the island and I knew it would be convenient if they were to disappear, but it didn’t have to be this way. Ideal scenario: they arrived, I had a couple of days tracking them as they found their way across the island, then they gave up at the waterfall and went back home. I would have had my fun, and there’d have been no spilt tears and no spilt blood.

  Zeph bled like a stuck pig. When the guards had appeared, he’d begun walking straight over towards them like they were old friends. To my mind an inexplicable thing to do, but that’s what he did. He still hadn’t seemed to realize what was going on, even though the guards all had their guns off their shoulders and were jabbering in Thai. Maybe he thought they were part of the Eden community, or maybe he was so shocked that he just didn’t click how much trouble he was in. Either way, as soon as he got close, one of the guards smashed him in the face with the butt of his rifle. I wasn’t surprised. The guard looked very nervous, and just as confused by Zeph’s strange behaviour as me.

  After that there were a few seconds of silent staring across the heads of the dope plants, Zeph taking little backward steps as he cupped the blood spilling out of his nose. It seemed as if each of the two groups was as bewildered as the other. The rafters were having to make a considerable mental adjustment, Eden to Hell in the space of a few seconds. The dope guards seemed stunned that anyone could be so stupid as to walk into their plantation and start ripping it to pieces.

  It occurred to me, during this brief interlude, that most of the guards were more like country boys than experienced mercenaries, with scars from sharp corals rather than from knife fights. A bit like the real VC. But I’m sure these observations would have been of small interest to Zeph and Sammy, and in this case I think it made the guards more dangerous than they might otherwise have been. Maybe someone more experienced wouldn’t have panicked and smashed Zeph’s face in. Isn’t there a saying: the only thing more dangerous than a man with a gun is a nervous man with a gun? If there isn’t, there should be. Once the short period of staring was over, the guards flipped. I read it as a panicky reaction to the situation. They just waded in and began beating the shit out of what were now their uninvited guests, and not mine.

  I suppose they might have been battered to death right there and then, but just as I was beginning to feel that the scene was getting too unpleasant to watch, another bunch of guards arrived, and this lot appeared to have a boss. I’d never seen him before. He was older than the others and had no automatic rifle – only a pistol, still in its holster. Traditionally a mark of power amongst gunmen. One word from him and the beating stopped.

  Beside me, Mister Duck reached over and clutched my arm. ‘Rich, I think they’re going to be killed.’

  I frowned at him and mouthed, ‘Quiet.’

  ‘No, listen,’ he persisted. ‘I don’t want them killed.’

  This time I shut him up not just with my finger but my whole hand. The guards’ boss had started talking.

  He spoke in English. Not flawlessly by any means. Not like a Nazi POW camp commandant who appreciates English poetry and says to his prisoners, ‘You know, we are much alike, you and I.’ But good enough.

  ‘Who are you?’ he said, very loud and clear.

  A deceptively tricky question. What do you say? Do you formally introduce yourself, do you say ‘no one’, do you beg for your life? I thought Sammy handled it very well, considering he’d just had his front teeth knocked out.

  ‘We’re travellers from Ko Pha-Ngan,’ he replied between tight gasps for air, involuntarily dribbling as he spoke. ‘We were looking for some other travellers. We made a mistake. We didn’t know this was your island.’

  The boss nodded, not unkindly. ‘Ve’y big mistake.’

  ‘Please, we’re very…’ Gasp. ‘Sorry.’

  ‘You alone now? Any frien’ here now?’

  ‘We’re alone. We were looking for a friend. We thought he was here, and we know we made a mist…’

  ‘Why you look for frien’ here?’

  ‘Our friend gave us a map.’

  The boss cocked his head to the side. ‘Wha’ map?’

  ‘I can sh…’

  ‘You can show me tha’ map. La
’er.’

  ‘Please. We’re very sorry.’

  ‘Yes. I know abou’ you bein’ sorry.’

  ‘We’d like to go. We could leave your island now and we wouldn’t tell anyone about anything.’

  ‘Yes. You tell no one. I know abou’ tha’.’

  Sammy tried to smile. All his remaining teeth were bright red. ‘Will you let us go? Please?’

  ‘Ah.’ The boss smiled back. ‘You can go.’

  ‘… We can go?’

  ‘Yes.’

  ‘Thank you.’ With an effort, Sammy raised himself on to his knees. ‘Sir, thank you. I promise you, we won’t tell any…’

  ‘You can go wit’ us.’

  ‘… With you?’

  ‘You go wit’ us now.’

  ‘No,’ Sammy began to protest. ‘Please, wait, we made a mistake! We’re very sorry! We won’t tell anyone!’

  One of the German guys started to get up, holding his arms in the air. ‘We will not speak!’ he blurted. ‘We will not speak!’

  The boss gazed at the German impassively, then spoke quickly to the guards. Three of them moved forward and tried to lift Zeph by the arms. He began to struggle. Another guard stepped forward and jabbed the barrel of his rifle into Zeph’s stomach.

  ‘Richard,’ said Mister Duck, who had squirmed from under my grip. ‘Listen to me. They’re definitely going to be killed.’

  I took no notice.

  ‘Do something, Richard.’

  Again I didn’t respond, and this time he poked me hard in the ribs with his finger. Luckily, my yelp was drowned out by the sounds of the rafters screaming.

  ‘Jesus fucking Christ!’ I whispered incredulously. ‘What’s your problem?’

  ‘Do something to help them!’

  ‘Like what?’

  ‘Like…’ He considered this question whilst over in the field the guards piled on to the German girl. She’d tried to run away and been brought down after only a couple of stumbling metres. ‘I don’t know!’