Pain Management
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“What happened?” she asked.
“That was the other one.”
“He was going to—?”
“Kill you? Yeah. That’s what the fucking gun was for.”
“B.B., take it easy, okay? I’m all right. He didn’t—”
“This piece—the one I used—it has to go. Quick. We get stopped with it in the car, I’m done.”
“But you were just protecting me!” she said, as if reading my mind back when I stood over the kid’s body.
“That’s a law-school thing. Maybe even a courtroom thing. But with my record, even if I eventually walked, I’d be no-bailed for months, maybe years. And by then, people would know who I am.”
“Who you really are, you mean.”
“That’s right. Now, just go where I tell you.”
“¿Qué pasa?” Gordo asked me, as if walking into the garage at one in the morning was the most normal thing in the world.
“I need to borrow some tools.”
“What for, man? You ain’t no mechanic. Just bring whatever you got in here and we’ll—”
“It’s not a car. And it doesn’t need fixing; it needs destroying. Better you don’t see what it is, okay?”
He gave me a long look. “This . . . thing, it’s, like, metal, right?”
“Sure.”
“Not another . . . ?”
“No.”
“¿Cuánto?”
“Just the one,” I told him.
“I know this guy,” he said. “He’s got his own junkyard. Works a car-crusher there.”
“It has to be now, Gordo.”
“Sí. Just go and get it, compadre. Take me ten, fifteen minutes. Take you hours. I do it perfect. You do it, maybe not so good. Just go and get it.”
The unrecognizable pile of metallic filings and shavings and chips made a gentle rattling sound when Gordo shook the clear plastic box that held them. “Like a maraca, huh?” He laughed.
I pointed to Gordo and Flacco, separately. Bowed slightly. Said, “Obligado.” And walked out of the garage.
Ann was still in the front seat of her Subaru, but now she was dressed casual, in a pale-blue pullover and jeans.
“Where to?” she asked me.
“You’ve got all kinds of medical stuff, right?”
“Sure.”
“Got sulfuric acid?” I asked.
In the shadows of one of the bridges, just before a steel-gray dawn broke, I poured all that was left of the pistol out of a big glass jar into the Columbia River. We’d kept the news on the radio, but either the kid’s body was still in that vacant lot, or he hadn’t been important enough to crack the airwaves.
I went back to the apartment Ann used as a hideout. She said she wanted a shower. I wanted about four of them, but I told her to go first.
The next thing I remembered was waking up. It was late afternoon. I’d never had that shower, but I was stripped, laying across the bed, a soft, warm blanket across my back.
Ann.
I could say I was half asleep. I could say she started it. I could say I was still heavy-blooded with the killing in that vacant lot. And it would all be true.
But not the truth.
She ended up on her back, her face in my neck, not even trying to match her own counterthrusts with mine, just getting there. It didn’t matter who I was, maybe—she never called my name. When I felt her teeth part on my neck, I slipped my shoulder so she lost her grip. She reached out with one hand, grabbed a pillow, stuffed the end of it into her mouth, and bucked under me until she let go.
By the time I finished, she was already going slack. I felt as if I’d lost a sprint.
“Do you want a smoke?” she asked me, later.
“Huh?”
“A cigarette. Some people like to smoke after . . .”
“You read that in a book?”
“Look,” she said, propping herself up on one elbow, “I’m not a hooker, you already figured that out. But I’m not a virgin, either.”
“It doesn’t matter.”
“Which?”
“Either.”
“Did I do something wrong?”
“No,” I told her. “Not you.”
Later, when I was in the shower, my back to the spray, she parted the curtain and climbed into the tub, facing me. “This is the perfect place,” she said into my ear.
I didn’t say anything.
“I never tried to swallow before. I don’t know if I can. And if I can’t, it’ll all just wash right off. . . .”
When she carefully got down on her knees, I wasn’t half asleep. Turned out she couldn’t swallow it all. And that she was right about it not mattering.
But not the way she meant it.
When I got back to the loft, it was empty. But my note was missing. In its place, a piece of heavy red paper, folded origami-style to make a cradle for a single fortune cookie. Chinese inside Japanese—Gem’s idea of a joke? She once told me how the Vietnamese soldiers finally stopped the Cambodian mass-murderers, who supposedly took their ideology from the Chinese, who still hated the Japanese. . . . I remembered how she laughed bitterly when anyone used terms like “pan-Asian” to her face. I picked up the fortune cookie. It was weightless in my palm. I made a tight fist, crushed it to dust.
A tiny piece of paper was left when I opened my hand. Hand-lettered, in all caps:
It wasn’t like Gem to be cryptic. Mysterious, sure; but not mystical. This read like one of those sayings that took meaning only from interpretation . . . like the Bible. It sounded like a caution. But, for some reason I couldn’t pin down, it felt like a threat.
I stayed around long enough to take another shower, shave, change my clothes. I didn’t know what to do with all the laundry I’d accumulated during the past few days, but somehow I knew, if I handled it myself, that would be the end of everything with Gem.
If it wasn’t already.
Kruger didn’t put us through any elaborate ceremony this time. No sooner had we walked in the club than one of his girls came over and ushered us to his table.
When Ann started to slide into the booth like she had before, Kruger shook his head no. At the same time, he rapped twice on the tabletop with his two-finger ring. All the girls in the booth with him got up as if they’d been jerked by puppeteers.
Kruger rolled his head on his neck, like a fighter getting ready to come out for the first round. But it had nothing to do with getting out the kinks. His eyes swept the place, making sure everyone got the message: we wanted to be alone.
“You do good work,” he said.
“I keep my word,” I answered. Not acknowledging, reminding.
“Names help you, or you just want what they said?”
“Everything for everything.”
“Yes. Only I never asked for ‘everything,’ remember?”
“I don’t remember you asking for anything.”
He eye-measured me for a few seconds. Nodded to himself, as if confirming his own diagnosis. “G-men. Partners. Longtime, from the way they were with each other, you know what I mean?”
“Yeah.”
“Chambliss and Underhill. Salt and pepper.”
“Not new boys?”
“Not close. These guys had a lot of miles on their clocks. Very soft-shoe.”
“And they wanted?”
“What you figured. This girl. The runaway. Rosebud Carpin. They had photos. Good ones, recent.”
“And they thought you had her?”
“No, man. Even the feds know I don’t go near that kind of thing. What they wanted was . . . what you wanted. Keep an eye out; pull their coat if I got a line on her.”
“Just that?”
“Well, they sort of implied they’d be real grateful if I could put some . . . personnel on the matter as well.”
“How’d they come on? Muscle or grease?”
“Wasn’t a single threat between the two of them, man. Just how much they’d, you know, appreciate it if I could be of assistan
ce. Like I told you, all soft-shoe. Nice little shuffle. ‘Even the most astute businessman can find himself in delicate situations occasionally, sir, especially with agencies such as the IRS. I am quite confident you would find it to your advantage to have certain, shall we say, references, should such a situation effectuate.’ “
He had a gift for imitation; I felt like I was listening to the G-men themselves. “You took them seriously, right?”
“As a punctured lung,” he said solemnly. “And I’ve got people looking. Okay, that square us?”
“No,” I said, watching his eyes.
“I’m not following you, Mr. Hazard. I already told you everything they—”
“What would square us,” I said, very soft, “is if you were to call me first. Not a lot first, just a little head start, understand? You get information, you sit on it just long enough to call me, then you go ahead and do what you have to do.”
“But if she’s not there when they go looking, how much of a favor did I really do them, then?”
“They’re pros. They’ll know she was wherever you said she was, just jumped out a little before they closed in, that’s all. They’ll be grateful.” I paused a long few seconds. “I’ll be, too. Everybody wins.”
He took a little sip from a tall glass with some colorless liquid and ice in it. Maybe water. Maybe vodka. Couldn’t tell from any expression on his face.
“A little while ago,” he said, “a young man was brought into the ER. Got in some weird accident. Chopped off the tips of a couple of his fingers. Must have happened when he fell down that flight of steps, busted his face all to pieces. He’s never going to walk without a limp, either.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah. They didn’t buy his story in the ER, especially when they ran a blood tox and found he’d been blasted with some primo horse before he got dropped off. Whoever shot him up knew exactly what they were doing—he was feeling no pain, but he was coherent enough to stay with his story. So the ER called the cops. But this guy, he wasn’t saying anything. Ex-con, you know what they can be like.”
“I’ve heard.”
“What I heard was that his street name was something like . . . Blaze, I think. Looked like someone tried to put out his fire.”
“Or just made it hard for him to strike any matches himself.”
“There’s that,” he acknowledged, saluting me with his glass of whatever. “Anyway, whoever was shaking down the night girls, that all stopped.”
“And that’s good, right?”
“It is. Should be sweet out there now. Only . . .”
“What?”
“Only there was a shooting right on one of the strolls. Pretty unusual. I mean, around here, you can’t buy dope and pussy on the same corner. It’s just not done, you understand? If it wasn’t about dope, had to be gangbangers. The guy who got smoked, he was a black dude, so the cops, I guess they’re satisfied.”
“Why tell me?”
“Just making conversation. This black guy, he looked young, the way I’m told. Only, turns out he was thirty-four. Too old to be banging. And he sure wasn’t an OG. Not local, either—they had to get their info from his prints.”
“Doesn’t sound like he was Joe Citizen, either.”
“True. Very true. Anyway, the cops aren’t as dumb as they act. Some of them, anyway. Whoever took this boy off the count, they knew what they were doing. Heavy caliber. Close range. Nothing like a drive-by. And nobody saw a thing. Must have been a professional hit man. You know, the kind who’d know enough to make the gun disappear after he used it.”
“Who cares?”
“Sure. Anyway, Mr. Hazard, let me ask you something, all right? You know the difference between a crazy man and a professional?”
“There’s lots of differences.”
“Not really. The big difference is, the crazy man, he doesn’t have a sane reason for what he does. It may be a sane thing he’s doing, you understand. But where he comes up short is on the reason, you following me?”
“Sure. Like what the papers call a ‘senseless crime.’ “
“Exactly. So—what I want to know from you . . . You want a phone call from me, maybe. I mean, if I hear anything.”
“That’s right.”
“Don’t be impatient, now. Here’s what I want to know: Are you saying, if I did you this favor, maybe you’d do one for me? Professionally. Or are you saying, if I don’t, maybe you’d do something to me? Like a crazy man would.”
“You know what’s funny about senseless crimes?” I asked him, mild-voiced.
“What’s that?” he said, shifting his posture slightly.
“They only have to make sense to the people doing them.”
I never looked back. Ann caught up to me just as I got to the door of the club. No one gave us a glance on the way out.
“What happened?” she asked when we were a couple of blocks away.
“Nothing. And that’s what all this was worth. Nothing.”
“Kruger didn’t—?”
“I think he told me what he knows. I even think he told me the truth. But it doesn’t add up to anything I can use. Doesn’t put me any closer.”
“Are you mad at me?”
“No. It wasn’t your fault. I’ve bet on the wrong horse before.”
“What do we do now?”
“There’s no ‘we,’ Ann. Just me,” I said, an acid rain of sadness falling inside me as I realized just how purely fucking true that was.
Whatever nothing I am in this world, I’m even less of it without my family.
She dropped me off where I had the ’Vette stashed, still arguing about me helping her with her crazy plans. I had her tuned out way before I got out of her car.
I sat in the driver’s seat, alone.
If I wanted a new piece, I’d have to see Gem.
I didn’t want to see her.
No, I did want to see her. I just didn’t want her to see me.
Hong’s Acura was parked in its usual spot. I stepped inside, prepared to see him sitting with Gem. Prepared to fade if I did.
What I wasn’t prepared for was to see them dancing. Slow and close. Santo and Johnny’s “Sleepwalk” coming out of the jukebox.
I went back to being with myself.
I was cradling the cell phone, deciding whether to call Mama, when it chirped for “incoming.”
“What?” It was almost two in the morning.
“You know who this is?” Jenn’s father asked.
“Yes.”
“Come on over,” is all he said before he snipped the connection.
They were all in the living room. Joel in his chair, Jenn perched confidently on the couch, Mike standing with his hands behind his back.
“Would you like some coffee?” a woman asked, stepping into the room like it was midday. She was short and trim, dark-haired, with a face I could tell was usually pretty . . . but now it was all focused on her children. She had cave-mother eyes.
“No, thank you,” I said, politely.
“I’d like some,” Michael said.
I knew she was his mother by the look she gave him.
“Jenn has something she wants to talk over with you,” Joel said. “And she said she’d feel more comfortable if we were all together when she did. That all right with you?”
“Of course,” I said, side-stepping the warning.
“Rosa called me,” Jenn said, no preamble.
I just watched her, waiting.
“It’s up to you, honey,” her father finally said.
“She wants . . .” Jenn started, then stopped herself.
I went back to waiting.
“What Rosa wants, it’s . . . complicated. And I’m not sure it would even be legal.”
“I’m not a lawyer,” I told her, aiming the words at her father, who’d translate them immediately.
“Rosa’s . . . tired of all this,” Jenn said. “She wants it all to stop.”
“All she has to do is—”
“You mean, like an emancipated minor?” I asked, remembering what I’d said to Rosebud’s father. It seemed like months ago.
“What’s that?”
“It would mean she was an adult, for all legal purposes,” Joel answered her.
“Could that truly be? Even though she’s only—?”
“That would depend,” her father cautioned her.
“Oh. Well, maybe that’s sort of it. But, even if she was . . . emancipated, that wouldn’t be enough. She wants something else. Something much more important.”
“Daisy,” I said.
“Yes! How could you—?”
“I know about big sisters,” I said, thinking of SueEllen. And my own sister, Michelle. And how I wished . . .
“But could that be?” Jenn asked, breaking into my thoughts. “I mean, could she really—?”
“I don’t know,” I told her. “Your dad’s right. It all depends. I’ll have to talk with Rosa to see what she’s got.”
“Got?”
“I didn’t say that properly. I mean, what information she’s got. Because the only way to work something like that out would be if her parents consented—”
“They’d never!”
“You can’t be sure, Jenn,” her father said. “Perhaps if Mr. Hazard were to talk to them—”
“After I talk with Rosa,” I interrupted, not wanting to spell out to Jennifer that I’d need some heavy bargaining chips, but needing Joel to get that message.
“But you think you . . . maybe could . . . get her father to . . . ?”
“Maybe. Here’s what I can tell you for sure, Jennifer. If I talk to Rosa, no matter how it comes out, I won’t tell her father where she is. And I won’t try to bring her in myself.”
“Really? You swear?”
“Yes. I won’t even tell him I saw her.”
“I don’t see any Bible around,” Michael said. His hands were still behind his back, but the cords in his neck were standing out.
“Your brother’s right,” I told Jennifer. “And I think I know how I can fix it. But to do that, I need to talk to your father. Alone.”