Genealogy: a novel

by Mae Wood

  Genealogy

  a novel

  Mae Wood

  Atacama Books

  Contents

  1. One

  2. Two

  3. Three

  4. Four

  5. Five

  6. Six

  7. Seven

  8. Eight

  9. Nine

  10. Ten

  11. Eleven

  12. Twelve

  13. Thirteen

  14. Fourteen

  15. Fifteen

  16. Sixteen

  17. Seventeen

  18. Eighteen

  19. Nineteen

  20. Twenty

  21. Twenty-one

  22. Twenty-two

  23. Twenty-three

  24. Twenty-four

  25. Twenty-five

  26. Twenty-six

  27. Twenty-seven

  28. Twenty-eight

  29. Twenty-nine

  30. Thirty

  31. Thirty-one

  32. Thirty-two

  33. Thirty-three

  34. Thirty-four

  35. Thirty-five

  36. Thirty-six

  37. Thirty-seven

  38. Thirty-eight

  Author’s Note

  Discussion guide

  Acknowledgments

  Also by Mae Wood

  About the Author

  This is a work of fiction. Any names or characters, businesses or places, events or incidents, are fictitious or used fictitiously.

  ISBN (paperback) 978-0-9862886-9-2

  Copyright © 2018 by Mae Wood

  All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof

  may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever

  without the express written permission of the publisher

  except for the use of brief quotations in a book review.

  Contact Mae@MaeWood.com

  Edited by Julia Ganis

  Proofread by Proofing with Style/ Marla Esposito

  Cover design by RBA Designs/ Letitia Hasser

  Dedication

  To my own Alice and her daughters

  One

  Ali

  Present day - August

  She didn’t want to move, and I didn’t want her to move either. But we were doing it, together. Sifting and sorting. Shredding and donating. Culling a lifetime into piles to be packed and placed into boxes. The lucky things would end up in my grandmother’s new six-hundred-twenty-three square foot assisted-living apartment. The not-so-lucky would end up on a curb.

  “These linens,” she said, pointing to the bottom drawer of the sideboard in her formal dining room. “You need them.”

  “Grammie, I don’t even have a dining room table,” I said, trucking along in our project to conquer the contents of at least one room this weekend.

  “You had one before and you’ll have one again. And these are Irish linen.”

  I thought of my tiny kitchen table, covered in discarded mail and unread magazines, not draped in substantial creamy white. She knew I didn’t have the space. I made space for the vintage black satin peep-toe pumps of hers from the fifties and had placed those in the “Ali” pile with a smile, but linens were a different story. The tablecloths were huge. For a table big enough to seat a dozen guests.

  “They were Alice’s,” she said.

  The trump card played, I bent and pulled them from the low drawer. I was Alice’s namesake, but I’d always gone by Ali because Alice felt formal and traditional, two words that didn’t fit me. She was the great-grandmother who I’d never met, who died a decade before I was born, but whose existence was never far from my mind. “Ali. A-L-I,” I’d explained a million times over my life. “It’s short for Alice. I’m named for my great-grandmother.”

  “Well, one good thing is that your monograms match.”

  I fingered the tiny beverage napkins, trimmed in hand-tatted lace and embroidered with ALW.

  ALW—I smiled. Alice Lenore Wertheimer. Alice Lenora Waller. I was flirting with becoming Alice Waller Sayer, but I was solidly myself at the moment.

  “Did she embroider these?” I asked, the old fabric stiff and smooth to the touch.

  “I don’t know. I don’t remember my mother doing any needlework, but I suppose all women did back then.”

  “True,” I said, flattening out the material with my palm and tugging out a crease. I dragged yet another plastic bin over and began piling the linens in, amazed that they had survived the years.

  “The story on one of those tablecloths is that it was a wedding present from some member of the Denny family.”

  Ah, an old Seattle story. I knew it wasn’t going to be long before I got one. My ancestors were early settlers of the city and my grandmother carried the banner of native Seattleite proudly, looking down her pioneer nose at the Microsofties and the Californians who had invaded her precious land. And though she’d moved to Kansas City with my grandfather nearly fifty years ago, the city was in her DNA.

  I half-listened to her prattle on about some trip to Japan to obtain plants and animals for the Woodland Park Zoo as I examined the linens and placed them in the plastic storage tub.

  “Okay,” I said, looking around the room, the sideboard now empty. Something accomplished today, and it made me feel good to have one of the many small tasks that it would take to empty her house of nearly fifty years. I looked at my watch. “I have to leave at three to head back to the hospital, so what can we get done in an hour?”

  “One drawer to go,” she said from the dining chair where she’d settled in while I’d knelt in front of the sideboard. “The bottom one.”

  Her words made my chest ache but also soothed them. I hated that she was getting confused more often. It reminded me that one day Grammie would be gone, but it also convinced me that we were making the right decision to move her. No more worry about her alone in this big house.

  “All done,” I said, pointing to my tub of linens.

  “The bottom-bottom one, Ali. The apron is a drawer.”

  “I didn’t know that,” I said, feeling sheepish that I’d thought she had been confused. “A secret drawer?”

  “That’s the point,” she said. The sideboard had been in this house my entire life and I’d never known that. I tilted my head to look at the piece, not quite believing her. “It’s where your grandpa kept his favorite pistol.”

  “Still there?” I said with a smile, reaching down under the lip of the cabinet.

  “Well, maybe. It’s been a long time since I dug around in that thing.”

  “I’m going to change your name to Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler,” I said, giving the concealed drawer a tug. It didn’t budge. Maybe she was confused after all. “Or Mrs. Piggle-Wiggle. But only if we find a Degas or pirate gold.”

  “It was a statue of an angel. Leonardo da Vinci,” she corrected me. In and out. Touch and go. Here and there. I was never sure where a conversation would lead us, and based upon the swelling in her extremities, I wasn’t sure today was going to be a good day for coherent conversation. It wasn’t her head so much as her heart that was slowly killing her by refusing to pump. She needed access to round the clock medical care now, not just sitters and family at the house, and we were making that happen although no one was happy about it.

  “Oh, that’s right,” I replied, the memories flooding back of the story of a headstrong girl and her younger brother running away to the Met. “What I really remember about that book was them taking a bath in the fountain.” My grandmother and I were very close. The afternoons of my childhood had been spent at her house with my brother and sister. And while my parents were at work, Grammie showered us with troves of books. She was a children’s librarian. Or she had been until she’d gotten married. Be
cause, as she’d explained a million times to me over the years, in those days nice women didn’t work outside the home after they were married, and so she’d retreated to a life of children and tennis and dinner parties.

  I gave the drawer another tug and it budged a few inches, but it didn’t slide open.

  “Oh, and the sideboard is yours too. No argument. It was—”

  “Alice’s?” I guessed as I wiggled the drawer open to find not pieces of eight or a sketch of a ballerina, but more table linens.

  “No, her mother’s. You’ll be the fifth generation of women in our family to own it.”

  I looked at the dark, heavy Victorian behemoth with new eyes, knowing it was going home with me. And knowing I had nowhere in my tiny, Ikea-furnished apartment to put it, but I spoke the truth: “Thank you. I’ll be a good caretaker.”

  “I know you will, sweet pea.”

  I looked down at the linens, focusing on the task rather than the meaning of the work I was doing, filling the plastic bin with more ancient fabric than I’d ever begin to use. Under the last tablecloth, I found a small, flat box. The pistol? I recognized the foil-stamped logo. Frederick & Nelson, the grand Seattle department store that now only existed on Grammie’s bad days when she’d ask me or someone else to take her there for lunch.

  “Grandpa’s gun?” I asked, setting the box into my lap as I sat on the floor. I lifted the lid. “Papers,” I said, a little weary at the prospect of spending the last bit of time before I had to leave focused on her reading each paper carefully before deciding whether she could part with it.

  My grandmother was a pack rat. I’d recently dropped off two decades of yellow-spined National Geographics at the recycling center and her garage was still stuffed to the gills with boxes of papers. I’d had visions of a huge bonfire while she was at a doctor’s appointment just to speed up the process.

  The box resting in my cross-legged lap, I riffled through the contents. “Letters,” I said, pulling one out. At least it wasn’t receipts from the nineteen sixties, though the hospital bill from my mom’s tonsillectomy at age eight had been a gem. The total bill was a few hundred dollars and Mom had spent three days in a children’s ward. Most of my patients were sent home by the end of the day with a bill in the thousands.

  The cream envelope was golden at the seams, the clean, cursive writing enchanting. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d seen graceful, purposeful handwriting with a fountain pen and not just a hasty scrawl of ballpoint on a scratch pad.

  Alice Hirshhorn, the letter’s front proclaimed.

  “Letters to Alice,” I told Grammie, now curious. I examined the faded postmark and noticed the stamps were strange. “From the Philippines?” I guessed.

  “I have those?” my grandmother said, her voice full of excitement and disbelief.

  In answer I turned the envelope in my palm, slid the pages out and carefully unfolded the letter. September 20, 1915. My dearest Alice, the script greeted me. A love letter. A hundred-year-old love letter.

  “Great-Grandpa was in the Philippines?” I asked, my eyes and brain straining to decipher the tight calligraphy.

  “Oh no. Not your great-grandfather,” Grammie said, her eyes sparkling with her mother’s secrets. “Elliott.”

  “Who’s Elliott?” I asked, my eyes scanning through the pages, trying to make sense of the fancy script. When was the last time I’d seen a handwritten letter? Something more than the note that my sister tucked in with her kid’s drawings for me to put on my fridge. A six-page letter. With no scratched-out sections, even. Was this like a final draft? Did people do that back then? Write drafts of letters, work to get their words just right, and then write it out nicely on fancy stationery? Or did they think before they wrote? Either way, the whole concept of handwritten letters was foreign to me.

  “Some man Alice knew. He wanted her to move to the Philippines with him, but that’s all I know.”

  “What do you mean, that’s all you know?”

  “That’s really all I know. I found the letters once when I was a girl. I started reading them and my mother found me, took the letters, and I don’t remember seeing them again. I guess I kept them when she died, but that was so long ago that I don’t quite remember.”

  “Forty-ish years ago,” I said looking up at her. “I’m going to take them.”

  “Fine with me. But the dining room table goes with them.”

  There were seconds when I was thankful her memory was going and then I would spend hours, if not days, feeling awful for those moments. As I did the math on how much a storage unit would cost me for the year or so we could hope she’d be with us floated through my brain, this was one of those times.

  I set the letters with the linens and began straightening up before I made us a simple late lunch of sandwiches, and left. “Next time we’ll dive into the china cabinet,” I said as I grabbed my purse and work tote. “Mom will be back from Austin tomorrow. She’s been down with Jess and her family. I’ll be MIA all week with work, but we’ll have dinner together.”

  “Sounds lovely, sweet pea,” she said as we exchanged kisses to cheeks. “I’m so glad you moved home, Ali. I truly am.”

  “Me too,” I said, but I didn’t mean it.

  Two

  Ali

  August

  Rounds at the hospital were about getting into the zone where I, Alice Lenora Waller, didn’t exist, and some fictional Dr. Waller strode through the halls. I knew doctors had a bad rap when it came to ego and attitude. I was no different. And I definitely could have the attitude, but the ego that people claimed I had, that had fallen away six months ago.

  After three months back in Kansas City, I was still getting the feel of the place even though I knew the hospital, with its surgical suites, cafeterias, and my clinic, like the back of my hand. But the parts of the city that hadn’t been there when I was in high school? The parts that had changed in the years since I’d left for college? So many restaurants, faces, and names that were all new to me. Except for a smattering of high school friends, only a few who I’d kept in close contact with over the years, the city was entirely familiar yet new to me.

  I was a blue-scrubbed, white-coated doctor who lived just south of the downtown medical district among the other blue-scrubbed, white-coated doctors, the blue-scrubbed, short-coated medical students, not to mention the brightly scrubbed nurses and other medical staff. It was a far cry from the lily-white suburb I’d grown up in, but still felt provincial after my time in DC and Boston.

  Most mornings I walked to work. It was hot and humid and I nearly regretted it, but it was less than a mile and I liked the time to clear my head.

  Because as much as I refused to admit it, sometimes I still woke up in Boston with Scott warm in the bed next to me, skin to skin but for the slip of a silk gown I liked to sleep in. And it took me rolling over to smack my phone’s alarm or my pager and finding myself alone to remember that he wasn’t here. That he wasn’t on call. That he was in California, where I was supposed to have been.

  Home again, home again, jiggity jig.

  My hair in a tight braid, the tail end pinned under, I slung my black messenger bag across my body. I trudged to the hospital, nabbing a to-go box of random breakfast items that would go cold as I picked at my meal but devoured the files in front of me.

  I had two surgery days a week. Clinics three days a week and an erratic on-call schedule that was grueling. Lowest man—or woman—on the group’s totem pole meant that I covered holidays and got exactly one three-day weekend a month completely off the calendar. I wouldn’t change a thing about it except the location.

  The practice itself was what I’d wanted, and I shunted the thoughts of sunny beaches and a sexy orthopod off to the side of my thoughts as best as I could. Because when I began thinking about that life that I didn’t have, that life I’d anticipated, I could only catalogue my faults and failings. The first being every minutia that distinguished me from Thad Graves, the guy from Chicago w
ho had landed the spot—my spot—as the cochlear implant specialist at UC Irvine.

  I didn’t get the job, and the life that I’d planned around it disappeared. Having life’s first big failure at thirty-three wasn’t the worst thing that could happen to a person, but I wasn’t used to any failure and it made me feel awful.

  I’d decided to lick my wounds at home while I decided on my next move. Now I was stuck in limbo, filling in for a surgeon in Kansas City who was taking a sabbatical, and spending my free time looking for a permanent position.

  Home again, home again, jiggety jog.

  At my desk, I washed down a bite of gummy oatmeal with cold coffee and scrolled through the file on my laptop. Seventeen-month-old male. Bilateral profound deafness since birth. Two weeks post-op. And today was the payoff.

  I was a computer science major in college, and during medical school I’d developed an interest in cochlear implants because the technology fascinated me. But when, during my internship, I was in the room when a baby turned his head at his mother’s voice for the first time in his life, and I saw his eyes light up in excitement and his parents break down in sobbing joy, I was hooked.

  The capacity to change lives. The ability to give someone the perception of sound. No other medicine did that—offered something so fundamental to the human condition. No one created vision. No one transplanted the olfactory system or supplemented the sense of taste. No one could make a patient feel again. But we could make a patient hear. And I knew the detractors, the people who thought I was personally involved in some sort of attack on the deaf community. And I didn’t buy what they were selling. Because today Jackson Ursini’s life was going to change. That I was sure of.