Lady in Waiting

by Denise Domning

  You have asked about Lady Montmercy, Lucy wrote for her mother. Although you were right that she and I both served the last two of King Harry’s queens I knew the lady only well enough to think her a sad lass. As I have nothing to offer you I send instead Mistress Godwin, who was my governess until I wed with your sire.

  Whilst Alice and I lived at court she formed an affection for Lady Montmercy. So strong was their liking for each other that upon my marriage the lady hired my Alice as governess to her daughter, the Lady Arabella. I recommend Mistress Godwin to you now, promising that you may take every confidence in her, spilling to her the secrets you have not shared with me.

  Anne made a face. Would that her mother were half as witless as Sir Amyas thought her. Folding the papers, she tucked them in her purse for later enjoyment then looked upon the old woman.

  “I have much I’d like to ask you, Mistress Godwin,” Anne said with a smile. “A moment please, as I must win some time in which to do so.”

  The old woman laughed at this. “As I can think of no better way to spend my afternoon than with my Frances’s daughter, I suspect I’ll wait until your return.”

  Anne slipped back into the Presence Chamber. Although it took more than a moment when she again left the room she had the whole of afternoon to dedicate to her unexpected visitor. “Come,” she cried, catching the grandam’s arm in hers, “the day is a lovely one. We’ll walk in the garden as we speak.”

  It was to the wilder of Greenwich’s gardens that she led Mistress Godwin. May’s blossoms were gone now, the trees having set their fruit and donned their summer raiment. The tiled pathways were dappled in light, the air sweet with the smell of the wild roses that grew against the garden’s enclosing walls. As they strolled away from the gate the old woman looked about her.

  “So many years and so little has changed,” she said with a smile. “It’s just as lovely now as it was in my day.”

  “And, just as private, no doubt,” Anne replied. “Glad I am for that. I think it wouldn’t do us any good for someone to overhear what we say. I cannot think Lady Montmercy would much like finding you speaking to me.” This was all the more true now that the lady was aware of Anne’s curiosity in her, although not the purpose behind that interest.

  “Have no fear that she might come upon us this day,” the old woman said, her smile tightening into what was almost a grimace. “I happen to know the lady is in London just now. That’s why I felt free to come speak with you this day.”

  “God be praised for that much,” Anne breathed. “Before I ask my questions, speak to me first of my mother. I have only known her since”--Anne caught back since my birth left her crippled,--“since she’s been without movement and tongue.”

  “So you have, you poor sweetling. Well, I expect I can tell you a thing or two.” Mistress Godwin lifted her head, looking into the distance as her eyes misted with fond memories. “My Frances was like you, all cheek and brass. Aye, so lovely and daring was she that I feared she might catch the old king’s eye.” She sighed against the danger of attracting a monarch’s eye. “I gave thanks if Frances did not, when the last of Harry’s Catherines insisted on her removal from court. It was against that that your mother’s sire married her to Sir Amyas’s younger son.”

  Mistress Godwin glanced at Anne. “No insult intended, but I always felt the squire could have found someone better for Frances. Sir Amyas’s son was an overbearing braggart and your mother, well, she was who she was. But her father was certain Sir Amyas’s star was rising, and my Frances was a second daughter.”

  “No insult is taken,” Anne laughed. “If I never knew my sire, I do know my grandfather and can imagine the sort of son he produced. I think Mama was content to manage the estate, only tolerating her husband’s infrequent visits.”

  According to Lucy, Anne’s father had come to Owls House only at Sir Amyas’s insistence and only stayed long enough to set his seed in his wife’s womb. Four daughters in a little more than as many years there were. When Anne’s birth left her mother as she was her husband had visited no more.

  “I say your father died as he deserved,” Mistress Alice said with a certain satisfaction, “surrounded only by servants in his father’s London home.” She paused to sigh. “Had I been free to go to Frances after your birth I would have done so, but she was well cared for while Betta needed me more.”

  “Betta?” Anne asked, more than ready to let the conversation move away from her birth and its consequences.

  “Lady Montmercy,” the old woman replied in explanation. “If your mother was unhappy in her marriage, Betta was barely surviving hers.” Here, the old woman fell silent.

  Thinking Mistress Godwin needed time to gather her thoughts, Anne strode alongside her for a few moments, content to let the fragrant breeze play in her skirts and to feel the sun’s warmth upon her shoulders. When the quiet between them continued, broken only by birdsong and the gentle drone of insects, Anne glanced at her. “Mistress?”

  “I’m waiting,” the old woman replied.

  “For what?” Anne asked in surprise.

  “To hear why it is you have an interest in my Betta. What I have to say is beyond private and could see lives destroyed. Before I spill my tale I’ll know to what purpose you intend to put my words. That, and you must pay my price by telling me why you pry.” Mistress Alice looked at her former charge’s daughter, her gaze cool and calculating.

  Anne studied her visitor, considering how much she could afford to reveal, then loosed a breath of defeat. Chances were her mother had guessed a good part of what Amyas was about and why Anne sought information about Lady Montmercy; Lady Frances would have written as much to Mistress Alice. Between that and what the old woman had overheard in her conversation with Sir Amyas a falsehood here could cost Anne the information she might need to save herself.

  “My grandsire intends to wed me to Lord Oliver Deyville, whose wife lingers on death’s door as we speak. That I will not do,” Anne said, the iron in her voice meant to remind herself of her goal.

  Mistress Godwin loosed a snort. “Why? Because you don’t like the man? This seems a selfish reason to destroy another woman’s life.”

  “Nay,” Anne protested, “it isn’t that, although I admit I have no liking for the man. Who could care for him when he is another like my grandsire, cruel and uncaring? It’s my mother. Not every man would include her in his household, and I cannot--nay, I will not abandon her to spend her life alone among servants. I am all the family she has left, and she needs me.”

  “So you’ll not marry Lord Deyville for your mother’s sake. Have you a man to put in his place, one who might accept my Frances as she is?” the old woman asked.

  “I thought I had.” Anne offered her a small, sad smile.

  “But he has refused you because of your mother?” Mistress Alice cocked a brow.

  Anne sighed. “Nay, of all the men I know, I think him most likely to not only accept her, but cherish her for who she is. Unfortunately, he’s not interested in marriage, not to me or any woman.”

  “Ah, a man who likes other men,” the old woman murmured, a slight sneer on her face.

  The need to defend Kit against such a charge sent words tumbling from Anne’s lips. “Nay, Master Hollier’s not like that. It’s some promise he’s made that keeps him distant from me.”

  This turned the corners of the woman’s mouth. “Hollier, is it? Would that make him Lord Graceton’s grandson?”

  At Anne’s nod the woman’s smile widened. “Now, there was a stubborn old man if ever I saw one. Fortunate it was that he didn’t lose his head as Sir Thomas More did. If your Master Hollier is in any way like his grandfather, he’ll keep that promise of his to the death.”

  Anne’s heart ached at this. So she’d also come to believe. For Owls House and her mother she had no choice but to put aside her care for Kit. “Given enough time, I can find another man,” she told the old woman, “but time is a luxury I don’t have. I need something
to not only force Sir Amyas to wait while I find the man I need, but make him accept the one I choose.”

  “And the search for this weapon of yours has led you to my Betta?” Mistress Alice turned her gaze to the movement of her hems as they walked.

  “Aye,” Anne replied. “At my presentation there was a strange interplay between Lady Montmercy and my grandsire. Sir Amyas, who despises all women, seemed to fear her.”

  Mistress Godwin’s brow creased as she pondered what Anne told her. After a long moment she nodded. “Aye then, we’ll speak of the past. First, vow to me that you’ll keep the tale I tell between we two, should you find no other use for it.”

  “I so vow,” Anne replied without hesitation. Not even Lady Montmercy deserved destruction without some just cause for it.

  “Then I’ll begin by saying old Lord Montmercy was a monster, and Betta hadn’t your mother’s fire. She lacked the heart to resist his evil.”

  The disbelief that woke in Anne at this description of the noblewoman was strong enough to cause her to interrupt. “I cannot imagine it. Lady Montmercy seems so cool and controlled.”

  The old woman gave a sad shake of her head. “The woman you see today is not the Betta I knew and loved. What now resides in that body is a creature who owns my pity, but not my heart. Lord Montmercy destroyed her, for it wasn’t a wife he wanted when he wed with her but a tool. He used her youth and beauty to seduce his enemies and tease their secrets from them.”

  Anne stopped stock still in the pathway to stare at the woman. “Are you saying she made herself a whore for him?” she breathed in horror.

  Mistress Alice’s gaze was warning-sharp, suggesting she did more than pity Lady Montmercy despite her protest to the contrary. “She made herself nothing. The old lord used cruelty to force a fine young woman into evil. There were beatings if she refused and handsome rewards when she complied. The rewards grew greater when what Betta brought him resulted in the destruction of one he hated. Those sapphires of hers were a gift after her greatest success. As I said, she lacked your mother’s fire, or yours, to deny him.”

  “What of his heirs?” Anne asked, struggling to understand and all the while thinking of herself and Lord Deyville. “Didn’t the old lord want children from her to hold her property as his?”

  “Nay,” Mistress Alice shook her head. “Betta brought him little in the way of lands, and he was content to use her properties for his lifetime, caring nothing for her bloodline. As for his own estate, he had an heir, or thought he did, in his son by his first wife, who was already wed and producing children.”

  Anne’s head spun. Such horror seemed impossible on a day when wildflowers nodded their brightly colored heads to them along every turn in the pathway. At last her thoughts fixed on one idea. Mistress Alice said the old lord used his wife against his enemies. Amyas had been one of his most despised foes.

  “Do you know if any of those men Lord Montmercy made his lady bed might have been my grandsire?”

  “I fear I cannot say,” the old woman replied. “The shame she shared with me, but not the names. For a time I feared for her sanity. That was, until Lord Montmercy let her keep her son.”

  “Let her keep?” Anne demanded.

  From the bend in the path ahead of them came a woman’s teasing laugh. A man’s deeper chuckle followed, the sound filled with lust. With a gasp, Anne led Mistress Alice into a sharp turn, the two of them walking back along the tiled path to where it branched.

  Only when they were well along in this new direction did Anne look at her visitor. “What did you mean by let her keep?”

  “Now, girl,” Mistress Alice chided in quiet amusement, “you don’t strike me as such an innocent. A woman cannot go from bed to bed without occasionally bearing fruit. Only once was the old lord unable to force my Betta’s body to shed the child that grew within it. That one, a lass it was, he took from her, refusing to say where he went with the little one and whether the babe lived or died. Everyone else was told the babe had been stillborn.”

  “May God have mercy,” Anne murmured. Only after she’d offered up a prayer for the innocents old Lord Montmercy had killed did she again look at Mistress Alice. “So why did he allow her to keep her son?”

  “That was the last year of King Edward’s reign. Lord Montmercy knew his life was ending. There’d been Plague the previous year, the outbreak catching in its first wave Montmercy’s heir and his family.” Mistress Alice shot Anne a look filled with dark satisfaction. “I say it was the Lord’s retribution for Montmercy’s evil, of that I have no doubt.

  “At any rate it didn’t suit the old lord’s hatred for his brother to allow the estate to fall to that man, so he took to lying with Betta, something he’d not done before then. When she proved fertile he let that child stay where it had rooted.” Alice leaned close and lowered her voice. “In all truth I’m not certain he knew the child wasn’t his.”

  “You believe Lord Andrew isn’t his father’s child?” Anne asked, now both wholly shocked and fascinated by this tale.

  “I know he isn’t,” the old woman replied with not a little satisfaction in her voice. “My Betta knew whose seed grew in her.”

  Anne’s head reeled. Lord Andrew was a bastard. What if he were Amyas’s child? Excitement tried to rise. Was it Amyas she’d seen in Andrew’s strut and heard in his hoarsened voice? Her hopes collapsed.

  It couldn’t be. Amyas was incapable. However intriguing Mistress Alice’s tale it offered nothing to connect Amyas to Lady Montmercy.

  “Until the last year of his life,” Mistress Alice was saying, “the old lord had taken care to see his wife formed no affection for those she used. But in those last months he was too ill to watch. All I know is that my poor dearling was happier than I’d ever seen her. Whoever fathered her son Betta loved him with all her heart.”

  Anne pulled a face. If she was looking for proof positive that Amyas wasn’t Lord Andrew’s sire here it was. How could any woman love him?

  “Of one thing I am certain: the man is a devout Protestant,” Mistress Alice continued, “for he went into exile upon Queen Mary’s coronation.”

  “As did my grandsire,” Anne mused, trying to imagine Lady Montmercy and Sir Amyas as lovers. The pieces were there, but the fit was wrong to solve this puzzle.

  The old woman nodded. “Even though my Betta was then a widow and could have had another husband she held firm in her affection for this one, believing him just as faithful. Five years she waited until Queen Mary lay dying, her Protestant sister set to take the throne. What saddened some made Betta nigh on joyous.”

  Mistress Alice shot Anne a quiet, sidelong look. “And why not, since a Protestant queen meant the return of all those exiled during the Catholic queen’s rule? Betta went to serve the new queen, all the while watching for the one she so desired. She doted on her son, giving him the love that she couldn’t shower on her lover.” The old woman shook her head against the memory, her whiskered mouth twisting into a small smile. “How she cherished that lad.”

  “So I’m told,” Anne said, the inklings of understanding stirring within her. “That is, until the day your Betta gave her son to a warden and turned her back on him. It’s said she’ll have naught to do with him to this day.”

  Mistress Alice sighed. “In that, I fear the lad pays for his father’s sin.” She stared ahead of her, the look in her eyes once again distant. This time, she viewed the past with only sadness in her face.

  Even though she was already certain what the answer would be, Anne asked, “What happened when Betta’s lover returned?”

  “He rejected her,” the old woman said in a quiet voice. “In doing so this man achieved what Lord Montmercy had not managed with his cruelty. Something in my Betta broke with his rejection. She threw away his son and became what you see when you now look upon her.”

  Here was cruelty of which Anne knew her grandfather capable. She breathed out, imagining the pain of having endured a husband’s torment with only a
lover’s promise of happiness to keep her sane, then to be tossed aside by the one she trusted. “How horrible for her.”

  “You, my sweet, cannot afford to pity my Betta.” The old woman’s voice was tight.

  That brought Anne out of her musing with a start. “What do you mean?”

  “Come now,” Mistress Alice taunted gently. “Having heard my Betta’s sorry tale, do you think your need to escape marriage to Lord Deyville enough to cause me to spill it? When your mother wrote to me, I plied my Betta with subtle questions and liked naught the answers I received. Nay, you hear what I know because my love for your mother cannot countenance your destruction, and that is what my Betta plans for you.”

  Kit sat in the house where he and Lady Montmercy had first met, once more using the barrel-chair. With summer upon them the window’s shutters were thrown wide, allowing the sun to flow into the forechamber. The bench before the fireplace gleamed a warm brown while the wee copper pot standing upon the brick hearth glinted cheerily. Gone was the fine writing desk, suggesting it had belonged to the lady not the householder.

  It was rage Kit expected and now found in Lady Montmercy. He watched the noblewoman pace the length of the bedchamber. Gone was her doll-like blankness of expression. Instead her skin seared bright red along her cheekbones, while her mouth was held to a thin line.

  “I’d not have thought you so limp of prick,” she snarled, throwing the insult like a spear. “Did you forget to tell me you could not couple like a normal man?”

  Even as her charge stung his pride Kit bit back his challenge for her to try him. Proving his manhood to this woman wouldn’t protect Anne, and her protection had become his all. He hadn’t had a nightmare since that day in the barn, as if shielding Nan from harm somehow balanced the wrong he’d done to Nick all those years ago.

  Lady Montmercy whirled, her dark blue and gray skirts hissing and snapping against the floorboards as she returned toward the street door. “Have you nothing to say?” she demanded.