Stupid Girl
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Talk to you later. Which meant he planned on talking to me. Later. As I walked along the paved path that led to the observatory’s wide front entrance steps, I considered my weird, extraordinary day. From the moment Braxton Jenkins knocked into me, nothing else afterward made a bit of sense. Why me? What could a baseball playing, fraternity brother, tattooed Southie sophomore who got into frequent fights and could keep company with any number of gorgeous leggy college girls, want anything to do with me? A plain, no make-up wearing, star-searching scarred-up in more ways than one cowgirl Geek?
Oh yeah. He thought I was a virgin.
Guys were douchebags.
As I rounded the walkway and climbed the steps, I pushed through the side-by-side front glass doors, and left behind the sweet, humid August air. With an inner determination and vigor, I set aside the silly giddiness Brax Jenkins had managed to stir inside me, and in a very short time. I was pretty sure I hated that. And I probably wouldn’t have to worry about it, either. Once the virginity ring novelty wore off, I’d drop right off of Brax’s radar. Which was fine with me.
The cool, air-conditioned interior of the observatory’s main entrance swept over me as I entered the foyer and walked up to the help desk, situated in the center. I looked up to the domed building’s painted tiled ceiling. It was beyond spectacular, and speckles of light filtered in and glittered against the walls like so many chipped diamonds. After glancing around, I noticed a, well, really cute guy, early twenties if I had to guess, seated behind the horseshoe desk. He wore a long sleeved white shirt, buttoned up the front, sleeves rolled over his tanned forearms. Plastic boxes sat before him, filled with free flyers and maps of the building. A donations jar also sat, half full. I walked to the desk, and the guy looked up. “Hi, I’m Olivia Beaumont. I’m here to meet with Professor Callander about a job?”
The guy rose from where he was sitting and smiled, and it was warm and easy. I was surprised at how comfortable it made me. He stuck out his hand, and I shook it. “I’m Noah Hicks. Professor Callander’s TA. He’s asked me to show you around, if that’s okay?”
I returned the smile. “Sure, that’d be great.”
“Let me get someone to watch the desk.” He picked up the phone and made a call, and I stepped back and waited.
With Brax and his interruption of my first day pushed to the back of my brain, the thrill of being in Winston’s fabulously large observatory washed over me. I’d worked so hard to get here, and finally, amazingly, I was.
Soon, a young guy around my age hurried toward us. He was tall, bone-thin, and glasses sat on his flawless pale face. He grinned at me through shaggy, reddish brown hair that flipped over his ears and stuck out his hand. “I’m Steven,” he said, and his toothy smile was wide and unembarrassed. “Guess you’re the other honors grad scholarship financial aid job recipient?”
I shook his hand. “Wow, now that’s a mouthful. But yeah, I’m Olivia. Beaumont.”
“Anytime you need to switch a shift, just let me know,” Steven said. He moved to take Noah’s position behind the desk. “But we’ll be working a lot together, too.”
“Okay, great. You do the same,” I offered.
“Ready?” Noah asked.
“Sure.”
Noah Hicks led me through the observatory, winding our way from the first floor, where three large auditoriums held multiple exhibits, all the way to the top observation platform outside and the dome that contained the Mulligan scope. Round, almost like the top of a lighthouse, it had a double railing around the steep drop off, and the public was allowed in on Wednesdays and Saturdays. The Mulligan was … epic. I could barely wait to get a nighttime look.
Along the rest of the tour, he told me more about my duties, responsibilities, and participation in arranging the planetarium exhibits. All very exciting to me.
Then, Noah went over his position with Professor Callander. Noah had an impressive resume and sounded like a brilliant astronomer. Tall and clean cut, he had close-clipped brown hair, strong features and soft brown eyes that reminded me of suede. Noah looked like an athlete and carried himself with confidence and answered all my questions. I was glad to be working with him. Very non-threatening—a characteristic I seemed to inadvertently siphon out with people now. After the tour, he accompanied me to his office, and we went over my work schedule Professor Callander had coordinated for me. They all matched perfectly with my classes.
“So have you always been into astronomy?” Noah asked.
I smiled at him. “My whole life.”
He nodded, and returned the warm smile. “It shows in your eyes. See you in class, Olivia.”
“Bye,” I offered, and I waved to Steven on my way out. Like I’d suspected, my shift would be from five to nine on Mondays and Wednesdays, and three to closing, which was ten-thirty, on Saturdays, as well as any special events the observatory hosted. Professor Callander had promised if I thought I could handle more hours after school started, he could always add me into the schedule. The pay was decent, and I’d be making more than plenty to live on. Plus I’d have enough to send some home to Mom and Jilly.
I treated myself to a loaded burger from an on-campus fast food joint on the way back to my dorm, and overall I thought the day was ending up pretty decent. Noah and Steven both were nice enough, and neither felt threatening. It irritated me sometimes, the unconscious measuring of people—mostly guys—that I couldn’t seem to help measuring. I was powerless to stop it. Ever since Kelsy Evans, it’s what I did. My conscience always on guard. My intuitions constantly tuned into anything, any one trait a person might have that made me feel trapped. It was as solid in my character now as a handshake. Yet Brax Jenkins had slammed me to the ground, kissed me, and I’d allowed him right into my dorm room. I’d lost my damn marbles for sure.
Tessa was still gone by the time I got back. I had kicked off my boots and was sitting on my bed, eating my messy but delicious bacon cheeseburger when my phone beeped, signaling a text. Probably Mom, wondering why I hadn’t called back yet.
I glanced at the small screen on my phone. The name SOUTHIE popped up in all capital letters. Butterflies immediately swarmed inside of me, at the same time my guard shot straight up. What did he want now?
Surprised for only a few seconds, not only at the text but at how my heart leaped at seeing it, I shook my head. Brax had apparently sent himself a text from my phone and hi-jacked my number, before bringing it back to me. Then entered his number into my phone. I glanced at the text:
Brax: Hey Gracie, how’d the i-view go?
Wrestling with the decision whether to answer or ignore, I just stared at the screen and Brax’s words. So taken off guard by his persistence, I couldn’t do anything else. I set the phone back down, stared at it. Picked it back up. Set it back down, closed my eyes.
The phone chirped again, and my eyes flashed open. Grabbing the phone, I looked at the screen.
Brax: I know you’re there, Gracie, probably staring at the screen. I-view?
I pushed out a frustrated breath.
Me: It wasn’t an i-view. I already had the job. I didn’t drop my phone. You pick-pocketed it.
Brax: You dropped it. Opportunity arose. The job?
Me: Swell. I work Mondays, Wednesdays, and Saturdays.
Brax: That’s a lot of damn work, Gracie. I think we should meet to go over our schedule. ☺ And did you say the word swell? I think I heard that once on an old fuckin PopEye cartoon. How old are you, anyway?
Cahtoon. Since no one could see me, I smiled. It was just too hard not to.
Me: I’m old-fashioned. My grandpa says swell all the time. One of my favorite words. We have no schedule, Southie. We’ve known each other less than twenty-four hours.
Brax: Old-fashioned? What, do you make jelly and pies, too? And that’s why we need to meet. So we’ll have a schedule. See?
Me: Jelly and pies—yes. Every season. And I’d think the infamous Brax Jenkins would already have a loaded schedule. Why me?
Me: Rumors? Plenty of them. Why not me? Because I don’t play with players. And I definitely don’t play your game.
Brax: Now I’m a player? An infamous player, even. With my very own game. You’re a lot braver on text, Ms. Beaumont.
I squeezed my eyes tightly shut. Maybe he was right? Would I really be standing in front of him, boldly having such a conversation? Probably not. I sighed.
Me: No, I’m not. I feared you'd shank me earlier. But I had time to think about it today.
Brax: Shanking you didn't even cross my mind, Gracie. A few other things, def, but not that. So you’ve been thinking about me today? Swell. It must’ve been that kiss.
I sucked in a breath as my heart sped up. Why was he so blunt with me?
Me: You just hi-jacked my word. What kiss?
Brax: Haha, good one Gracie. You know as well as I do you can’t get that kiss off your mind. I haven’t thought about anything else all day. I’m infamous for hi-jacking many things. A word is a first for me though. I know a seafood joint. It ain’t Boston, that’s for damn sure, but it’ll do. Tomorrow night, after I get back from our out of towner? Seven? I’ll pick you up.
Holy God, he’d just asked me out. On a date. The two of us alone. My heart thumped heavy against my ribs, and my palms grew sweaty. Why oh why was he asking me out? And what was I supposed to say? I didn’t know him, at all, and the thought of a date made me so jittery. I couldn’t do it. Brax would be able to tell I was a bundle of nerves. He’d eventually figure things out. Figure me out. No, the less he knew of me, the better. I moved my fingers over the keyboard of my cell, and noticed that they’d become clammy.
Me: Not a good idea, Brax. Thanks, though.
Brax: C’mon, Gracie. It’s dinner. Not a marriage proposal. And why not a good idea? You think too much, maybe.
Why not? How about because you’re a kappa phi sophomore man slut, for starters. There’s just no rational reason for you to want to go to dinner with me. And the bald fact that there’s something strangely attractive about you makes me react in ways I don’t want to react. And, I don’t trust you. How’s that for why not?
Brax: My clothes just went out of style. Are you in the bathroom or something?
A grin tugged at my lips. Okay, so he had a sense of humor. Still …
Me: There have to be a thousand other girls you could take to dinner, Brax.
Brax: There is. But I’m asking you, Gracie.
Staring at the words, I tried to make sense of them. Why did I have to deal with this so soon after arriving to Winston? Never, ever did I expect this. I didn’t want this, no, I really didn’t. I liked the way he called me Gracie. No one ever called me that. But, he was still a guy, and I didn’t know a thing about him. My heart thumped heavy against my chest. Not all guys are Kelsy Evans, Olivia …
Me: If it’s because you ran over me on the lawn today and humiliated me, forget it. A mercy date isn’t necessary.
Brax: I never mercy date. Ask anyone. And I’m sorry I humiliated you. It wasn’t intentional, although I admit I’m glad it happened. The kiss was unavoidable. Just like the next one will be. Seven?
I swallowed hard. Holy God.
Me: No way.
Brax: Give me one good reason.
Me: You don’t know me.
Brax: That’s the reason for a date, see? Another reason.
Me: You have a bike.
Brax: It has a big seat. Don’t worry, your skinny ass will fit. Seven?
My mind whirled for a few seconds. All in the space of one day, I had arrived at my first day of college, got plowed into by the school’s most infamous bad-boy starting pitcher/womanizer/party animal, and that same said crazed bad-boy had kissed me and was now asking me out. It sounded like a movie, a romantic comedy from the ‘80s. I’d managed to make it through my senior year of high school despite the harassment and rumors. I’d kept my grades up, secured an academic scholarship, and … hadn’t dated anyone since the incident. Now, the most opposite of opposites had asked me to go out to eat with him. I was insane for even considering it. But I was. Considering it, not insane. Well, maybe both. As long as we just kept things friendly. That was the only way I could make myself comfortable enough to go out with him. Friends only. I had no room in my life right now for anything more than that. I wasn’t ready to face anything else. And unless my radar was wrong, Brax Jenkins certainly wasn’t looking for a relationship with me. Sex, maybe, but not a relationship. And while part of me balked at the thought of a date, the other part couldn’t shake the feeling of Brax’s lips on mine. And he did make me laugh, even if I hid it.
Me: Okay. As friends.
Brax: I got plenty of friends, Gracie. See ya at seven.
Me: I’m not stupid, Brax. Your charm will not turn me into a blabbering soupy pile of mush like most of the silly girls running around campus. Believe it or not, I’m really and truly here for my education. My future. I don’t have room in my life for anything else. Friends only, or I won’t go.
Brax: Shit. That’s the most you’ve said all day. But okay. Friends it is, although I hope to change your mind. And I’d never think you were stupid. L8R
Me: Bye
I closed my phone and set it on the bedside table. Had I just agreed to go to dinner with Braxton Jenkins? Why had I said yes? This was too much distraction. I should text him back and cancel. I stared at my cell, but my hand didn’t move.
I shook my head. I had a date with the very guy I’d been warned not once, but twice about, in the same day. I closed my eyes, and Brax’s image came to mind. Those peculiar eyes, staring at me in a way no one else ever had. His mouth against mine, no matter how brief, had stirred something inside of me. Was I that starved for attention? Redemption? Love? In any form, even if just sex? I pushed it away and heaved a sigh. I’d sleep on it and see how I felt in the morning.
Friends. That’s the way it would stay.
I couldn’t afford it not to.
“Holy shit. Seriously? Have you lost. Your. Fucking. Brains?”
I gave a half-grin, mostly because she was right. “Yeah. Probably so.”
Tessa’s reaction was nothing less than I’d thought it would be after telling her I was probably meeting Brax for dinner the following night. I’d just finished showering and was lying on my bed in a pair of gym shorts and a tank top, hair wrapped in a blue and white striped towel. We had our own bathroom, which was a nice privilege. Had my scholarship not been so lofty, I would’ve been sharing with three other girls in a community shower. Depending on the girls, that could be a disgusting disaster. I wasn’t obsessive compulsive, but I was definitely a neat person. I had a suspicion, though, that my present roommate was not.
Tessa plopped down onto my bed, and I sank and shifted a little with her weight. She looked at me, dark brows furrowed, then she rolled her eyes. A string of Spanish flowed from her lips. I could tell they were probably pretty decent swear words and it kind of made me wish I’d taken Spanish in high school instead of French. She looked at me again, and shook her head. “Why did he ask you out?”
My laugh was light, barely there, and a little embarrassed. “I don’t know. It’s nothing, really,” I assured her. “Probably the fact that I’m not falling all over him intrigues him?” I sighed. “Don’t worry. I insisted it would be on a friend-basis only, or I wouldn’t go. I made it perfectly clear I wasn’t falling for any of his wily charms or sex lures. I wouldn’t even be surprised if he cancelled.”
“Ha! As if. And what did he say when you said friends only?” Tessa asked. A slight growl was in her throat, and her blue eyes flashed. I almost laughed again. Tessa was definitely a formidable foe. Glad she was on my side.
I shrugged. “He said … okay.” I pushed up, crossed my legs, and leaned against the wall. Actually, he’d said he had plenty of friends, and that he’d hoped to change my mind, but Tessa didn’t need to know that. “Seems
kinda harmless to me—”
“Why do you want to go with him?” Tessa interrupted. Her anger was palpable in the room, and part of me knew she was right. Had I lost my mind? I didn’t know Brax Jenkins. Not at all. “You could’ve just said no,” Tessa continued. “Or screw you. Something. Anything, other than yes!”
God, she was absolutely right. I could’ve just said no. Why hadn’t I? Was it because somehow Brax had put me at ease almost immediately? How had he done that? He was pushy and f lirty and definitely not my type. Did I even have a type? Either way, the last thing I wanted was for my roommate to think I was unstable. A baby. Incapable of handling myself, in any situation. I’d keep the fact that I was more than nervous to myself.
I shrugged. “I don’t know. I did say no at first, but he convinced me it was just a friendly dinner. He seems all right. Funny. Different.” I held up my ring finger, and the band burned a circle where it sat, filled with lies. “Besides. He knows I’m out of commission.”
“Oh my freaking god,” Tessa said. “I’d forgotten about that.” She reached over and thumped my forehead, right in the middle of it. It took me off guard, and I blinked and jerked my head back. My toweled head hit the wall. “As if that will stop him? It probably eggs him on! That’s how he gets you! Charm! Olivia! Sincerely. Text him back and cancel.”
A sincere laugh popped from my lips and I rubbed my head where she’d flicked me. “It’s okay, Tessa. Really. I can handle myself.” I smiled and patted her knee. “Trust me. I cold-balled him when he crashed into me on the front lawn. He won’t mess with me.” I leaned back and looked at her. I pulled my knees up and locked my arms around them, forcing myself to believe the words I was saying. “Brax has a whole university of gorgeous girls at his feet, all willing to do God-knows-what with him. I’m sure he doesn’t see me that way. I’ve made it clear I’m not that way. Maybe for once he wants to hang out with someone who isn’t drooling all over him.” That was my rationale, anyway, and I honestly couldn’t believe it was coming out of my mouth. Was I nervous or confident? Which one? I couldn’t be both.