A Date With Fate

by Tracy Ellen

  Now fancied up for the holidays, up and down Division the streets lamps were swirled with evergreens, red satin ribbons and bows, and aglow with white lights in the shapes of large snowflakes. Many buildings were similarly adorned; it reminded me of a village on an old-fashioned Christmas card dusted with glitter.

  I love this time of year. Bel’s staff had a party and we’d decorated the outside of my red brick building last week with spruce treetops and red holly berries in the display window boxes, lacey garlands of evergreens around the entrance doors, and an enormous wreath hanging outside on the turret that capped the corner of my building. All of these were intertwined with hundreds of tiny lights. When snow dusted the greenery, the teal blue lights twinkling at night through the sparkling white stuff is magical.

  Interrupting my sightseeing, a Chrysler Town and Country minivan honked softly and pulled up to the curb. I recognized our friend, Tre J driving with Jazy riding shotgun. The side door slid open, an old Led Zeppelin tune poured out, and I climbed into the beckoning warmth agreeing silently it had been way too long a time since this woman had rock ‘n rolled.

  I had earlier whipped off a mass text to my siblings and friends that all was fine, details to follow. NanaBel was out of touch in the desert for the next couple of days, so I’d email her in a day or two. I returned Reggie’s calls and left a quick, comprehensive voice mail message with details on Cheryl Crookston and Larissa’s ex since I wasn’t seeing him tonight like I would be my sisters. I’d spoken briefly with Larissa’s parents; she was doing well, but sleeping. I made plans to visit her on Monday morning. The mean mommy voice should be happy with me and leave me alone for the rest of the night.

  With the dome light still on overhead, my youngest sister turned in her seat to do a swift eye-balling of my person. I felt like a horse at a sale barn being appraised by an expert for soundness.

  Jazy, satisfied I was not physically altered in any way, still wore a quizzical expression. This was for the mental check up portion of the exam. If I was one of her horses, she’d probably make a clicking sound to observe how I responded.

  I grinned crookedly in reassurance, at the same time I lifted one shoulder in a “What’s a girl to do?” unrepentant shrug.

  Jazy returned a wickedly devilish smile--complete with two dimples and an emphatic power fist for a job well-done.

  Enough said. Sister Whisperer gets me.

  Jazy and I are two years apart in age. We are instantly known as sisters by anyone seeing us for the first time, or hearing us talk and laugh. We share the same sapphire shade of blue eyes we’ve been told matched our mother’s. The resemblances are marked between Jazy and me, but her features are all slightly larger, her body type less curvy. She’s an auburn brunette to my dark blonde, and tops out at an impressive five-four. Jazy wears straight bangs, but her hair waves and curls loosely atop her shoulders with no help from a curling iron. Good thing because Jaz is a wash and go kind of outdoor girl. She’s passionate about three things in her life—horses, Harleys, and heavy petting.

  Tre J turned down the volume on the music, and then reached back and pulled me up into a huge hug.

  I hung awkwardly on my knees between the seats while she gushed, “Bel, we are so relieved everything ended well. Jaz and I were just saying how we wished we could have been there to see you in action! Did you really unbutton your shirt, take off your bra and show some nip to distract him? Awesome smart move! Girl, you are so my hero! Poor Larissa, how did she ever marry that skeevy mother?” Her face darkened, “He’d better pray I never meet him in a dark alley.”

  Laughing to myself in rueful weariness, I realized this was the kind of rumor humor I’d be dealing with all night.

  I patted her shoulder as I detached out of her smothering hug. “Thanks for the vote of confidence. You smell good tonight, by the way.” I climbed into my seat and buckled in saying, “If it’s all the same to you both, I’m not saying another word until we get over to Mac’s. When Jazy mans the blender and I have one of her special Margaritas in hand, then we’ll talk.”

  “I hear you!” Jazy did a little drum roll on the dash in front of her. “See, told you she wouldn’t want to talk about it until Mac’s. Let’s hit it, Tre. My ass-kicking sister needs a drink”

  “I’m hittin’ it, I’m hittin’ it!” The side door slid shut next to me with a click and Tre J was laughing as she sped off around the corner onto Fourth.

  Tre’s a Norwegian Valkyrie built like a brick shithouse with an easy belly laugh as generous as her personality. She’s a friend of both mine and Jazy’s since we were little. They are roommates and work together on Jazy’s farm at the Lazy j Stables. They board, train, and sell horses, plus give riding lessons. Tre J is also in school training to be a Physical Therapist.

  “What up with the van?” I could feel the maternal hormones oozing from the leather seats around me. I took in the requisite DVD player screens necessary for a child’s entertainment while being driven somewhere for five blocks. I shuddered. I did not want to become infected with the highly contagious BiologicalClockTicking disease. Last I knew Tre J drove a monster truck capable of pulling a multi-horse trailer.

  They laughed at my bewildered tone. Jazy answered, “It’s Tre’s turn for sober cabbie. She borrowed it from her sister thinking we may want to get in some serious partying tonight. We can easily all ride together in this van.”

  I leaned forward. “Way to be thinking, Tre. Oh, and just for the record; I’ve never believed Jazy’s trash talking behind your back. This proves you haven’t taken one too many hockey sticks to the head.”

  Even playing around, Jazy packs a mean punch. I’ve seen her taking on a bad tempered, misbehaving twelve hundred pound horse. I successfully dodged her until Tre’s long arm blocked off my sister’s frustrated, laughing attempts to get me.

  Although a year behind me, and for reasons still known only to her, Tre J appointed herself my personal bodyguard when we were still in grade school. My budding career as a little smarty-mouth without a care to the recipient’s age, gender, size, or disposition was already in full bloom, but I’m still appreciative. I probably have Tre J’s threatening stare to thank for my smooth transition into a full-fledged, adult smart-ass with all my own teeth intact. She is an amazing six-feet-tall, weighs a glorious two hundred pounds, and was famous for playing defense in college women’s hockey. You do not want to piss off a woman acclaimed for wielding a hockey stick in comparison to that of a Norwegian war axe.

  Tre J stands for January Jolene Jivers. In grade school, she despised her first name with a passion second only to the disgust she felt for her middle and last names. I believe the phrase “trailer trash and porn star” was gritted out between her clenched teeth when asked for the explanation why she felt such enmity for her name.

  Feeling her pain and learning to count in Norwegian at this time, I suggested we change her alliterative, three banger of a name to Tre J. She was thrilled. Much to her mother’s chagrin, the name Tre J was officially adopted. We even presented her with a commemorative birth certificate, complete with my inked footprints representing her newborn feet. The dreaded January Jolene Jivers never crossed our lips again.

  Laughing and chatting, we detoured a couple of streets over to pick up Anna. Then it was back a few blocks up Fourth to Mac’s yellow Victorian. Elaborately trimmed out in white gingerbread; the house is a showstopper. The detached garage is as cute as the house. Above the garage is a studio apartment where Stella resides in solitary splendor.

  The arrangement of Stella living in the garage studio works well for Mac and my niece. Stella has the relative privacy she needs as a commuting, college freshman. Mac has the relative privacy she needs to enjoy her new husband of less than six months. They both can keep one eye on each other.

  For eighteen years, Mac had remained single after Freddy’s death. Six years ago, she purchased this house and moved out of the Division Street apartment with Stella.

  Last May, on
her thirty-sixth birthday, Mac met twenty-four-year old Diego Dos Santos at the grocery store he owns in Faribault. She was shopping his wide selection of peppers. He assisted her with her choice. Sparks flew from their first glance. The flame grew as conflagrant as a forest fire after their first date. One month later, Diego hot-footed Mac down the aisle.

  I compare my eldest sister to a locust. She lies low and leads your normal, somewhat staid life--then bursts out with lollapalooza drama every eighteen years. Her fifties should be interesting.

  Diego is Puerto Rican by ancestry, but was born in upstate New York. His family moved to Faribault when he was a little boy and opened the grocery store. He’s been the head of his family for several years since his father died of a heart attack when Diego was twenty. He stepped up to take over the reins of that store, and has recently purchased another small grocery market in Northfield. He’s an intelligent man, an entrepreneur, and extremely pretty. Not that his sizzling Latin looks had anything to do with Diego being able to convince my sister he was the man for her. Really.

  Does it make me bad I snicker behind my hand seeing my bossiest, prissiest, gearhead of a sister dueling her macho, movie-star handsome, youngster of an el esposo for supremacy on all fronts? And, often as not, losing?

  I don’t think so, either.

  Diego and Mac openly bicker and banter over the seesawing role of Alpha in their marriage. He’s used to running the show, and so is my big sis. They could sell tickets; their power struggle is that fun to watch.

  It’s my guess the newlyweds quite often, and quite sensibly, take the issue to the mat in the bedroom where they wrestle over the matter to their hearts content. I give them until New Year’s. They’ll figure it out, or kill each other by exhaustion. Either way’s a win.

  The four of us piled out of the van. We were joined by Stella coming down from her studio and, amidst greetings and chatter; we started trooping up to Mac’s back porch.

  I couldn’t miss the “SWEETAZ” vanity plate on the light blue, Honda Civic parked in the driveway. I thought Candy’s gun safety seminar in Duluth went through Sunday. I’m never pleased to see Candy, but tonight was the rare exception.

  Since birth, my cousin Candy has been spoiled shamelessly by her father, my Uncle Trevor, and has been allowed to run roughshod over her fluttering, ineffectual mother, my Aunt Carol. The only issue I have ever seen my gentle Aunt Carol take an unswerving stand on was not allowing Candy to have any pets. I’m glad I don’t know why. The general family consensus would have it that being spoiled is responsible for the ruination of whatever character potential Candy once had. Personally, I believe she was born a sociopathic personality; there was no character potential to be had, or lost. What was lost by her unfortunate parenting was the chance to become well-adjusted and perhaps develop her differences for good instead of evil.

  Candy hates she can’t manipulate me and use her superficial charm to blind me to her real nature. I don’t know why, but I have always seen her for what she is. Had she not tried to tangle with me because of this from the time I was five, maybe things would have been different.

  Anna and I dubbed Candy’s lying, conniving, cheating, and tantrum throwing ways being “Candy Coated”. It’s like getting slimed, only much worse.

  NanaBel feels sorry for this granddaughter. Even though Candy is three years my senior and has tried her damnedest to make my life a living hell; NanaBel has asked me repeatedly to go easy on Candy since we were kids. It proved impossible to like her, but for years I have avoided her, ignored her, and reluctantly turned the other cheek and kept quiet rather than destroy her--all in honor of respecting my grandmother’s wishes.

  NanaBel wants me to have pity for Candy because she’s an unhappy, empty soul and vastly needy. I say pity is a wasted emotion that benefits no one involved in the long run. The person being pitied learns nothing of value from their actions, and the people doing the pitying get the dubious satisfaction of being condescending and feeling morally superior. Big whoop.

  In this particular instance, I have disagreed with my grandmother’s judgment since day one. Throughout our childhoods and into adulthood, NanaBel doesn’t know half the shady shit Candy’s pulled. Candy grabs anything she wants as her due and knows no boundaries in her pursuit of this belief.

  I’m a girl who believes more in the motto of her forbearers from Scotland, Nemo Me Impune Lacessit. This is the Latin that translates roughly, “None shall provoke/injure me with impunity”. Combine that sensible motto with the proverb, “Revenge is a dish best served cold” and I’m good to go.

  Candy and I are long, long overdue for a cousinly chat, and NanaBel is far, far away in Egypt. You see, Candy has pushed me to my wall. She didn’t ask to borrow my gun, but stole it out of my apartment last Wednesday. Leaving a “Got your gun” note on my kitchen island hardly constituted asking my permission. Using the word stole is not too harsh or inaccurate. She knows I would not extend her a helping hand if she were drowning; much less lend her my gun.

  Tonight Anna, looking very cute and cozy in a purple wool jacket complete with matching plum colored mittens, hat and a scarf, gave the Honda a scowling glance, as if reading my thoughts.

  She touched my arm and held me back as the others continued up the sidewalk.

  “I’ve been meaning to tell you something all damn day, but keep forgetting and getting sidetracked.” Anna didn’t wait for my response but rushed on, “I wanted you to hear this before Candy or Kenna tells you. I ran into Mike last night at the Contented Cow. He’s joining his Uncle’s law firm in Minneapolis and is back living here. In Northfield, I mean.” She hesitated briefly. “He asked all about you. He wanted me to give you a message.”

  I stood frozen for a moment, processing what she said. My brain felt as cold as my hands. I’d drawn a blank for a second when she said the name Mike, but at the mention of my cousin and my sister her meaning became crystal clear.

  Mike McClain was my one awful aberration of a boyfriend and long term relationship. When we’d broken up, I’d talked about it only with Anna, and only once, so she’d understand why he was out of my life forever. My family was extremely surprised initially when we broke up, but soon forgot about it when I appeared disinterested and never spoke of him. The name Mike McClain was rarely brought up again in my presence since I was nineteen. It helped that his parents moved out of state due to a job transfer his second year in college and he’d never come back to Northfield. Until now.

  This was officially the day from hell. Could it get any more unreal? It only made a terrible kind of sense that ten years later, this would be the one day the name Mike McClain waltzed back into my life. My life was turning into a “Final Destination” movie. Fate was trying its damnedest to kick my ass.

  “Okay.”

  Anna peered at me in the moonlight. “Okay? What does ‘okay’ mean?”

  I linked my arm through Anna’s and started steering her up the sidewalk, snuggling against her for warmth. “Okay means okay. Now I know. Thanks.”

  Anna dug in her feet to stop me. “Wait, Junior. Don’t you want to know what questions he asked? Do you want to hear his message? Do you want to know if he’s fat or bald, or married to a heifer?”

  “Nope.” I pulled her forward again, and this time she walked with me up to the house.

  Anna grumbled, “I didn’t tell him anything about you, or answer any of his questions if you were wondering.”

  I may be cursed and doomed, but I couldn’t resist smiling at these grumpy words. “Never crossed my mind you would.”

  Anna grinned back while shaking her head. “Sometimes, I don’t understand you. It would drive me crazy to not ask questions if I hadn’t seen Reg in ten years. I want to know, June, how can you not be curious what he looks like now, if nothing else?”

  Standing under the porch light with a hand on the back door knob, I stared at my friend in silent deliberation. I softly blew out a long puff of white, cold air.

  ‘What
the hell, it was a long time ago and this was my best friend asking.’

  “You remember, right, how it was for Mike McClain and I for over two years?”

  I don’t know what she saw written on my face or heard in my voice, but Anna nodded solemnly, eyes serious.

  I spoke matter-of-factly to get it over with. “I really loved Mike with every fiber of my being. It wasn’t naively; I knew every one of his faults and I loved them, too. Yes, I was young and innocent, blah, blah, but I was never that young. It wasn’t some high school crush for me. I would have joyfully loved him forever, that’s how sure and deep and right it was for me.” I smiled wistfully at Anna, letting myself recall for a moment how it felt to be so completely in love. “I never doubted he felt the same way.”

  I saw her face soften, but she stayed quiet.

  “I believed back then our bond, our connection, was something undeniably special. After all the men I have met since then, I know now how true that was.” I shrugged lightly. “At least, for me it was. I could live to be a million years old and I will still never get why Mike did what he did. Why he threw me away. Of course, I never bothered to talk to him about it, but you know the really strange thing about it all, Anna? I’ve always suspected somewhere deep down Mike didn’t know why, either.”

  This was the hard part. I hated to even think about this period in my life and rarely did anymore. I forced myself to push the words out. “At the time, I told you how he betrayed me. What I didn’t tell anybody was how rough it was dealing. I had to cut Mike out of my heart so missing him didn’t eat me up like a cancer and kill me; it was that bad. I was sick to my soul not having him in my life. My pride insisted I hide it from everyone.” I shrugged. “So I did. I hid it every minute, of every hour, of every day, week after miserable week.

  “Finally, after a few years, and I do mean years, I cut off my feelings deep enough that it was actually true. I no longer needed him to feel whole and right. I thought about him less and less. I didn’t have dreams about him at night that made me hate waking up and facing the morning. Sounds dramatic, right? Yeah, well, how I wish I was being a drama queen.” I smiled softly, reaching out to wipe a tear overflowing from Anna’s welling eyes. “You little crybaby.” She whipped off her mitten to give me the finger and I smiled again. “I say it’s okay because he’s nothing to me now, Anna, less than nothing. All right?”