Beyond The Gate - Book 2 of the Golden Queen Series

by David Farland

  "But let me ask you this, Gallen. Is it our obligation to govern other peoples, or to find a purpose in life for them, or to be their friends?" Ceravanne asked, and her voice was desperate. "You are human, from a world not unlike Tremonthin: who ever tried to give you a purpose in life? Who ever protected you? Can't you see—all of these things that you say the humans owe the people of Babel, in your own country, you don't even force them on your own children. It would be wicked to do so. If these people in Babel want law, then they have to figure out how to create and enforce their own laws. They weren't designed to live by human standards, and I can't take the right to govern themselves away from them."

  "But you deny them life. . . ." Gallen objected, angry that she would not or could not see his point.

  "And we deny most of our own people more than one life," Ceravanne said. "Even the best of us often only get our lives extended by a few decades."

  "But the humans of Tremonthin created these people," Gallen objected. "You owe them!"

  "Since we created them, doesn't it stand to reason that they owe us for the blessing of life?" Ceravanne countered. "Think of it. Do we owe them more than we owe our own children? Even for our own children, we make no guarantees. We make no promises of love or acceptance or wealth. No society can promise all of these things to its individuals. Happiness comes as a reward for a life well lived. It cannot be an entitlement."

  "But . . ."

  "There are no buts," Ceravanne said. "Gallen, all of your thoughts, all of those confused feelings, those are just the Inhuman talking. Those notions don't make any sense when you look at them closely. But the dronon want you to believe them. The dronon want you to believe that their Golden Queen will take care of us. But you've seen what the dronon offer on other worlds. They want to feed off us, as parasites. Gallen, the dronon showed you the lives of a few folks. They told you a story, providing the sights, the smells, the emotions. They told you a lie.

  "But more importantly, I want you to realize that you are spouting dangerous dogma that doesn't necessarily follow from the information you've been given. Think about it, and you'll know I'm right. The dronon are teaching you on a subconscious level, altering your thought patterns. The memories they feed you only serve to cover the deeper alterations, and to make you think that you changed your mind on your own."

  Gallen was stunned. She had all the answers, all waiting in her hand like needles to prod him with. It seemed obvious that she had argued against the Inhuman before. He felt confused, and a buzzing sounded in his ears, sounded so loudly that he had a hard time thinking. He wanted to speak against her, but he could not think what to say next. The room seemed to be spinning, and Gallen found himself wanting to take Ceravanne by the throat, shake some sense into her. For the moment he seemed certain of only one thing: she was his enemy.

  He grabbed her neck and pushed her against the wall. "Liar! Deceitful little vixen!" he said, and the room spun mightily so that he wondered if he could even stand. In his mind, her presence registered only as some hateful creature, a woman with long skeletal hands, groping for him.

  Ceravanne hit the stone wall and slid down, her mouth open as if she would cry out, her eyes wide with fear, and Gallen knew that if she spoke again, he would have to silence her. Lightning struck outside—once, twice, a third time.

  But the Tharrin only sat heavily in the ivy leaves. For a long moment, she only breathed, and Gallen's anger began to pass. The room quit spinning, and Gallen's mantle whispered, Seek shelter below, next to Maggie, quickly! And suddenly Gallen knew that the Inhuman had been communicating with him, trying to download its arguments directly into his mind.

  Gallen stood gazing down at Ceravanne. "Don't hurt me," she pleaded, and she folded her arms, sat gazing up at him, a helpless child.

  Gallen found that his sword had unaccountably appeared in his hand. Some time in the past minute, he had drawn it. And he'd been prepared to kill her, without thinking.

  He shoved it back into his scabbard, and he wanted to run then, wanted to rush down the stairs and hide in the woods for what he'd almost done. He felt terribly embarrassed.

  "Forgive me," he whispered, white shock registering in his brain only as numbness. "The Inhuman can be . . . subtle."

  "You're forgiven," Ceravanne said with a tiny nod. She reached up her thin hand, so that he could help her up.

  He took it, pulled her to a standing position. His heart was hammering with fear, and something else. . . . The air in the room was moist and closed, and Ceravanne's scent was thick. She was trembling, frightened, and he wanted to ease her mind. So he kissed her hand, looking into her eyes. She was small and pale, like a porcelain figure. Her hand, when he kissed it, tasted sweet. He'd almost forgotten how sweet the taste of a Tharrin could be.

  Ceravanne reached up, and she was shaking, leaning against him. Her whole body trembled. She gazed deeply into his eyes. "You see," she whispered desperately, "that I was right when I told you that I needed your heart. If you do not give it to me, the Inhuman will take it. Gallen, give me your heart!"

  She kissed his chin experimentally, then brushed her lips against his. A burning passion rose in him, and Gallen kissed her full on the lips, pulling her close. She drew tight against him, her flesh folding into his like a lover's, her arms embracing him. All thought retreated, and for one moment, there was only that passionate kiss blossoming like a field of wild poppies in his mind. Every nerve in his body tingled, her touch was lightning, and she groaned, tried to pull him to the floor there among the ivy.

  Desperately, he pushed her away. "No!" Gallen cried. "I am married to Maggie!"

  And he fled across the room from her, stood by the doorway. Ceravanne was on her knees now, breathing heavily, gazing at him, stunned. "No man has ever rejected me," she said, hurt in her voice.

  He turned for the door, and she said, "If it is Maggie you want, then be faithful to her, Gallen—remain as faithful to her in Moree as you have been tonight."

  Gallen hurried down the stairway, almost running. When he reached the bottom he found the fire still going. Tallea was hunched over it, putting in some more dry dung. Everyone else had gone to sleep, but Gallen stayed awake for the rest of the night while the others rested. He stared off into the rain, letting the full powers of his mantle keep watch while he remained on guard duty.

  And through the night, ghosts came, the memories of people long dead, and they took him on journeys he could not sleep through and could not hope to escape. He felt like a child on a sandy beach, with water rushing in upon him with tremendous force, and with each crashing wave, the sand beneath him would shift, so that he felt as if something essential were being dragged away.

  It did not matter where he stood in that little room. It did not matter that his mantle tried to block the signals. The Inhuman was overpowering him moment by moment, so that sometimes while the others slept, Gallen sobbed or cried out softly.

  Long before morning, Gallen woke the others, and they headed south.

  Chapter 22

  By dawn the companions were on the road again, and Tallea felt . . . decent for the first time in three days. She was able to sit with little pain, and in fact could feel herself mending, and to her it seemed miraculous. As a Caldurian, she tended to heal fast anyway, but the Immortal's blood had worked wonders on her wounds.

  More importantly, the support that these people had given her was working wonders on her spirit. A year earlier, when Ceravanne's other self had come to Babel, Tallea had hired on with her band, had led them into the wilderness of Moree, and there she lost them to the Tekkar. At the time Ceravanne had not announced herself as the Swallow. Indeed, Tallea had only thought her to be a beautiful woman, traveling as a companion to the valiant swordsmen who sought to destroy the Inhuman.

  But one night, when they had neared Moree, the Tekkar ambushed their small band. Many good men died before their swords cleared their scabbards. Tallea herself had been sorely wounded and left among the dead. And C
eravanne, beautiful Ceravanne had been carried away into Moree where the Tekkar would do unspeakable things to her.

  For a year Tallea had been serving on ships, waiting for a new band to make its way into Moree. And this time, she vowed, they would slay the Inhuman. For a year she had suffered alone on the ships, refusing to bind herself to anyone. It was an untenable situation for a Caldurian, and only her training, her devotion to the ways of the Roamers, had helped her survive.

  Yet now, as they rode in the oversized wagon through a gray dawn, she could not help but feel concerned. It seemed that some cosmic balance was being maintained. Minute by minute, her pains decreased, and she blossomed to greater health.

  Minute by minute, Gallen was crumbling, falling in on himself like an old house toppling under its own weight.

  He hadn't slept all night, and during the morning he just sat, huddled in the driver's seat of the wagon, his mouth slack as he stared into nothingness. The travelbeast was guiding the wagon more than Gallen was.

  Orick whispered to Maggie about it. "There is a horror on Gallen's face that I've never seen before. Gallen has always been a feisty lad-nothing like this."

  And so the travelbeast ran on, its head rising and falling as it drew the wagon along the bank of a winding muddy river. Ceravanne took control of the wagon for a while, and Maggie took Gallen and cradled his head against her breast tenderly, and he stared out the back of the wagon, at the trees falling behind.

  Gallen muttered, "Eighteen . . . eighteen. My defenses are crumbling."

  Maggie said that her own mantle whispered insistently that it was doing all it could to block the Inhuman's transmissions. And when Maggie asked Gallen to tell her about this latest life he had lived, he said nothing for many minutes.

  "God, I wish I were home," Maggie whispered in his ear. "I wish we both were home, that we'd never come. This trip is changing us, destroying you."

  "So the journey changes us," Gallen said wearily, surprising Tallea by responding at all. "You can't walk from your house without your hairs growing whiter. You can't walk down to the gate without taking a risk. And from the death of the old, the new is born."

  "This isn't a walk to the gate," Maggie said. "Ever since you went to the teaching machines on Fale, you've lost some of yourself, some of your accent. Now, you hardly sound as if you're from Tihrglas at all."

  Gallen said no more for a long time, and Ceravanne, who was sitting up front, exchanged worried glances with Maggie.

  One of the rear wheels began squeaking a bit, and Tallea climbed up, ignoring the stabbing pains in her side, got the swabbing rod out of the grease, and daubed each wheel.

  No one spoke for a long time. They passed through several small villages in the space of a few hours, and Fenorah stopped at the largest to grain the travelbeast and to purchase salt, food, leather for shoes, and a number of small items that they had not had a chance to carry.

  All during that stop, Gallen went and stood leaning against a hitching post, and the townsfolk took great pains to avoid him. Even a pair of yellow dogs that were running together crossed to the far side of the street.

  As Fenorah began loading the wagon in preparation to leave, he glanced at Gallen and mumbled, "Only twenty demons in him, and he's ready to crumble. Ifan apple spoiled in our food barrel, would we not throw it out?"

  "What you saying?" Tallea asked.

  Fenorah nodded toward Gallen. "I'm worried. He's a danger to us now—perhaps more dangerous than he knows. If we left him, I do not think he'd notice."

  And Tallea realized that Fenorah truly was entertaining thoughts of leaving Gallen behind. Sometimes, it seemed that people who were not of the Caldur were so unaware of how the tenuous threads of friendship could bind people together, lend them support. To her, those feelings were almost a visible thing, they were so strongly felt.

  "Now he needs us most," she said, struggling into a more comfortable position. "Servants of Inhuman want you reject him, so he turn to them for companionship. "

  Orick pricked his ears forward and stood still for a moment. "You're right!" Orick shouted in a voice that echoed from the buildings, and he got up from the bed of the wagon and stood clumsily with his two front feet on the backboard. "This is no time to turn our backs on him."

  He jumped from the wagon, ran to Gallen's side, and stood, wrapping his paws around Gallen's shoulders. By applying his weight, he pushed Gallen to the ground. "I've had enough from you!" Orick said, putting one great paw on Gallen's chest. "You spirits, I adjure you to come out of this man, in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. Amen!"

  Gallen grunted, gave half a laugh, and his eyes suddenly cleared, as if he'd wakened. "Orick., I wish it were that simple!"

  "Och, well, it was worth a try," Orick growled, looking from side to side as if for another answer. "Look., Gallen, my friend, you remember your Bible: and if Satan can appear as an angel, then it's no great feat for the dronon to disguise themselves as our friends. But I tell you, Gallen, even if you had a head made of straw and a belly full of whiskey, rd expect you to know better! 'When the dronon came to Clere, they didn't pass out bags of gold and welcome us to paradise. They chewed off John Mahoney's head, and shot Father Heany, turning our priest into a puddle. And on Fale, they didn't come ask Maggie if she'd like to be their slave. They put a Guide on her and dragged her off—me fighting them tooth and claw. You know better than to trust a word they say!"

  "Get off me," Gallen choked, "I can't breathe!"

  "I'll not get off you until you start making sense!" Orick growled, and he put both front paws on Gallen and bounced his weight on him experimentally, as if to prove the point. "I don't care whose memories are rolling around in your head, Gallen. Your own memories are in there, too. You've got to take control of yourself!"

  Gallen stared up at Orick, and there was a bleakness to his countenance, a look of utter desolation, and then a smile crossed his face, and he began laughing. It was not a happy laugh, though it held a tone of relief. "Well said, my dearest friend. I hereby take control of myself."

  "Good," Orick grumbled, "'cause I'd hate to have to crush you." He backed off Gallen's chest, sniffed the air. Then reached down and nipped at Gallen's mask., pulling it halfway off. "And take off that ugly mask."

  Gallen crumpled the blue mask., put it in a pocket of his robes. Then he rolled over, began climbing to his knees. Orick bit the collar of his robe and began dragging him forward playfully, growling, "Come on, into the wagon with you." By now, a dozen locals began gathering to watch the spectacle, creeping out of shops, openly asking one another what was going on, and for their benefit Orick said loudly, "We'll have no more public displays of drunkenness, young man!"

  Orick climbed up to the wagon, and in moments they were off.

  Gallen looked to be himself, smiling around at his friends, and he put his arms around Orick gratefully, and for the moment, Tallea knew that they had him back.

  When they passed out of town, beneath the shade of chestnut trees that lined the road, Gallen looked up at Ceravanne. "You told me once that you could help me fight this. I need your help."

  Ceravanne, who had been sitting up front to drive, turned back around, pulled the reins and brought the travelbeast to a halt, then set the brake. "Lean your head into Maggie's lap, and stare into her face."

  Gallen lay back, so that his long golden hair spread about Maggie's lap, and he gazed up into Maggie's face. Ceravanne climbed down beside them, and the back of the wagon bed was suddenly crowded, but Tallea herself did not mind the close bodies. It reminded her of her childhood in the crèche at Wind Mountain, sleeping with her sisters among the pile of blankets in their dormitory.

  "Maggie is the woman you love," Ceravanne said softly, and only the gentle hiss of the wind through the trees competed with her voice. "You have loved her since you were children, and you gave your heart to her long ago. Look into her eyes and concentrate, try to recall every detail of her face, and remember that she is th
e one you have chosen to give yourself to. . . ." She hesitated, and Gallen stared into Maggie's face, his mouth working as he silently spoke to himself. Cool clouds were scudding overhead, and the wind played delicately in Maggie's hair. Ceravanne's voice was fragile, dreamy. "Maggie is the one you've loved forever. Tell this to yourself, over and over. A hundred times is not enough. A thousand times is just the beginning. A hundred thousand times, you must repeat this, though it take the next year of your life."

  Gallen stared up at Maggie for a long time, and she held his face. The sun shone through the clouds on him, and Tallea could see on his nose the pale remnants of freckles that might have been more pronounced in childhood. He had a strong jaw, and clear blue eyes, and for a few moments, all the pain and worry seemed to leach away. Maggie was holding Gallen's chin, stroking it, and he was gazing up into Maggie's eyes. So Gallen did not notice when Ceravanne reached down and brushed his lips with the back of her forefinger.

  Tallea had heard much about how the touch of a Tharrin could calm a person. Indeed, Gallen licked the back of Ceravanne's finger, sensually, kissed it, thinking it was Maggie's caress.

  Then Ceravanne pulled her finger away gently, took Maggie's hand and moved her forefinger into the same position, and he kissed it. Suddenly his eyes became clear, focused, and he stared at Maggie, unblinking, for several moments, then fell asleep.

  He rested for a long time in Maggie's lap, and Maggie said, "What did you do to him? Put him to sleep?"

  Ceravanne shook her head. "No. He has hardly slept in three days. I think that we just eased his mind enough so that fatigue finally took him."

  "But what did you do?"

  Ceravanne said softly to Maggie, "Every woman's touch can have a power over man, but a Tharrins touch is very strong. There are . . . agents, pheromones in my skin that he craves, that can cause him to bond to me. I exude them at all times, but I do so more when I am afraid. It's a defense mechanism that your ancestors gave me. He tasted those pheromones, but it was your face he was watching. He will be more strongly bonded to you now."