Dual Desires (Triple Threat Book 3)

by Bella Jeanisse

  I smiled. “I love you too.” It felt right to say that to him. Please don’t hate me, Giovanni.

  Chad kissed me again. “I feel like I’m dreaming. Those words feel so good.” He kissed me once more as he put his fingers through my hair. “I’m gonna take a shower before I get to work. Tell Mom to knock if you need anything.” Then he grabbed the duffel bag and disappeared into the bathroom.

  My mom came to me with a plate of food and put some in my open mouth. “You have to eat. You’re losing too much weight. Your ribs are showing.”

  I lifted my pajamas and saw what she meant. How can Chad think that’s sexy? I ate a few bites, but then my stomach started to ache. I turned away. “No more. I can’t.”

  “Food helps you heal.” She frowned before she put the plate down. When she came back, she lifted my nighty. “This is pretty, but why did you put it here?”

  I closed my eyes and thought of when Giovanni suggested the tattoo around my belly button. Now we couldn’t have a baby together. A tear fell from my eye. Pain filled my heart again. The sudden mood changes annoyed me. How I grieved was unconventional. So they sort of made sense.

  “Giovanni said the butterflies would grow when we had a baby.” I sniffled. “I miss him so much, Mom.” Then the tears came out in a flood.

  She took me in her arms and caressed the back of my head. “I know, honey. I can see that. You loved him. It’s normal to miss him. I know it hurts but it won’t hurt forever. I promise.”

  We cried together until Chad came to my bedside, dressed in shorts. “What happened?”

  My mom let me go, slowly. Then she caressed my face. “If I had known, I never would’ve said anything.” She still had tears on both cheeks.

  “Ma, there’s no avoiding upsetting her.” He put his hand on her shoulder. “She’s healed a lot, but there’s a long way to go.”

  “I’m going to take a walk.” She sniffled. “Val, come with me. They need each other.”

  As soon as our moms had left the room, Chad got up on the bed and held me close. “Baby, what is it? What’d she say?”

  “She… she…” I took in a ragged breath and grabbed his shirt. “The baby…”

  His breath caught in his throat. “You’re pregnant? Why didn’t you say anything?” Suddenly his expression turned to alarm. “All the medicine they give you… It’s not safe… Oh God!”

  “No!” I buried my face in his chest and started to bawl, unable to control myself. I completely forgot I actually could be pregnant. “Wait. We had—had… accident.”

  “I know.” Chad kissed my forehead. “I can’t forget the accident either.”

  My face buried in his chest, I mumbled, “No. We had an accident.” I barely understood myself.

  “Shh, don’t talk.”

  Frustrated and filled with grief, I tried to talk, but I couldn’t stop bawling. I smacked his chest, to try to make him understand it was serious.

  He carefully pulled me to my side and molded our bodies together. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what I said wrong. Baby, please. Let me help you.”

  “Giovanni… Giovanni and me…” I shut my eyes tight, to stop the memories of our talk in the van, just before the accident. However, I had to tell him the condom broke somehow. I couldn’t stop or put my thoughts into words. “Maybe… Um, it… He wanted… We were…. gonna…” I took in a deep breath. “He wanted us to have a baby.”

  Chad’s body tensed. I was sure he thought of the time we thought he had gotten me pregnant. “Oh, I didn’t know either.” He relaxed and rubbed my back “Ma asked about the tattoo, huh? She didn’t mean to hurt you.” He exhaled, loudly, on my neck. “It’s OK. We can have a baby if you want, after you’re healed, though.”

  “We—We…” Then a new round of tears started. Slowly, I recovered. “I could be.” I lifted my head. “I could be pregnant.” I swallowed hard. Then I tried to continue, but my lip quivered. “He… Condom broke that morning.”

  Obviously, Chad held in his emotions. He shuddered a few times before he uttered. “You’ll make an amazing mother.” Then his eyes opened wide. “Oh shit!” He let me go and ran from the room.

  Minutes later, Angel, my favorite nurse, came in the room. She brushed the hair from my face. “Anything I can do?” She was very good to me and genuinely cared about me.

  “I’m OK,” I quietly managed. Worried, I watched the door for Chad.

  She tilted her head and her eyebrows went up, It was something she did when she knew I lied. “I heard you crying. You sure there’s nothing I can do?”

  Chad ran back in the room. “Can’t find him.” He panted and tried to catch his breath.

  Angel turned to him then back to me. “Is it another headache?”

  Finally under control, Chad came to my side and kissed my lips. “No. It’s Giovanni.”

  “Oh, I’m sorry to intrude. The pain eases with time. I wish we could’ve saved him.” She smiled and touched Chad’s shoulder. “If anyone can help her through this, it’s you. You’re an incredible friend.”

  With a smile of his own, Chad looked into my eyes. “Well, she’s an incredible girl.”

  “Let me know if you need me. I’m just a buzz away.” She spun around and headed out the door.

  Chad shouted, “Wait. I can’t find Dr. Hatchet. She needs a pregnancy test.”

  “Oh wow.” Angel covered her mouth with a hand. “Let me get someone quick.” Her urgency worried me.

  I grabbed Chad’s hand. “My baby’ll be OK. Right?”

  “Don’t worry.” Chad put on a brave face and touched his forehead to mine. “It’ll be fine. I’m always here for you.” His hand shook though. I felt bad my news hurt him.

  We both turned to footsteps. Angel walked in with a Phlebotomist. I squeezed Chad’s hand. He moved almost behind me and kissed my cheek. I shut my eyes. Anytime they drew blood, I cringed. Even with the long stay there, I had not gotten used to it.

  “I’ll put a rush on this,” Angel assured us when it was over.

  Chad took a deep breath. “Thanks.” He sat on the bed and leaned over me. “It’ll be OK.” His gentle hug reassured me, although my mind raced.

  * * *

  The wait for results was difficult. Our mothers returned, and we said nothing. Chad didn’t let go of my hand for more than a few seconds.

  Many of Giovanni’s words haunted me. So much he had said in the last months made sense. It was as if he knew our time together would be cut short. His urge to impregnate me finally made sense. If he didn’t do it quickly, it would never happen. I lay a hand on my abdomen. He said he would love me forever. I never thought I could lose him.

  “We’re going to get lunch,” My mother said as she stood next to me. “I’ll bring you back a Gyro.” She couldn’t handle my lack of appetite.

  I nodded. “OK.”

  “What do you want?” She lay a hand on Chad’s cheek.

  He smiled. “Whatever. A Gyro’s fine.”

  Just as they walked out of the room, Dr. Hatchet walked in. I tensed then cringed at the pain that caused. He gave me his best smile. “The test was negative.” He moved closer. “When did you have unprotected sex?”

  “Friday.” My eyes closed as another round of tears threatened. “Before he… died.”

  Dr. Hatchet sighed. “I’m so sorry.” He lifted my chart and wrote some things down. “It’s really too soon to know for sure. We can take another test in a week. For now I’m changing all your medications.”

  “Could there be issues…” Chad glanced at me. “…with the baby… because of the meds?”

  With a straight face, Dr. Hatchet replied, “I doubt it. Let’s not think about that.” He smiled then left the room.

  “I’m sorry.” I felt guilty for everything.

  Chad shook his head. “I understand. I’ll raise the baby like my own. Promise.”

  I knew he was still hurt. “OK.” I was torn. Can’t I have Giovanni’s baby and Chad happy? It seemed impossible. Maybe afte
r time, Chad would eventually accept the situation and not have to fake it.

  Chapter 18

  Chad leaned down and whispered, “I love you.”

  We had spent much of the past thirty minutes in tears together. My sobs had stopped, but the grim emotions were still at the surface. I wanted to tell him I loved him, but the words were too hard. My heart yearned for him and Giovanni. It was beyond confusing.

  “It’s OK, baby. You don’t have to say it. I feel it.” He silently held me for a few more minutes. Then he lifted his head. “How about I help you wash up? I got something special that might make you smile.”

  I sighed. I wanted to cheer up. “I guess.”

  It usually only took him a few minutes to get set up. He had a routine by then and always washed me the same way. As I watched him mix the soap and water, I wondered if Giovanni would have been able to handle things as well as Chad did. I was quite sure he would have fallen apart by then or exploded in anger. They were very different men.

  “Baby, you ready?”

  I looked up at him as he stood over me. “Uh-huh.” Then I closed my eyes and turned away, worried Giovanni would be upset about my feelings.

  Lips pressed against my temple for a few seconds. “I’m sorry. I wish I could I take away the memories.” He ran a hand through my hair a few times.

  When my panties came down, I glanced up to see the curtain drawn around us. “Ow!” I cried out when Chad’s watch scratched my hip.

  “Oh fuck. Sorry.” I heard him take it off. “I forgot I had it on. You OK?”

  I nodded and closed my eyes again.

  He gently caressed the right side of my body. “The bruises’re starting to fade.”

  Soon after my clothes were off, a soft wet cloth ran up my left leg. Chad had asked his mom to buy better washcloths because the ones the hospital provided irritated my healing skin.

  After Chad lifted my leg, he sighed. “Mmmm, that looks so good.” He groaned. “Stop it.”

  I almost laughed. He tried to control himself.

  “Oh yeah, funny for you.” He rubbed my left nipple with a fingertip. “How about I turn you on too?”

  Both my nipples instantly hardened, and I had the urge to moan.

  “There you go. We’re even.” He let out a short laugh. “Well maybe not. My dick’s even harder now.” He groaned but started to wash me again. “This gets harder every day. I wanna fuck you so bad.”

  I peeked at him. His face was a bit contorted. He obviously fought the urge to fondle me. I had wondered how long levelheaded Chad could last. His impulsive nature started to show through.

  Chad cringed as he lifted my broken arm a little to wash me under it. “I’ll be fast. Am I hurting you?”

  “I’m OK.” I bit my lip with the lie. Then I sighed with relief when he laid it back in place.

  He startled me when he sucked on my left nipple. “Does this make up for it?” His tongue flicked at it, which caused it to harden even more. “Seems you like it,” He sucked harder.

  I gasped, and my hips automatically lifted a bit. “Don’t start. Please.”

  He pulled back. “Unless I’m gonna finish. Right?” He smirked and lifted his eyebrows. “Maybe I will.” One last flick of the tongue then he was back to the job at hand.

  When Chad gently washed my face, he looked into my eyes. His love ran so deep I could see it clearly. “Think you can sit up? You dizzy?”

  “I’m good,” I assured him.

  He sat me up and helped me brush my teeth. When we were done, he held onto me as he put things on the table. “Don’t lay back. I gotta dry your hair.”

  As he rubbed my head, I used my good hand to dry my body with the other towel. I didn’t do a great job but at least I tried.

  “Now relax. OK?” Chad collected everything after he helped me lie back and left me alone for a minute. “Mmm, damn,” he uttered when he returned.

  That’s when I realized my legs had fallen open. The position was somewhat comfortable. I didn’t want to move, but didn’t want to make it worse for Chad either.

  “No don’t.” Chad held my legs open. “I love looking at your pussy.” He looked down at me as a hand slid up my inner thigh. “So perfect and…” He pushed a finger into me. “Yeah, nice and wet too.”

  I whimpered with the sudden pleasure then moaned when he added another.

  “Fuck. This is turning me on even more.”

  His fingers reached in deeper. I clung to the side of the bed while he grazed my sweet spot. “Uh, Chad, I’m… Uh… Wait.” I was scared I would scream.

  He just smirked and continually stroked it. My breath came faster as I tried to hold back, but it felt so amazing, I couldn’t. My mouth opened, but I stayed silent, while I quivered within.

  Then suddenly, his hand started to slam into me. It was a lost cause to resist. My eyes opened wide, and I whimpered as the first spasm washed over me. Chad didn’t stop. Another orgasm quickly followed, and I cried out his name quietly. My head went back a little while the trembling lasted.

  I looked at Chad. His erection strained against his jeans. I wanted him so badly. If I could talk, I’d tell him to jump on the bed and fuck me. Then all thoughts were gone, when I saw stars from yet another one. My hips lifted, painfully, and then suddenly fluid gushed from me.

  “You came on me.” Chad moaned. “Fuck, that’s hot.”

  “Are you guys fucking?” Tommy’s voice came from behind the curtain.

  Chad quickly pulled his fingers from my body. “No, Tom. I’m giving her a bath.”

  “Yeah and doing something to that sweet pussy.” I could hear the jealousy in Tommy’s tone. “I know what she sounds like when she cums.”

  Chad sighed and looked at me then the sheet between my legs. He leaned in close. “I have to change the bed now too. But damn, I didn’t think you’d do that.”

  The curtain moved and Tommy appeared. “Mmmm yeah, you got her to squirt. Love when she does that all over my dick.”

  “She does it all the time for you?” Chad looked confused. “But—”

  Tommy grimaced. “Oh, she never has for you? Sorry, man. You kinda gotta get rough with her for it to happen. Or just press that spot.” His eyebrows went up, and he winked at me. He knew how to find it.

  “I guess I didn’t know to look for it.” Chad looked slightly disappointed. He washed his hands off in the water and brought the washcloth back to me. “Hey, Tom I need you to hold her. So I can change the sheet.”

  Tommy looked at him quizzically. “Just have a nurse do it.”

  “I don’t want them to figure out what I was doin’ to her.” Chad moved the cloth between my legs. “She needed it. She’s having a hard day.”

  Soon he covered me in a blanket then lifted me up before he set me on Tommy’s lap. Chad carefully moved the wires and tubes attached to me while I relaxed against Tommy and lay my head on his shoulder. I was a little worn out. The emotional day and the much-needed release zapped my energy.

  “Babe, when he’s done, you think we could fuck?” His tone told me he was serious. “I got such a hard-on.”

  I felt it, but Tommy was hard most of the time I was around him. “You’ll hurt me.” I didn’t want to say no, but our moms could come back at any minute. For the first time, I wished he and Hailey had a monogamous relationship.

  “I’ll be gentle,” he whispered. “I need your pussy, please. It looked so good all wet like that.”

  I heard Chad pull the sheet off but couldn’t look at him while Tommy tried to convince me. I didn’t want to tell him Chad and I had gotten closer, and he may not want to share me. “I can’t, Tommy.”

  He ran a hand down my back and stopped at my ass. “Maybe when you get home.” He squeezed my cheek. “If you need a place to stay, you can always have your room back. I’ll hire a nurse to take care of you. The only thing I want in return is this sweet ass once in a while.” He nuzzled my neck then bit me gently. “I’ll fuck that pussy till you cum all over me t
hen slide into your ass and cum deep inside you. You know I’m dying to cum in you.”

  I lifted my head quickly but regretted it. “Chad…” I grabbed a fistful of Tommy’s shirt.

  “Shh.” Tommy cradled my head against him. “Let him finish. I’m right here.”

  Chad’s voice startled me. “She OK?”

  “Just dizzy,” Tommy replied as I tried to pull away. “Babe, relax. It’ll stop OK? Just please stay still.” He rubbed the back of my neck then held me close. “Are the episodes at least getting further apart?”

  I stopped fighting him and slumped against him. “Yeah, I didn’t have one last night.”

  “That’s good.” He kissed my forehead. “Chad, when they setting her arm?”

  Chad touched my head. “Tomorrow. It’s supposed to be early, but they didn’t give me a time yet.” He moved his hand. “Baby, you sure you’re OK? You got a funny look on your face.”

  I closed my eyes. The look was because I was scared. “Chad, how’re they gonna fix it?”

  All I knew is it still hurt to the touch or if it was moved. I had not seen what it looked like. I did hear that most of my skin was gone in one section because it had been dragged along the asphalt during the accident. Chad didn’t know I heard him talk to the orthopedic surgeon the day before.

  “Hey.” Chad caressed my cheek. “Don’t be scared. They’ll put you out, baby.” He kissed my head. “The doctor said they’re gonna have to use screws and stuff like in your ankle. Don’t worry. I’ll take care of you till you can do things on your own.”

  I knew he would, but my fear was because I didn’t know what life would be like when I left the hospital. My whole life had changed. Memories of the accident surfaced. That made me feel even worse. The dull ache in my head started yet again. They always came together, pain and memories, at least as of late.

  “Come here. Let me dress you.” Chad lifted me up and quickly got me on the bed. “Guess what I brought?” He sifted through our bag then held up his favorite bra and panty set. “I can’t wait to see you in these again.” He smiled, slyly.