by Denetria
For the next couple of months everyone, including my parents, saw a change in me, and it was all because of him. When going to visit my children, he would go with me and even though it hurt; it wasn’t as bad as it was. Time spent at his home became more; it was as if I had basically moved in and the feelings between us became more intense. Even though we had continued to restrain ourselves from having sex, there were times when I wanted to literally ask him “what the hell he was waiting on.”
Six months into us talking, he took dad to the game he had promised him, and mom and I sat talking. I told her how happy I was and she was happy to see me so happy. My heart dropped thinking that this is the moment from him that I had been waiting for. Finally he was going to give me my engagement ring, finally we would be able to indulge in the feelings that we were fighting off. Over the past couple of months the only thing I had given him was head, the only thing he had done to me was finger fuck me and I can say he did it pretty damn good. I had never and I mean never had a man who finger fucked me the way this man did. When I tell you that this man had fingers that worked wonders; bitch I couldn’t say anything, I couldn’t do anything, all I could do was hold him, move him and try to wiggle away from the spell he had on me.
My dreams were shot when I looked inside the box to see a key; not only one key, but a set of keys. Each key he said had a significant meaning. One key was to the front door, the other the back, and the other was to the Lexus that he had just gotten me which had only one name on the title….mine. He had already talked to my parent’s and they agreed to me moving out; in fact, they were king of happy that I was, but it was a decision I had to make now. I fell into his arms kissing him. This was a relationship that I was going to make work.
The more we went to visit the kids’ the more I noticed that she was not with him. It didn’t bother me, I had what I wanted and I wasn’t going to worry about a relationship that wasn’t for me. Jaheem had made up in his mind what he wanted and I had in my mind that all I wanted to do was let the judge see that I wasn’t the mother that they had set out for me to be. We had even began setting their rooms up for their visits.
There weren’t always good times between us. I was just moving in and I was used to having things done a certain way just like he was; which lead us arguing over crazy shit. Like which direction the toilet paper should go, leaving the toilet seat up. I didn’t go through his house changing anything; I kept it the way it was just in case things didn’t work out like we wanted. I still kept my little job, which he didn’t want me to have, but I wasn’t falling back into that anymore; I just had to have that security just in case.
One evening we invited the girls’ over for a little get together and he invited some of his friends. Surprisingly Jazz showed up with the young lady she met at the club that night. Cache was quiet, not like the type that we would picture Jazz with, but she was a cutie, and she held Jazz down. The girls’ seemed to be getting along with the other guys there; basically it all was coming together. We all moved into the kitchen, while the guys’ sat in the living room watching TV. “So what do you all think,” I asked them all ready knowing what they were going to say.
“Girl I’m not worrying about you, I’m trying to get like you,” Constance said.
DeLay smiled at Kash,” I can’t believe how all the guys here are so much in tune to what we are looking for. I wonder if someone has been running their mouths. Believe me I’m not complaining, I’m glad you ran your mouth this time Egypt,” We all burst out laughing and noticed the guys walk over to us, “What are you girls’ talking about that’s so funny over here,” DeShaun as he placed his arms around me kissing me on my neck.
“Oh nothing, you know how girls’ talk.”
“I hate to cut it short but I have to get going, work calls in the morning,” Trent said as he and Constance exchanged numbers, she gave DeShaun and I a hug and she walked out the door. The rest of the party left shortly afterwards, and DeShaun and I began cleaning up. In the middle of cleaning up, DeShaun grabbed me by my hands and told me to take a seat. My mind was all over the place, I didn’t know what was going on.
“I have to go out of town for a couple of months again.”
“That’s why you gave Trent that face? Because you know you hadn’t told me that you had to leave. We told each other that we would not start this relationship out on a lie or keeping secrets from one another. I mean you know what I’ve been through. What am I supposed to do tomorrow, it’s Ja’Cori’s birthday, or did you forget?”
“You know that leaving is part of my job. What do you think I do when I do leave; I’m making money trying to get it so you can have anything in this world including your boys. I’m sorry, but I have to finish packing,” he said as he walked out of the room.
“I’m just saying, you know its Ja’Cori’s birthday this weekend and I won’t be able to spend it with him. One day out of the entire weekend I will be on supervised visitation with my baby boy, and I thought you would want to spend it with me.”
“He dropped down on the bed, putting his head in his hands. Damn Egypt, I am so sorry. I forgot all about it. I had so much going on and it just slipped my mind. I wish I could change, or have someone take my place; but it doesn’t work that way.”
I went into the room and fell across the bed. Bitch what are you doing? He is not like everyone else remembers? So DeShaun is on his way out of town for two months again, and I snapped for no apparent reason. I know I will end up pushing him away, and this is not what I want, I love him. After I thought about what I had just written, I closed the journal, went into the bathroom, took me a shower, walked downstairs and knocked on his bedroom door. “I don’t want to argue anymore,” he said as he turned around and continued packing.
We finished packing in silence and he sat down on the bed next to me, “Look Egypt, I know you feel as if I am going to do you like all men in the past have done you, but I love you and I am trying to show hard to show you how hard we care. But if you don’t want to be here then I understand, I can’t keep you were you don’t want to stay. All I want is the best for you.”
I could listen at anymore, I straddled him and as he opened his mouth to speak, I placed my fingers over his lips over his lips to speak silencing him. He reached over and pulled a Magnum out of the drawer, “Are you sure you want to do this?” he asked me as I began sucking his dick. I watched him as he fell back on the pillow, moaning in pleasure. I grabbed the Magnum out of his hand and slid back over his body. I opened the condom with my teeth and slid it over his throbbing dick. I knew I should I should have done more to incise him, but as much as he wanted me, I wanted him, besides we had held out for too long.
I crawled back on top of him, lidding his massive dick inside of me. I winced as she slid down over his dick; looking down at him as he smiled knowing that his dick was sufficient for me. Behind that smile was the thought, “Yeah she’s bit off more than she could chew.” I returned his smile and let his dick control my pussy. I leaned towards him and asked him, “How do you want it?” A looked of shock came across his face as; realize that night was going to be one that he would never forget.
“Do whatever you want to me.”
He watched as I licked my lips and began rocking back and forth on his dick. My pussy began more wetter, and I’m not talk the regular wet, I’m talking drippy wet. He grabbed me by the waist and closed his eyes; letting him take control of me. His pulses became faster; and his pulses became in-tune as he took me, doing the right thing with he.
He lay there thinking, “What was this man doing to me? What the fuck is going on? This bitch came with an entire set of her directions for fucking. This is the type of pussy that will have you going crazy, “ he thought as he exploded into the condom. He had pulled off the condom, wrapped it into a paper towel and through it into the garbage bed which had been sitting beside the bed. I sent into the bathroom used his aloe Ivory soap to clean-up. I retrieved a towel for him and walked into the bedroom. As I
made my way to clean him off, he grabbed me by my wrist, “So you think we’re finished; no way, I’m ready for round two,” as he pulled me onto the bed.
CHAPTER 13
We made love the rest of the night and lay in one another’s arms until the sun protruded its haze through the blinds. I knew what he was about to say, I just wished he didn’t. I didn’t want to spend another day without him, especially now that we had come so far in our relationship, but there were going to be tests in our relationship and this was going to be one.
“You do realize I have to get up eventually?”
“Umm-hum, I was just hoping that it would be a little later.”
“That would be nice, but I should be getting ready.” I watched as his chiseled naked body made its way into the bathroom. I listened as he turned on his electric toothbrush, then the shower and asked, “What do you have planned for today?”
“Nothing today, but I do have to go and see the boys’ tomorrow and before you become worried about some bull from Jaheem don’t, he knows that there will never be another us.”
“It’s not you I’m worried about, he said as he started shaving, it’s him. Right now he sees you without me and thinks that you will be venerable. We both know that you aren’t but he doesn’t. He’s like that grimy ass snake that you wouldn’t know if it bites unless you pick it up.”
I lay there and laughed at the scenario, but I understood what he meant. Thing is, I am stronger than I was back in those days, and I wasn’t going to turn back now. A few minutes later he walked out of the bathroom, and I wanted to take him all over again. I could see why any woman would want to have him, he was just that type of man, but I also knew that when he did involve himself in a relationship, he stayed loyal. He kissed me telling me to hold things down and not to worry, and he would be home soon. I tried not to, but I just couldn’t help it.
“I’m just leaving, I’ll be there soon he said as he walked out the door.”
I drifted to sleep and made a call to my main bitch Constance to see if she wanted to get out, “Hey bitch what’s going on with you?”
“I’m sucking dick. What’s going on? It took me forever to get his shit where I want it. Bitch you know I don’t like doing no limp dick. So again I ask you, what’s up? I didn’t know how long it was going to take her crazy ass to get back in touch with me; but I was ready to eat because bitch had worked up an appetite. I wanted to call him, but he hadn’t been gone that long and I refused to look like a stalker.
As soon as I was about to place my first bit of club sandwich in my mouth the phone rang. I knew it was her, every time I found myself in the midst of having something to do, she would call, “Hello, at first she would not reply, all I could hear was the deep breathing in the receiver of the phone. Okay bitch, what do you want? I mean you had me at a point where you had taken everything from me, what do you want now?” I still heard nothing except for the dial tone of the phone in my ear. Any other time when I would let that shit affect me, I brushed it off, grabbed me
I laughed as I listened at the way she said it; like the guy wasn’t even in the room with her. “Just call me when you get finished. Oh, remember, don’t get cum in that good Peruvian.”
“Bitch, you already know how that. I’ll slap a muthafucka if he even thinks of putting his hands in my hair. Don’t be laying your ass up there smiling nigga, I told you from the jump I don’t do that hair pulling shit. I will leave your ass here with blue balls. Bitch let me get off here, I’ll hit you up later.”
I didn’t know what I wanted to do, but one thing I did know was I was hungry. As soon as I was about to place my first bite of club sandwich in my mouth the phone rang. I knew it was her, every time I found myself in the midst of having something to do, she would call, “Hello, at first she would not reply, all I could hear was the deep breathing in the receiver of the phone. Okay bitch, what do you want? I mean you had me at a point where you had taken everything from me, what do you want now?” I still heard nothing except for the dial tone of the phone in my ear.
Any other time when I would let that shit affect me, I brushed it off, grabbed me a glass from the cabinet and poured myself a glass of iced tea. I took at the table once more and again no sooner than I was to take a bite from my food, the phone rang. “Okay it’s you.”
“Damn bitch, hey to you too. Anyways what’s going on?”
“My bad, I really didn’t mean it like that. That bitch has started calling me again, she said as I took a bite from my sandwich. But first things first, whose dick was you swallowing bitch?”
“Just someone I got hooked up with. Everyone isn’t like you with a ready dick on standby. Now back to this bitch; what’s going on?”
“I don’t know, she just started calling again. I’m not sure if it’s because I have to go see the kids’ tomorrow and DeShaun is on another two month business meeting or what; but that is what I was calling you for. We got into an argument last night because he didn’t tell me that he and the guys had to leave out this morning and wouldn’t be arriving back for two months.”
“DeShaun is gone where for two months?”
“He and the guys left for two months on another business trip.”
“No he may be gone but Trent and Kash are still here. Just know that I know that they are still in town. Maybe they didn’t have to go with him this time, maybe he just had to go alone. I mean, I doubt seriously that it’s some shit going down, what have I told you about jumping into things?”
“I feel you, I think I’m going to go out today and do something. Today is not my day; I’m just going to go out for a minute. I’ll call you when I get back in.”
“You need me to go out with you. You know I make great company.”
“Okay but what went on with you guys after we left?”
“You already know. That nigga had me feeling as if I were floating. I know I was unconscious for a minute.”
“Bitch that’s the kind of dick I need to be getting; if you getting some dick that’s knocking your ass unconscious, as long as he wakes me back up.”
“I really didn’t feel like laughing, as a matter of fact I knew she was just trying to make me feel better, but it wasn’t working. I wanted to know where he was and who he was with if the guys’ didn’t have to go. It could be that he is their manager, or he is scheming. One way or another I was going to find out. I’ll be over to pick you up in about an hour.”
CHAPTER 14
I pulled up to Constance’s house and she was coming down the drive. I don’t know what kind of head she got but it had her looking different. She had her hair pinned up with a tight all leather dress on , and makeup; this chic never, ever wears makeup, but today she was showing all of her curves.
“Don’t even say it, she said as she climbed into the car.”
“I wasn’t, but I see that it could have been more than some good head game going on.”
“Bitch just shut up. Take me to the mall, I wanna go Victoria’s Secrets, they’re having a mad sell and you know I love their sprays and lotions. We talked in silence among one another for a while. “I wonder what Ja’Cori would like for his birthday? He’s getting big girl, the last time we saw him, and he was as tall as Ja’Cobi.
“I can’t imagine how it is to have babies that you can’t see.”
“Yeah it is but I can only do what I can. I fucked up, and I would do anything in the world to change it,…..”
After walking through the mall, and sharing a bite to eat at the food court, we headed back home. I really want to thank you, you are always here when I needed you. I know at times I seem to be going crazy over the smallest of shit, but my heart won’t let me get it all out my mind.” She had been texting the entire time I was talking to her; that’s the thing I hate, when you are talking spilling your heart out to someone and they ignore you, it’s like why in the hell do I have you as my friend again? Through all my groans and sighs, I finally grew tired and said, “Look bitch if you don’t feel like
talking just let me know.”
“My bad, my friend wants to see me but I told him that I would meet him over your house, but first I want to go home and change clothes. But as for what you were talking about, don’t worry everything will work out for the best; as a matter of fact, I think it’s working now, if you would only let it. Look at what is going on in your life as opposed as to what it was back then, bitch the tables are turning for you.“
“Okay you know what…what made you think that I want this random nigga one whom I have never seen or spoken to at my damn house? I mean are you serious right now?”
“Damn girl calm your damn nerves, it is somebody you know. Just get me to my house, I’m not going to take long.”
“What the fuck ever, I mean I love you but I swear you be getting on my damn nerves.”
“Yeah but remember the keyword you just said, and what would that be?”
“Bitch you love me,” she said bursting into laughter.
While she was going all out for her with this stranger who would be coming to visit her at my hone, I was going through her closet. She was a shop-o-holic and by shop-o-holic I mean this bitch had clothes in the closet that she had never worn. It was more a coconscious thing that stopped her from actually wearing them. She wasn’t the one who really worried about her body, but if she thought that it was going to look crazy on her, no one would be able convince her otherwise. The aroma of Velvet Sugar filled the room as she opened the door to the bathroom wearing nothing. “Bitch don’t be looking at me like you ain’t seen me naked before.”
“I didn’t say a word, why do you think I was going to say something? I could have been thing about something else.”
“Because I know you, she said as she tried fitting a pair of skinny jeans over her overly huge ass. You see this shit, I don’t have time to be wrestling with a pair of damn pants,” and walked over to the closet and pulled out a sheer top, black skater dress.