Spice & Wolf Omnibus

by Isuna Hasekura

  Facedown – or better yet, curled up into a ball.

  Her companion stretched out like some foolish cat, sleeping face up with the most ridiculous expressions on his face, but lately she’d had to admit that it took such blithe insensitivity to survive in the human world.

  She had no doubt that the humans were so short-lived – they were lucky to see seventy – because they were so busy every day.

  Just look at the trees, she thought.

  They lived so long because far from distinguishing today from tomorrow, they hardly knew the difference between next year and the year after.

  And by the time the thought had occurred to her, she’d forgotten what it was she was thinking about in the first place.

  “… Hmph. That shepherdess, eh…” Finally she came back around to the beginning of things.

  In any case, she’d made a spectacle of herself back there.

  But now they were in the inn, and no one would interrupt them.

  So maybe it was time to hassle her insensitive companion – perhaps it was time for him to cater to a few of her whims.

  After all, during last nights dinner, he’d paid all of his attention to the shepherdess and barely looked at her.

  It was thanks to her wisewolf nature that she’d endured such a trial. That accursed shepherdess! That slender body! That blond damned hair!

  As she thought about this and that, she felt her eyelids getting heavy again, which frustrated her anew.

  Anyway, where was he?

  Just as she was feeling an unreasonable anger boil over at thinking about that good-for-nothing male being absent when she needed him most – or perhaps she was being unreasonable – her ears picked up the sound of footsteps.

  “… !”

  She jolted herself up.

  Then immediately sensing something doglike about her actions, she felt both shame and irritation and flopped back down on the bed.

  Such shallow actions did not suit the dignity of a wisewolf.

  And yet, humiliation was humiliation.

  Not just because she was considering descending to such schemes with him, but worse – she’d already been unconsciously doing so.

  There was a knock at the door.

  She did not reply and faced away from it.

  After a brief silence, the door was finally opened.

  Since she always slept with her head beneath the blanket, if it was outside of the blanket, she was normally awake.

  Her companion seemed to know this; he sighed, entered, and closed the door.

  And yet he wasn’t looking at her; his back remained turned.

  If he was so fond of weak girls, then he could hardly fail to be charmed by her having fallen to the floor. She began to see a chance of victory.

  Her companion stood next to the bed.

  Now, to the hunt! she thought to herself, and full of anticipation, she rolled over to face him – very, very weakly.

  To this she added a faintly happy “… Nn…”

  Even she didn’t know what she said – probably something she thought would help the pathetic performance.

  But thinking about it later, he must have been surprised by this.

  After all, as she looked back at him, her companion did not seem worried or concerned at all – his face was strained with anger.

  “Why didn’t you tell me you weren’t feeling well?” was the first thing he said.

  “…” She was so surprised she had no reply.

  Never had she dreamed he would be angry with her, of all things.

  “You’re not a child. I assume you’re not going to claim you didn’t notice how bad you felt until you fell over, are you?”

  This was the first time she’d seen this side of her companion: serious and angry.

  Though he was a tiny fraction of her age, his wisdom and strength meager in comparison to hers as a wisewolf – his face was still frightening.

  The words would not come.

  Though her days had been as numerous as grains of sand on a beach, she could count the times someone had dared be angry with her on one hand.

  “Don’t tell me the meat and wine was just so damned important–”

  “Wha–!”

  She admitted that it was partially her pride that had kept her silent.

  But that was only half true.

  She would never conceal feeling poorly just to be treated to more food.

  While she may have hated it, she had been called a god for ages. She knew well the importance of feasting. She would never try to change or destroy that.

  That he’d accuse her of such thoughtless logic–

  “… I’m sorry. That was wrong of me to say,” her companion said, coming to his senses. He sighed deeply and turned away.

  It was then that she noticed she’d been baring her fangs. “I would never–”

  I would never have even thought to do that, she thought but did not say.

  Her throat was dry, but more than that, her companion again turning to look at her was more than enough to make her close her mouth.

  “I was very worried. What would you have done if we’d been traveling?”

  It was here that she finally understood why he was so angry.

  He was a traveling merchant.

  If he fell ill on the road, he wouldn’t necessarily have any comrades nearby to lend aid.

  Quite the contrary – suffering alone in the wilderness was the likelier outcome.

  She thought of the poor food she ate while on a journey, of the hardship that was making camp.

  Collapsing in such circumstances was without exaggeration life threatening.

  He was different than she was – she who complained about loneliness but had always lived with someone nearby.

  “… I am sorry,” she said in a low, desolate voice, and it was no act.

  Her companion was so endlessly softhearted that he must have been truly worried about her.

  That she’d ignored that and thought only of herself was deeply embarrassing.

  She pulled her head in, unable to look at his face.

  “No… it’s all right, so long as you’re well. You haven’t… caught cold or gotten sick… have you?”

  At these words she found herself both happy and sad.

  His asking was slightly timid. The reason for that timidity was obvious.

  He was a human, and she was a wisewolf.

  She was beyond his understanding in some ways – like this one.

  “I was just… a bit fatigued.”

  “I thought as much. I think I would’ve been able to tell if you’d been sick.”

  She knew it was a half-truth.

  But there was no reason to point it out, and it would be even more pointless to get angry.

  “I just wondered if maybe…”

  “?” He hesitated to finish, and she looked at him questioningly.

  He continued apologetically. “… If maybe you’d eaten an onion or some such.”

  Her eyes widened but not in anger.

  It was actually rather amusing.

  “I’m… not a dog, you know.”

  “I know. You’re a wisewolf.” Her companion finally smiled, and she realized she, too, was smiling for the first time in a while.

  “I do feel ’twas a waste of wine and food, though.”

  At this her companion’s expression suggested he agreed. “You need not worry about that – I’m a merchant after all. I had the leftover food packed up for us.”

  Again, her fangs were bared.

  But this was because her lips curled into a smile.

  “–Or at least, that’s what I wish I could say.” Her companion’s smile disappeared, and he held out his hand.

  It wasn’t exactly tough, but neither did it speak of an easy life.

  It was clearly different from her own hands, and if anything, the hand that enveloped hers was as rough as a wolf’s paw.

  His fingers carefully brushed her bangs aside and fe
lt her forehead.

  She became very restless at the sensation of his hand on her face.

  For him to nuzzle her face with his nose would’ve been a bit too familiar.

  She didn’t let this feeling show on her face, though, and her companion certainly didn’t notice it.

  He just felt her forehead, as if it was the most natural thing in the world. “Ah, it’s just as I thought. You’ve got a fever. You must’ve been truly exhausted.”

  “It’s because you’re such a fool, that… I had to work so hard,” she said bitterly, His rough finger poked her nose at this.

  “You’ve got to rein in that bravado.” He wore a weary smirk, but his words were entirely serious, she could tell.

  She was so embarrassed that she couldn’t keep looking at him.

  Turning her head aside as if to escape the nose poke, she looked out from under the blankets with only one eye.

  “Honestly, it was quite an embarrassment to deal with in front of Norah.”

  That’s because the feast got wasted, thought Holo to herself, curling up.

  He had surely been distracted enough because of her.

  Even if she hadn’t already felt bad, hearing this land of thing was enough to make her pretend.

  She gave him a wounded glance, which was returned by an amazed look.

  “Anyway, I’ll get you some more suitable comfort food, so make sure to rest and gather your strength, all right? Then you can have as much food and wine as you like.”

  Her ears pricked up at the promise of “as much… as you like,” but more than that, her chest ached at the notion of some comfort food.

  Even before the hundreds of years she’d stayed in the village, she’d often heard that when people were sick, they were given the most luxurious food to make up for it.

  When wolves became sick, they simply didn’t eat, of course, but humans had the opposite idea.

  She would simply have to pretend.

  Because more than anything else, she could finally turn his gaze away from the shepherdess.

  She wouldn’t let him get away.

  “When you’re so kind, I fear what’ll happen next.” She chose the wryest, most bravado-laden words she could.

  A wisewolf might collapse from exhaustion and be unable to move, but her mind still had to be sharp.

  Her companion smiled. “That’s my line,” he said.

  His finger touched her cheek, which she did indeed feel slightly feverish at, and she closed her eyes.

  The next morning, she opened her eyes beneath the blankets and listened carefully.

  She heard no foolish snoring. It seemed her companion was not in the room.

  She consulted her body. It was now merely tired, and while raw mutton was still out of the question, something cooked and lightly salted would be fine.

  Having been ordered to rest the previous night, she found the comfort food postponed.

  Being able to eat delicious things just because she felt fine was not likely to happen.

  While she had to sigh at herself for being so weak as to take a fever after less than a month of travel and this minor crisis, she also had to admit that this treatment was not bad at all.

  It had, after all, been thanks to said weakness that she’d been able to be with her companion like this.

  “You utter fool.”

  These words were clearly directed at herself, and she rustled about underneath the blankets before popping her head out.

  Having grown accustomed to waking outdoors with the scenery spreading out all around, she found rising inside this small box was not particularly enjoyable.

  Even the wagon bed, cramped and cold as it was, was preferable.

  It was a far better thing to wake under the great sky, swallow great breaths of endless fresh air, and be all alone, just the two of them, there in the landscape. She could accept a roof, but only if it was within the hollow of some great tree.

  She turned her head sideways as she thought of such things.

  There was no sign of anybody in the next bed, and a sniff of her nose told her that her companion’s scent was very thin.

  Surely he hadn’t gone to the church to pray for her return to health.

  The notion was absurd, but it would have made a top-class joke.

  She smiled to herself at the thought, but as no one else was there, it quickly faded.

  Her breath came out white in the chilly air, and she hugged the wheat husk-stuffed pillow.

  That softhearted dunce had no sense at all really.

  “Such a fool…” she murmured, then tried to sit up but found the blankets surprisingly heavy.

  How many years had it been since she’d last collapsed in human form?

  She’d been sure it was impossible for her to become this weak over just one night but finally admitted it.

  “Hmph.”

  She’d wanted to spend some time grooming her tail but gave up trying to sit.

  Which meant – food. And she was thirsty. She’d eaten hardly anything the previous night.

  Where had her companion gone, and what was he doing?

  Back in Yoitsu, nursing someone to health meant staying close by them.

  It was inexcusable that he wasn’t beside her when she came awake, she angrily assured herself – but then she heard footsteps.

  Instead of trying to sit, she pricked up her ears.

  It was very frustrating, and she hugged the pillow again.

  For just a moment, she was glad her companion was not there.

  “Are you awake?” he asked after giving the door a hesitant knock and opening it.

  If she’d been asleep, she wouldn’t have been able to answer, and if she was awake, it was a meaningless question, she thought. “Can’t you tell by looking?” she asked back.

  “How do you feel?”

  “I cannot sit up.”

  This was not a lie, but she still tried to say it as casually as possible.

  To double bluff, one told the truth.

  While his mouth said she was lying, his face betrayed worry.

  She looked at the leather bag he was carrying, then back at him with the same pathetic face.

  If he was going to be this charming, her position was not a good one.

  “Indeed… your color’s like a sheltered princess.”

  Evidently she looked poorly enough to joke about it, but since she hadn’t eaten, that was to be expected.

  “Still, I’m hungry.”

  “Ha-ha. That’s a relief.” Her companion smiled. “Well, then,” he continued, “shall I have some porridge made?”

  “I’m thirsty. Is that water there?” she asked, looking at the leather bag her companion carried. It was not overlarge and did not smell particularly of grapes.

  “Ah, no – you had a fever yesterday, so I brought some apple wine.”

  She couldn’t very well stay in bed at the mention of apples.

  When she tried to sit up, though, she remembered the heaviness of the blankets.

  “Ah, are you all right?”

  “Mmph…” Once she’d been able to easily move a giant tree felled by lightning to free a comrade trapped beneath it, and now she’d been reduced to seeking rescue from underneath a blanket.

  While worried, her companion happily lent her his hand.

  “I am sorry,” she said. With help she was finally able to pull free of the blankets and sit up.

  He also helped her sit on a pillow so that her tail wouldn’t be in the way.

  The human form was so weak.

  But that was precisely why it had worth.

  “If you were only half this agreeable normally,” said her companion wickedly. Beside the bed there was a shelf with a candle stand. Instead of a candle, he placed a cup there and filled it with apple wine.

  “Ah, but when I sleep agreeably in the wagon bed, you turn angry.”

  “Well, isn’t it unfair that I should be the only one awake?” He handed her the small cup, which s
he accepted with both hands.

  “Also, if I were too agreeable, you’d eat most of the food at mealtimes.”

  “Obviously – I’m bigger.”

  At these words, she grinned. “I’ll just have to grow my demeanor to match.”

  Her companion’s face strained in displeasure, but he seemed not to hit upon a good comeback. He scratched his head, irritated.

  It was nothing so ceremonious as respect or admiration – all the more so because he was meeting her gaze at her eye level, with a face that said he was determined to win next time.

  It was awfully comfortable.

  Not just that – the fact that he was truly trying to best her made her unbearably happy.

  Hurry and pin me! If she was to say this, she had no doubt that he’d turn bright red and get flustered.

  She smiled to think of it, putting the cup to her lips to hide this from him.

  However, it wasn’t the hiding of it that erased her smile.

  “Guh, huh?”

  She removed the cup from her mouth and regarded its contents suspiciously.

  Within it was a pale amber liquid.

  “What’s wrong?” her companion asked her.

  “Ugh… the flavor, it’s…” she said, rubbing her nose and wondering if it had stopped working.

  She sniffed it again and detected very little apple scent and not much alcohol.

  She was suddenly uncertain.

  Her ears and nose were even more important to her than her eyes.

  “Oh, I thinned it,” said her companion quickly. While this came as a relief, in a twinkling that relief was replaced with a rising irritation.

  “Aye, and too much. I thought my nose had gone stupid!”

  “You had a fever, didn’t you? Hence, thinned apple wine.”

  He said it as though it was the most obvious thing in the world, but she did not understand.

  “Oh, right. Don’t you know about that?”

  “I’m a wisewolf – I know enough about the world to know there are things I don’t know.”

  “There’s a field called ‘medicine’ that’s been built up from people-accumulated knowledge over the years. When you collapsed, I went to the trade house and thankfully was able to look through a translation of a book on the subject.”

  The word medicine was not familiar to her.

  When the people in her old village were sick, they would boil grasses in water and drink it, and when injured, they would apply the grass to their wounds, but other than that, all they could do was pray to invented gods to aid them.