Behind the Stars

by Leigh Talbert Moore

I ran back to the spring where I’d cleaned up earlier. It was late afternoon, and I was alone in the twilight. I dropped weakly onto the bank to watch the sun disappear. Golden rays reflected off the rippling currents, and I remembered Gallatin and the time we’d spent together. In that moment, I longed with everything in me to have that back.

  I remembered the prayer I’d made way back on our first day of captivity, when I’d strained all my muscles hoping to push my prayer to the front of God’s line. If ever there was a time any prayer deserved priority, this had to be it. There had to be a special line for broken dreams and missed chances. For those who’d worked so hard and tried to do everything right and still lost. A way to help them regain what had to be.

  The sunlight glowed amber as it slipped behind the trees, and as my damp eyes closed, I saw golden ones in my memory.

  Chapter 24

  Yellow-orange flames cut into the dark sky as I slowly walked back to Jackson’s camp. My mind was distracted by thoughts of Gallatin, wondering if he was even still on this planet, when I saw the huge bonfire they had built in the center of the shelters. The closer I got, the louder the noises grew. It sounded like Mardi Gras in New Orleans—not that I’d ever been that far from home. I’d only seen it on television, like most things.

  Shrieks and laughter, singing and the sound of sticks banging on hollow logs or makeshift drums filled the night. I slowed my pace and carefully picked my way back to where I could see the shirtless boys, their bodies striped with animal blood, dancing around the fire. Some yelled, some chanted, and in the flashes of firelight I could see their glazed eyes. Thomas must’ve harvested that patch of wild mushrooms, and they must’ve eaten them.

  At the head of the fire, higher up on an outcrop of stones jutting from the side of the hill sat Jackson with D’Lo on his right and Russell on his left. Eden hung on Dee’s arm, but I didn’t see Star with them. I wondered if she was still in Eden’s tent or if she’d already moved her things back to Jackson’s.

  The revelry was in preparation for their attack on the alien camp, and for all I knew, that attack would take place tomorrow, unless D’Lo and I successfully bought some time. Watching the boys thrash about in the firelight, I felt an eerie chill. Even though I knew they’d done something to alter their mental states, I couldn’t help watching their eyes as they dipped their fingers into little pots of animal blood and smeared it on their cheeks, foreheads, and chests.

  The skinny one who’d approached me with the rabbit danced to the center, holding the carcass of what looked like a beaver or possibly a raccoon over his head. He yelped and jumped up and down, and his fellow dancers circled him, pumping sticks up and down. Another rotation and he threw the animal on the ground. The boys all lifted their sticks and jammed them into it as one. A dull thunk! sounded and they all howled like gleeful wolves. One of them jumped forward and dipped his palm in the blood and slapped it on his chest, leaving a perfect, brownish-red handprint. My stomach roiled in my throat at the sight.

  They danced on like they were possessed, and if I were Braxton, I’d probably start praying in tongues—if only for my own protection from them. They had no restraints, no reason to care about their target, and they’d been given permission to go as far as they dared.

  Finally I saw movement above. Jackson stepped forward and raised both his arms. He was shirtless as well, and I watched his familiar torso, streaked with the blood of rabbit or deer, move as he commanded the attention of his bandits. I stayed in the shadows at the edge of the light. My place wasn’t on the ridge with him anymore, and I didn’t want it to be. I didn’t want to be associated with his “army.” I didn’t even recognize these boys anymore.

  “The time has come for brave men to act,” he said. “Before we were born, our grandfathers fought the communists. And when our country was attacked, our fathers punished the Arabs. They fought each other, and they fought world domination.”

  A loud cheer interrupted his speech, and the tribe resumed dancing. Jackson waited a moment then spoke again.

  “Tonight our enemy is from beyond our world. Still, our ability to meet their challenge remains strong. We know where they are now, and we will make them PAY!”

  The boys let out a collective war cry and jumped up and down. Dexter shook his stick in the air. Jackson continued.

  “Our plan is to use our strongest natural weapon. Fire. We’ll firebomb the camps in the night while they sleep, and as they try to escape, we’ll pick them off with spears, rocks, and branches. We are not afraid to do whatever it takes to defend our country!”

  More victory cries, Jackson smiled and waved his arms. Russell’s expression said he thought they were acting ridiculous, but D’Lo’s face was grim. I hoped his mind was on our friends like mine was. Eden’s eyes sparkled as she squirmed around his arm, and I could tell she was fascinated by the spectacle. I wondered where her sister was hiding. Star hadn’t spoken to me, and I hadn’t seen her since we’d walked into camp and she’d disappeared into her sister’s shelter. But I knew her personality. I was sure she was somewhere biding her time.

  Jackson waved his arms, and the dancing and shouting quieted down. “We need your help!” Several voices led by Dexter shouted back. “Tell us what to do!” and “We’ll help!”

  “We need glass bottles, and we need gasoline. We need rags and men with strong throwing arms. Meet at my tent tomorrow with these things when the sun reaches the center of the sky, and then we’ll prepare. In two more days, we’ll be heroes!”

  Shrieks followed by a long yell of excitement gave way to more dancing and drumming on the logs and even the ground. The boys ran around the fire, whipping their heads and flailing their bodies. I couldn’t move, until I saw a guy dance too close to the fire and step into it. He yelped in pain, but he was caught up and shoved back into the circle rotating around the edge of the pyre.

  At that I dropped back and made my way behind the shelters to where Jackson’s large tent was draped. I had no intention of sleeping in it, but I also knew I couldn’t sleep on D’Lo’s floor. From the looks of things, he’d have company, and I wasn’t interested in being anywhere near what was happening here. I planned to start back tonight, but when I stepped into Jackson’s tent, a little yip! flew from my mouth. There she was, sitting on the bed. Star’s dark eyes glittered, and she fixed me with a hateful smirk.

  “So you’re back,” she said. “So what? Nothing’s gonna change.”

  My heart beat fast, but I shook my head. “You can have what you want—your place, my old place, whatever. I’m leaving.”

  Her eyes narrowed. “Where are you going?”

  “Back. To try and save the others.”

  “And how are you going to do that?”

  I didn’t like her emphasis on the you, but she had a point. “I don’t know.”

  My nemesis blew air through her nose and turned away. I stepped over to the box holding the maps and ran my finger down the line leading to the alien camp just as the entrance flap lifted, and Jackson, D’Lo, and Russell entered.

  “Acting like fools,” Russell said.

  “Dexter’s group’ll round up the supplies, and we’ll be ready by tomorrow evening.” Jackson nodded at his second in command. “Once Yolanda’s safe.”

  I cut in there. “I’ll start back tonight.”

  “Yeah, about that,” Jackson started, but I wasn’t letting him stop me.

  “You said we couldn’t waste time.”

  “I’m not sure you’re the right person for the job, Pip,” he said.

  “I can do the job.”

  “In the dark? Sure. That makes sense. Tell me your plan.” I didn’t like his sarcasm.

  “She’ll use Gallatin,” Dee said.

  Jackson frowned at him. “Who’s Gallatin?”

  D’Lo nodded at me. “He worked with Prentiss. They got to be friends, and he let us escape. With you.”

  Jackson’s eyes widened and moved to mine. “One of them pretended to be your friend?�
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  “It wasn’t pretend,” I said.

  He started pacing, running his hands through his hair. “Idiots! You think he let you escape? They didn’t let you escape. They’re tracking us!”

  “He’s not like that!”

  “Did he send you to that cave?” Jackson stood with his back against the tarp that formed the entrance. He moved it back a crack and peered up and around as if he thought we were surrounded.

  “He’s on our side,” I said with more authority.

  “He’s on their side,” Jackson snapped. “I don’t see anything. Now we’ve really got to act fast. Russell, get the boys to put that bonfire out.”

  Russell slipped into the night, and I moved to follow him. But Jackson caught my arm.

  “You’re not going back there,” he said.

  “I have to.” I pulled my arm away. “I need to find out about Dr. Green and our parents. And I won’t leave Braxton or Yolanda or Roxie behind.”

  Or Gallatin.

  “I won’t let you go back there.” Jackson pulled me into a hug. I tried to push away, but he held on.

  For a moment, I felt beaten. I was hurting. The pain of all that had happened to me, all I’d lost, what had happened to my friends, was so fresh, but I couldn’t give up. I wouldn’t act weak, and nothing in me wanted to stay here or to go back to my old life.

  Instead, I got angry.

  “C’mon,” D’Lo said, taking Star’s arm. She tried to jerk back, but D’Lo held on and half-carried, half-pushed her out of the tent.

  “I’m sorry, Pip,” Jackson said once they were gone. “I’m sorry I hurt you.”

  I didn’t answer, and he kept talking. “I know you’re mad at me, but I won’t let you go back there.”

  “I’ll be okay.” I said, working to keep my voice calm. “They’re not going to hurt us.”

  He grasped my shoulders and looked into my eyes. “It’s too dangerous, and I only just got you back.”

  I tried to turn away. “I promised our friends I’d get them out, and anyway, I’m not back. It’s not the same with us anymore.”

  “Don’t say that. This,” he waved around the shelter, “what’s happening now, is a special situation. Everything’s messed up, and bad stuff’s happening. But once it’s over, we’ll be back the way we were.”

  My eyebrows pulled together. I didn’t agree with him at all. Even though bad things happened, I held onto what mattered to me—my memories of him and us. He’d taken the opportunity to forget. Now I didn’t want things to go back to the way they were before. I realized we’d grown apart, and we didn’t have the same dream anymore.

  He tried to pull me to him again, but I struggled away.

  “I told you I didn’t know,” he said as if reading my thoughts. “I thought you’d been killed. I was crazy worried about you.”

  “You’ve been getting with her way before this. Stop lying to me.”

  “You don’t understand. It’s different for guys, Pip.”

  “No, it’s not.” I leaned down to pick up the small bag that held a water bottle and a bit of cooked rabbit in case I got lost. “I’m going because I gave my word to our friends. It has nothing to do with you and Star.”

  Jackson caught my arm one more time. “I loved you, Prentiss Puckett. I still love you.”

  “And now you want something different. Or maybe we never really wanted the same thing at all.”

  Our blue eyes met. “I never wanted to be a farmer,” he said. “I tried everything to change your mind.”

  My memories supported his words. “Why didn’t you just break up with me? Let me go?”

  “Because you needed me. I’d always protected you, and I couldn’t let you go. I didn’t want to let you go.” He made a frustrated noise and turned away. “She’s not part of my future, Pip.”

  “Neither am I.”

  Gallatin’s face flickered across my memory, and I could still hear his last words. He hoped my dreams came true.

  I didn’t know if they would. I didn’t even know what it would mean for me or what he’d say when he saw me again, but I had to find out.

  I looked down and shook my head then I turned my back to my old dream. “I didn’t want to make you part of why I’m leaving, but you have to let me go now.”

  His grip tightened. “You’ll get caught, and they’ll hurt you.”

  “I won’t get caught.” I pulled my arm away. “And I won’t get hurt. I’ve learned something about myself.”

  “What’s that?”

  “I’m smart. I’m strong. And I can be strong without you. I can make my own future.”

  His eyebrows pulled together. “Because of what D’Lo said? Because you’ve made friends with one of them? One of our enemies?”

  “They’re not our enemies.”

  “You sound like those kidnap victims who try to protect their kidnappers.”

  “You don’t understand. They’re peaceful. They don’t even have weapons.”

  “They don’t need them.”

  I pressed my lips together. It was no use arguing with him.

  “Don’t warn them, Pip.” He stepped forward and grabbed my arm, his fingers circling my bicep in a strong hold. “We’re coming tomorrow night. You get there and make a plan, then get our friends out.”

  “What if it’s not enough time?”

  “Make it enough time. And you never forget you’re one of us. You belong here.”

  “I don’t belong here.” My voice was a low growl.

  “Yes you do, and tomorrow night. That’s the end.”

  An image of Gallatin crossed my mind. I pulled on my pack and ran out the tent.

  Chapter 25

  The night was pitch black in the open spaces, and in the trees it was even darker. Clouds filled the sky, and when the moon did appear, it wasn’t full enough or out long enough for me to make sense of my surroundings or to see far enough ahead.

  I made my way out of Jackson’s camp in the direction we’d entered it, and I followed the path up two hills and back to the old school road, the dividing line between his place and theirs. I ran across it and then stopped and looked up at the tall, dark woods I’d only navigated once when I’d followed Jackson back. I stared at the shadowy mass before me, and as I did, the clouds swept away, uncovering the half-moon with its scant light.

  My eyes traveled to our pale satellite, and all I could think of was Gallatin and finding him. Regardless of what Jackson said, I wouldn’t let them hurt him. Not wasting another second, I ran into the thicket and kept going straight. It was hard to tell if I was on the right path with the moon rushing out from behind the clouds only to disappear again just as fast. I tried to focus straight ahead, but I was blind most of the way. I remembered how I’d thought I could find my way back with my eyes closed the night we’d danced—Come on, Prentiss. Focus!

  I came to the foot of a steep hill that seemed to go straight up, and my heart rose. When we followed Jackson from the cave, I’d slid half the way down, landing on my butt several times and standing right back up from what seemed like a ninety-degree angle. This had to be the same hill.

  Digging my fingers into the earth, I practically crawled up the slope. My knees pressed on the wet leaves, and their musty, earthy odor filled my nose. I shook with a chill, but it wasn’t cold. It never got cold in the summer here, even in the dead of night. I was just damp and surging with adrenaline.

  After what felt like hours of struggling, slipping, and struggling again in the darkness, I reached the top and looked out, into more black forest. My shoulders dropped. It was so dark, I couldn’t see my hand in front of my face, and I was troubled that I hadn’t come across the cave where we’d slept.

  If this was the right hill, I should’ve found the opening on my way up. I looked around and wished for the moon to appear, but it didn’t. Maybe I was on the right hill, but I came around from a different angle? I had no way to be sure, and a cold fear tightened in my stomach. What if I was lost in these
woods and couldn’t find my way to the camp? All of this would’ve been for nothing.

  I tried to encourage myself. In the daylight hours, I could determine which direction was east by the way the sun rose. But without the cave, I couldn’t tell the way Jackson had said to go. For a moment, I thought I might cry. My breath trembled in and out of my lungs, and I felt beaten.

  Falling to my knees, I placed my forehead on my hand against a sapling near me. Maybe I should just wait for daylight instead of getting further and further off course. But that was wasting time. Determination, grit, courage. I had to summon all of it and press on. With my eyes closed, I tried to see the map in my head. I tried to retrace the path I’d followed here and feel the right way to go. I stood up and blindly began to run straight forward and a little to my left. My hands were stretched in front of me fumbling against the trees that tried to slam me in the face, dodging root-knees coming up from the ground.

  Suddenly white-hot light blasted through the limbs. I could tell it was a good distance away, but it was powerful. It blazed the faintest blue with rainbow colors mixed around the edges, and the beams blinded my eyes as they flickered through the trees like harp strings.

  My face heated in the energy of it, and the trunks narrowed as the light refracted around them. I took a step only to lose my footing. A root tripped me, and I slid fast, head-first on my stomach, down the side of the tall hill.

  “NO!” I yelled, trying to stop my forward motion.

  The Ships. They were the only source of a burning light like that. I’d never seen anything like it in the woods, and the timing made sense. They were leaving. Gallatin was leaving.

  My chest collapsed as my breath pushed out in a heavy gush. A skinny tree helped me stand, but when I stepped forward, the earth was gone. I fell almost a foot, twisting and slamming hard into rocky ground, right on my injured hip. Another scream flew from my mouth, and tears flooded my eyes. The pain was so intense it took the wind out of me, but it didn’t match the pain in my chest.

  I hiccupped a breath, desperate. “Don’t leave me.” It was a broken whisper.