Erased

by Jennifer Rush

  “Wow. Thanks for that.”

  She sighed. “I really am sorry.”

  “You keep saying that.”

  “And it’ll never be enough.”

  “I want Sam,” I said, my voice cracking, revealing all the fear I was trying to keep locked away. Was he dead already? Had Riley let Greg finish his mission?

  Dani reached over and pushed a strand of hair behind my ear. “You can’t have him, bird.”

  The door opened again and Dani stepped back. Greg and his partner tugged me off the bed.

  “Careful with her,” Dani warned. “She has a cracked rib.”

  This time, I didn’t fight.

  I was taken to a different room where two white-coated technicians readied an array of machines. Wires and electrodes were splayed out on two stainless steel trays, and I was thrust into the cushy leather chair in the middle of them. Greg strapped me down at the wrists. He wasn’t acknowledging me, or speaking at all, so that gave me some hope. He hadn’t completed his mission yet, otherwise he would be back to normal.

  A technician shoved a rubber guard into my mouth.

  Dani came over and nudged my chin up with her index finger, forcing me to look at her. “It’ll be over soon.” She leaned in, her hair swinging off her shoulders. “I love you,” she whispered, then kissed my forehead, just as I wound my fingers in her hair and gave it a hard tug.

  27

  CAUGHT OFF GUARD, DANI DIDN’T fight back right away.

  I bucked up, slamming a knee into her head. Once, twice. She staggered. The technicians pressed themselves into the corner. The other agent started for me. I lashed out at the last second, tripping him with a foot. He pitched forward into my lap, and I snagged the knife from his gear belt.

  Dani punched me. The chair rocked to the side.

  It wasn’t bolted down.

  She punched me again, and I aided the momentum, pushing with my feet so that I rocked to the right and tipped over.

  “Sedate her,” she said, and the technicians sprung to life.

  I sawed at the strap on my right hand, the one hidden from view.

  I could hear the shuffle of the agent’s boots, but couldn’t see him yet around the base of the chair.

  Hurry. Damn it.

  I nicked myself with the knife, and sharp pain burned from the wound.

  The agent wrapped his hands around my arm and lifted me upright just as the strap frayed on its last threads and finally came loose. I swung with everything I had and landed a solid punch to the man’s face. He fell back and whacked his head on the metal base of a medical machine.

  Greg came for me next. I dug the toes of my boots into the floor and thrust forward with the knife, stabbing him in the chest.

  The blond technician gasped and scrambled for the door, her coworker right behind.

  Greg dropped at my feet.

  Dani and I stared at each other.

  “What do you plan to do, Anna?” she asked. “Kill me? You won’t make it out of here, not without help. And then what? Rescue the boys? They’re just boys!” She edged closer. “We are blood. Sisters.”

  “I don’t even know you!” I shouted.

  She shrunk back. The look on her face, of pure heart-wrenching sadness softened my resolve.

  To her, I was the little sister who needed to be saved. A child, still. Someone bargained for, not with.

  But to me, she was just a stranger, and I suspected that hurt worse than any physical blow.

  She gritted her teeth. “I can’t lose you again. I just can’t.” She pulled a gun from beneath her sweater and pointed it at me. “Drop the knife.”

  I stalled to weigh my options.

  “Drop the knife!”

  I did. It clattered on the floor.

  Dani eased toward me. “If there were a way for me to make you remember,” she started, “I’d do it. It would be so much easier. Trust me. You would see…”

  “What?” I raised my arms, annoyed. “What would I see?”

  “That our parents were shitty parents. That I was the one who took care of you. That everything I’ve done, I’ve done for you!”

  “Like give away the boys? I don’t want that. They deserve their freedom more than any of us.”

  She laughed. “Oh, because Sam is so innocent?”

  “I know he didn’t kill our parents. For all I know, you were the one who killed them.”

  “No.” She shook her head for emphasis. “We lied to protect you.”

  I snorted. “I’m sure.”

  “I lied about something else, too. I was there that night, the night our parents died.”

  I tilted my head, caught off guard. “You were?”

  “But I wasn’t the one who killed our parents. It was you.”

  28

  I FROWNED. “YOU EXPECT ME TO believe that? I was just a kid. I loved them.”

  “You’ve been having flashbacks, haven’t you? To that night? Sam said you were.”

  “He told you that?”

  “And your flashbacks have been more debilitating than Nick’s and Cas’s, haven’t they? More severe? It’s because you’ve gone through more memory alterations than the others.”

  I faltered. “You mean, at the farmhouse?”

  “No.” She shook her head. “Before then. When you were younger.”

  I snorted. “You’re trying to tell me our parents didn’t notice their daughter coming home with no memories?”

  “The Branch had just developed the ability to wipe memories and plant whatever they wanted in the voids. You were the first to receive them. And more than once.”

  A lump wedged itself in the center of my throat, and no amount of swallowing seemed to dislodge it. Because I worried she was telling the truth.

  “Why would they do that?” I asked.

  “I think you already know the answer.”

  The flashback I’d had few days ago came back to me. In it, Dani had asked if our dad had hit me. She’d instantly gone on alert.

  He hadn’t, though. Had he? I’d said no.

  But even if he had, that didn’t explain why I would have killed him and our mother.

  “I don’t believe you,” I said.

  “I didn’t expect you would.”

  Someone grabbed me from behind. Two hands on my left arm. Two hands on my right. The lab techs. They swung me around, dragging me toward the chair. I wrenched my right arm out of the woman’s grip and socked her with my elbow. Blood spurted out her nose, and she slammed into the wall.

  The man was harder to slip. Once he saw his partner go down, he tightened his hold, bracing his feet. So I punched him in the face and followed it with an elbow to the same spot. His eyes rolled back, and he slumped to the ground.

  I scooped up the knife and turned just in time to see the stainless steel medical tray whack me across the head. I stumbled. The coopery taste of blood ran down my throat.

  Dani swung the tray again, but I ducked and thrust upward with the knife. Blood sprayed down the front of me as Dani collapsed in my arms. I stumbled back from her weight.

  She coughed, and her lips came away red. “Bird,” she said, “it wasn’t supposed to be like this.”

  I’d kept it together this whole time. Kept the tears down. The emotion locked in a place I didn’t want to touch. But it all came pouring out at once.

  “I didn’t… I didn’t mean… I’m sorry…” I sputtered.

  Dani’s legs buckled, and I eased her to the floor. The knife was lodged somewhere between her sternum and stomach. Her sweater was heavy and wet with blood.

  “I’m sorry,” I said again, pushing the hair from her face. “I’ll get someone. Someone can help you.”

  She wrapped her tiny hand around my wrist. “No.” Her breath scraped down her throat. It sounded alien, unnatural. “You’re all I have left…” Tears streamed down her face. “I’ve lived my entire life trying to protect you.” She laughed, and it quickly turned into long, wracking coughs. “You clearly don�
��t need me anymore.”

  I took her face in my hands and forced her to look at me. Her eyes lost focus. It was like she was looking straight through me.

  “We can fix this. Tell me where the boys are. Where would they take them?”

  She shook her head.

  “Please.” Desperate, I threw in one more promise. “We can run together. All of us.”

  “Even Nick?” she smiled. “I made you that same promise once, and that’s what you asked for. You asked for him to come with us.”

  She shuddered. “There was always something about him. You should know that. That’s why you did it, I think. To protect him.” She laughed, but there was no humor in her tone. “The first time you went through a memory alteration, I got called away at the last second, and Nick was there when you woke. He was always there, every time after that.”

  “Dani, please—”

  “You know how they say a baby bird shouldn’t be handled by humans too soon after birth for fear of the bird becoming attached to the human?”

  “Yeah, I’ve heard of it.”

  “I always told Sam that’s what happened with you and Nick. The first time your memories were tampered with, it was like you were reborn, and Nick was the first person you saw. Sam thought I was crazy, but…” She closed her eyes and several tears ran down her cheeks. “I should have been there when you woke up. I never should have left you alone with Mom and Dad to begin with. I should have been with you every second of every single day.”

  I grabbed her shoulders. “None of that matters to me now. Just tell me where the boys are. Please?”

  She opened her eyes and finally looked at me. “I can’t. Uncle Will won’t come after you if he has the boys. You should go. But there is one… thing before… I die… it’s…”

  The tendons in her neck went rigid as she struggled for another breath.

  I shook her. “Dani?”

  Nothing. No response. Her eyes were vacant, unblinking, and the room took on an eerie stillness.

  “Dani!” She was limp weight in my hands, and her head flopped to the side.

  “Where are they?” I screamed.

  Only the echo of my voice bouncing off the walls answered back.

  I shakily rose to my feet. One of the techs stirred.

  I had to get out of here before they woke up. I was exhausted and bruised and broken. I didn’t know how much fight I had left in me.

  Probably not enough.

  I spied the agent’s gun on the floor near his body. I scooped it up, checked the clip.

  I had just started for the door when it burst open and agents flooded the room.

  Suddenly I was surrounded, with a dozen guns trained on me.

  “Put the gun on the floor,” Riley said from the center of the pack. I eased the gun down. “Thank you,” he said. “Now shoot her.”

  Someone pulled their trigger, and a dart hit me in the chest. I had only enough time to think I was totally screwed before a woozy feeling swept over me and my legs gave out.

  29

  “What did you do to her?”

  I clutched harder at Dani’s hand as the woman with blond hair peered down at me. “Is she high?”

  “No, Mom,” Dani said. “She’s just tired.”

  Mom. This woman was our mother. Yes, I knew that. And the man looming behind her, the man with the straight-edged shoulders and the coppery hair and the slash for a mouth was our father.

  Everything felt so disjointed. Like I was stuck in a dream where I knew these were my parents but they didn’t fit the image of my parents.

  “I’m packing her a bag,” Dani went on. “We’re taking her for a few days, if that’s all right.”

  Dad stomped over to us and yanked me out of Dani’s grip, his fingers tight around my wrist, so tight that I worried my bones might snap beneath the pressure “You’re not taking her anywhere. You think I don’t know what you’re up to? Will called, you know.” He looked past Dani at the boys lined up behind us. “You’ve gotten my oldest in a hell of a lot of trouble, and you’re not taking my youngest with you, too.” Air wheezed out his nose as he clamped his mouth shut and seethed.

  “I’m taking her,” Dani said again.

  Dad shook his head. “No. You’re. Not.”

  I didn’t know whose side I should be on. I wanted to go with my sister and with Nick. I knew that much. But if they were in trouble like Dad said, I wasn’t so sure.

  I looked over my shoulder and met Nick’s stare. I always thought his eyes were the color of my sky-blue crayon, the one called ice. It was a color that meant strength to me, indestructible.

  If he was going, then I wanted to go, too.

  I tugged my arm out of Dad’s grip and crossed the room, stopping at Nick’s side. I fitted my hand in his. He squeezed just enough to be reassuring.

  Dad turned fire-engine red. “I’m calling Will,” he said, and his boots thudded into the kitchen.

  “Wait!” Mom called.

  Sam and Cas started after Dad.

  “Get Anna out of here,” Dani said.

  Nick pulled me down the hallway and into my room, past the four-poster bed and then the dresser. He grabbed my backpack off the hook on my closet door and shoved clothes inside. “Take this,” he said, sliding it over my shoulder. He yanked the closet door open and gave me a nudge.

  “Wait here. Lock the door.” He pointed at the dead bolt that’d been installed on the inside of the closet two weeks earlier. Cas had done it. “So your treasures won’t get stolen,” he’d said.

  “Don’t come out for anything,” Nick ordered now. “I don’t care what you hear. I’ll come get you soon.”

  “You promise?”

  “I promise.” He shut the door, and I immediately clicked the lock in place.

  There was a flashlight somewhere in here. I rooted around on the wood floor until my fingers grazed the edge of a box. Inside I felt paper and something glossy, something hard, like rock, and a flashlight.

  I clicked it on and breathed out with relief as the closet filled with a soft golden glow.

  Shouting sounded from the front of the house. I cowered in the corner, legs tucked up to my chest. I looked inside the box now that I could see.

  There was a picture of Dani and me. A necklace. A smooth stone, like a rubbing stone. A handful of coins. And a flattened paper crane.

  I pulled the crane out and puffed up his body.

  Nick had made it. The errant thought came to me suddenly, completely, in a way that felt more real than anything had since I’d woken in some medical office with a headache and wires stuck all over my head.

  Nick had been there. He’d been the first person I’d seen after opening my eyes, and he’d immediately seemed familiar.

  I’d lunged at him, wrapping my arms around his neck. He smelled like oatmeal and coffee and brown sugar and soap. And his return hug was enough to tell me my jumbled mind hadn’t been wrong about him.

  “It’s all right,” he said, patting my back awkwardly. “Things will be confusing for a few hours. It’ll come back.”

  “Where am I?” I’d asked. I’d nearly said, Who am I? But the name Anna came to mind. “Do I have amnesia?”

  Nick had nodded. “Temporarily. Leaves you feeling like shit, but you’ll be okay.”

  “You’ve had amnesia before?” I’d asked.

  Nick just stared at me, and I quickly realized he hadn’t meant “you” in the general, second-person sense. He’d meant me. That I’d gone through temporary amnesia before, and it left me feeling like crap.

  “Am I sick?” I’d asked, which made Nick smile.

  “No, bird. You’re fine.”

  Bird. That was familiar, too.

  Still crouched in the closet, I twirled the paper crane by its points between my fingers.

  More shouting sounded from the foyer. Something crashed to the floor. Nick cursed. Dani screamed. I wanted to see what was happening. I didn’t want to cower in the closet and wait for it to be
over.

  I wanted to be sure they were all right.

  The lock clicked loudly when I opened it, and I waited a second to see if anyone had heard. But they hadn’t. I pushed the door open enough to slip through and tiptoe down the hallway. I peeked around the wall into the foyer.

  Dani, Nick, Sam, and Cas were lined up with their backs to me, their hands in the air. Dad had a gun trained on them, but there was another man. He had a gun. Someone who I thought I knew, but whose name I couldn’t remember. He was tall, blond, pretty in a way I’d never seen in person.

  Like a movie star, I thought, and when he smiled, a chill of fear shuddered down my back.

  “Where is it?” the blond man said, that bright smile still in place. “Tell me where you stuck the documents you stole, and you can go and take little Anna with you.”

  Dad blinked and looked at the man, dropping the gun at his side. “No, they can’t. They’re not taking my daughter!”

  The man turned to Dad. “Shut up, Charles.”

  Dad shook with rage. “I’m not one of your trained monkeys, Connor. You can’t boss me around.”

  The man—Connor—said, “Oh, can’t I? What exactly do you plan to do to me? Maybe slap me around a little? Give me a good shake? Maybe slam my head into the wall?”

  Dad flinched.

  “Let me remind you exactly who I am. I’m not your wife. I’m not your daughter. And you can’t outfight me. So shut your goddamn mouth, Charles, and take a step back. I’ll handle this.”

  Connor delivered the entire speech through gritted teeth. All while, the smile was still plastered on his face.

  Which made Dad even madder.

  He lunged at Connor, brandishing the gun like a club. He threw a backhanded swing, but Connor ducked and landed a solid blow to Dad’s side. Dad keeled over and lost the gun. It clattered to the floor. Mom and Dani both dove for it, but Mom was faster.

  Dani recovered, putting herself in a balanced crouch. She swiped a leg at our mother. Mom landed hard on her butt, the gun still clutched in her hand. She pointed it at Dani, but Cas swooped in and punched her.

  The gun went off.

  I gasped.

  Nick clutched at his gut, and Sam caught him as he stumbled.