Delphi Collected Works of Hugh Walpole (Illustrated)

by Hugh Walpole

  Her eyes wandered over the audience. She saw many townspeople whom she knew, and she realised, for the first time, that tomorrow everywhere it would be said that the Rector’s wife had been at the Revival meeting.

  And how different an audience from the old London one. Every one had come on this occasion to see a show, and it was certainly a show that they were going to see. Maggie had entered during a pause, and all the faces that were there wore that look of expectation that demands the rising of the curtain. Soon, Maggie felt, they would stamp and whistle did the play not begin.

  Thurston rose and announced:

  “My brothers, we will sing hymn No. 14 on the paper.”

  Maggie looked and discovered that it was the hymn that had once moved her so dramatically in London with the words

  By all Thy sores and bloody pain

  Come down and heal our sins again.

  and with the last refrain:

  By the blood, by the blood, by the blood of the Lamb

  We beseech Thee.

  Already, in spite of herself, in spite of her consciousness of the melodrama and meretricious glitter of the scene, her heart was beating. She was more deeply moved, even now, than she had ever been by all the services of the Skeaton Church.

  And Thurston had learnt his job by this time. Softly one of the violins played the tune. Then Thurston said:

  “The first verse of this hymn will be sung by the choir alone. The congregation is asked to stand and then to join in the second verse. The fourth verse will be sung by the soloist.”

  The audience rose. There was a hush of expectation throughout the building. The choir, to the accompaniment of the fiddlers alone, sang the first verse. They had been well selected and trained. Thurston obviously spared no expense. For the second verse, the whole orchestra combined, the drum booming through the refrain. At first the congregation was timid, but the tune was simple and attractive. The third verse was sung by every one, and Maggie found herself, almost against her will, joining in. At the fourth verse there was again the hush of expectation, then a soprano, thin and clear, accompanied again by one violin, broke the silence.

  There was no doubt that this was very moving. Men and women sat down at the hymn’s close quite visibly affected.

  Thurston got up then and read a lesson from the Bible. He read from the Revelations:

  “After this I looked, and, behold, a door was opened in heaven: and the first voice which I heard was as it were of a trumpet talking with me; which said, Come up hither, and I will show thee things which must be hereafter.”

  “And immediately I was in the Spirit: and, behold, a throne was set in heaven, and one sat on the throne.”

  “And he that sat was to look upon like a jasper and a sardine stone: and there was a rainbow round about the throne, in sight like unto an emerald. And round about the throne were four and twenty seats: and upon the seats I saw four and twenty elders sitting, clothed in white raiment; and they had on their heads crowns of gold.”

  Thurston had worked hard during these last years, he had immensely improved his accent, and his h’s were all in their right places. He read very dramatically, dropping his voice to a whisper, then pausing and staring in front of him as though he saw God only a few yards away. The people of Skeaton had had few opportunities of any first-class dramatic entertainment. When Thurston finished there passed through the building a wave of excitement, a stir, a faint murmur. An old woman next to Maggie wiped her eyes. “Lovely!” Maggie heard her whisper. “Lovely!”

  They sang, then, another hymn, accompanied by the orchestra. This was a dramatic hymn with a fiery martial tune:

  The Lord of War He cometh down With Sword and Shield and Armour Bright, His armies all behind him Frown, Who can withstand His Light?

  Chorus. Trumpets Blare, The drum-taps Roll, Prepare to meet Thy God, Oh Soul! Prepare! Prepare! Prepare to meet Thy God, oh Soul!

  Never before had the men and women of Skeaton heard such hymns. The Revival of ten years ago, lacking the vibrant spirit of Mr. John Thurston, had been a very different affair. This was something quite new in all Skeaton experience. Red-hot expectation flamed now in every eye. Maggie could feel that the old woman next to her was trembling all over.

  Thurston announced:

  “Brother Crashaw will now deliver an address.”

  Brother Crashaw, his head still lowered, very slowly got up from his seat. He moved as though it were only with the utmost difficulty and power of self-will that his reluctant body could be compelled into action. He crept rather than walked from his chair to the reading-desk, then very very painfully climbed on to the high platform. Maggie, watching him, remembered that earlier time when he had climbed into just such another desk. She remembered also that day at her aunts’ house when he had flirted with Caroline and shown himself quite another Brother Crashaw. He had aged greatly since then. He seemed now to be scarcely a man at all. Then suddenly, with a jerk, as though a string had been pulled from behind, he raised his face and looked at them all. Yes, that was alive. Monkey’s mask you might call it, but the eyes behind the yellow lids flamed and blazed. No exaggeration those words. A veritable fire burned there, a fire, it might be, of mere physical irritation and savage exasperation at the too-rapid crumbling of the wilfully disobedient body, a glory, perhaps, of obstinate pride and conceit, a fire of superstition and crass ignorance, but a fire to be doubted of no man who looked upon it.

  When he spoke his voice was harsher, angrier, more insulting than it had been before. He spoke, too, in a hurry, tumbling his words one upon another as though he were afraid that he had little mortal time left to him and must make the most of what he had got.

  From the first he was angry, rating the men of Skeaton as they had never been rated before. And they liked it. They even revelled in it; it did them no harm and at the same time tickled their skins. Sometimes a preacher at the Methodist Chapel had rated them, but how mild and halting a scolding compared with the fury of this little man. As he continued they settled into their seats with the conviction that this was the best free show that they had ever enjoyed in all their lives. They had been afraid at first that it would not keep up its interest. They had agreed with one another that they would go in “just for a quarter of an hour to see what it was like.” Now they were willing that it should continue all night.

  “What came ye out for to see?” he screamed at them. “Came out to see? Ye didn’t come out at all. None of you. That’s what I’ve come to tell you. For years you’ve been leading your lazy, idle, self-indulgent lives, eating and drinking, sleeping, fornicating, lying with your neighbours’ wives, buying and selling, living like hogs and swine. And is it for want of your being told? Not a bit of it. You are warned again and again and again. Every day gives you signs and wonders had you got eyes to see them and you will not see. Well, be it on your own heads. Why should I care for your miserable, shrivelled-up, parched little souls? Why should I care when I watch you all, with your hanging stomachs and your double chins, marching straight into such a hell as you’ve never conceived of. I know what’s coming to you. I know what’s in store for those well-filled stomachs of yours. I can see you writhing and screaming and wailing, ‘Why didn’t somebody tell us? Why didn’t somebody tell us?’ Somebody has told you. Somebody’s telling you now. And will you listen? Not a bit of it. You’ll have heard the music to-night, the drums and the trumpets, you’ll have joined in the singing, and to-night you’ll go back and tell your friends: ‘Yes, we had a fine evening. You ought to go. It’s worth while and costs you nothing.’ And to-morrow you will have forgotten everything. But I tell you that every man, woman, and child in this building stands in as desperate peril as though his house was on fire over his head and there was no way out.”

  He stopped for a moment to get breath, leaning forward over the desk and panting. Over the building there was a great silence. Maggie was stirred beyond any earlier experience. She did not know whether he were charlatan or no. She did no
t care. She had lived for more than two years in Skeaton, where everything and every one was dead. Now here was life. The evidence of it reassured her, whispering to her that Martin still lived, that he could be found, even that he was coming to her. Her nervous excitement increased. The emotion of the people around her, the bands, the singing, all seemed to cry to her, “He is coming! He is coming! He is coming!” ... but it was Martin now and not God.

  Old Crashaw, having recovered his breath, went on: he continued for some time to abuse them all, screaming and beating the wooden desk with his fists — then suddenly he changed, his voice softened, his eyes were milder, there was something wistful and pathetic in his old ugly yellow face.

  “I know that you came in here to-night, all of you, just as you might into a picture-house or a theatre. Entrance free. Well, then, why not? Had we charged half-a-crown there wouldn’t have been one of you. Half-a-crown and the most important thing in life. I say the most important — I say the only important thing in life. A man’s soul, its history and growth. What do you know of the soul, you ask me? How do you know there is one? Well, I can only tell you my news. If a man comes into your town and tells you that there is an army marching down upon it to destroy it he may be true or he may not. If he is true then, when you don’t listen to him you are doomed. If you do listen the preparation to meet that army will at any rate do you no harm even though the army doesn’t exist.”

  “I tell you that the Soul exists, that God exists, and that one day God and the Soul will meet. You say that hasn’t been proved, and until it is proved you will spend your time over other things that you know to be true. Try it at least, give it a chance. Why not? You give other things a chance, marriage, doctors, trades, amusements. Why not the Soul? Don’t listen to any one else’s definition of religion. Don’t believe in it. Make your own. Find out for yourself. My children, I am an old man, I am shortly to die. If I have scolded forgive me. Let me leave with you my blessing, and my earnest prayer that you will not pass by God on the other side. The day will come when you cannot pass Him by. Meet Him first of your own accord and then when that other day comes He will know you as a friend ...”

  The old man’s voice faltered, failed, stopped. He himself seemed to be deeply affected. Was it acting? Maggie could not tell. At any rate he was old and ill and very shortly to die ...

  The woman next her was crying rubbing the knuckles of her shabby old gloves in her eyes, the bugles on her bonnet shaking like live things.

  She snuffled through her nose to Maggie “Beautiful — beautiful — I ‘aven’t ‘eard such preaching since I don’t know when.”

  Thurston again rose.

  “A solo will now be sung,” he said. “After the singing of the solo there will be a prayer offered, then a procession, headed by the choir, will be formed to march, with lanterns, through the town, as a witness to the glory of God. It is hoped that those of the congregation who have received comfort and help during this service will join in the procession. There will be a collection for the expenses of the Mission at the door.”

  Maggie watching him wondered. Of what was he thinking? Was there any truth in him? Had he, perhaps, behind the sham display and advertisement that he had been building felt something stirring? Was he conscious, against his own will, of his falsehood? Had he, while building only his own success, made a discovery? She looked at him. The dramatic mask hid him from her. She could not, tell what he was.

  The soprano, who had sung a verse of the hymn earlier in the evening, now undertook “Hear my Prayer.” Very beautifully she sang it.

  “Hear my prayer, Oh, God, incline Thine ear, Thyself from my distresses do not hide ...”

  The voice rose, soaring through the building to meet the silver stars and the naked cherubs on the ceiling. “The enemy shouteth ... The enemy shouteth ...”

  Skeaton sat enraptured. Women let the tears stream down their faces, men blew their noses.

  Once again the voice arose.

  “Hear my prayer, Oh, God, incline Thine ear ...”

  It was Maggie’s voice, Maggie’s cry. From the very heart of the charlatanism she cried out, appealing to a God who might exist or no, she could not tell, but who seemed now to be leading her by the hand. She saw Aunt Anne at St. Dreot’s whispering “The Lord is my Shepherd. He shall lead me ...”

  In a dream she shared in the rest of the ceremony. In a dream she passed with the others out of the building. The sea air blew about her; down the promenade she could see the people, she could see the silver stars in the sky, the faint orange light of the lanterns, the dim stretch of the sand, and then the grey sea. She heard the splash and withdrawal of the tide, the murmur of many voices, the singing of the distant hymn, the blare of the trumpet.

  Strange and mysterious, the wind blowing through it all like a promise of beauty and splendour to come ...

  She turned in the starlit dark, separated herself from the crowd, and hurried home.

  In the hall on the table under the lamp she saw a letter. She saw that it was addressed to her and that the writing was Amy Warlock’s. Before she picked it up she stood there listening. The house was very still. Grace and Paul had probably begun supper. She picked up the letter and went up to her bedroom.

  As though she were scanning something that she had already seen, she read:

  I made you a promise and I will now fulfil it.

  My brother, Martin, arrived in London three days ago. He is staying at No. 13A Lynton Street, King’s Cross.

  I have seen him but he has told me that he does not wish to see me again. He is very ill; his heart is bad and his lungs are affected. He has also spent all his money. I mentioned your name but he did not seem to be at all interested. I think it fair to tell you this lest you should have a fruitless journey. I have now kept my promise to you, unwisely perhaps. AMY WARLOCK.

  Maggie sat down on the bed and considered. There was a train at 10.30 reaching London about midnight. She could just catch it if she were quick. She found a pencil and a piece of paper and wrote:

  DEAR PAUL — I have to go to London suddenly on very urgent business. I will write to you from there. Good-bye. MAGGIE.

  She propped this up against the looking-glass. She put a few things, including the box with Martin’s letters and the ring into a little bag, put on her hat and coat and went downstairs. She waited for a moment in the hall but there was no sound anywhere. She went out down the dark drive.

  As she passed along the lonely road she heard the gate, screaming faintly, behind her.

  PART IV. THE JOURNEY HOME AGAIN

  CHAPTER I

  THE DARK ROOM

  It was after midnight when Maggie was turned out on to the long grim platform of the London station. On that other London arrival of hers the terminus had been a boiling cauldron of roar and rattle. Now everything was dead and asleep. No trains moved; they slept, ancient monsters, chained down with dirt and fog. Two or three porters crept slothfully as though hypnotised. The face of the great clock, golden in the dusk, dominated, like a heathen god, the scene. Maggie asked a porter the way to the Station Hotel. He showed her; she climbed stairs, pushed back swing doors, trod oil-clothed passages, and arrived at a tired young woman who told her that she could have a room.

  Arrived there, herself somnambulistic, she flung off her clothes, crept into bed, and was instantly asleep.

  Next morning she kept to her room; she went down the long dusty stairs before one o’clock because she was hungry, and she discovered the restaurant and had a meal there; but all the time she was expecting Martin to appear. Every step seemed to be his, every voice to have an echo of his tones. Then in the dusky afternoon she decided that she would be cowardly no longer. She started off on her search for No. 13A Lynton Street, King’s Cross.

  She searched through a strange blue opaque light which always afterwards she recollected as accompanying her with mystery, as though it followed her about deliberately veiling her from the rest of the world. She felt differen
t from them all; she found an omnibus that was going to King’s Cross, but when she was inside it and looked at the people around her she felt of them all that they had no reality beside the intensity of her own search. She, hot like a fiery coal, existed in a land of filmy ghosts. She repeated to herself over and over, “No. 13A Lynton Street, King’s Cross.”

  She got out opposite the huge station and looked about her. She saw a policeman and went across to him.

  “Can you tell me where Lynton Street is, please?” she asked him.

  He smiled. “Yes, miss. Down on your right, then first to your right again.”

  She thanked him and wanted for a silly moment to remain with him. She wanted to stand there where she was, on the island, she couldn’t go back, she was afraid to go forward. Then the moment left her and she moved on. When she saw Lynton Street written up her heart gave a strange little whirr and then tightened within herself, but she marched on and found 13A. A dirty house, pots with ferns in the two grimy windows, and the walls streaky with white stains against the grey. The door was ajar and, pushing it a little, she saw a servant-girl on her knees scrubbing the floor. At the noise of her step the girl looked up.

  “Is Mr. Warlock here?” Maggie asked, but the words were choked in her throat.

  “Wot d’ye sye?” the girl asked.

  Maggie repeated her question.

  “Yes— ‘e’s upstairs. Always is. Fust floor, second door on yer left.”

  Maggie went up. She found the door. She knocked. There was no answer. She pushed the door, peered through and looked in. She saw a room with a dirty grimy window, a broken faded red sofa, a deal table. No one there.