Delphi Collected Works of Hugh Walpole (Illustrated)

by Hugh Walpole

  Claribel’s convictions about it were not very positive. She was simply so glad that he had become “Somebody” again, and she had perhaps a malicious pleasure in the disappointment of “the set.” It amused her to see the golden purse slipping out of their eager fingers, and they so determined to stay it.

  The pursuit continued for weeks. Everyone was drawn into it. Even old Lord John Beaminster, who was beset with debts and gout, stirred up his sister Adela to see whether she couldn’t “discover” something....

  It was Henry Matcham who finally achieved the revelation. He came bursting in upon them all. The secret was out. Tom; had turned “pl” He was working down in the East End to save souls.

  The news was greeted with incredulity. “Tom soul-saving? Impossible! Tom the cynic, the irreligious, the despiser of dogma, the arbitrator of indifference-incredible.”

  But Matcham knew. There could be no doubt. A man he knew in Brooks’s had a brother, a parson in an East-End Settlement. The parson knew Tom well, said he was always down there, in the men’s clubs and about the streets.

  They looked at one another in dismay. Claribel laughed to see them. What was to be done? Tom must be saved, of course; but how? No plan could be evoked. “Well, the first thing we must do,” said Mrs. Matcham, “is to get a plain statement from himself about it.”

  They sent Claribel as their ambassador, realising, suddenly, that “she had some sense,” and that Tom liked her.

  She told him, with a twinkle in her eye, what they wanted.

  “They’re all very much upset by what you’re doing, Tom. They don’t want to lose you, you see. They’re fond of you. And they don’t think it can be good for you being all the time with Bolsheviks and dirty foreigners. You’ll only be taken in by them, they think, and robbed; and that they can’t bear. Especially they think that now after the war everyone ought to stand together, shoulder to shoulder, you know, class by class. That’s the way Henry Matcham puts it.

  “Of course, they admire you very much, what you’re doing — they think it very noble. But all this slumming seems to them... what did Dollie call it?... Oh, yes, vieux jeu... the sort of thing young men did in the nineties, centuries ago. Oxford House, and all that. It seems rather stupid to them to go back to it now, especially when the war’s shown the danger of Bolshevism.”

  Tom laughed. “Why, Carrie,” he said, “how well you know them!”

  She laughed too. “Anyway,” she said, “I know you better than they do.”

  Tom agreed that it would be a very good thing for them all to meet.

  “They’ve got what’s happened just a trifle wrong,” he said. “It’s only fair to dear things up.”

  They all appeared on the appointed day — Mrs. Matcham, as president, in a lovely rose-coloured tulle for which she was just a little too old, Hattie, Dollie, Harwood Dorset, Henry Matcham, Pelham Duddon, Morgraunt and Lucile, Dora, and of course Claribel. The event had the appearance of one of the dear old parties.

  The flat was just as beautiful, the tea as sumptuous, Sheraton as perfect. They hung around the same chairs, the same table, in all their finery and beauty and expense. They were as sure of conquest as they had ever been.

  Tom sat on the red leather top of the fire-guard and faced them.

  Mrs. Matcham led the attack.

  “Now, dear old Tom,” she said, in that cooing and persuasive voice of hers, so well known and so well liked; “you know that we all love you.”

  “Yes, I know you do,” said Tom, grinning.

  “We do. All of us. You’ve just been a hero, and we’re all proud to death of you. It’s only our pride and our love for you that allows us to interfere. We don’t want to interfere, but we do want to know what’s happening. Henry has heard that you’re working down in the East End, doing splendidly, and it’s just like your dear old noble self, but is it wise? Are you taking advice? Won’t those people down there do you in, so to speak? I know that this is a time, of course, when we’ve all got to study social conditions. No thinking man or woman can possibly look round and not see that there is a great deal... a whole lot... well, anyway, you know what I mean, Tom. But is it right, without consulting any of us, to go down to all those queer people? They can’t like you really, you know. It’s only for what they can get out of you, and all that After all, your own people are your own people, aren’t they, Tom dear?”

  “I don’t know.” Tony looked up at her smiling. “But I don’t think that’s exactly the point They may be or they may not... Look here. You’ve got one or two wrong ideas about this. I want you to have the truth, and then we won’t have to bother one another any more. You talk about my working and being noble, and so on. That’s the most awful Tommy-rot. I’ll tell you exactly what happened. I came back from France. At least, no, I didn’t come back; but my body came back, if you know what I mean. I stayed over there. At least, I suppose that is what happened. I didn’t know myself what it was. I just know that I didn’t exist. You all used to come to tea here and be awfully nice and so on, but I didn’t hear a word any of you said. I hope that doesn’t sound rude, but I’m trying to tell exactly what occurred. I didn’t know what was the matter with me — I wasn’t anybody at all. I was Nobody. I didn’t exist; and I asked Sheraton, and he didn’t know either. And then, one night—”

  Tom paused. The dramatic moment had come. He knew the kind of thing that they were expecting, and when he thought of the reality he laughed.

  “One night — well, you won’t believe me, I suppose, if I tell you I was very unhappy — no, unhappy is too strong — I was just nothing at all. You’d all been here to tea, and I went out for a walk down Bond Street to clear my head. It was raining and I found two old things taking shelter under a wooden standing. The old lady fainted while I was talking to them, and I saw them home — And — well, that’s all!”

  “That’s all!” cried Millie Matcham. “Do you mean, Tom, that you fell in love with the old woman!”

  Her laugh was shrill and anxious.

  He laughed back. “Fell in love! That’s just like you, Millie. You think that love must be in it every time. There isn’t any love in this — and there isn’t any devotion, or religion, or high-mindedness, or trying to improve them, or any of the things you imagine. On the contrary, they hate me, and I don’t think that I’m very fond of them — except that I suppose one has a sort of affection for anybody who’s brought one back to life again — when one didn’t want to die!”

  Henry Matcham broke in:— “Tom, look here — upon my word, I don’t believe that one of us has the least idea what you’re talking about.”

  Tom looked around at them all and, in spite of himself, he was surprised at the change in their faces. The surprise was a shock. They were no longer regarding him with a gaze of tender, almost proprietary, interest. The eyes that stared at his were almost hostile, at any rate suspicious, alarmed. Alarmed about what? Possibly his sanity — possibly the misgiving that in a moment he was going to do or say something that would shock them all.

  He realised as he looked at them that he had come, quite unexpectedly, upon the crisis of his life. They could understand it were he philanthropic, religious, sentimental. They were prepared for those things; they had read novels, they knew that such moods did occur. What they were not prepared for, what they most certainly would not stand, was exactly the explanation that he was about to give them. That would insult them, assault the very temple of their most sacred assurances. As he looked he knew that if he now spoke the truth he would for ever cut himself off from them. They would regard his case as hopeless. It would be in the future “Poor Tom.”

  He hated that — and for what was he giving them up? For the world that distrusted him, disbelieved in him, and would kill him if it could....

  The Rubicon was before him. He looked at its swirling waters, then, without any further hesitation, he crossed it. He was never to return again....

  “I’m sorry to disappoint you all,” he said. “There�
��s no sentimental motive behind my action — no desire to make any people better, nothing fine at all. It simply is, as I’ve said already, that those two people brought me back to life again. I don’t know what, except that I was suddenly interested in them. I didn’t like them, and they hated me. Now I’ve become interested in their friends and relations. I don’t want to improve them. They wouldn’t let me if I did. I came back from France nobody at all. What happened there had simply killed all my interest in life. And — I’m awfully sorry to say it — but none of you brought my interest back. I think the centre of interests changed. It’s as though there were some animal under the floor, and the part of the room that he’s under is the part that you look at, because he’s restless and it quivers. Well, he’s shifted his position, that’s all. You aren’t on the interesting part of the floor any longer. I do hate to be rude and personal — but you have driven me to it. All of you are getting back to exactly what you were before the war: there’s almost no change at all! And you’re none of you interesting. I’m just as bad — but I want to go where the interesting human beings are, and there are more in the dirty streets than the clean ones. In books like Marcella, years ago people went out of their own class because they wanted to do ‘good.’ I don’t want to do good to anyone, but I do want to keep alive now that I’ve come back to life again. And — that’s all there is to it,” he ended lamely.

  He had done as he had expected. He had offended them all mortally. He was arrogant, proud, supercilious, and a little mad. And they saw, finally, that they had lost him. No more money for any of them.

  “Well,” said Henry Matcham at last, “if you want to know, Tom, I think that’s about the rottenest explanation I’ve ever heard. Of course, you’re covering something up. But I’m sure we don’t want to penetrate your secret if you don’t like us to.”

  “There isn’t any secret.” Tom was beginning to be angry. “I tell you for the hundredth time I’m not going to start soup kitchens, or found mission rooms, or anything like that, but I don’t want any more of these silly tea-parties or perpetual revues, or — or—”

  “Or any of us,” Dollie, her cheeks flushed with angry colour, broke in. “All Tom’s been trying to explain to us is that he thinks we’re a dull lot, and the Bolsheviks in the slums are more lively—”

  “No,” Tom broke in; “Dollie, that isn’t fair. I don’t want to pick and choose according to class any more. I don’t want to be anything ever again with a name to it — like a Patriot, or a Democrat, or a Bolshevik, or an Anti-Bolshevik, or a Capitalist. I’m going by Individuals wherever they are. I — Oh, forgive me,” he broke off, “I’m preaching; I didn’t mean to. It’s a thing I hate. But it’s so strange — you none of you know how strange it is — being dead, so that you felt nothing, and minded nothing, and thought nothing, and then suddenly waking—”

  But they had had enough. Tommy was trying to teach them. Teach them! And Tommy!...

  They “must be going” — sadly, angrily, indignantly they melted away. Tom was very sorry: there was nothing to be done.

  Only Claribel, taking his hand for a moment, whispered:

  “It’s all right. They’ll all come back later. They’ll be wanting things.”

  They were gone — all of them. He was alone in his room. He drew back the curtains and looked down over the grey misty stream of Duke Street scattered with the marigolds of the evening lights.

  He threw open a window, and the roar of London came up to him like the rattle-rattle-rattle of a weaver’s shuttle.

  He laughed. He was happier than he had ever been before. The whole world seemed to be at his feet, and he no longer wished to judge it, to improve it, to dictate to it, to dogmatise it, to expect great things of it, to be disappointed in it....

  He would never do any of those things again.

  He addressed it:

  “I did passionately wish you to be improved,” he said, “but I didn’t love you. Now I know you will never be improved, but I love you dearly — all of you, not a bit of you. Life simply isn’t long enough for all I’m going to see!”

  BOMBASTES FURIOSO

  THAT year, Nineteen-Nineteen, threw up to the surface, because of the storm and disorder of its successive tidal waves, many strange fish; and of all that I encountered, the strangest, most attractive, and, I venture to think, the most typical of our times and their uncertainties, was my friend Bombastes Furioso — otherwise Benedick Jones.

  I should certainly never have met him had it not been for Peter Westcott. Westcott, somewhere in the spring of Nineteen-Nineteen, took for a time the very handsome rooms of Robsart, the novelist, at Hortons in Duke Street, St James’s. It was strange to see Peter in those over-grand, over-lavish rooms. I had known him first in the old days when his Reuben Hallard and Stone House had taken London by storm, and when everything seemed “set fair” for his future. Then everything crumbled: his child died, his wife ran away with his best friend, and his books failed. I didn’t hear of him again until Nineteen-Fifteen, when somebody saw him in France. His name was mentioned on several occasions through the terrible years, but nobody seemed to know him well. He kept away, apparently, from everybody. Then on the very day that the Armistice was signed, I met him in the crowd about Whitehall, looking just the same as in the old days — a little older, a little stouter, stocky and resolved and aloof and observant, in a world, as it had always seemed, to which he only half belonged, a sailor on leave in a country strange, dangerous, and interesting.

  But this story is not about Westcott. To cut this prologue short, then, he asked me to come and see him, and I went to the magnificent Horton rooms, not once, not twice, but many times. I had loved Peter in the old days. I loved him much more now. The story of those years of his life that immediately followed the war is a wonderful story. I hope that one day he will give it to the world; whether he does or no, I saw in those summer months the beginning of the events that were to lead him back to life again, to give him happiness and self-confidence and optimism once more, to make him the man he now is.

  In the story of that recovery, Benedick Jones has his share; but, I must repeat, this is Benedick Jones’s story and not Westcott’s.

  The first day that I saw Jones was one lovely evening in April when Peter’s (or rather, Robsart’s) sitting-room was lit with a saffron-purple glow, and the clouds beyond the window were like crimson waves rolling right down upon us across the pale, glassy sky. In the middle of this splendour Jones stood, a whisky-and-soda in one hand, and a large meerschaum pipe in the other. He was, of course, orating about something. The first thing that struck me was his size. It was not only that he was well over six feet and broad in proportion, but there seemed to be in his large mouth, his great head with its untidy mop of yellow hair, his big, red hands, a spiritual size as well He gave one always the impression of having more fire within his soul than he could possibly manage.

  Ho was fat, but not unpleasantly so. His clothes were comfortably loose, but not disorderly. His stomach was too prominent, but the breadth of his chest saved him from unsightliness. His face was a full moon, red, freckled, light yellow eyebrows, light yellow, rather ragged moustache. He was always laughing — sometimes when he was astonished or indignant.

  He was forever in the middle of the room orating somebody or something, and his favourite attitude was to stand with his legs wide apart, a pipe or a glass or a book in his extended hand, his body swaying a little with the rhythm of his eager talk.

  On this afternoon, I remember, he really seemed to fill the room — words were pouring from his mouth in a torrent, and I stood, stopped by this flood, at the door. Westcott, lying back in a leather chair, smoking, listened, a smile on his generally grave face, something of the indulgent look in his eyes that one might give to a favoured and excited child.

  “Hullo, Lester!” he cried, jumping up. “Come along — This is Captain Jones. Bomb, let me introduce you to Mr. Lester. I told you to read To Paradise years ago in France, but
of course you never have.”

  “No, I never have,” cried Jones, turning round upon me very suddenly, seizing my hand and shaking it up and down like the handle of a pump. “How do you do! How do you do! I’m just delighted to see you. I don’t read much, you know. Better for me if I read more. But I’ve got to take exercise. I’m getting fat.” Then he wheeled round again. “But, Peter,” he went on, suddenly taking a great draught from his glass, “it was the most extraordinary thing — I swear it was just as I’m telling you — the girl gave the man a look, spat at him, and ran for her life. There were three men after her then, one a vicious-looking little devil—”

  I sat down in the chair nearest to me and listened. I heard a most astonishing story. I’m afraid that I cannot remember at this distance of time all the details of it: it had murder in it, and rape and arson and every sort of miraculous escape, and apparently, so far as I could make it out, Jones had been a spectator of all that he described. There were discrepancies in his narrative, I remember, about which I should have liked to question him, but the words came out so fast, and the narrator’s own personal conviction in the reality of his story was so absolute, that questions seemed an impertinence. He stopped at last, wiped his brow, collapsed upon a chair, finished his whisky with a great sucking smack of approval, dug his fingers into the bowl of his pipe, struck matches that were, one by one, ineffective, and lay scattered about him on the floor, and then smiled at me with a beaming countenance.

  “That’s a very good story, Bomb,” said Peter.

  “Story!” cried Captain Jones, contemptuously. “That ain’t no story. That’s God’s own truth — every word of it.” He looked at me smiling all over his face.

  “I’ve had some very remarkable experiences,” he said.

  “You must have had,” I answered.

  He did not, I think, on this occasion, stay very long.