Cautious Surrender

by C. L. Scholey

  She smiled. “Well then don’t come inside me.”

  Blu was perplexed. “What?”

  “I want you, Blu. I know you want me. You told me your wishes; I’m under no delusions. I won’t take your dreams from you; if you want a son then you should have one. We can have sex. We can be close. All you have to do is blow your load outside of me. No mating, no child, no commitment. I’m not a bitch. I get it. I have dreams too.”

  Blu blinked hard. He’d never heard of having sex with a female and purposely releasing his seed elsewhere. On occasion he had serviced himself in the shower. But to have a female beneath him and having sex for no other purpose except satisfaction…was it possible? Adan’s scent of want and need was high. She was no liar. She never had been. His resolve crumbled in a good way, he had never wanted any female like he did her. A Holiday couldn’t lead to more, he had experienced one before. The battle, which would never ensue, was irrelevant. Once Adan’s feelings had a release things would calm.

  “You are the strangest female,” Blu said.

  “Please tell me that’s a yes. I want you.”

  “Fuck me, that’s a yes.”

  Chapter 3

  Adan could have laughed at Blu’s expression. His innocence was so sweet. She had been privy to men saying they wanted sex, but if she got pregnant she was on her own. Blu was telling her he wanted a son, but he wouldn’t cheat on her to get what he wanted. Adan loved him. She thought she loved him the second she set eyes on him in the igloo on Earth. He had been keeping her safe ever since. She couldn’t help but love him.

  Her hand stroked his huge erection while he shimmied from his pants. When they reached his planet, she would have to let him go. It hurt, but in her heart she felt a parent should always put their children first and every species should follow a dream. If it wasn’t for Blu, Adan would be dead, she would have no dreams. She had one right now. Right now he was all hers, every inch of him and there was a lot. Blu was shaking.

  “Are you alright?” Adan asked.

  “I’ve only ever had one female. It was the last Holiday. She was dominant and young, I was her first too, and we were both well matched and almost too exhausted to join after our battle. We came close to seriously harming one another.”

  “There’s no battle now, Blu.”

  “I know. It’s so strange. Every part of me is demanding I dominate you, every part of me knows I can and have, and I must be careful. I don’t need to battle you. Sex with a human female is overwhelming. I want to bellow my frustration.”

  “So bellow.”

  “I’ll frighten you.”

  Adan snorted. “As if.”

  The feel of his hard cock was perfect in her hand while she wiggled from her shorts. Once free of all encumbrances Adan lifted her slender legs to wrap around his waist. He remained poised above her looking stunned.

  “To have sex you actually need to insert your cock inside me,” she said then winked and whispered, “Trust me it feels better that way.”

  Blu instead went onto his knees gripping her thighs and she squealed as her back dragged across the ground. For a long moment he simply stared at her. She felt the blush creep up her neck and bathe her face. He seemed to find her fascinating. She wiggled and Blu lowered her ass to the ground. Still shaking his hands trailed from her thighs to her breasts. His hands cupped each breast; his fingers gave a cautious squeeze, when she didn’t protest he rubbed harder until she moaned. He paused.

  “You’re not hurting me, Blu. Don’t your females make sounds when you Holiday?”

  “They growl and snarl and bellow and roar. And we do a lot of struggling, and rolling on the ground.”

  “How quaint. Sounds like a free-for-all.”

  Blu then lowered his hands to her hips, trailing them roughly under her bottom until she yelped. He growled deep within his throat and eased the pressure. His fingernails were two inch long black sharp weapons and she flinched when he traced her mound.

  “One wrong move and your tender flesh would be ripped to shreds,” Blu said. He sounded strangled as though he battled to breathe.

  “Let’s avoid any wrong moves, okay?”

  “A Zargonnii female would kill me if I tried this, even if I was dominant.”

  “Sounds like my idea of a bad Holiday.”

  Adan could see he wanted to touch further but became frustrated with his claws. He bent his fingers and the tips of his knuckles touched her heat. Adan refrained from smiling at him, he was trying so hard to be gentle but he had never been with a human female, he had never been with any female he had to be so cautious with. Blu took his hand and using his clawed fingernails he pressed them against the cavern wall dragging them down. The claws cut through the rock easily as he continued to ease one knuckle into her depth. The wall was soon shredded. Adan could see he was watching her expression. She could tell he was trying to keep his emotions calm.

  “Blu, I’ll be fine. Take a deep breath.”

  Instead he threw back his head and roared making her hair stand on end. Goose bumps dotted her arms. When he removed his knuckle and plunged forward impaling her, Adan screamed. She couldn’t help it. It had been years since her last sexual encounter, and she was expecting more foreplay. Massive didn’t begin to describe his cock. Blu kept his weight from her but he slammed his hands down on either side of her head sending a pattern of dust up in a spiraling fashion. His nails ripped into the ground beside her, shredding the dirt and rock into miniscule pieces. He couldn’t battle her so he battled their surroundings while he took her.

  His strength was awesome. The power radiating within him made each muscle bunch under her hands. His hips pinned her, the ground was cool and hard and now resembled a raw mess a rabid rototiller would have left behind. Blu howled and bellowed, the sound ricocheted off the walls.

  Blu stretched her insides to the limit. He turned his face to the pond and soon the water began to steam and bubble. Adan’s legs tired from his hammering thrusts. She moaned then whimpered. When Blu gazed at her his fiery eyes were under control. He pulled her tighter under him.

  “Blu,” she cautioned when he pulled from her, lifted her under her arms exposing her vulnerable chest, his head dipped to her breasts.

  “I won’t tease my mouth and tongue the way I teased my fingers.”

  Blu took deep breaths. She felt the change in him as he slipped from battle mode. Adan was surprised at his control and marveled at how much he wanted to suckle her. His teeth were no less sharp but smaller and less predatory. Full warm moist lips drew her bud into his mouth. He was careful not to graze his teeth over her tender flesh. His tongue licked hard around her skin making her arch her back higher to give him more. Her nipple hardened into a pebble. His hand released an arm and he kneaded her other breast, void of his sharp nails.

  Blu released her and placed his hands on either side of her as he licked his way up her chest, shoulders, neck and ear. Adan was ready when he plunged into her again. The force was no less and she cried out. Her insides accepted him deeper; she clung to his furry chest groaning until she gasped out louder sounds. Blu growled, his breath heaved making his lungs expand as he took on battle mode again. Raw power bathed her in a wave of an orgasm and her cries grew louder. Blu roared with a cry of victory.

  Adan knew he was ready. “Blu don’t come inside me,” she whispered.

  “Only you matter right now. I feel your wetness, you gave yourself to me.”

  Adan closed her eyes wishing it were true, that only she mattered and perhaps it was true now, but it wouldn’t be. She wouldn’t keep him like this.

  “Blu I can’t conceive in this place. Don’t make me.”

  Making it about her made him nod. Another roar tore from him as he pulled from her heat. He collapsed overtop of her, his knees and elbows holding his weight. He slipped from battle mode. Adan felt the power wash of his ejaculation, the force startled her indenting her belly until the flow ceased, warm wetness covered her belly. She stroked his lon
g white hair, playing with the thick tendrils.

  “I feel loss and fulfillment at the same time,” Blu said, his tone was quiet.

  I feel love, Adan thought.

  “I have no regrets. None, Blu.”

  Blu shifted to turn her in his arms cradling her sideways. “I would have mated you.”

  “I know. I don’t want you to. I don’t ever want you to resent me.”

  “I don’t deserve you.”

  “Probably not. But you’re stuck with me until we get off this planet.”

  “I want you again.”

  “Good.”

  Adan buried her face into his chest. She felt more than heard him chuckle. His body returned to battle mode and she was glad. He was powerful and brutal and fragile. She would protect him from himself. Adan had never felt such a strong ache in her heart. Overcome with her love for him, she struggled out of his arms and went to the water to gain her composure.

  “Wait,” Blu yelled and jumped up stopping her. He wiggled his fingertips across the top of the pool. “I might have accidently boiled something. Nope it’s a little on the warm side but fine.”

  Adan washed her belly with very warm water. He gave new meaning to the idea that looks could kill—his could. Naked and cleaner Adan walked back to him as he settled against the wall.

  * * * *

  Blu watched Adan approach. She wasn’t cautious or hesitant. She went to him freely, openly, wanting him. Adan had no idea what that meant to him. No female Zargonnii went to a male of her own free will. And rarely was a female dominated. Adan wasn’t exactly dominated either. She came to him of her own free will, he hadn’t dominated her; she trusted him. The idea made him groan.

  When she settled into his arms there was so much desire emanating from her. There was a certain scent he couldn’t understand. It was so strong it made him wrap his arms around her, holding her tightly, never wanting to let go. Blu had meant it when he said that moment before he spilled his seed belonged to her. Every moment belonged to her. For his entire adult life having a son meant so much to him. The joy his young nephew brought in their lonely world was meaningful. The child’s innocence and each new accomplishment made not only his father proud.

  Running his hand down Adan’s silky red hair, thinking if they returned to his planet he would have to give her up. He couldn’t expect she would wait for him while he gallivanted out to each Holiday. His friend Finn told him not long ago about the agonizing wait, the wondering if he was a father after joining with a female. The anticipation, the sadness as time passed and realization he wasn’t the lucky one who would be holding the coveted child. If the female hadn’t conceived a male there would be another two-year wait before the next Holiday—the wait after that would repeat itself, then possibly again as Finn had experienced, as many males experienced. Some warriors never received a male child and died without making a home for themselves. Before in Blu’s life the wait seemed worth it. Now it only added to his misery.

  Life was coming at him faster now with his own female literally in his grasp. A male child meant a family. With Adan he would never have to wait, he would watch their female child grow within her. A shared child, another novelty. He had seen his brother’s mate’s belly expand, felt the kicks of the young female inside. Though his niece, Luna, was only a baby, Blu was no less proud of her than he was of Draven.

  Being with a human female was so much better than a Zargonnii female in different ways. Adan could communicate with him, she wanted to, sometimes in access but still he was happy to have her close. She was content to spend nights curled in his arms. When Blu Holidayed, he didn’t sleep for two weeks. It would have been too dangerous.

  “You look so intense. What are you thinking?” Adan asked.

  Blu wanted to tell her he had changed his mind but knew now wasn’t the time. He knew she would feel guilty about changing his mind, maybe even skeptical and he wouldn’t blame her. A son would have been so wonderful, but Blu could have a daughter he wouldn’t have to give up. Adan and he could make a home; he only needed to re-evaluate his long-learned values. With a human female, life would be so different than normal, in a good way. Regardless of his feelings, he couldn’t risk Adan becoming pregnant. Finn was the Zargonnii healer and had been doing a great deal of research on human females. Zargonnii warriors were incredibly virile. They had to be because the Holiday was so short and the time between conceptions long, each mating counted. There was no doubt in his mind if he and Adan tried for a conception they would get one.

  “I’m thinking you look beautiful,” Blu said.

  “Hmmm, I wonder why. Maybe it’s because I’m naked in your arms and we just had sex.”

  “Zane didn’t call it sex or a Holiday with his mate Bay.”

  “If she is mated to him I’m guessing she would prefer the term ‘making love.’”

  “Can we make love? How do you make love?”

  “It’s not a science project. It’s creating feelings.”

  “You make me feel all kinds of things.”

  Blu struggled to take down his battle mode. Whenever on a strange planet, Zargonnii warriors were told to remain in battle form. Adan was too tempting; he wanted to touch her everywhere but couldn’t risk slicing her open by accident. Transformation was hard in hostile territory but he managed. Gazing around at the fried floating bodies of water creatures, he surmised they weren’t in much danger at this very second. Careful fingers traced her silky soft skin from her shoulder to her waist. Dainty ribs showed, reminding him of her precarious situation on Earth. He thought she had put on some weight while in his care.

  The first time Blu set eyes on Adan she needed him. Poised on her knees begging for a taste of the cooked food he and Finn had caught. He was many times her size and without fear she approached him and he coaxed her to his side. There had been six females in all. Finn chose Bethany the moment he saw her and she attacked him. The female Bethany made Blu laugh, he thought her odd, if beautiful. Adan wasn’t odd, noisy but not odd. Her emotions weren’t everywhere like Bethany’s had been. All Adan wanted was for Blu to notice her. How could he not?

  “Are we going to stay here until Titus comes for us? If he comes. The spaceship was destroyed.”

  Adan was right. The ship was annihilated; Blu had no clue as to who survived and where they were.

  “Braxians have a closed compound the assassins can’t enter. If we make it there we might be granted entrance.”

  “What are they like?”

  “The overseers of Brax are hard beings in an emotional sense. They have to be. They know when their assassins are chosen for a job there is no choice. Death will follow.” Blu hoped the assassins would leave him and Adan alone; they weren’t an assignment or a mark.

  Adan laid her head against his chest. He felt her shudder, sensed her fear, but she said nothing to indicate she was afraid, she never did.

  “I will protect you,” Blu said.

  “I know and I will protect you.”

  Blu changed his mind—his female was odd. “And how will you accomplish that?”

  She grinned up at him. “I’ll give you something worth fighting for.”

  Her little bottom wiggled over his cock and Blu was lost. Battle mode surged and she gasped when he flipped her over and settled onto her.

  “Blu, there are other ways to make love.”

  Really? That was news to him.

  “What other ways?”

  “Roll over, you big beast.”

  Blu rolled to his back and was surprised when Adan slipped her leg over his waist. His cock strained and grew harder until he was groaning. Adan rolled her hips back and forth, her hands splayed on his chest. Blu couldn’t take anymore, he lifted her up and impaled her. She gasped but smiled.

  “There you go, big boy.”

  She was teasing him. It was an interesting position. A female Zargonnii would have his arms and legs pinned while taking her pleasure. Blu was in complete control and loving every second.
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  Ah, I get it, making love is in loving the way you make the love.

  Blu pressed his fingers into her flesh, keeping his nails from slicing her. Her rounded behind thrust up with his actions. He dragged her back down leisurely. She wasn’t going anywhere; he didn’t have to continuously fight for dominance. Blu wasn’t completely certain he was in charge but that didn’t matter.

  “Blu?”

  He growled.

  “Make love to me like you never will again.”

  Her gaze was pensive. He smelled her fear. She was inside him as surely as he was within her. Tenderly he rolled them over. Every inch of him found its mark. His body curled over her until every ounce of her touched him. He was too heavy and he heard her groan but she didn’t ask him to stop, or to move. The strange scent wasn’t so strange anymore. He loved her. Blu was capable of love, but this was different than anything he had ever experienced. She had been whittling at his emotions since he met her.

  Blu knew she wanted him and hoped the strange scent he sensed emitting from her was love. He would have to be careful. It would be deadly to let his emotions make him choose a rash decision. Zane said sometimes he couldn’t keep his head straight when Bay was around, Blu understood why.

  Adan’s tiny sounds grew with intensity until he felt her warm wetness again. She had no idea what it took to make a Zargonnii female release. Adan seemed to enjoy giving all of her to him. Exchanging fluid was emotional for a Zargonnii. It was a gift. Normally only the males shared their gift. As soon as they were off the planet and home Blu would give her his gift and she would understand why his commitment to her meant so much.

  Chapter 4

  The planet was just as creepy during the day. Adan clung to Blu’s hand as they wandered their way through lackluster foliage. There were interesting birds Blu explained the inhabitants let live. A brilliant round, foot-high, blood red bird large and poofy with dull purple eyes watched as they neared. Adan shuddered when its beak opened and a forked tongue flicked out to grab a scurrying six-inch-long black snake with centipede feet.