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Whispers in Autumn (The Last Year, #1)

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by Trisha Leigh




  By

  Trisha Leigh

  Copyright 2012 by Trisha Leigh

  Cover art and design by Nathalia Suellen

  Developmental Editor: Danielle Poiesz

  All rights reserved.

  This book is a work of fiction. References to real people, events, establishments, organizations, or locations are intended only to provide a sense of authenticity, and are used factiously. All other characters, and all incidents and dialogue, are drawn from the author’s imagination and are not to be construed as real.

  WHISPERS IN AUTUMN

  TRISHA LEIGH

  For Anthony, who was the first person to tell me this story had merit, and who has been a treasured part of my life—even when I’ve done nothing to deserve him.

  CHAPTER 1.

  Before my eyelids crack open I know I’ve traveled again.

  The oppressive, terrifying certainty that I no longer exist is a dead giveaway. The familiarity of the sensation does nothing to dull the roaring panic as sweat rolls off me and a scream begs to erupt from my heaving chest.

  Breathe, Althea. You still exist.

  My heart rate slows as it responds to the calming voice of reason in my head. It sounds like me, only prettier and definitely calmer. At least part of my brain possesses some clarity.

  It’s early morning. It always is. The sound of movement on the floor below forces my fists to unclench, releasing the garish orange comforter wrinkled inside them. Last night I fell asleep at the Hammonds’ house, where the bedding is green and spring is creeping toward an end. I never get used to starting over like this, but as my travels grow more frequent, a kind of numbness settles in as my feet find their way out from under the heavy down and settle into the slippers beside the bed.

  As if I never left.

  I shuffle across the thick brown carpet and kneel on the padded window seat to peer outside. The trees are bright splotches against the vivid blue sky—some crimson, others a sunny yellow—with a few fiery oranges scattered about. Their bold colors verify my suspicions.

  It’s autumn now.

  My breath fogs up the glass, obscuring the view. Despite my best efforts, water wells up in my eyes. This is still Earth, I remind myself. The only world I’ve ever known. It just looks different than it did yesterday.

  Spring was short for me this time, a mere three or four weeks. I haven’t been yanked out of a season that fast in years. Even without control over my season hops, part of me never gives up hope that someday it will stop. That I will stay in one place, find a way to fit in.

  It’s no use, though. The years have taught me that hope is a worthless dream.

  I gnaw on my fingertips and assemble the facts of this life in my mind. Autumn means Connecticut and that means the Morgans.

  Althea Morgan. That’s the autumn me.

  The name rolls around in my head a few times in an attempt to make it stick. It usually takes a few days before it does.

  “Thea, darling! Come and get some breakfast! Opening block starts in less than an hour!”

  A sigh begins deep inside and burbles up until it spills out in a heavy whoosh. Mr. Morgan doesn’t need to inform me what time I’m required to be settled at my desk, ready to listen to fruitless lectures. It hasn’t changed in ten years.

  Not ready to face the breakfast scene, I head for the shower instead, still chanting my name under my breath. The cleansing room contains a frilly robe, some makeup I’ll hardly wear, a toothbrush, and some fluffy orange towels. All items that belong to me but aren’t mine. Without needing to check, I know similar provisions hang in the closet and are stuffed in the dark oak furniture. In my worst moments I want to rip everything to shreds. On traveling days it’s hard to summon the energy.

  Under the stream of hot water, the scent of jasmine fills my nose. All my showers, in all my houses, are stocked with the same homemade shampoo. I asked my winter mother why she made it for me one time and earned a strange look but no answer. The fragrance clings to me whether I wash my hair or not, and is one of the most constant things in my life, though I’ve never smelled the flower itself.

  It only blooms in the summer. The one season I’ve never seen.

  I press my forehead against the cold white tile and try to stop shivering. The struggle to shake off the traveling knocks me to my knees on the slippery floor. Nagging fear that the shower is imagined, that the orange comforter and the autumn leaves are part of a dream, chokes off my air supply. I’m sure I’m truly gone this time, hidden forever in the black emptiness between seasons. The pain from the scalding water against my face, the sight of blood where the pink razor nicks my skin, both offer a trembling belief that my body exists here—now—at the Morgans’.

  Going to sleep one place, with a certain family, and waking up in another life often tips me sideways for the first couple of hours. I don’t recall the traveling, but rather the endless dark void of the process. As though my body dissolves into a million pieces, and no matter how many times it happens, my brain frets I won’t get put back together.

  The familiarity of my morning ritual helps as I stand in front of the mirror and conquer the tangles in my sopping red hair. Next, I cover my damp body with jeans and a long-sleeved T-shirt, dry my hair and then brush my teeth. Ready to face the day, I leave the cleansing room, cross to the bedroom door, and push it closed.

  My locket works loose from beneath the shirt collar, dropping into my palm as I flop down onto the mussed bed. This necklace alone joins me on my strange travels.

  A jeweled, four-pointed star, no bigger than my thumbnail, dangles off the end of a gold chain so delicate it could snap with almost no effort at all. Gold flecks litter the surface of the reflective black jewel. I pry it open with practiced care and pull out the tiny folded square of paper lodged inside. Rereading it on travel days has become a ritual.

  Althea,

  You feel different because you are Something Else, a Dissident. But you are not the only one. There are more, and you will find each other when it is necessary. In the meantime, trust no one.

  Ko

  Who Ko is and why he scrunched this note inside my necklace are vexing mysteries. The word Dissident doesn’t exist on Earth, at least not in any of the textbooks presented to me during my preparatory phase, though it clearly means I’m not like everyone else. If the note weren’t addressed to me, I would assume it’s a mistake.

  But my name is on it, and I am different.

  My fingers refold the paper as it had been before, the only way it will settle back inside the small locket. Reading the note helps me feel less alone, even though that’s what I am. It reminds me to bury the differences hiding inside me. After all these years, concealing them is second nature. It used to be hard when I was small, when I still believed people would hear me if I shouted loud enough—before I accepted I am like a shadow, something people see but acknowledge as a mere trick of the eye. Whatever hides the real me from the world helps safeguard my secrets. It also ensures my solitude.

  “Thea! Ten-minute warning!”

  Irritation skips through me at the nickname. All my parents insist on using one version or another. I broke the Hammonds of the habit when I spent three consecutive years with them in Portland, Oregon—minus summers, of course. They’ve gone back to calling me Allie now.

  The cold kitchen waits at the bottom of the stairs, on the left through a doorway. I slide into my seat across the round table from Mr. Morgan and force a smile in response to his. There’s nothing remarkable about him, nothing that would cause someone to remember his face. His hair and eyes are exactly the same shade of sandy brown as the bushy mustache that sits on his upper lip.

 
; “Good morning. Have some pancakes. You’ll need to be out the door in eight minutes.”

  Neither of them notices I’ve been away. It’s a mystery, what they believe about my absences. I can’t remember how much time has passed since I last lived under their roof. I stare down at my plate. It feels like it’s been a while.

  Mr. Morgan turns his attention back to his breakfast, finishing off a stack of cranberry pancakes doused in honey. The cranberry pancakes are one of the better things about the Morgans. It’s one of their markers, the little nuances separating one family from the next, like the frilly clothes and the tendency to decorate in shades of orange and brown. It could be worse. The Clarks, my winter family, love to cook with chickpeas.

  The thought of spring and the Hammonds’ gooey, homemade cinnamon rolls jams a lump into my throat. I push the memory away and scarf three pancakes and two pieces of turkey bacon, then down a glass of orange juice before standing up and carrying the plate to the sink. I eat out of habit, and because it’s expected.

  What’s normal.

  Mrs. Morgan washes the dishes by hand, a white, lace-edged apron protecting her calf-length dress. I slide an arm around her slender waist and kiss her cheek as a stray piece of graying hair tickles my neck. My lips smile as my stomach heaves and the cranberry pancakes threaten to take a curtain call. I plant a matching kiss on Mr. Morgan before heading out of the kitchen toward the front door.

  Two shelves and a table full of family photos flank the path through the living room. The pictures featuring my face are all set against autumn backdrops. The Morgans never mention it or act like it’s weird. I don’t think they know I leave.

  A backpack waits on a hook next to the front door, worn and smelling vaguely of stale sweat. The canvas bag weighs nearly nothing; it contains only identification and extra pencils. Everything else will be waiting in opening block. I might have left the backpack on its hook last night, after Cell.

  If I’d been here last night.

  The clock on the wall clicks to eight-fifteen and I step out onto the porch, where crisp, cool autumn air infiltrates my lungs. The sun is out, its rays lukewarm instead of hot, the way they were yesterday in the Portland springtime. The temperature hovers around sixty degrees. Pleasant, some might say. It’s a bit chilly for me, and I think for a split second about going back inside to grab a sweater.

  Up and down the street, doors open and children step outside the exact same time. A boy who looks to be my age two doors down, a little girl farther up the block. Our feet hit the sidewalk together. Mine lead toward Upper Cell, where I’ll begin the last year of my preparatory phase. Not that it makes a difference. I have no one to miss when we Ascend to adulthood, no friends at Danbury Preparatory Cell.

  I haven’t got friends anywhere.

  CHAPTER 2.

  Danbury Prep is a replica of my other Cells, from the redbrick exterior covering its two stories to the perfectly manicured lawn. We’ve studied biology on repeat for years, until understanding how each individual cell is an identical match to the next and together they create something greater—an organism—is second nature. In the same way, the Cells we attend make up the preparatory phase of development. Primer Cell begins at age five, followed by Intermediate Cell, and finally Upper Cell. Ascension after the last year—the Terminal year—takes place between our sixteen and seventeenth nataldays.

  The sight of this particular Cell brews apprehension in my center. My pace doesn’t falter, because being tardy is not Acceptable, but the terrifying weight of my perceived invisibility returns with a vengeance. Students laugh and talk with one another, ignoring me as they amble toward their opening block. Sweat breaks out on my forehead and my stomach twists. I wait to disappear into the crushing black nothingness of travel.

  Then some giggling younger girls toss odd looks my direction, their acknowledgment unwinding the tension from my neck and shoulders. Even though I am insubstantial to them, I am not invisible. My peers see me. They just don’t see me. Not well enough to respond properly, to befriend me, to ask me to sit at their eatery tables.

  As though somewhere deep inside they know I’m a Dissident, and have a built-in instinct to avoid me. They often watch me through befuddled eyes, as though trying to figure me out. Because each human, like each molecule in a cell, is supposed to be indistinguishable from the rest, and I am not.

  I am not.

  It took over a year to make friends with Val and Monica the time I stayed put in Portland with the Hammonds. They grew used to the strangeness I haul around like an extra appendage, even teased me about it. Now that I don’t stay for long, they look through me like everyone else.

  That’s the hardest part of going back.

  Today a pasted-on grin allows me to blend in, if not be welcomed. My schedule is always the same, and since my Cells are identical, knowing where to go isn’t a problem. I make my way through the quiet halls to algebra.

  The swell of kids at the door moves aside, and I head to the rear of the square colorless room. Notepads and textbooks lay atop the clammy metal desks. The lights dim twice in quick succession, letting us know block is about to begin. As they dim a third time they remain that way, and the big screen in the front of the room flickers to life. Beside it, a lone portrait adorns the bare white walls. One hangs in every classroom, each depicting one of the four leaders of the Others.

  The Others are our government, our royalty, our absolute rulers. Since they arrived on Earth they’ve decreed what is Acceptable, who is Broken, who we Partner with, what our Career will be. Every major choice in our lives is decided by them. They are better than us. Smarter, stronger, more powerful.

  At least, that’s what we’re taught. I have no reason to doubt them, besides the pricks of wrongness their appearance scatters across my skin.

  The picture in the algebra room depicts the Other known as Air. The perfect blond-haired man, all chiseled jaw and sharp cheekbones, stares down at us from the wall. His inhospitable gaze, completely black but for a pinpoint of intense blue at the center, reminds us they are watching.

  Always.

  We do not see Others often, at least not in person, but they see us. They’ve installed cameras everywhere, and adults interact with them via the Network on a regular basis. Their presence is felt among humans in the form of awe and deference. As far as I can tell, no one fears them. Except me.

  The Monitor appears on the display screen and pulls my gaze from Air’s intense black one. The bespectacled man looks more like a mole in an earth science textbook than a human, with his small, beady eyes and twitching nose. He takes attendance and we raise our hands one at a time to announce our presence. I’ve never witnessed an absence.

  He begins the lecture and everyone starts taking notes. There’s no good reason for this, since it’s the same material we’ve covered three times before. The Upper Cell subjects and lectures don’t change in all four years. It’s clear to me we’re not here to learn, not any longer, but more as a way to keep us controlled and supervised until the Others decide how we can best serve them as adults. None of my Cellmates seem to notice the repetition. Or mind. Their eyes lock on the Monitor, glancing down every couple of moments to jot down some notes with interested half-smiles.

  After listening to him drone on for a half an hour, in which I count all seventy-two squares on his ugly plaid shirt and decide his eyes are exactly the color of dead grass, it’s time to move on. Calculus is next, followed by astronomy, lunch, more astronomy, exercise, physics, and then chemistry. Our math and science skills are ingrained by now, but few Careers put them to good use.

  Cold dismay pours through me when lunch block arrives. No one sits alone in the eatery, and the tables are assigned by year. Usually we split up by gender, too, but that’s not a rule. For a second I think Val’s waving her arms at me, a seat saved next to her, but this is Danbury, Connecticut not Portland, Oregon. Even if it were Portland, Val wouldn’t save me a seat.

  Not anymore.

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sp; I force a smile and locate an empty seat at a table full of other Terminals, or Terms, as we’re called for short. The girls scoot away from me as I settle into a hard chair. It’s subtle, as any discord is not Acceptable, and they all do it at once as though they can’t help it. Their faces reflect brief confusion, like they don’t understand why either, but settle into contented smiles in the blink of an eye. The lump reappears in my throat and I work on swallowing. I should be used to it, but my outcast status hits hard the first day at a new Cell.

  Instead of dwelling on the aching discomfort of being snubbed, I pretend interest in the portraits on the wall. In the eatery, pictures of the four Other leaders hang together. Air. Water. Fire. Earth.

  The Elements.

  There are many Others but only four Elements. They are Other, but more powerful, more beautiful. And exceedingly rare. Each generation, four Others are marked with a secret brand. They become the Elements and wield the power to control that for which they are named.

  The four scowl down from their portraits, unhappy and disgruntled. All men, save one. Fire is a woman with hair as deep red as my own, but it sprouts from her head in a wild tangle of curls, where mine hangs thick and straight. The blistering contempt in her face shoots a flame-tipped arrow of foreboding through my center.

  Lunch consists of identical bowls of salad covered with fruit, chicken, and an oil-based dressing. I pay dutiful interest to my food and half listen to the chatter fluttering about the table. A brunette with crooked teeth and a big nose jabbers louder than the rest, then a tiny girl interrupts. Her inky hair curls away from her head in loose ringlets, and watching them bounce enthralls me for several seconds as she speaks.

  “I hope I end up with an Administration placement. I love working for the Others.”

  The brunette smiles, but it doesn’t reach her empty eyes. “You’re a shoo-in after helping in the Administrative Center for four years.”

 

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