Unbreak Me

by EJ Logan

  Ari

  The limo we had exited earlier was still out front, so I ran up to it knocking on the passenger door. "Yes mam can I help you? Oh dear, are you okay?" The chauffeur asked.

  I just shook my head but answered "Yeah, I'm fine but can you take me back to the hotel?" He nodded unlocking the doors and starting to get out "I can get the door thanks" I told him as I opened the door and climbed in, but as I started to pull the door shut. It was pulled open from the other side.

  "Ari don't do this. I'm sorry I did that in there, but I couldn't help myself. Please don't leave we need to talk. I have so much I need to say to you,” He pleaded.

  “Not here, not now Caleb,” I said shaking my head.

  "Then I'm coming with you and we can talk at the room, but this can't wait any longer. It has gone on not being addressed for too long already,” He said jumping in and closing the door behind him.

  The chauffeur lowered the separation window and looked at me in the mirror. Is everything okay mam?” He asked for the second time tonight.

  "Y...yes sir can you please just take us to the hotel?" He nodded and rolled up the partition. I turned to stare out the window, not wanting Caleb to see the tears in my eyes.

  "Ari baby, look at me" When I didn't, he took it on himself, turning me to face him. "Aww love don't cry," he said wiping away the tears on my cheeks, but that only made me cry harder.

  Caleb pulled me into his lap cradling me like a baby as I cried into his chest. “I hate you Caleb. Y...you can't mess with me like this. You make me an emotional wreck and I...I can’t do it anymore,” I cried pounding his chest with my fist.

  He didn't do anything to stop me; he just continued to rub my hair and rock me whispering how sorry he was.

  Once we were back at the hotel, I wiped my face with my arm and pulled myself out of the car and out of his arms without a word. I ran for the elevator hoping to get on without him, but I was out of luck as I had to wait for one to show. I just wanted to be alone right now, but I knew he wasn't going to let me.

  Opening my door I ran inside, but Caleb was right on my heels coming inside and shutting the door behind him. "Please just go, I just need to be alone,” I whispered moving towards the couch, but Caleb stopped me, lightly pulling me towards him.

  “I'm sorry but I can't do that. We need to talk Ari. I'm done with all the pretending. I'm sorry for upsetting you back at the party, that wasn't my intention at all. I...I shit I am no good with words. Here read this, it say’s everything,”

  I watched as he pulled a letter from his pocket, handing it to me. Looking at it, I realized it was my letter, the letter he left for me, the one I had stored in my night stand. "How did you get this? Did you go through my room? How could you do such a thing that was my personal stuff,” I yelled.

  “Ari babe, calm down I didn't go through your stuff. Someone told me you never read it and where I could find it. Please just read it. I'll give you some time alone, but promise me you'll read it?” He asked

  "I can’t. I get it you don't do love; I don't need some stupid letter to reinforce that. Don't do this, we can just let it all go. I just need you to quit with all the mixed signals. I can't be your friend one minute and your lover the next. I don't work like that. It's all or nothing for me,” I said still trying to wipe all the tears from my eyes.

  "I know babe, just please read it,” He looked so desperate as he asked that I couldn't say no. Nodding my head, I took the letter from his hand. He lightly kissed my forehead, then turned and went to his room. I went to the couch and looked at the envelope. Flipping it over I let out a deep sigh and pulled out the letter within.

  Ari,

  I will never be able to forgive myself for the pain I caused you. The look on your face as I walked away will forever be etched in my mind. I just didn't know what to say. I'm not good at this, the last woman I loved left me forever. I was scared and confused; you have me so messed up in the head baby.

  For as long as, I can remember it was drilled into me not to love because it will only end in pain. So that's always been my number one rule, don't ever let myself fall. And it was working fine. There had never been a woman even worth my time, but from the first moment, we spoke on the phone I knew you were different.

  I tried and tried to fight the way you made me feel, but it was impossible. You are the bravest, strongest, most beautiful woman I have ever met and every moment I spent with you, I just fell more and more, until I found myself head over heels in love with you.

  I wish I could have just said this last night and spared you the pain and tears, but I was just too much of a coward. Please say one day you can forgive me. You are my everything. I need you in my life, like I need the air to breathe and I plan to spend the rest of my life doing whatever it takes to prove to you that I can be the man you deserve.

  With all the love a man can give, yours always Caleb.

  I just sat there rereading the words on the page. Not knowing what to do or say. I had just finished reading it for the third time, when there was a light knock and the adjoining door opened. I guess he had left it propped so he could come back in.

  I silently watched as Caleb walked back in holding his guitar as he made his way over to me and sat next to me he began to play the song from earlier.

  As he finished the chorus, I lost it as tears streamed down my face. Caleb quickly discarded the guitar and pulled me into his arms, hushing me as I sobbed. "Why? Why Caleb?" I asked through tears.

  "Oh baby, I'm so sorry. You just caught me off guard that night, and I was scared. I'm so sorry I caused you that pain. God I love you so much, I hate to see you like this. Shhh please don't cry,” He cooed rubbing my hair and back as he rocked me in his arms.

  "No, I’m...mean why did you wait so long? You had to have known I didn't read the letter, so why didn't you tell me how you felt sooner?" I asked looking up at him

  He shook his head "Oh baby, I planned to so many times. The day after I came home after talking with my dad, I intended to tell you everything, but you were gone. I didn't want to say everything over the phone, not that you were available anyways. Then the day you came home. I stayed home from work and waited for you, I again planned to tell you everything but it wasn't you who walked through the door. I got so upset when you came home with someone else. All I wanted to do was tell you how I felt but as I watched this other guy hug and kiss you I just couldn't stand it, so I left and went to Tess. Then again the third time I intended to tell you, but you spoke up first when you said you had lied about loving me. I was crushed and didn't know what to believe. Still I'm not sure how you feel. You act like there was never anything between us. You started going out with Brent all the time, and I just thought if you had ever loved me it was gone because you were moving on. So I just waited and waited. But I couldn't hold it back anymore. I l..,” I cut him off.

  "Wait what do you mean I moved on? Do you actually think there's something between Brent and Me?"

  He shrugged. "I see the two of you laughing, cuddling, whispering I mean you guys look pretty close to me,”

  "Oh my god, yeah I guess I can see what you're talking about. We are close, but Brent and I could never be anything more than friends. For one, my heart is elsewhere and secondly he's gay,” I said breaking out a smile at the shocked expression on his face.

  "Wait what? You mean I have been killing myself thinking about the two of you together for nothing? Well, I guess that's karma right?" He said shaking his head.

  He looked back at me and took my hands into his. "Ari before you came into my life I was a shell of a man. Partying, hooking up with stupid women, other than when it came to working all I felt was empty like a part of me was missing. You changed that, from the very start. I didn't know what to expect when you came. All I wanted from the moment we talked was to do everything in my power to unbreak this beautiful broken girl, but the thing I didn't see was how broken I was. You showed me that and every day I spent with you made me see what life cou
ld really be like. I thought I was helping you, but this whole time you have been the one helping me. I love you Ari, something I never thought I would be capable of. I know I'm not perfect, and I never will be, But if you give me another chance, I will spend the rest of my life loving you with everything I have. Ariana Berkley, please say you can forgive me and that you will be mine,” He watched me for any sign, but I just sat there staring at him.

  "I...uh I of course Caleb, I love you,” I said as my mouth found his. The kiss started slow but as I bit his lip he gasped, and I took the opportunity to deepen the kiss as I ran my hands through his hair. He stood while still holding and kissing me making his way to my room before closing the door and laying me on the bed. Slowly he removed my dress letting the material glide across my body causing me to shudder in want.

  Once my dress was off Caleb slowly made his way up my body leaving burning hot kisses in his wake. By the time, he reached my mouth I was so hot I literally flipped us over as I did the same to him removing his clothes until he was left completely naked. I started kissing down his chest lower and lower as he watched until I brought him into my mouth causing him to hiss at the feel, but before I could start working on him, he pulled me off shaking his head.

  "No baby, I want in you. No, I need to be in you,” He said as he lifted me and slowly lowered me onto his aroused member. I gasped at the way he filled me, man how I missed the way this felt. I slowly started working a rhythm getting faster and faster, but he slowed me down sitting up and wrapping his arms around me. "Baby girl, I want to make love to you nice and slow all night. We have the rest of our lives to go hard and fast, but tonight I want to feel every inch of your body as you slowly rub against mine,” He growled as he continued to move his hips into mine.

  We continued this for what felt like forever and not nearly long enough. Though he brought me to ecstasy a total of three times before he couldn't hold back anymore as he released into me. After a hot steamy fast and hard shower we fell asleep wrapped up in each other’s arms. The only place I ever wanted to be again.

  CHAPTERtwentynine

  Caleb

  I woke up feeling happier than I have in months. Though I felt like such an idiot, I had been killing myself these past couple months thinking Ari and Brent had something going on. I would never have guessed he was gay, but damn am I happy he is. I can't believe this amazing, strong, intelligent, beautiful woman is mine. No more games, no more lies, just two people loving each other the way they always should have. Why did I have to be such an idiot for so long? I guess there's no point in dwelling over the things we can't change. We're together now, and I plan to do everything in my power to keep it that way.

  Getting out of bed I threw on a robe and made my way out to the kitchen. I picked up the phone and called room service ordering breakfast. I waited out front looking through emails until the food arrived. Walking into the room it looked like Ari had just woken up. Her hair was everywhere, but she looked so damn cute I couldn't help but smile.

  "Mmm, why are you so happy?" she asked as she stretched her arms yawning.

  "Well, for starters I woke up next to the most beautiful girl in the world,” I told her as I sat next to her bringing the tray of food In front of us. I couldn't help but notice her slight blush from my words, making her look even cuter, if that were even possible.

  She just shook her head and smacked my arm. “Whatever Caleb, mmm that smells good, you ordered breakfast? I thought we were supposed to meet everyone around ten for breakfast?” She asked furrowing her brows.

  "Well, I called Jake and told him that we would meet them for the rehearsal tonight, but we would be busy until then,” I gave her a little wink, and she rolled her eyes.

  “Is that all you can think about?”

  "Babe, though I do constantly think of making love to you, what I was thinking, when I said we would be busy, was a day out in the sun. Explore a little, go for a swim, who knows maybe we'll find a quiet little spot on the beach to... cuddle,” I laughed as once again she rolled her eyes. Setting the tray next to me, I sat against the headboard and pulled her into my lap. She was still completely naked from the night before and I couldn't help but get a little excited at the sight and feel of her soft skin.

  She gasped as she felt me pushed up against her from behind. “Well hello there. It looks like you're already looking to cuddle,” She laughed as she ground into me.

  “Grrrrr, you drive me crazy babe,” I growled before I started kissing on her neck.

  "Mmmm as good as that feels Caleb, it's going to have to wait because I'm starving," she said smiling as she took a grape popping it into her mouth.

  We spent the rest of the morning enjoying our breakfast as well as each other. Once we had taken a very steamy shower, we made our way out to explore. Walking out towards the beach, I was amazed at how beautiful it was. From the flowing palm trees to the bluest ocean. I can see why Tess would want to get married here and walking in this amazing place with this amazing woman feels so right. Man she has turned me into such a romantic sap, but I wouldn't want it any other way.

  Once we made it to the beach, I watched her from behind as she stripped to her bikini damn she looked good. As soon as I pulled off my shirt I scooped her into my arms and ran for the water. "CALEB!" She screamed as I threw her in.

  I was laughing so hard that I lost balance as she pulled me under with her. I came up sputtering for air. “Hey babe, I was laughing as I went under. You could have killed me,” I told her as I pulled her towards me.

  Automatically she wrapped her legs around my waist. "You're a little dramatic there aren't you?" She asked rolling her eyes at me. I just stared at this beautiful goddess. How did I get so lucky to have her come into my life?

  "Caleb?" She whispered when I didn't say a word and just continued to stare at her. Without a word, I put my hand into her hair and pulled her into a deep kiss. We kissed for a good minute until we heard whistles and catcalls coming from the beach. Pulling away catching our breath, we both looked over to where it was coming from just as Callie and Aiden ran into the water with Tess, Jake, Brent, Kelly, Lizzy and all the guys right behind them. Well, there goes my plans to spend the day alone with her. We are going to be here for a week so hopefully we will have plenty of alone time before leaving this place.

  “Something you guys want to tell us?” Tess asked with a huge grin. Ari blushed and hid her face in my shoulder.

  I, on the other hand, was probably sporting a bigger grin than Tess. "What do you expect me to say? Something like I am completely in love with the most amazing, beautiful, perfect girl I have ever met? Cause that's what this is. "I said gesturing between Ari and Me.

  Looking around the group I was met by a bunch of smiles and a few surprised looks. The look that confused me though was Dan. Who rolled his eyes and shook his head, looking really annoyed. What was that about? I'll have to ask him about it later.

  Lifting Ari's head, I looked into her eyes "Are you embarrassed by us?" I whispered to her.

  “No never, I don't know, I guess I am a bit embarrassed that everyone just saw us about to get it on,” She whispered back.

  “We were huh, well give me a sec and I’ll get rid of everyone cause I really want to finish that,” I said smirking.

  “Caleb” she yelled smacking my arm.

  "You guys are just too damn cute. Thank god you both finally came to your senses,” Callie said shaking her head.

  “I know I was ready to lock their asses in a room, until they both admitted how they felt,” Tess said

  "Okay, we got it. We were idiots for way too long, but we've talked about everything, we're together now, and if I have anything to do with it we always will be. I'm not letting this one go again,” I told them all.

  "I love you," Ari said as she gave me a small kiss.

  "And I love you babe. You're it for me, and I'm serious I won't be letting you go, so you better get used to it,”

  She just nodded "I think I can h
andle it."

  After we swam for about an hour Ari, and I excused ourselves from the group and took a walk down the beach. I found a very secluded spot between some rocks. I laid out a blanket for us to relax on. Once we were settled laying on our backs next to each other, I rolled towards her.

  “I love you,” I said as she turned to look at me too. Those three words are words I thought I would never say again, but now I feel like I can't say the enough.

  “I love you too,” She said before leaning in and capturing my lips with hers. Deepening the kiss I laid her back and moved myself to where I was hovering over her.

  Pulling back, I looked into her eyes. "I want you right here, right now,” I said just before leaning in and leaving small kissed from her ear to her mouth.

  “Mmm, then take me,” She didn't have to say anything else. Slowly I untied her bikini as my mouth followed the path of the string until I had her large, soft breast in my mouth. Giving it my full attention as she moaned and mewed squirming beneath me. Moving to the other side I gave the other the same attention before making my way lower suckling and kissing as I went. I wasted no time uniting her bottoms and bringing my mouth down on her most sensitive parts working her until she had to cover her mouth as she screamed my name. I slowly made my way back up her beautiful body.

  I was about to remove my swim trunks, but Ari beat me to it. She hastily pulled them as far as she could reach and then used her feet to pull the rest of the way. "Damn baby, we're in no rush,” I said laughing at how eager she was being.

  "Well, you might not be but I am. I need you inside me, right now,” She whined as I teased her rubbing up against her but not entering. "Caleb,”

  “Such a greedy little thing,” I said before kissing her on her neck.

  “I am when it comes to you, so you better get used to it,” She said using my words from earlier,”

  “I think I can handle it,” I breathed a reply, just as I pushed into her. We made love there on the sand and laid in each other’s arms until it was time to go get ready for the rehearsal.