Adoring Her (The Heiress #3)

by Michelle Dare

  “I have something to tell you.” Oh, shit. Here it comes. My mind started running wild with all of things she could possibly have to say. The look on her face combined with the fact that Kai just left, had my insides turning and slowly my body was heating with anger. I didn’t know for certain this had anything to do with him, but in my mind, the chances were good. I stared at her. Waiting. Waiting for something to come out of her small lips.

  “I’m pregnant.” What? Pregnant? Thank God I wasn’t drinking something when she said that.

  Words. I should be saying something. I...what…holy fuck! “You’re pregnant? Like, right now?”

  Her worried look turned to irritation fast. “No, last fucking week. We had a child. Don’t you remember? Yes, right now!”

  “Don’t yell at me! You just dropped a bomb on me. I’m allowed to freak out a little.”

  She was worried again. “You’re freaked out? Oh my God, you don’t want to have this baby. It’s okay. I can raise it by myself. It’ll be fine. I can do this.”

  “Wait. Hold on. I never said I didn’t want it. You jumped to that conclusion with the speed of a rocket. First, give me the details. When did you find out?”

  “I found out the day you left to go get Kai and Lee. I had a doctor appointment.”

  “And you didn’t think to ask me to come along?”

  “I thought I was sick, not pregnant. I hadn’t been feeling right. Off kind of and a little sick to my stomach. I don’t know how to explain it. I just knew something wasn’t right. So I went, she did some blood work, and asked me to pee in a cup.”

  “Why didn’t you tell me you weren’t feeling good?”

  She looked down at her hands. She was playing with that damned thread again. “I didn’t want to worry you.”

  “Worry me? Kasi, I want to be there for you every step of the way. I don’t want you to be worried all alone. You’re pregnant.” Holy shit, Kasi was pregnant. Maybe if I kept repeating it in my head it would sink in. “When did it happen? I thought you were on the pill.”

  She met my eyes. “Well, I am or I was. I wasn’t when we were apart, though. I was upset and forgot to take it. Then after I heard about you being out on the West Coast, I said fuck it and didn’t bother taking them again. I wasn’t having sex, so I didn’t need them. I started taking them again, however. Once I found out I was pregnant, I stopped. It’s not good to take them while pregnant.”

  “I was gone, but I came back.”

  “Yes.” Her head lowered again. “I didn’t expect you to. I also didn’t expect to fuck you right away. I wasn’t thinking, especially about birth control. A thousand emotions were running through my head. You were back, telling me how much you loved me; that everything you did was for me. I got caught up in the moment and didn’t think about using a condom. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean for this to happen.” A few stray tears slid down her cheeks and it shattered me. I quickly pulled her into my arms and held her tightly.

  “You have nothing to be sorry about. Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”

  “The guys were here, and I didn’t want to have this conversation in front of them. Then that night you were on me as soon as they left, fucking me until I passed out.” Yeah, that was part of my plan. I grinned. I wanted to remind her every night she was mine. Stop judging me. If you were me, you’d have been doing the same thing. Rock star god hanging on your woman all day.

  I snapped back to reality. “Shit, did I hurt you? Did I hurt the baby?”

  She placed her hand on my chest and met my eyes. “Radek, women have sex during pregnancy all the time. I even asked the doctor. It’s fine. I’m not bleeding or cramping. We’re okay.” The look on her face didn’t seem okay to me. Then my dick of the year award arrived when I remembered all that she had been through during her last pregnancy. She must have been scared senseless. Here I was worried about us having sex and asking question after question.

  “Are you all right? With being pregnant, I mean.”

  She shrugged. “I don’t know. I have a life in me. What if I lose this baby like I lost the last one?”

  “What happened before wasn’t your fault.”

  “I know, but that doesn’t stop me from wondering and worrying. Asking myself what I did wrong.”

  “Nothing. You did nothing wrong.” Her tears were flowing freely now. It was crushing me that I couldn’t take her pain away.

  We sat for a few minutes with her in my arms, sitting on my lap. The dogs must have clued in that something was going on, because they both came up onto the couch next to us. Ace took up all of the remaining space. Poor Lily gave up looking for room and pushed herself onto Kasi’s lap.

  I had so many questions, but I didn’t want to keep throwing them at her while she was upset. I settled on one question, since doing math in my head and trying to figure out the female timetable were not my strong suits.

  “Do you know how far along you are?”

  She nodded. “After the stick came up positive, I was sent over to the imaging place to get an ultrasound.” How long was I with Kai and Lee that she was able to do all of this while I was gone? “They consider me high risk due to what happened before,” she continued. “My doctor made a call and they got me in right away. It was quick. The baby was a small blip on the screen. I’m measuring a little over six weeks.”

  “What does high risk mean?” I knew nothing of that stuff. Zilch.

  “It means I’ll be monitored closely throughout the pregnancy. I’ll have my regular OB appointments, but I’ll also see a specialist to make sure the baby is developing properly, and I’m not having any complications. I have an appointment in a couple of days to see the nurse.”

  “Good. I’m going.”

  She pulled back to look up at me. Her eyes were red and her lashes wet. “You are?”

  “Hell yeah. Why wouldn’t I?”

  “I don’t know. I didn’t think this was something you’d be happy about.”

  “Happy about? I’m over the fucking moon! I know I’m a little shocked, but we’re going to have a baby! A tiny Radek.”

  “Or a tiny Kasi.” She smiled hesitantly.

  “Our baby would be very lucky to be just like her mom.”

  I still couldn’t believe she was pregnant with my baby. A little person who would look like Kasi and me, or a combination of both. A thought occurred to me then. I moved Kasi from my lap, Lily too, and got down on the floor in front of her.

  Taking her hand in mine, I said, “Marry me.”

  Her mouth dropped open. After a few seconds she screeched, “Are you fucking insane? You’re not seriously proposing to me, because I’m pregnant. Get the hell up off the floor!”

  “What? I love you. I know I’m going to spend my life with you. I want to make it official.” I failed to see what the problem was. I loved her. She loved me. She was having my baby. We were going to get to this point eventually. Why not speed it up?

  “You’re not going to propose to me like that! When I imagined the day I’d be proposed to, it wasn’t a proposal solely based on the fact that I was knocked up.”

  “Did you not hear me? I love you.”

  “And I love you, but you’re not doing this right now.”

  “Oh, I think I am.”

  She pulled her hand from mine and stood. I watched as her cute little ass walked into the kitchen to grab a glass of water. Following right behind her, I placed my hands on either side of her waist and looked into those beautiful blue eyes of hers.

  “I love you. I want to be married to you.”

  She shook her head. “You know how most girls dream of their wedding? I dreamt of my proposal. I always wanted something romantic. I want it to be something I’ll never forget. You kneeling in front of me on the couch when I just told you I’m pregnant isn’t it. I can’t help it, but I want all of it. The grand gesture. I’m sorry.”

  I felt like an asshole. She was right. She deserved so much more than my spur of the moment propos
al. I didn’t even have a ring. Fucking idiot.

  “Don’t ever apologize for wanting something. You’re right. You’re the love of my life, and I’m going to show you how much you mean to me.”

  She opened her mouth to speak, but I kept her quiet by pressing my lips to hers. I was gentle, afraid of hurting her or the baby. Although in the back of my head I knew I couldn’t hurt either of them by kissing her. Irrational fear and all of that.

  When we parted, I said, “You won’t know when, you won’t know how, but one day I’m going to surprise you and give you the proposal you deserve.”

  She nodded and her eyes welled with tears again. We walked back over to the couch to finish watching the movie. I didn’t watch it. My mind kept wandering off, thinking about the fact that I was going to be a father. Was I ready? Was anyone really ready to be a parent? Would I be everything that I needed to for Kasi and the baby? There was so much that we needed to do. A nursery needed to be put together. We needed furniture, clothes, and a ton of other things.

  “We’re going shopping tomorrow,” I stated.

  “Okay. Why?”

  “We have a ton of baby stuff to buy.”

  “Radek, we’re not buying baby stuff yet.”

  I turned to her confused. “Why not?”

  “It’s too early. A lot could still go wrong. No, we aren’t buying anything yet.”

  “I’m sorry. You’re right.” There literally was no room left in my mouth thanks to my foot. I just kept fucking up left and right. Going forward, I really needed to think before I spoke.

  I remembered hearing how most women didn’t announce their pregnancy until they were out of the first trimester. I didn’t know how long that was, but I guessed Kasi was still in it, since she wasn’t far along.

  In a soft voice she said, “I want to be happy. Inside I’m excited, but I’m also terrified. I’m so worried that I’ll have a repeat of what happened before. I don’t want to go through that again. Ever.”

  “I know, baby. I don’t want you to either.”

  I never wanted to see her upset like she was when she had to tell me about losing her baby and that was years later. I can’t imagine what she must have gone through when it happened. I had to stay positive for both of us.

  8

  It was a day later and I still couldn’t believe Kasi was pregnant. I asked when she would tell her dad and Karen. She wanted to wait until she had the next appointment and take it from there, but I knew even then she’d probably want to wait. She was scared. It worried me that she would be this way through her entire pregnancy. That couldn’t be good either, worrying all of the time. I was hopeful about the pregnancy and wanted nothing more than for this baby to be healthy. One day at a time was how we had to take it.

  Tomorrow she was scheduled to see the nurse. Until then I planned to pamper her. I was up before her in the morning and called the local spa to see if I could get her in for a day of relaxation. That would also give me the perfect opportunity to go ring shopping for her. Luckily, they weren’t booked and could fit her in.

  An hour passed before she came down the stairs into the kitchen. She was dressed in jeans and a deep green sweater. Her make-up was done, hair straightened, and she even had a pair of boots on. I hope she didn’t have plans. That would really ruin what I had mapped out for today.

  I quirked an eyebrow at her and asked, “Going somewhere?”

  She reached for a bowl from the cabinet. “No. Just didn’t want to sit around like a loaf all day. Thought we could do something.”

  “Lucky for you I have something in store.”

  “You do?”

  “Yup. You’re going to the spa for the day. Hair, manicure, pedicure, whatever you want.”

  Her face lit up. I knew how much she liked getting pampered. “When did you do that?”

  “This morning, while you were still asleep.”

  She put her bowl down and walked over to where I sat along the center island. Her arms lifted as her hands met at the nape of my neck. “I have the best boyfriend.” She kissed me.

  “You do. I’m the best. As a matter of fact, I think you should reward me later.”

  “Well, you are when you’re not cocky. Knock that shit off.” I rolled my eyes at her. At least I didn’t pretend to be someone I wasn’t.

  “How are you feeling today?”

  “Good, I guess. I don’t feel sick, only tired. I’m not sure if that’s a good or bad thing. Oh!” She reached into the back pocket of her jeans and pulled out a piece of white paper. She handed it to me.

  “What’s this?”

  “Just look at it.”

  I did and realized it was an ultrasound picture. The excitement in my voice couldn’t be contained. “Is this our baby?”

  She smiled wide and nodded. I looked at the picture again. “What am I looking at? I don’t know what anything is.” I felt like I needed a degree to figure out what the picture was of. I mean, I knew there was a baby there somewhere, but didn’t have a clue where.

  Walking over to stand next to me, she pointed to the picture in my hand. “See that black circle in the middle with the little white bean looking thing on the side of it?”

  “Yeah.” That I saw.

  “That little bean is our baby.”

  “It is?”

  “Yup.”

  I couldn’t believe I was looking at a picture of our child. Fuck, my eyes were getting all misty and I wasn’t a crier. My throat was thick with emotion. “This is really our baby?”

  “Are you crying?” she asked softly.

  “Shut up.”

  She cupped my cheeks and looked into my eyes. Her voice was barely a whisper. “I think I just fell more in love with you. I didn’t know that was possible. I love you so much, Radek.”

  Pulling her down into a kiss, I slowly swept my tongue into her mouth. Hers met mine and I brought her body flush against me. She fit perfectly between my legs as I sat on the barstool. I wanted her badly. Breaking away from her mouth, I glanced at the clock on the microwave and put the ultrasound picture on the counter.

  “We have thirty minutes until you have to leave.”

  A wicked smile formed on her face. “That’s more than enough time.”

  I stood, picked her up, and carried her to the couch. Sitting her down on the soft cushion, I kneeled before her. My thumbs brushed over her breast causing her to shiver. Lifting her shirt, I removed it along with her bra, and my mouth found her nipple. I swirled my tongue over the stiff peak.

  “Radek, I need you.”

  My hands found her jeans and made quick work of removing them. Then I stood and stripped. My cock bobbed out from my boxer briefs at face level with Kasi, since she was sitting and I was standing. She raked her nails along my balls, while her tongue licked a light path along my length. I had to resist the urge to push into her mouth. I was beyond ready.

  Gripping her wrist, I removed her hand, and went back to my knees. Taking her other wrist in my free hand, I brought her hands behind her back, which made her arch and pushed her ass closer to the edge of the couch. I took both wrists in one hand. My other gripped my dick, pumping it a few times. Then I guided it to her entrance. She was slick for me and I slid right in.

  I groaned watching her back arch further, pushing her practically onto my lap. Her legs wrapped around my waist. My fingers dug into her hip as I thrust into her over and over. I started out slow, but soon built into a punishing pace. She was moaning, her eyes were closed, and she was sexy as hell. I had to slow down, or I was going to come before her and that was unacceptable.

  I slowed my pace and brought my thumb to her clit. I rubbed it over the sensitive spot with a little pressure. Her head started moving from side-to-side and I knew I was making her crazy.

  “Do you want to come, baby?”

  “Yes,” she ground out. “If you don’t get me off soon, I’m going to hurt you.”

  “We wouldn’t want that, now would we? Unless you meant that in a k
inky way, then bring it on.”

  She growled, “Radek.”

  I pinched her clit gently as I picked up the pace and sent her soaring. Her body quaked. She was beautiful when she came. She completely let go and it drove me over the edge. My dick pulsed inside her. Releasing. Claiming. Marking. You name it, she was mine.

  She started to relax. I bent and kissed along her breasts. Her fingers threaded into my hair, raking over my scalp.

  “I love it when you fuck me,” she said.

  “I love it, too.”

  “And you didn’t freak out about the baby.”

  My eyes widened and I shot up straight. “Dammit. My dick overtook my brain. I’m sorry. Are you okay? What if I just did something to him or her? I was really pounding you.”

  She propped her head up with her arm to look at me. Her mouth formed into a small frown, her eyes looked down briefly. “We have to remember the doctor said it was fine. Am I worried? A little. But at the same time, when I was pregnant before, I wasn’t having sex and look what happened. We can’t think that way. Or at least we have to try not to.”

  I nodded and bent over, pulling her into my arms. Her bare breasts pressed against my chest. She was fully seated in my lap now. Her head buried into my neck, and I held her as tight as I could without hurting her.

  “Whatever happens, I’ve got you. It’s you and me. Always. And in eight months or whatever, there will be three of us.”

  “How can you be so confident?” she mumbled against my skin.

  “It’s a gut feeling. Besides, I want to surround him or her with as much positivity as possible. Now, if I’m not mistaken, it’s almost time for your appointment.” My hand connected with her bare ass with a loud smack. “Now get your gorgeous ass dressed.”

  “Ouch! I don’t need to be told twice.” She stood, turned from me, and bent at the waist to pick up her jeans. That perfect ass was in my face. I smacked it again. Her head whipped around and she raised an eyebrow at me.

  “Don’t play coy. You knew exactly what you were doing by pointing that at me. You get what you deserve. You’re actually lucky that’s all I did.”