The Bullfighter Checks Her Makeup

by Susan Orlean

  “Larry Bird? I don’t know. A millionaire. Magic’s a millionaire.”

  “Magic’s a millionaire, and he didn’t have fifty-nine cents to buy himself a little hat and now he’s going to die. The man’s stupid.”

  “I don’t know if Larry Bird’s a millionaire. I do know he’s never been to Harlem, and he’s never done the Electric Slide.”

  FELIPE ON HIS DEVELOPMENT as a player:

  “Back in my country, I was just a little guy. I tried to dunk, but I couldn’t. I tried and I tried. Then, one day, I dunked. Oh, my goodness. Three months later, I was dunking everything, every way—with two hands, backwards, backwards with two hands. I can do a three-sixty dunk. It’s easy. You know, you jump up backwards with the ball and then spin around while you’re in the air—and pow! I’m working all the time on my game. If Coach DeMello says he wants me to work on my ball handling, then I just work at it, work at it, work at it, until it’s right. In basketball, you always are working, even on the things you already know.

  “When I come to this country, I was real quiet, because I didn’t speak any English, so all I did was dunk. On the court, playing, I had to learn the words for the plays, but you don’t have to talk, so I was okay. My coach used his hands to tell me what to do, and then I learned the English words for it. There aren’t too many Spanish kids at school. I know a lot of kids, though. I meet kids from all over the country at tournaments and at summer camps. If you do something good, then you start meeting people, even if you don’t want to. Sometimes it’s bouncing in my head that people are talking about me, saying good things, and that some people are talking about me and saying bad things, saying, like, ‘Oh, he thinks he’s all that,’ but that’s life. That’s life. I don’t like when it’s bouncing in my head, but I just do what I’m supposed to do. I’m quick. I broke the record for the fifty-yard dash when I was in junior high school—I did it in five point two seconds, when the record was five point five seconds. I also got the long-jump record. It feels natural when I do these things. In basketball, I like to handle the ball and make the decisions. I can play the big people, because of my quickness. But I got to concentrate or the ball will go away from me. At basketball camp, I’m always the craziest guy—people always are walking around saying, ‘Hey, who’s that Dominican clown?’ But on the court I don’t do any fooling around. I got to show what I got.

  “In life, I don’t worry about myself. My brother will run defense for me. I got my family. Some kids here, I see them do drugs, messing around, wasting everything, and I see the druggies out on the street, and I just, I don’t know, I don’t understand it. That’s not for me. I got a close family, and I got to think about my family, and if I can do something that will be good for my whole family, then I got to do it. I think about my country a lot—I want to go there so bad. In Santiago, everyone knows about me and wants to see me play now. If I’m successful, the way everyone talks about that, I’d like a big house there in Santiago, where I could go for a month or two each year and just relax.”

  AFTER PRACTICE, Felipe and I walked down 125th Street in a cold rain. First, he bought new headphones for his tape player from a Ghanaian street peddler, and then we stopped at Kentucky Fried Chicken to eat a predinner dinner before heading home. He was dressed in his school clothes—a multicolored striped shirt, a purple-and-blue flowered tie, and pleated, topstitched baggy black cotton pants—and had on a Negro League baseball cap, which he was wearing sideways and at a jaunty angle. In his book bag were some new black Reebok pump basketball shoes; everyone on the team had been given a pair for the Baltimore tournament. Felipe was in a relaxed mood. He has traveled to and played in big tournaments so often that he now takes them in stride. He has become something of a tournament connoisseur. One of his favorite places in the world is southern France, where he played last spring with the Gauchos. He liked the weather and the countryside and the fact that by the end of the tour French villagers were crowding into the gyms and chanting his name. This particular evening, he was also feeling pleased that he had finished most of the homework he needed to do before leaving for Baltimore, which consisted of writing an essay for American history on Brown v. Board of Education and the Fifteenth Amendment, preparing an annotated periodic table of the elements, and writing two poems for his Spanish class.

  One of his poems was called “Los Dientes de Mi Abuela,” which translates as “The Teeth of My Grandmother.” Sitting in Kentucky Fried Chicken, he read it to me: “ ‘Conservando la naturaleza se ve en aquella mesa los dientes de mi abuela, que los tenía guardados para Navidad.’ ” He looked up from his notebook and gestured with a chicken wing. “This is about an old grandmother who is saving her special teeth for Christmas. In my country, it’s funny, old people will go around without their teeth. So in the poem the grandmother is saving the teeth for Christmas, when she’ll be eating a big dinner. The teeth are brilliant and shiny. Then she gets impatient and uses them to eat a turkey at Thanksgiving—‘GRRRT . . . suena la mordida de la abuela al pavo.’ ” The other poem Felipe had written was about a man about to enter prison or some other gloomy passage in his life. It is called “La Primera y Última Vez . . .” As he began reading it, an argument broke out in front of the restaurant between a middle-aged woman in a cream-colored suit and two little boys who were there on their own. First, the boys were just sassy, and then they began yelling that the woman was a crack addict. She balled up a napkin and threw it at them, shouting, “Why don’t you respect your elders? What are you doing out at night all alone? Why don’t you get your asses home and watch television or read a fucking book?” Felipe kept reciting his poem, raising his voice over the commotion. When he finished, he said, “It’s a sadder poem than the one about the grandmother. I like writing poems. In school, I like to write if it’s in Spanish, and I like to draw, and I like math. I’m good at math. I like numbers. How do I write the poems? I don’t know how. They just come to me.”

  Done with dinner, we went back out onto 125th Street and caught a cab up to Felipe’s apartment. The apartment was in a brick walk-up, on a block with half a playground, a bodega, some unclaimed auto parts, and the depopulated stillness of urban decay. Walking up the four flights to the apartment, we passed an unchaperoned German shepherd napping in the vestibule, a stack of discarded Chinese menus, and someone’s garbage, which had toppled over in a doorway. Felipe took the stairs three at a time. He used to dribble up and down the staircase until the neighbors complained that it was driving them crazy. For that reason and many others, the Lopezes were looking forward to moving as soon as they possibly could. Ironically, Felipe has been discouraged from playing in Puerto Rico this summer, on the ground that the basketball league there has a reputation for attracting prostitutes and drug use, when the fact is that spending the summer in Puerto Rico would help him get out of a neighborhood that attracts prostitutes and drug use.

  One reason I decided to go home with Felipe was that I thought it might reveal something I hadn’t yet seen in him—impatience or embarrassment at living a very humble life when he has been assured that such a rich and celebrated one is virtually in his grasp. That turned out to be not at all the case. In fact, Felipe loves to have people come over to his apartment. That night, he had invited Coach DeMello and his tutor, Maura Beattie, to drop by. When we arrived, they were already there. So were Mrs. Lopez; Felipe’s brother Anderson, who moved to this country last year; Anderson’s girlfriend, Nancy; Anthony; and Felipe’s father. Felipe’s sister, Sayonara, was expected as soon as she was through with a meeting at church. The Lopezes are an exceptionally good-looking and unusually large-scale family. Felipe’s father, a construction laborer, is broad-chested, dignified, and well over six feet tall. His mother, Carmen, who works in the Garment District, is leggy and vigorous. She competed in track and volleyball as a girl in the Dominican Republic. That night, she was wearing a long flowered dress and black Reeboks. In the Dominican Republic, the Lopezes had a middle-class life. In this country, that life
did not change so much as compress. All its hallmarks—Luis’s exacting discipline, Carmen’s piety, the children’s sense of honor and obligation—came over intact, and then intensified in contrast to the disorder of the neighborhood they found themselves in.

  The Lopez apartment was a warren of tiny dark rooms. One wall in the living room was covered with plaques Felipe had won—among them the Parade All-American High School Boys Award, the Five-Star Basketball Camp Most Promising Player, and the Ben Wilson Memorial Award for Most Valuable Player at ABCD Basketball Camp—and one corner of the room was filled by an old broken television set with what looked like a hundred basketball trophies on top. There was also a new television set, a videocassette recorder, a shelving unit, a huge sofa, a huge easy chair, a huge coffee table, some pretty folk-craft decorations from the Dominican Republic, some occasional tables, big billowy curtains, several floor lamps, and a life-size freestanding cardboard cutout of Michael Jordan. It was an exuberant-looking place. It was also possibly the most crowded place I’d ever been in. The television was tuned to a Spanish soap opera when we walked in, and Maura Beattie and Coach DeMello were sitting beside it, ignoring the show and eating pizza. The Michael Jordan cutout was propped up behind DeMello, blocking the back door. Anderson and Nancy were squeezed together on the couch, looking at one of Felipe’s scrapbooks, and Anthony was pacing around the room and talking to his father, who was reclined in the easy chair. Felipe said hello to his mother and they chatted for a minute in Spanish, and then she led him to a seat at the kitchen table and set a stockpot in front of him that was filled with chicken stew. There seemed to be a lot of people coming and going, and the conversation perked along:

  DEMELLO: I’ll never forget when Anthony brought Felipe to Rice. He couldn’t speak a word of English. I thought, How on earth is this kid going to take the entrance exams? Maura, do you remember that?

  MS. BEATTIE: I’m a math teacher. I’m not an English tutor. But I figured this would be something interesting to do. I didn’t want the Lopezes to realize I wasn’t really a tutor.

  ANTHONY (walking through the kitchen): Felipe, are you ready for tomorrow? You got your books with you? You planning to play?

  NANCY (translating for Carmen Lopez): She says Felipe would rather play than eat. Otherwise, he don’t give her no torment.

  DEMELLO: You should see the tape of the commercial Felipe and Robert Johnson did for Nintendo. They had a lot of fun, a lot of fun. Someone gave them bad advice, though, and it almost cost Felipe his eligibility. He turned down the money, and the commercial has to stop playing when he gets into college.

  MS. BEATTIE: You want more pizza? Should we get more pizza? Felipe, would you eat more? He doesn’t eat. I don’t think he eats.

  NANCY: Would you look at this, all these trophies! Felipe, you got all these trophies?

  ANDERSON (to Nancy): One of those is mine. Yeah, really. Nancy, look in the middle of the table and you’ll find mine.

  ANTHONY: Everything everybody tells you is so beautiful—you know, be on TV, score thirty points, be the MVP, have the fame, all right—but you got to pay attention. There are a lot of rules. The NCAA rule is that no coaches can talk to him while he’s a junior. They’re willing, they’re dying to talk to him, but that’s not going to happen. When he’s ready, we’ll meet and talk and see. I had these dreams to be a great player, and I had my ankle broken, so it was all over for me. Felipe is my chance to see it happen for someone in my family, but it’s going to happen the right way.

  FELIPE (coming in from the kitchen with Sayonara, just back from church): Mommy, hey, Mommy, didn’t I grow all these inches over here? One day, remember, I went to my closet and found these little pants and I said, “Mommy, whose pants are these?” They were only this big—just little short pants—and she said, “Felipe, those are your pants!” I couldn’t believe it! I couldn’t believe I ever wore those pants! I just looked at them and thought, Oh, my goodness.

  DEMELLO: Hey, Felipe, are you ready for tomorrow? Because anyone who isn’t ready with their homework done, Brother is going to hear about it, and we’re not going to be going to any other tournaments. Are you ready?

  FELIPE: DeMello, I got one thing I got to do tomorrow. I got to type my essay.

  SAYONARA: Felipe, I think you’re better at basketball than at typing.

  NANCY (translating for Carmen Lopez): She says he has to do the essay. She says they’re so proud of him, and with the help of God he’ll go to the top, he’ll be a great dunker. That’s what she imagines for him in five years. For now, though, they don’t soup him up. He has to do right. They still walk to Felipe—they’re not running.

  WE DROVE TO BALTIMORE the next night in a car rented by the tournament sponsors and a van used by the school. The tournament sponsors were also providing rooms for the whole team in a posh hotel downtown. The following day, after breakfast, the Raiders went for a pregame practice. The Baltimore Arena is big and windy, and it had a depressing effect on the team. They ran some bumbling fast-break drills and then had shooting practice for forty-five minutes, banging the balls against the rim. The clanking sound floated up and away into the empty stands. Coach DeMello called them together toward the end of practice. “I don’t know where you guys are,” he said. “I don’t know where you guys are. You got to get your heads here by tonight. By. Tonight. This team, this team is going to give us something. They’ve got No. 53, he’s a beef, he’s six-five. Six. Five. And there’s a fast point guard. He looks really young, he’s probably a sophomore, but he does a hell of a job on help. They don’t gamble. They get a lot of shots off. They help and recover.” Pause. “Help and recover. Help and recover. And, Felipe, I saw you start to drop your head because you missed some shots. I don’t want to see that. I want to see you lift your head and go on. All right, let’s head out. I want everybody to relax and be dressed and in my room at 6:00 P.M., understand? Understand? Okay. Okay.”

  The arena is near Inner Harbor, a swank shopping development in downtown Baltimore, so everybody walked over there to get some pizza and kill time. Twelve tall black boys, wearing bright yellow-and-green warm-ups, the pants hanging low and almost sliding off their hips, made for a sight that was probably not usual at Inner Harbor. Shoppers were executing pick-and-rolls to avoid them. In the mall, there were dozens of stores open, but the boys seemed reluctant to go into them. We ended up in a sporting goods shop that specialized in clothes and accessories with college and professional team logos. Felipe disappeared down one of the rows. Kojo posted up in front of a rack of jackets, took two down, looked at the price tags, and then put them back. Reggie and Gerald found hats featuring their future colleges. “Yo, I like this one,” Gerald said. “It’s fly, but what I really want is a fitted Carolina hat. They only have the unfitted kind.”

  Reggie glanced at him and then said, “Why don’t you wait till you get to Carolina, man? They going to have everything you want, man, just wait.”

  “I don’t want to wait.” Gerald put on an unfitted hat—the kind with an adjustable strap across the back—and flipped the brim back. Gary Saunders came over and looked at him. Gary is a sophomore. An air of peace or woe seems to form a bumper around him. Some people think he will eventually be as good as Felipe, or even better. He pulled Gerald’s brim and then rocked back on his heels and said, sadly, “I wish I had a hat head. I can’t wear a hat. I look dumb in a hat.” Felipe walked by, wearing three hats, with each brim pointing in a different direction. He was smiling like a madman. He admired himself in the mirror and then took the hats off. “I’ve had enough,” he said to no one in particular. “Now I’m going to my room.”

  SOME THINGS at the tournament did not bode well. For instance, the program listed the team as “Rice, Bronx, N.Y.” instead of placing the school in Manhattan. Also, Jamal Livingston had decided to shave his head during the afternoon, and the razor broke after he had finished only one hemisphere. The resulting raggedy hairdo made him look like a crazy person. He was so unhappy a
bout it that he told Coach DeMello he wouldn’t play, but Science finally persuaded him, saying, “Stretch, you look cool, man. You’re down with the heavy-metal crowd now.” The Raiders got their first look at the Southern players as they warmed up. They were big kids, and they looked meaty, heavy-footed, and mean. Damon Cason, the point guard DeMello had warned the Raiders about, had powerful shoulders and a taut body and a merciless look on his face. Beside him, Felipe looked wispy and hipless. Warming up, he was silent and unsmiling. The fans were loud and found much to amuse them. When Jamal stepped onto the court, they began chanting “Haircut! Haircut! Haircut!” and then switched to a chant of “Rice-A-Roni!” and then back to “Haircut!” every time Jamal took a shot.

  The game begins, and in the opening moments I focus only on Felipe. Rice wins the tap, but Southern scores nine quick points and looks ready to score more. Three Southern players are guarding Felipe. They struggle after him on the fast breaks, but he slips by and, still skimming along, makes a driving layup from the right. Then a fast-break layup, off a snappy pass from Ziggy. Then, thirty-two seconds later, a driving layup from the left side. The guards are looking flustered and clumsy. Felipe gets a rebound, passes to Reggie, gets the ball back, and then suddenly he drifts upward, over the court, over the other boys, toward the basket, legs scissored, wrists cocked, head tilted, and in that instant he looks totally serene. Right before he dunks the ball, I have the sensation that the arena is silent, but, of course, it isn’t; it’s just that as soon as he slams the ball down there is a crack of applause and laughter, which makes the instant preceding it seem, by contrast, like a vacuum of sound, a little quiet hole in space.

  The final score is Rice 64, Southern 42. Leaving the floor, Felipe is greeted by some of the white men, who have come down to Baltimore to watch his game. One of them comments on how well he played and wants to know what he did all afternoon to prepare. Felipe is mopping his face with a towel. He folds it up and then says, “Oh, my goodness, I didn’t do much of anything. I sat in my room and watched Popeye on television and listened to merengue music. I just felt good today.”