Blinded

by E. M. Leya

  "None." He smiled. "I'm ready for this. Excited for it. I'm nervous about what it will mean for us tomorrow. Not in a bad way, but how intense this connection is going to become. I already feel you as if we are part of one another. For it to get any stronger will be hard to get used to, but I welcome it."

  "Me too." I pushed the door open to our room. "From what I hear, it's like you'll instantly know everything about me in a way. You'll feel my emotions, you'll know my fears. Cohen said that unlike humans who end up questioning each other's love, we will always feel what the other feels and know we are loved. There is no doubt, no questioning. It's a pure love that nothing can ever break."

  Brett walked to the bed slowly, stopping when his legs hit the edge of it before he turned and sat down. "Do you know exactly how we do this? I've heard stories, but never really paid a lot of attention. I didn't think I'd ever find my mate, so it didn't matter."

  "Cohen pulled me aside earlier and talked to me. He said things will just happen naturally, but that we will do a partial shift during sex and bite each other at the same time after we both say the mating vow. Do you know it?"

  Brett nodded. "I used to dream about being able to say it to someone when I was younger. I'd lie in bed and imagine what it would be like."

  I pulled my shirt over my head and tossed it aside before going over and sitting next to him. "I'm glad I'm the one you'll be saying it to."

  He smiled. "So, after we say it, the shift happens, and we bite?"

  "Yep, I guess we sort of let both our human and wolf sides come out at once. Our heads will become wolf, our bodies stay human. Cohen said it's magical and hard to explain, but the moment we bite, we'll both likely come. That's the final step to sealing our mating."

  Brett placed his palm over my bare chest, curling his fingers into the hair. "Do you want to do this a certain way? Want me to let you take me this time?"

  I could sense he wasn't exactly excited about the idea of me taking him, and that was more than okay with me. I didn't want to be inside him. I needed him in me. "No, I want to feel you. I'm not much for topping." I brushed my hand down his cheek. "I will if that's ever what you want. I've done it before, but I am happier when I am the one to hand over control and let you take me."

  "Fate really did know what it was doing when it brought us together. I've bottomed before and while I don't hate it, I am more turned on by being the one topping."

  "Then we'll have no problems." I leaned in and kissed him, slowly at first, teasing my lips over his softly. He moaned against my lips, and I took the opportunity to deepen the kiss, sliding my tongue over his lips and into his mouth as I pulled him closer so I could slide my hands under his shirt and over his skin.

  Realizing that this man was mine forever had my cock thickening, pressing hard against the zipper of my jeans. I would never tire of this, of holding him, tasting him, making love to him. He was what had been missing in my life. He was who completed me.

  Brett pulled back, a bit breathless as he continued to run his fingers over my chest. "I wish I could see you."

  I smiled. "You see me better than anyone ever has. You see the real me, the me that I hide from everyone else. Once we are mated, you'll see everything about me. Your blindness just saves you from having to know how ugly your mate truly is."

  Brett laughed. "You're not ugly." He lifted his hand to my face, caressing over my beard. "You're perfect. I just wish I'd been able to look into your eyes at least once."

  "Mate with me and you'll be able to see the world through my eyes." I nipped at his shoulder blade before pulling back again. "Stand up. Let me undress you."

  Brett stood, taking a moment to kick off his shoes before turning to face me where I still sat on the edge of the bed.

  "I can't wait to learn every inch of your body. I want to spend the night exploring what makes you moan." I slowly stood, moving my hands up his sides as I lifted the shirt from his body. Once I had it tossed aside, I stared down at him, taking in his pale skin, thin body, and narrow hips. I dipped my head, taking one small nipple into my mouth, flicking my tongue over it.

  "Bayne…" Brett's fingers tangled in the back of my hair, holding my head to him. "It's like liquid fire when you put your mouth on me."

  "Good, because I plan on having my mouth on every inch of you." I kissed lower, over his chest, down his stomach, stopping when I came to the waistband of his pants. "You smell so good." My wolf was on high alert, all too aware of what was happening. He wanted his mate and the only thing stopping him from trying to force me to shift was the fact that we needed to be in human form to make the mating official. Our wolves would get their chance soon enough.

  My damn fingers shook as I worked the button on his jeans. I'd never been so nervous and excited to be with anyone. Once I finally got Brett's jeans open, I slowly slid down the zipper, inhaling hard as the scent of his arousal increased. I'd seen him naked before, but as I pushed his pants down his legs, I was greeted with a thick, hard cock that had my body yearning. "Perfect." I wrapped my hand around his length as he stepped out of his pants as they pooled around his feet.

  "Let me feel you." Brett's hands came to my waist and worked open my pants.

  I forced myself to release him for a second so I could undress, quickly tossing my jeans aside before stepping back to him and wrapping my arms around him as I kissed him hard, our bodies pressed together, our cocks touching, intensifying everything I was already feeling.

  "This isn't going to last long. My wolf is going crazy and I'm about to lose control already just kissing you." Brett groaned as I slid my hands around his hips and cupped his ass, pulling him even closer.

  "We have a lifetime to make up for it. I don't need romance tonight. I need my mate." I forced myself to release him again. "Let's get on the bed." I turned and climbed onto the mattress before reaching out to pull him on as well.

  I eased back, drawing him down beside me. "This feels right."

  "It does. I've never felt this way with anyone else." His lips found mine again as he pressed his body down over me and kissed me hard.

  I welcomed the weight of his body, the feel of his hot skin against my own, the feel of his cock throbbing against my own. It was like for the first time in my life, no matter what we did, no matter what we tried, I knew it would be good between us. Nothing we did would be bad. We were truly perfect for one another in every way.

  I parted my legs, allowing him to settle between them. Reaching up, I cupped his face in my hands. "I don't know how it's possible to love you so much so soon, but I do. I love you more than my own life. You're everything to me." My chest ached with emotion as I said the words to him. I was sure what we shared would only grow the more time we were together, but already it was overwhelming. I now understood why so many wolves died when their mate did. It would kill me to lose Brett now that I'd found him.

  "I love you too. When you walked in that door, I knew I couldn't fight this. I went from begging for death to knowing I suddenly had a reason to live. You made me understand that there is so much more for me and even though I can't see, I can live, I can love. I love you so much, Bayne. I don't know how I survived without you for so long." He turned his head, sucking one of my fingers between his lips.

  I groaned, imagining those lips around my cock at some point. It wasn't going to happen now. If I didn't give my wolf what it wanted soon, it would take the choice from me. "I need you inside me. I need us to make this official."

  Brett pulled away, going up on his knees between my legs. "You want this?" He gripped his cock, stroking it.

  "God, yes, I want all of you." I bent my knees, almost ready to beg.

  Brett smiled. "If it's this insane every time we have sex, we are never going to enjoy foreplay." He tapped his cock against mine.

  "It's got to be the mating call. It can't be this crazy all the time. Mates would never leave their bedrooms if it was." I reached between us, moving his cock so it pressed against my ass as I lifted my legs
up over his shoulders. "Let's do this, get it out of the way so the insanity ends, and then we can take our time and enjoy each other." My whole body was alive, waves of desire coursing through my blood almost as if demanding that we come together.

  Brett gripped his cock, holding it against my hole. "I swear I'll make it good next time, but I can't wait." He pushed forward, parting me and sinking deep in one thrust.

  I groaned as I reached for my cock. The moment of pain was nothing. He was in me. We were together. We would never be apart again once this was done. "Move." I needed him to fill me, to coat me in his scent, to give our wolves what they needed.

  "Fuck, you're so tight. So perfect." Brett had his head back as he snapped his hips. "It's never felt this good." He bit at his lip as he found a steady rhythm, his fingers gripping my legs tightly.

  I stroked my own cock as he speared into me. I kept looking up, wanting to find him looking at me, but reminded by the black patches over his eyes that he couldn't. It didn't matter. At this moment, he was saying everything he needed to with his body.

  It was unlike any other sexual experience in my life. My entire body was aware of him. It was almost as if some magical bubble encased us, sealing us together, binding us. It was hard to understand, but I loved it.

  "I can't last like this." Brett's words were breathy. "Bayne, I accept you as my mate and will love and care for you, putting your protection above all else as long as we both shall live."

  My throat grew tight with emotion as I heard his words. It was so much more than an 'I love you'. This was forever. This was giving himself completely to me and asking me to give myself to him in the same way. "Brett, I accept you as my mate and will love and care for you, putting your protection above all else as long as we both shall live."

  My wolf pushed forward the moment I'd said the words and without me even trying I shifted, at least it seemed as if I did. My wolf was there, but Brett was still thrusting hard inside me. I watched as his head changed from man to wolf, and I dropped my legs from his shoulders, needing to get close to him.

  Brett leaned down as I rose up, both of us closing the distance between us. I arched my neck, seeing his teeth come for me a moment before I felt them. My wolf took control, and just as quickly I was sinking my teeth into Brett's shoulder the same way he had mine.

  The moment we both had penetrated each other's skin, my orgasm rushed through me. My cock swelling and pulsing as my release shot out. At the same time, heat filled me as Brett lost himself inside me, coating me with his seed, scenting me with his smell, claiming me in a way I'd never allowed another.

  It was over almost as quickly as it started, both of us shifting back to our full human form as Brett's body collapsed on top of me. I struggled to breathe as I slowly started to come down from my orgasm.

  "I love you." Brett moved slightly, still knotted inside of my body and draped his arm over my body as he fought to catch his breath.

  "I love you." I closed my eyes, focusing on our connection. I didn't even have to search for his scent, his emotions as I had before we mated. Now, I just felt him as I felt my own. It was like a compartment had opened inside me, storing his feelings, his fears, his happiness. I knew without a doubt he loved me, felt it so strongly that it was almost overwhelming. "I feel you." I moved closer to him, curling my body up against him.

  "I feel you too. I didn't think it would be this strong, this connected." Brett pulled me tighter against him. "This is going to take some getting used to."

  "It's not bad, is it?" I feared he wouldn't like me being able to know every emotion, almost every thought. I couldn't read his thoughts, but somehow, through the emotional connection, I could feel what his mind was on.

  Brett laughed. "You doubt me? I can feel you questioning if I want this. Don't. This is amazing. Sure, it's going to take some getting used to. It will be strange having no secrets, but with you, I don't see it as an invasion of privacy. It's a relief to not have to talk about everything. You'll just know. I won't need to worry how you're going to take something. By the time I could tell you, you'd have already sensed it." Brett gently tugged me closer. "Where are your lips?" He kissed my nose, then lower, finding my lips.

  I kissed him, feeling the kiss from his side and mine through our link. It was so strange. It was as if when I caressed my hand down his skin, I could feel what he did. I eased back, falling onto the pillows. "I love you."

  "I love you too." He gently touched my chest. "My wolf wants your wolf."

  I smiled. "Yeah, mine's restless to be with yours as well." I rolled, forcing his cock to slide from inside me, the knot still not fully gone as I went up on one arm so I could lean over Brett and kiss him for a moment. When I pulled back, I sighed. "As much as I want to hold you, I guess we better let them have their time together."

  "We have forever." Brett swung his legs over the bed and stood. "I'm going to shift, okay?"

  "Me too." I stood and touched his shoulder before stepping back to give us both room. "See you in the morning."

  I didn't even have to offer to let my wolf come forward. He was there, ready. I dropped to my knees, letting him do his thing. It was the four of us now, and I loved that.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  BRETT

  I tried not to worry what the doctor was going to tell me, but as I showered, my mind started to think over everything he might say. My biggest fear was that he would tell me that for some odd reason I couldn't be fitted with glass eyes. The last thing I wanted was to go through my life wearing eye patches. The idea of fake eyes freaked me out a bit, and I thought way too much about how unnatural they would look, but it was still better than the patches. At least with glass eyes, people wouldn't notice unless they were close to me. The patches people could see from across the room.

  "Stop worrying. Everything is going to be fine," Bayne called from the other side of the shower door.

  "I'm trying. I'm just nervous. I know it can't get any worse than it already is. There isn't a ton that they can do for me other than fit me with prosthetic eyes, but I guess it's just the sense of finality. Once I see this doctor, then I have to face the blindness. Up until now, I could pretend it was just like a passing cold and I'd get my sight back."

  A wave of love and compassion hit me through the link I now shared with Bayne. We'd spent the morning sending each other emotions, testing, and playing around with what the link between us could do. It was strange, and I was sure we'd hardly explored the full capabilities of it.

  We'd spent the morning making love again, but I was tired. My wolf had slept little, enjoying his time with Bayne's wolf, and that left me drained. I'd refused Bayne's offer to shower with me, sure that we'd be unable to hold back the desire if I felt him naked beside me again. I sent back another wave of love to him as I focused on rinsing the soap from my skin.

  "No matter what the doctor says, we're going to be okay. We'll get through this. You've already handled it better than I ever would. I'd still be curled up in a ball on the floor in a panic. You've faced this head on. It'll take time to relearn how to do some things, but you'll do it. We'll do it," Bayne called to me.

  I shut off the water and climbed out of the shower before reaching out and searching before finally grabbing a towel off the rack. "I'm glad you said that. I have a favor to ask."

  "Anything." Bayne's arms came around me as he stole the towel from my hands and started to work it over my skin.

  "I need to shave, but I can't see what I'm doing. You can use an electric razor if you want, I don't care, but I know if I try, I'll miss half my face." I spread my legs as Bayne started to dry them.

  "I don't mind at all. You should have said something before."

  "We've been focusing on so much, besides, it's only been a few days, but I know how scruffy I look when I don't shave."

  "I like you scruffy." Bayne rose up and turned me around so he could dry my back. "You're okay with my beard, aren't you?"

  "I love your beard. It's perfect. I
just can't grow a full one. There's a spot on my chin that just won't grow hair. Don't you change a thing about you. I know I can't see you, but I try to imagine what you look like. I like feeling your whiskers over my skin."

  Bayne turned me to face him again. "I like the feel of your skin against them." He pivoted his hips, making sure I felt his arousal against my thigh.

  "Bayne, we don't have time." I leaned in for a short kiss.

  "Tonight, I am going to explore every inch of you. Take the time to lick and kiss every spot I didn't get to enjoy last night." He pulled back. "Okay, let's shave you. Do you want to get dressed first or not?"

  "I'm okay like this." I willed my own desire down. We really didn't have time for more. We'd slept late, and by the time we'd eaten and played around some more, we only had an hour before we had to meet Cohen and the doctor he'd called to come evaluate me.

  "Sit on the toilet lid." Bayne guided me to it.

  I sat down, enjoying the intimacy of having my mate shave me. It was something we probably would have never done if not for my blindness. I would never think of being blind as a blessing, but I liked we would have to do things differently than most mates. "I love you."

  "I love you too." Bayne kissed me. "Now tip your head back. I'm going to use the hand razor. It will give you a closer shave."

  I did as he asked, enjoying the feel of his hands working the shaving cream over my face.

  "So, I was thinking that tonight, we could head out to my place. I want to show it to you."

  "I want to see it… or um…" I shook my head. "You know what I mean."

  "I do. If you don't like it, we can buy another place closer to town, but as nice as it is being here with the pack, I want us to have some time alone. Maybe we can shift and slowly work on running together. I think with our link so strong now, it will be easier for you to sense me and follow my path."

  I still had visions of me slamming head-on into a tree, but there was no way I was going to give up a chance to run through the forest with Bayne if I could figure out how to do it safely. "We can try. The link will help, but I'm still not sure I won't trip over everything. I can't deny my wolf his chance to run though. I also want to head into town and try and find that scent I recognized."