Becoming God

by Pankaj Ogra

  He said, “Now you are not, when we planned your existence, we also planned that we will send you to earth more like a human with less energy. So we distributed you into seven parts. All these seven parts were born on earth at different time zones. You also have to find them all to become what you really are, but during that journey, you also have to work on ground to understand and make a change.

  I am sure it will not be an easy journey for you. You will learn and have to improvise with time. But you also have to find your soulmates too. Once all of you are connected and near each other, you just have to call for Zenith. He will do the rest.

  As you all are born human, you all will have some portion of negativity in you with time. When you are trying to unite, remember that each one of you should be completely positive or your energies will not be united.”

  I said, “I have a few questions. Who were the other two with Zenith in that tomb?”

  He said, “They are also the part of creation and are responsible for maintaining a balance of energy in this world. The Wakht with green energy tries to maintain the positivity and Kari with black energy tries to maintain the negativity balance. They were designed to maintain the balance in this world to ensure it runs smoothly, but now Zenith has to be with them always to keep the balance, as negativity is growing at a fast pace, and it’s hard to keep it under control.”

  I said, “So you mean to say negativity was always there and our enemies just took it to the next level. Why was Kari even created? Why can’t there be a world without any negativity?”

  “It’s nature, everything has to be balanced. If the things go in one direction, people don’t realise its value. So it’s important to make people understand what they should value. Negativity was created for the same reason, so that humans don’t degrade the value of truth and positivity. Every thing in your world and the other world runs on balance. We only provide people options to choose from and create their future accordingly. Kari was created for the same purpose.

  We are only responsible for running this galaxy. For micro-level things, we have given humans the right to choose. And that is the most important thing. Humans’ minds are as strong and powerful as ours, but they are unable to utilize them to the full potential because they got involved in other materialistic things that we created to keep them interested in their world.”

  I said, “What are these other chambers for?”

  He said, “Let’s take a walk through.”

  The Trip to Creation Chamber

  While in the midst of this conversation, we entered the creation chamber. He said, “This is the important place for humans. All births and deaths are designed here. There are numbered souls on earth to restore the balance. We only deal in giving birth to humans. Humans decide on their death when their hope is lost and when they stop designing their future.

  Meet Amams, he is responsible for the death and birth of living beings on earth. He is also responsible for giving thoughts and emotions to humans. He also decides which soul has to be converted to which being animal or human or nature, depending on his lifecycle and actions in the current birth. He is a very busy person and should not be disturbed.

  You are different. We had to remove one million souls from the earth to place you and other six so that the proportion of energies on earth was not disturbed. It was the first time we did something like that. It took Amams months to plan and strategise before we could place you on earth. Earth also works in a balanced manner, as I mentioned earlier.”

  As we walked forward, he introduced me to Ananas. He was the person responsible for managing the natural things on earth. He also keeps a balance between what nature has created and what human has created.

  I said, “I have been hearing that souls are rewarded for their actions in hell and heaven. Does it really happen?”

  “I know all the things that are discussed in your world. It’s the interesting part though. When we created the world, we thought about this and decided to let the humans decide for themselves. If their actions were productive, they would receive good and vice-versa. When the soul dies, it comes to us clean. They will go through a vicious cycle of events in their lifespan based on their actions.

  When a person is born, he or she hears the voices of the people surrounding him or her. One’s circle plays an important role in one’s life, and during that time, when one is not speaking, one understands and chooses what one has to become. What a person becomes is the outcome of that listening only. And gradually, over time, he or she understands and adapts to his or her surroundings. When the child is born, he is the happiest person in this world. When he faces the circumstances and people of earth, he is moulded in a certain way. People who know themselves and believe in themselves will become big in their lifespan. The ones who always doubt themselves are left behind in the race as they are always looking for some external force to drive them. What I tell you now is the most important part and powerful part of this universe. Just two words. Hope and belief. Everything in this world and that world revolves around these two words.

  Hope is what makes us live longer, and belief gives us confidence to achieve and move forward. You believe in God while other people don’t believe in God. Does that make them dead? No, because they believe in themselves. And that makes them strong.”

  I said, “How can many people have believed in millions of Gods? For me, it’s a single source of power and energy that runs everything in this world.”

  He answered, “They never understood that God is within every individual. It is because since childhood no one said, ‘Believe in yourself.’ In the materialistic world, believing in yourself is the hardest challenge. One has to cross all difficult paths to become someone.

  We are always attracted to beautiful and attractive things. Millions of Gods create that charm and attraction for billions of people. It’s your belief that gets stronger when you see that your God is being followed by millions or billions.

  God is one of the important aspects used by enemies to create differences within humans. No God advocates killing each other or overshadowing each other. They only speak of harmony and peace and to know yourself and to believe in yourself because all these creations also played their part when they were on earth and showed the world that believing in oneself was a hard task but not impossible.”

  I asked, “Who lives in the third chamber?”

  He said, “Well, that’s the relaxing chamber. After many years of work, we all play and celebrate our success in the relaxing chamber. This chamber is for unity and realisation of happiness. We also get tired of our work, and that’s when we enjoy ourselves. Our beloved ones also live in those chambers.

  We meet them when time allows us, and they do their part to keep this place clean and healthy. They are responsible for maintaining the décor of this place and to keep an eye on what is going on in other galaxies and their movements. They keep us feeding us information from this universe, and we act on them. They play an equal role in making us successful.”

  I said, “I have one question. Can’t you fight evil with your technical advancement?”

  He said, “No, we never fight anyone. That’s why we gave the people of the earth strength to fight against its own evils. You are meant to fight them. This is the reason you were born. I would also like to inform you that everyone on earth is connected to a single source of energy that comes from us. The sun is the ultimate energy on earth. If there is no sunlight, people will become evil, or they may die.

  Always remember, you have to be strong on earth, as there are many distractions that may make your deviate from your path, and materialistic things are always around to attract you. Again, I do not ask that you distance yourself from them. You have to live with them, and at the same time, you have to be realistic in terms of your decision and approach. Don’t lose yourself within the influence. It’s time for you to go home now. As the time here moves faster than on earth, you need to get back there as quickly as possible.”
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  We walked towards the ship, and he dropped me back.

  He said, “You must remember always, it’s not important which path or way you may choose, but it’s important that you completely believe in what you do. If you don’t believe in what you do, people will have a hard time believing in you.

  People on earth are also a big source of energy. You don’t have to take that energy from them; you just have to connect with each and every individual to connect with their energies. The day all the people and animals and all souls on earth are connected to you, and you all have the same thing in mind, you will be able to defeat that evil. You will lose all your extra powers and visions given by me as you reach the earth. As a human, you can’t go beyond what is not meant for humans yet. Wish you the best of luck, and I am sure you will save us.”

  I boarded the ship and went back. When I was on my way back, I felt I was missing something— maybe my real home.

  Life on Earth

  If converting people were such an easy task, they would have done it much earlier. Of course, it was not an easy task for them. I could understand it was out of their control now and they expected me to do this. I didn’t know how.

  The thought made me analyse what if I could do this and what if not. As these thoughts flowed through my mind, I thought of going outside my house and getting some food and tea to relax my mind. Food makes me feel good. As I was walking inside the market towards the restaurant, I passed by a gym with glass walls. I saw someone that made my feet stop and made me curious.

  It was not a hot girl doing squats and not even a hulk pumping his muscles. It was a handicapped guy who didn’t have legs, working out in there. I couldn’t stop looking at him and realising that for most people on earth, what he was doing would seem like a foolish act. I watched him for a couple of minutes and then figured out he was about to leave the gym.

  I wanted to ask him about his motivation, so I waited outside the gym. He didn’t turn up. I went inside and was surprised to see he was working on his abs. Well, I had no other option but to wait for him. He came outside the gym after a while. He was leaving home.

  I went near him and asked him, “What drives you here?”

  He looked at me for a while and then answered, “To have a half-fit body.”

  The answered surprised me, and I felt bad, but I was motivated at his intention.

  I said, “Hi, my name is Parnog.”

  He said, “My name is Karvin.”

  “Hello, Karvin, pleasure to meet you.” We shook hands. “I saw you from outside and couldn’t resist meeting you. Would you like a cup of tea or banana juice?”

  He looked at me again with curiosity and said, “Juice would be fine.” We went to the nearby juice shop and sat there.

  I said, “You have a lot of things that others with whole bodies don’t have.”

  He said, “I know.”

  I asked him, “What drives you to come here?”

  “You.”

  “Me, how come?”

  He said, “I meant to say people like you with big bellies.”

  “He he,” I laughed and looked at my belly bulging out of my pants. I tried to hold my breath and pull my stomach in.

  He said, “People like you look at me and get motivated to go to gym. They think if he can do it, why can’t we. That’s what drives me to come here. I feel if I am able to make a change in someone’s life by motivating them, that’s an achievement for me. I have seen people who have joined to become fit after meeting me, and I know you will be the next.”

  He smiled.

  I said, “Well, how come you started gyming? I have never seen anyone like you before. Don’t want to disgrace you, but the…?”

  He said, “I can understand, it’s not new to me. Well, you saw one today, and you will see a few more like me soon when I win the world swimming championship.”

  I said, “What? Are you also a swimmer?”

  He said, “Yes, I am a professional and have beaten swimmers with full bodies in a couple of events.”

  I was very excited talking to him. He was so motivated and full of life. I was also in shock—how could he beat a normal, full-bodied person? Maybe he was lying as I showed interest in him. But the way he spoke was so confident that left me no reasons to not believe in him.

  “Did you always plan to become a swimmer?” I was filled with questions.

  He asked, “Who are you?”

  “Me, I am just a normal person, who is trying to get inspired to do my task. I have also a lot to do for this world, but I am just confused where to start. I looked at you now and believed nothing is impossible,”

  Juice was served. He had a sip of banana juice and looked at me.

  He said, “It’s not easy, what I have achieved till now. The person you look at today who is confident and optimistic is not what I used to be. I was depressed and sad once, and I always stayed at home most of the time with my family members.”

  I always believed that my life was just a living hell as I was born with half a body. I had a developed upper body and no legs. Since childhood, I was a pain to my parents. I used to see my siblings play and I couldn’t. All the things that went on in my life just demotivated me. I saw my mom always worrying about me and my father expressing his sympathy for me every day.

  I was done with people’s sympathy and their care for me. I wanted to be the way others were—doing everything on their own. I used to feel bad that I couldn’t do what I wanted to. I wondered why God had given me this life, which had no meaning and was not less than hell. Why did he even let me be born here when there was no reason for me to live? I thought of dying many times but couldn’t gain the courage. Finally, one day I got the courage to kill myself.”

  I said, “What, you tried to kill yourself, what happened?”

  He smiled looking at the sky, “Yes, I tried. I finally thought of closing the chapter of my life and didn’t know that some new chapter was waiting for me. On that day, I realised I was a victim of my own thoughts. After seeing my parents and everyone feeling bad for me over the years, I thought, Let me end this sympathy and pity towards me. I couldn’t take it anymore.

  So I planned to take my life. A day came when there was no one around at night. They had all gone for a wedding, and I had refused to go. I went to the nearby pond in my village on my wheelchair, in the middle of the night. I went near the pond and started thinking about the life I was dealing with. Well, I also prayed to God to not give me the same life again for all the miseries I have been through in this life, thinking about how life had never been fair to me.”

  I asked curiously, “What happened next, did you jump?”

  He said, “No, I heard the voice.”

  I said, “Whose voice, did God speak to you that day?”

  He said, “No, the voice of a lady. The woman who was drowning.”

  “What, was there already someone there?”

  He said, “Yes, there was a lady who was drowning or trying to kill herself.”

  “Fuck. So what did you do? Did you call someone?”

  He said, “There was no one, and I didn’t have the time for that. If I had gone back and called someone, she would have died by then.”

  I said, “So what did you do? Don’t tell me you saved her.”

  He said, “You are right. I jumped into the pond.”

  I said, “Shit, did you know how to swim?”

  He said, “No, I never swimmed before. I just jumped into the pond as I had nothing else in my mind.”

  I asked, “Was this jump to kill yourself or to save her?”

  He responded, “I jumped to save her.”

  I said, “How could you save her when you couldn’t have even saved yourself?”

  He said, “I didn’t think of that at that moment. I just jumped and moved towards her. I grabbed her and took her to the shore.”

  I said, “Wow, you saved her.”

  He said, “No, she saved me. That’s the point. Until then, even I d
idn’t know what I was capable of. I never experienced that feeling before, living inside the cave and always following what others said. I was fearless that night and had nothing to lose and no one to stop me or to sympathise with me. For the first time in my life, I was doing what I desired, even though the decision was quick.

  Once I was in the pond, it took me some time to understand what to do, but I didn’t have much time. At that moment, I recalled what I used to see on TV. I have always been a big follower of swimming. I saw all the competitions that were pictured on screen. It’s only as I was incapable, my parents never let me in the water. But that day, I was free to do anything.

  I got her to the shore and asked her what she was doing. She told me she came to die there. She said I shouldn’t have saved her. She tried to go back again. I grabbed her and said, ‘Please listen to me once. If you don’t like what I say, you are free to die after all and I am not in a position to save you again.’ She said I couldn’t possibly understand her problem and the only way left for her was to die. I told her, ‘Look at me and if you think you have got bigger problems, you are free to go as I also came here to die.’”

  She stood there listening to me and agreed upon hearing me. I don’t know what happened to me. I became optimistic and tried to motivate her. Well, somehow all the miseries of my life gave me some reason to save someone. I heard her story and told her, ‘Life always has something to give you at the right time. I realised it today. I came here to die, but after looking at you, I changed my mind now.’”

  I asked curiously, “What happened next?”

  He said, “I spoke to her the whole night until the sun came over us and people gathered around. They asked us what happened and I told them everything. Overnight, I was a hero who saved a girl. The local news published my story and my life just changed. I knew what I had to do now. So I started to go for formal swimming classes and tried my luck in a couple of competitions.”

  With a lot of practice and overcoming my problems, I was able to win a few titles, and now, I have qualified for the international championship. With time, my belief in myself just got stronger, and that’s the me you are looking at today. I understood it’s always our choice how we want to live this life, and I wanted to inspire all those who were still in the same misery I used to be. My choices changed everything.”