Becoming God

by Pankaj Ogra

  Yet no one on earth knew that something was coming to destroy them, and I didn’t want to give them this information, as it would have only created panic. So it was just me, keeping everything in my brain.

  I recently found the last part of my soul, Porshak, a week ago. None of the parts had met each other yet. So I planned a get together as time was coming to a close. I asked every one of them to gather one day for a party so we could get to know each other and plan for our next step. They all knew now what their life was for and they were ready to take the oath of their life they were destined for.

  ‘We all will become one entity that will have immense powers and mind to fight against all our enemies. We will act as a single unit and work towards a single goal.’

  Everyone was present at my place. It was just not the unification of their souls but also their bodies and minds, so it was important that they connect in a virtual way before it became reality.

  None of us had met each other earlier, except for me—I had met all of them individually. The party began. Everyone started to come in. Sugra came first, followed by Anshrvit, Zhumir, Kansaar, Porshak, and Chuair. I welcomed them all and went through a formal introduction to initiate the evening. We had drinks and stuff with a lot of food. Dude was the last to join us, as he went to meet his old-time friend for coffee.

  I saw people interacting with each other to get to know them. We all knew the purpose of meeting that evening and had made up our minds for the future. I did not want them to take quick decisions, and everyone took their time to get to a realisation that their destiny was to save this world and not to live a normal life. None of us was sure of what would be next, but we planned to start with a celebration.

  I saw Zhumir speaking to Kansaar, who was a journalist in a reputed newspaper and was passionate about writing. She belonged to an elite family. She had explored the world enough to have an in-depth conversation on any topic. She was beautiful and intelligent enough to make anyone fall to her charms.

  I saw Anshrvrit laughing while speaking to Sugra. Anshrvrit was from the army background and his forefathers also served the country. He was trained on many war-related skills and strategies. He knew how to take over the enemy even in tough times. He helped our country win three consecutive wars with his strong strategies. He was the mind behind a powerful country and was very practical in dealing with life approaches.

  Watching Porshak and Chuair discussing the current politics was amazing. Porshak was from a political background—he had been elected as a member for the local assembly election and won it twice. Chuair, on the other end, was a neurologist and was deeply interest in human psychology too.

  They all had small talk and deep conversations with each other over drinks and starters. I had ordered single malt whiskey with best-spiced rum, red wine, and a few local made beers. I also ordered the best vegetarian and non-veg food from a newly opened speciality restaurant that specialised in cooking food in classic style using utensils from olden days. We also had pizza and pasta made by Zhumir, as he loved cooking.

  As the party warmed up, I saw everyone getting close, laughing, and cracking jokes. I looked at Dude as he had newly taken to playing music. Dude and I constantly made eye contact in conviction, as we saw the others getting close and getting to know each other. Suddenly, Sugra got on the floor and started to dance. We didn’t know that he was passionate about dancing. He danced a few steps to motivate others, as they were still in their comfort zone.

  Dude was doing a wonderful job by synchronising the music with the state of things. He also started playing more dance numbers and EDM. I saw everyone in swing now. They all had their legs and hands moving about in some way. Then surprisingly, Kansaar stepped in to the floor with Sugra. Her charm was undefined and her moves were diligent.

  For a while, even Sugra had to stop as she hit the drums with her moves, with every move helping us experience the music better. Sugra asked her to dance and they both performed a very intense salsa to inspire the others. Everyone got on the floor, now trying to shake their hands and legs on the floor.

  After dancing for hours, everyone got tired, but Sugra was on the floor dancing alone. He didn’t seem to need anyone to motivate him to dance. As our energy went down, Dude made shifts with his music. Finally, we all sat, as we were tired and drenched in sweat. We poured more drinks and had a few starters.

  Anshrvrit suddenly said, “Surprise guys! I got this black stuff especially for this day. This is the best of this world, and I got this from the Himalayas.”

  I saw the excitement on Sugra and Chuair’s faces as they got up, looking and smelling the stuff. Sugra did the needful by preparing the chillum. I did the boom, and we all had a few puffs, except Kansaar as she didn’t like to smoke up. She preferred to be in her senses. Everyone was singing and talking, and Sugra was still dancing.

  As we initiated the second burn, Dude played the trance numbers with beats rushing through our ears to our brains. We were all drenched in the beats and bass. Everybody found a place to sit to relax and regain his or her energies. A few felt comfortable sitting on the floor.

  We started with a few games like dumb charades, followed by dark room and werewolves to get to know each other. Everyone shared their experiences about their earlier experiences in their life. Then, everyone was at ease in his or her respective places. We were all calm and silent.

  After a while, Sugra started a discussion on life. He said, “We are seeking happiness and all we have is sorrow always. It’s better to use this life for some good purpose.”

  Taking a sip of the wine, Kansaar says, “Sorrow is a part of life like happiness, and we can’t avoid it whether we like it or not.”

  Anshrvrit said, “I never understood women. Though I tried to understand them, I failed every time. I just couldn’t figure out what makes them happy.”

  Zhumir said, “Every time I tried to do something different for my love it became a problem. Then he thought maybe I should be normal, and that was too a problem too.”

  Chuair said, “I can understand your issues, guys, but we women have a different way of thinking and acting on things, and it differs from woman to woman like men. If you are confused about us, we are too. It’s easy to just blame us.”

  Porhsak said, “Women never accept their share of faults as men do. You can’t make them take charges like we do.”

  Chuair said, “We knew what is wrong and right, but we don’t like to show that we accept it the way you want us to. We have our own ways of accepting what we are and what we do. It’s men who had create this perception that women don’t accept their faults.”

  Kansaar said, “Well, I think that women are a little more demanding in nature, but that’s how we are and made for this world. You men have to accept us the way we are, like we have accepted you. We can’t walk and talk the way you want us to. We don’t live by the rules you have made for us. So if you have found our faults, we have the same for you. Women have a way of behaving in a mischievous manner, and you aren’t able to accept it, but that is not our fault.”

  Sugra said, “I have a questing for the gorgeous ladies here. Over time, I agreed and understood that women had their own way of behaving, but why don’t you sometimes try to not dominate the conversation and just accept what is seen as a truth.”

  Chuair said, “We are not ready to admit that we are lesser than you and whatever you say is the final truth. You have your own way of defining things, and we have our own. Admitting is more like accepting that only you are right and we are wrong, what if you try to keep your manhood low and accept us the way we are. This society has made us so weak over time that we are compared to animals that just exist and have no rights of their own. We are also humans and have the same rights as you do and define our own actions. The problem is not us. The problem is the perception that this world has created for women as weak beings. They want us to act like slaves. Who are you to decide on what is right and wrong?”

  Everyone became s
ilent, as they had nothing further to say. I saw that the conversation was getting edgy and the discussion was warming up.

  Kansaar said, “All we wanted is freedom. Just freedom. We wanted to roam around like men do, we wanted to dress the way we wanted. We wanted to have the same authority and liberation as you do. Why are men forcing us and not letting women do what they want? We already sacrificed a lot being women, and we are the ray of hope that this world has to keep running, we sacrifice ourselves to create more of people like you in this world. If we were not here, you would also not be. If we are not perfect, then at some level, it’s your fault too.”

  I said, “Guys, we are actually discussing something that has no end. You will keep discussing this for as much time as you can. This will not have an end to it, as neither men nor women will keep their ego down to accept others as human beings. They will maintain the perception that has been flowing down from years. I think it’s time I introduce you to Dude.

  He is not what he looks like and as all of you must have perceived, he is a DJ as of now, but he is more than that. Dude was one of the first creatures that came to this world to keep this world progressing, he has seen a lot more than we can possibly think of. His perception and beliefs are not influenced by what is happening today but what he saw over time.”

  Dude finally got out of his DJ setup and asked, “Did you like the music?”

  “Yes,” everyone replied.

  “Which part of it?”

  “All of it.”

  “Thank you. I am grateful to you all.”

  “Hi guys. As Parnog already introduced me, I am Dude, but that’s not the real of me. He changed his DJ semblance that he copied from someone and got back to his original mannerism.”

  “You are bonobo,” Sugra said in surprise.

  “Yes, that’s me, and my original name is Chazir.”

  People sitting there got shocked looking at him changing and getting back to his original form.

  “MAGIC,” Chuair said.

  “How did you change your face, and why have you been hiding there behind the music if you are part of the same journey?”

  Dude said, “I was enjoying there, as you were enjoying here. I was playing, and you were dancing. Over the years, I have learnt a lot and the most important thing I learnt was to be happy with myself. The topic you are discussing has many tangents to it and no ending. It doesn’t matter who is right or who is wrong because when the earth was created, it was not the point of consideration. Being a man, I can also say that a woman is not right, but as rightly said by a pretty lady, who has decided what is wrong or right?

  Men and women were typically different in thinking, nature, and behaviour. They were created to balance each other as everything in this world works in a balanced manner. When creators created both, they had no idea what would come up next, who would dominate who. They created men and women to help keep each other balanced and interested in living. They are like magnets that both attract, as well as, repel each other, depending on the circumstances and time.

  We all have lost one thing or another in our lives and that is not because of someone else but because of our own actions. No one is responsible for our loss and gain, as we tend to blame them for. We ourselves are responsible. The biggest problem is not the existence of men and women in this planet, but that we as individuals do not accept our actions, leading to repercussions.

  As the world grew, men started to work. Ladies used to stay home due to repeated pregnancies; men became the source of earnings and provided for the family. This culture continued as long as both were in peace.

  As time went on, men become stronger, and women became weak. Men started to dominate women and women remained silent, tolerating everything. With time, men came to be seen as the primary source of support to the family and perceived as the strong personality. I must admit this as I have observed that ladies have to bow down a lot. But that deference decreased as they understood they would never grow if they kept themselves low.

  Now with time, the perception is changing, but men as an entity don’t want that to happen. Their ego of being the stronger one is one that won’t allow women to take their position. But that was not all that men created, they also created society, which was dominated by them. Rules were set and no one was free to break away from them.” Sugra asked, “What do you mean to say?”

  Dude explained, “I mean to say we created society and religious barriers between people so that they keep fighting against each other that people in the higher positions to command or exert control over them. When you were born, you learnt what was happening around by listen and observing. We only see the knowledge that is known to our parents, but that knowledge is drilled down from the perception created by our society.

  We couldn’t see what was not there or what could be there and by that, we were already prisoners. What if we don’t do what others say we do and live a life that is not based on the perception created by what exists but what could exist.

  Thinking out of the box is the only way to this problem. Until humans get out of current perception and comfort zone, they can’t learn anything beyond the existing world. They won’t be able to see the value life is pouring in. They won’t be able to be optimistic.

  The society we are living in was perfect once upon a time, but then it also became corrupted. Everything has pros and cons. The law of nature defined freedom for the individual and the soul as requisites. This ceased to exist as society has its own faults, and it took away the freedom of choice from people. People should be allowed to live where they wish to live, and do what they wish to.”

  Chuair said, “Do you think getting freedom is easy? I see that is only a thought. It’s possible if we give women the same proportion of energy and power men have. That is the only way men would understand that everyone has same rights.”

  Dude continued, “Well, as I said, everything has to be balanced, and if both are identical, there are less chances of survival as both will repel each other, but it’s not about giving women the power to fight but about changing the perception that has been made and passed down over time.”

  Chuair asked, “How do you think this problem can be controlled or taken off?”

  “By creating a society again.”

  I asked, “A society again? How will that work?”

  “If we don’t create a society, people will be imbalanced, but with a new perception induced, things will be ok. Now we can’t make everyone change in one go, but I know humans get influenced by the leaders of this world. Their perception is created and influenced by what their inspiration tells them. As humans are weak, they believe in someone else to motivate them, and that is how they also form their perceptions. So if we have to change the people, we have to change the perception. We have to control the information that flows to humans and also be able to keep a check on it. All this has to be done within the prism.”

  I asked, “How do you propose to do that?”

  “Nowadays, there are many ways the perception is created, unlike earlier when it used to be created by people surrounding you. Those people were further influenced by some leaders. Nowadays, it’s mostly the internet that has the control. Parnog and you guys may not know, but our enemies also control most of it. We don’t even realise what comes to us, as we read and watch things, but every sentence we read and whatever we see creates our perception.

  How to do that is not my job, but yours to find out. I can only help you with my suggestions, and I don’t want to create a different perception for you, which may be a barrier to your thoughts. The purpose to create you all was to have extensive knowledge from different backgrounds and the experiences you have had until now.

  On that, I leave you guys to discuss it and make your moves accordingly. I have a job to do, and I will catch up with you guys tomorrow morning for the Kriya. We need to take a step forward with the flow.”

  Dude left the room leaving us with a thought to discuss. We were tired and had a
big plan for the following day, so I asked everyone to take his or her time and to be ready for the next day to become what we truly were.

  Uniting the Energy

  After the party, we all slept in the same house, as the time had come for the next action. We all needed some time to speak to each other and the people we were connected to. We did not know what would happen tomorrow, as we didn’t know what we would become tomorrow. No one had seen anything yet. They were just making assumptions and talking about what they would do after being united.

  Yet, we didn’t know how we would be united, as there was no clear picture to it. We thought that maybe we would become one unit, but then all of us would have to lose our identities as individuals. We could also be connected without losing our identities, but nothing was certain yet.

  We all were going through our own thought processes. Each one called his or her loved ones, as they were not sure if they would see them again. It was hard for everyone, as they were connected to people by emotions. Everyone had been living a normal human life with love, passion, and defined goals in mind.

  On one hand, we were attracted by this materialistic world, and on the other hand, we had to do our jobs. The job was more important than what we were as individuals and what we were destined to do. We had many thoughts, but in the end, only results would matter. We planned to meet the next morning at sunrise, as that is the time negativity has less influence on the world.

  Everyone was already present when I reached the spot. It seemed like no one had actually slept at night. They all had faith in me. They trusted what I had been telling them to do.

  Dude reached in a while, as he had to prepare things for the Kriya. He made all the arrangements.

  We all reached the spot at the top of the hill where sun shines its first light. We all closed our eyes and held one another’s hands. I called for Zenith now, as he was the one who could get us back as one soul and power. He had the powers to unite us, as we were in Vardan.