CRIME THRILLERS-A Box Set

by Billie Sue Mosiman

  He made her secure in the chair and then he lay down on her bed. He covered his face with a pillow, sighed into it, and soon was still.

  That's when Molly cried just as quietly as she could while wondering what was to become of her.

  #

  In El Paso, Mark Killany found a Budget Inn just off the freeway and inside the city limits. The queerest feeling had dogged him for hours. He felt Molly was in some sort of distress. It was nuts because he'd never heard of a father being so close to his daughter that he had premonitions about her. Mothers, yes. Women were born with built-in radar. Especially when it came to their kids--knew when they had fallen and scraped a knee, knew when their diapers were wet, later on could read their feelings the way a blind man lays his hands on a face and reads the contours he finds. But fathers didn't talk about those things, never admitted to them, wouldn't have known what to think had they ever experienced them. Yet here he was with this gnawing in his gut. The worry spread out like a cancer taking over his body.

  He couldn't sleep. Exhaustion rode him so hard he could hardly walk, but he couldn't get to sleep. He tossed, turned, got up for a glass of tap water from the sink in one of those flimsy plastic glasses. Lukewarm. Metallic tasting. He had forgotten to fill the ice bucket.

  He turned on the lights and paced around the room making a path from the dressing table past the beds to the door and back again. Circling. Worrying.

  Maybe he should get back on the road. Maybe he shouldn't He did need sleep. Didn't want to fall asleep behind the wheel and take out a young family with a bunch of kids sleeping in the back seat.

  Nothing could be done about the premonition except live with it. He wished he had someone to talk to. Anyone. The agitation was unbearable. He dressed, grabbed the room key, and left for the motel restaurant. El Paso was lit up like the White House Christmas tree. He couldn't see the star cover overhead for all the lights in the city. People didn't sleep much here. The coffee shop was crowded. He chose a booth and drank coffee. He watched the entrance door. For what reason he didn't know. Molly wasn't going to walk in and plunk herself across from him. It wouldn't be that easy. Might never see her again. He had to squash that thought like an ant rolled between his thumb and forefinger.

  A bum came in the door. Dirty chinos, ragged high top sneakers, the black kind basketball players used to wear when Mark was in high school. The bum wore two shirts over an undershirt. An orange-and-white-striped polo beneath a long-sleeved blue-and-purple plaid lightweight flannel rolled to the elbows. Hanging open. Belt too big, the tongue drooping down the front of the guy's fly. It looked as if it had been chewed by a big dog. Mark figured the man for a wino rather than a crackhead. Crackheads had the haunted look in their eyes that demanded instant fulfillment. They always looked so full of hunger they might eat a wriggling rat. Winos just looked beat and dejected.

  Mari caught his eye. Motioned him over with a nod of his head to the seat across from him. The bum shuffled through the restaurant. He wiped the back of his not-too-clean right hand under his nose, slid into the booth, nodded back.

  "Want something to eat?" Mark asked.

  "I could do justice to a hamburger, man."

  "Right."

  The waitress took the order for burgers, fries, milk, and apple pie for dessert. The bum frowned when Mark asked for two milks, but the expression left as quickly as it had come. Free food was free food.

  "You get around El Paso much?" Mark asked.

  "Some. Got to stay on the move, man, you know how it is."

  "I'm looking for my daughter. She's a runaway. You might've seen her. I know it's a slim chance, but I have to ask." Mark took out his wallet, slipped Molly's school picture from the plastic casing, pushed it across the table.

  The bum looked at it hard. Then he shook his head.

  "Nope. Would have remembered that hair. Never seen her."

  Mark took the picture back and put away his wallet. A brief disappointment dimmed his eyes. He sighed audibly. "I don't know what I'm going to do.''

  "Good kid?"

  "The best. We just didn't see eye to eye."

  "Old story, man."

  "Yeah, I know. Must get boring hearing it."

  "Mostly I hear it from the kids. Lot of them come through here on the way to Cali-forn-i-aye. Some of them never make it. Maybe I shouldn't have said that."

  "I can imagine what happens to the ones who don't make it."

  "You might imagine it, but the real thing's worse. Sometimes lots worse."

  "I'm glad I'm buying your dinner. You're cheering me right the hell up."

  "I'm sorry, man, I can see you're lost without that kid, and I don't mean nothing, but I got to speak the truth, don't I?"

  The food came and the bum ate ravenously at the burger. Mark didn't think he took his eyes off the plate a second. He never stopped chewing until every crumb was

  devoured.

  "Here, finish mine." Mark pushed his half-eaten burger and fries across the table. "I don't have any communicable disease." The bum nodded his thanks and did away with the food in a few bites. He even downed the dreaded glass of milk.

  "We get apple pie too?" he asked, a milk ring around his mouth.

  "Sure. When's the last time you ate?"

  "Oh, man, I don't need much. I don't get this hungry often. I eat enough."

  Mark kept his comments to himself. He didn't know why, but he felt a lot better after feeding the guy. He thought he was against handouts to bums on general principle. On the general principle that they ought to go to work. But he knew now he didn't really believe that hard-line bullshit. This was a human being with a deadweight around his neck.

  He needed charity. Hope. All those biblical commandments or whatever they were.

  He signaled over their waitress and said they wanted the pie now. Two big slabs came spread out on huge saucers, slices of apple thick and long as Mark's thumb tumbling out of the flaky brown crust. He relished eating it just as much as his companion did. When they finished he ordered coffee for them.

  "Man, that was the best damn meal I think I ever had. This place has got a good cook."

  Mark smiled, felt himself relaxing from the inside out where that worry cancer had eaten at him.

  "Sure wish I'd been some help about your girl. She's awful pretty."

  "And awful young."

  "Thirteen?"

  "Just turned sixteen."

  "That's a bad age, all right. I was out on my own at sixteen too. It ain't no kinda life, man."

  "I was able to track her to a truck stop in Mobile, Alabama. Since then I can't get any breaks."

  "You call the cops, report her as a runaway?"

  "She hadn't been gone long enough. I got a lead from her friends and just lit out. I couldn't wait for the cops."

  The bum nodded his agreement. "Mobile, eh? Truck stop. Why don't you try the Metro, man?"

  "What's that?"

  "Biggest truck stop in El Paso. Gets hundreds of trucks a night. Everybody stops in there. It's like a fuckin' shopping mall. She riding with a trucker?"

  "No, some guy in a blue Chrysler. Picked her up in Mobile. Of course, she could be riding with someone else by now..."

  "Well, hey, man, I'd try the Metro, I was you."

  "Where is it?"

  "Go back east on I-10 about three miles. Watch on your right off the freeway for a great big green Metro sign. You can't miss it, man."

  "I'll do that, friend, thanks." Mark stood with the meal ticket.

  The bum slid out of the booth after swallowing down the last of his coffee. He held out a grubby hand to Mark.

  "I wanna thank you proper, man. That was a helluva nice thing you done."

  Mark took his hand. Once he'd paid the bill and was outside the restaurant, the bum was gone. He was going to offer him a ride somewhere, slip a twenty to him. Too late.

  Well, at least the guy was full and that was something.

  He walked back to the motel, unlocked his car, and sat
behind the steering wheel. Metro. Big green sign.

  Maybe she was there.

  He wasted an hour hanging out at the biggest truck stop in El Paso. He showed Molly's picture to everyone he could. Waitresses, shopkeepers, counter persons, gas

  jockeys. Came up empty. He even called the phone number for the tour service down into Juarez, asked if they'd taken a redheaded girl. Nope. Took a redheaded woman in her fifties, though, they said. She was a bottle redhead, pretty obvious too, but no kid.

  By the time Mark packed it in and returned to his room at the Budget Inn all he wanted to do was crawl between the sheets and sleep until the Second Coming. The Metro Truck Stop had tired him more than his day's driving. All those people. All that commotion. It was like Grand Central back in its heyday. He didn't know how the truckers lived that frantic a life. He pitied them.

  Tomorrow he'd hit the road again for New Mexico.

  Maybe she was there. God, let her be there.

  THE FIFTH NIGHT

  Cruise got up in the day twice to untie Molly to go to the bathroom. She whimpered some, but he'd warned her against too much noise. She wanted a gag, that was all right with him. She didn't. She was quiet while he slept.

  When the sun set, Cruise woke for good with a raging headache. Moving around in the day did that to him. Gave him migraines that started in his sleep. He'd wake with a dull, heavy, bloated feeling in his right temple. Then before he could shower and dress the headache came out in the open, a dozen angry fists swinging a dozen sledgehammers against the inside of his skull.

  He staggered around the room trying to get rid of the pain before he drove from town. He kept his right hand mashed into his right eye socket where the pain was the worst. He knew this didn't help it any, but it seemed to ease the pressure on his one eye.

  "When are you going to let me go?" Molly asked, squirming in the ropes.

  "Don't talk. My head hurts."

  "Yeah, well, that's too bad. My hands hurt. My legs hurt. My butt hurts."

  Cruise was across the room before she finished. He loomed over her, hand gone from his eye for the moment. His face looked carved from the wood of a hard, old tree.

  Hickory. A gnarled oak.

  "I told you my head hurts. You talk again I might make you hurt. You understand that, Molly? You got that written down yet?"

  She nodded, eyes downcast.

  "Fine. Don't forget."

  He went back to trying to walk out of the barrier of pain that fenced him in as surely as the wire around a penned dog. He stopped once to phone for room service. "Send up two Cokes, they're in those little bottles, right? Make it three Cokes then. And send someone to get me a decongestant. Hell, I don't care what kind. Sudafed. Dimetapp. Some goddamn thing for sinus, whatever the fuck you can find. And hurry."

  Ten minutes later he was swallowing two little white tablets that he hoped were what he asked for. If it turned out to be some of Rodriguez's speed or other druggie shit, he'd kill the desk clerk, hang him from the lobby chandelier. He drank two of the small bottles of Cokes as chasers. He'd save the other bottle for when he felt some relief. Sometimes decongestants worked, sometimes not. If it was a sinus headache, they helped. If it was a true migraine, nothing helped short of suicide. He'd have to return to bed, cover his head with a pillow, and not move a muscle for hours until it stopped throbbing.

  Now and then he glanced over at Molly. Damn shame about her. Too fucking smart. He ought to do her right now, here, get it over with. Pick up another witness somewhere else. Over in Arizona, maybe.

  He stopped walking, stared at Molly from the one uncovered green eye like a cyclops considering eating her for a snack. Weighed everything in the balance. His time investment. The stories he'd told. The money he'd spent. The effort. It was this last that gave him pause. So much effort spent on this kid!

  She stared back unabashedly. Fire there, smoldering like molten lead in her gray flinty eyes. He really liked that. She wasn't completely intimidated. She'd seen him kill

  and could still look him in the face with defiance. Great little kid, now she really was.

  "What do I have to do to make you behave?" he asked suddenly.

  "What do you want with me, Cruise?"

  "I just want you with me."

  "It doesn't make sense," she said. "You don,t even know me. I'm a hitchhiker. you're just a ride."

  "Not anymore. I'm living my life and you're my witness."

  "Witness?"

  "Exactly."

  "To what?"

  "My life. I just told you."

  "Doesn't make any sense."

  "Doesn't have to. It does to me, that's what counts. But now you're being a pain in the ass. I don't know if..."

  "You expected me to be some kind of angel? Some kind of heartless monster like you?"

  "Shut up." He grabbed the other side of his head and swayed on his feet. The pain. The pain! Trying to knock him off his feet. Trying to drop him to the floor with a roundhouse slam to his temples. He cried out, "Ahhhhh."

  Stood absolutely still, held his breath, tried to center himself. If he could put himself into his stomach muscles, get out of his head, he could beat this thing.

  He had to get to the bed. He stumbled over his own feet trying to reach the mattress. He felt Molly's eyes boring through him. Nothing mattered but to lick the pain. He couldn't stand up anymore. His knees hit the mattress; he fell forward onto his outstretched hands, eyes tightly closed. The jar from the fall thumped through his head like a galloping Clydesdale. He pulled himself onto the bed, groped for the pillows, found one, placed it carefully over the back of his head, buried his face in the sheets.

  Oh, God. He didn't know if he'd live through it. And if Molly said another goddamn word, he'd cut her head from her body.

  #

  Molly watched him pace the room like a staggering drunk, clutching one eye and the side of his head. Migraine, she guessed. She couldn't summon an ounce of pity for him. She'd been tied upright in the white satin chair all night. She'd had plenty of hours to think over her situation while her hands and feet began to tingle, her butt turned to stone. Witness, hell. She was a hostage, pure and simple. She was trapped. If she struggled too much at the wrong time, if she said the wrong word, if she moved when she should be motionless, she thought Cruise might kill her. She didn't just think it, she knew it even though Cruise had not made a specific threat.

  That didn't mean life was hopeless. It just meant she'd made her first and worst mistake on the road, on her own. She hadn't contracted a sexual disease, fallen under the power of a pimp, been gang-raped, or starved to death. She'd done far better for herself. She'd taken a ride with a maniac. Hopeless, no. Dangerous, yes. Life-threatening, assuredly.

  She didn't know any of the rules. At first she thought Cruise was a regular kind of guy, like her father, but not as strict. Then with the stories and the truck stops she thought he wasn't much like her father at all, but a more exciting sort of man who knew about worlds she didn't know existed. She found the life attractive, the man exotic. Now she knew the truth, the shocking, mind-numbing truth, and she thought she shouldn't let it paralyze her or she was lost. If she gave herself over to fear she'd make the wrong move and she wouldn't survive the repercussion.

  One time when she was a girl, must have been eight or nine years old, she came up on a tangle of coral snakes. They lived in Hollywood, Florida, just miles down the shoreline from Dania where her father lived now. She'd been running from her friends in a game of hide-and-seek, running down a worn path they took through a patch of trees between their houses. There was a giant magnolia tree with its limbs poised over the path. She remembered the double-fist-sized creamy white blooms hanging heavy and fragrant from the canopy of wide shiny deep green leaves.

  The corals, Florida's deadliest snake, owned their piece of ground. It might have been a mother snake and her offspring, or corals mating, she didn't know why there were so many in one spot, but they were irrefutably there when she
came racing like a tornado down upon them.

  Molly recognized the bright bands of color the second she spied them. But she was running too fast to stop. Had she tried, she would have landed right smack in the middle of venomous and instantaneous death. She hardly had time to formulate a plan. Instinct took over, the will to survive. She couldn't, and therefore didn't, slow her pace. She saw the tangle of snakes coming at her faster and faster although it was her moving in their direction instead of them moving at all except to squirm one on the other, a deadly circle of red, yellow, and black. Her bare feet made two easy targets. Then without thinking of what to do she was flying, literally airborne, rising into the air, taking wing, bounding from the spongy beaten-down grass high up over the corals, one short scream escaping her mouth as she sailed cleanly over the threat. She landed a few feet beyond them and as soon as her feet touched down she was gone from the scene, moving like wind, the thought of the corals just behind her supplying enough adrenaline to carry her straight down the path and out again into her friend's newly mowed backyard where she halted out of breath, her face white as a magnolia blossom, hands on her knees, hunched over, her head falling almost to the ground. She was whispering, "Thank you, God, thank you, God, thank you..."

  She never told anyone about the close call. Her father wouldn't have let her play outside again for fear of her getting snake-bitten. Her friends wouldn't have really believed it. None of them at that time had ever seen a coral snake, though they had all been warned about them. That was Florida, after all, parents had to prepare their children for snakes, stinging scorpions, spiders, jellyfish and sharks at the beach.

  She remembered what she'd done to save herself from the corals in the pathway. She let instinct take over. It had delivered her once from certain death. It could again if she would simply trust herself. Making plans was what she wanted to do, but everything she thought to do to extricate herself from Cruise was something she knew he'd know about before she even put the first steps into action.