Eight Classic Nora Roberts Romantic Suspense Novels

by Nora Roberts

  She turned slowly, no jerking, no surprise, and met the long silent look with one of her own.

  She smelled of Paris. He remembered the five days he’d spent there in his twenties, going on a shoestring and optimism. He’d fallen in love with it—the look, the smells, the air. Every year he promised himself he’d go back and find whatever it was he’d been looking for.

  “I like it better down,” he said at length, and let his fingers linger a moment longer. “When you had it up this afternoon, you looked remote, inaccessible.”

  Tension snapped into her, the ripe man-woman tension she hadn’t felt with anyone in years—hadn’t wanted to. She still didn’t want to. “Professional,” she corrected, and took an easy step back. “Would you like that drink?”

  He thought about making a long, thin slice through her control. What would it be like? But if he did, he might find his aim off and slice his own. “We’ll get one at the theater. There’s enough time before the curtain.”

  “I’ll get my coat.”

  He seemed as familiar with the staff at the Roof Terrace as he’d been with those in the smoky little bar the night before. Tess watched the way he spoke to this one, greeted that one, the ease, the casual intimacy. So he wasn’t a loner, she concluded, except when he chose to be.

  She admired someone who could be at ease with people, without worrying about impressions, opinions. To be that way you first had to be at ease with yourself. Somehow, as content as she was with her life-style, she’d never quite gotten there.

  Ben picked up his glass, stretched out his legs, and stared back at her. “Got me figured out yet?”

  “Not completely.” She picked up an almond from the bowl on the table and chewed it thoughtfully. “But I think you do. If more people understood themselves the way you do, I’d have to look for a different line of work.”

  “And you’re very good at what you do.” He watched her choose another almond with long, slim fingers. An antique pearl gleamed dully on her right hand. “Class valedictorian,” he began, and watched her hand stop. “A private practice that’s growing too fast for you to keep up with it. You just turned down an offer to join the psychiatric staff at Bethesda Naval, but you work once a week in the Donnerly Clinic in South East for no fee.”

  His mild rundown annoyed her. Tess was accustomed to knowing more about the people she associated with than they knew of her. “Do you always do background checks on a date, Detective?”

  “Habit,” he said easily. “You spoke about curiosity yourself last night. Senator Jonathan Writemore’s your maternal grandfather, a little left of center, outspoken, charismatic, and tough as nails.”

  “He’ll be pleased you said so.”

  “You lost your parents when you were fourteen. I’m sorry.” He lifted his drink again. “It’s always hard to lose family.”

  She caught the tone, the empathy that told her he’d lost someone too. “My grandfather made a difference. I may not have recovered without him. How did you find out so much?”

  “Cops don’t reveal a source. I read your profile.”

  She stiffened a bit, expecting criticism. “And?”

  “You feel our man’s intelligent.”

  “Yes. Cunning. He leaves what he chooses behind, but no trail.”

  After a moment Ben nodded. “What you said made sense. I’m interested in how you came to the conclusions.”

  Tess took a sip of her drink before answering. She wouldn’t ask herself why it was important she make him understand. It simply was. “I take facts, the pattern he leaves behind. You can see it’s almost identical each time, he doesn’t vary. I suppose in your business you call it an M.O.”

  He smiled a little as he nodded. “Yeah.”

  “The pattern forms a picture, a psychological picture. You’re trained to look for clues, evidence, motives, and apprehend. I’m trained to look for reasons, causes, then to treat. To treat, Ben,” she repeated, meeting his eyes. “Not to judge.”

  He lifted a brow. “And you think that’s what I’m doing?”

  “You want him,” she said simply.

  “Yeah, I want him. Off the streets and in a cage.”

  He crushed out a cigarette, slowly, methodically. It was a measure of control. But his hands were strong.

  “You want him punished. I understand that, even if I don’t agree.”

  “You’d rather open his head and make him all better. Christ.” He tossed back his drink. “You don’t want to let your heart bleed over a man like this.”

  “Compassion’s part of my business,” she said tightly. “He’s ill, desperately ill. If you read my profile, and understood it, you’d know what he does, he does in pain.”

  “He strangles women. If it hurts him to tie a knot around their necks, it doesn’t make them any less dead. I’ve got compassion, Tess, for the families of those women I’ve had to talk to. I have to look at their faces when they ask me why. I don’t have an answer.”

  “I’m sorry.” She reached for his hand without thinking. Her fingers closed over his. “It’s a hideous job. One that wakes you up at night. I’ve had to talk to families—the ones left stunned and bitter after a suicide.” She felt his hand tense, and soothed automatically. “When you lie awake at three A.M., you still see the questions in their eyes, and the grief. Ben …” She leaned toward him, needing to draw him closer. “I have to think like a doctor on this. I could give you clinical terms—impulse disorder, functional psychoses. Whatever label we use, it equals illness. This man isn’t killing for revenge or for profit, but in despair.”

  “And I have to think like a cop. It’s my job to stop him. That’s the bottom line.” He was silent a moment, then pushed his drink aside. “We talked about your Monsignor Logan. Harris is checking it out.”

  “That’s good. Thank you.”

  “Don’t. I haven’t a lot of faith in the idea.”

  She drew back with a little sigh. “We don’t have any common ground, do we?”

  “Maybe not.” But he remembered how small and warm her hand had been on his. “Maybe we just haven’t found it yet.”

  “What do you like to do on a Saturday afternoon?” she asked abruptly.

  “Sit down with a beer and watch the ball game.”

  She wrinkled her nose. “That won’t work. What about music?”

  He grinned. “What about it?”

  “What do you like?”

  “Depends. I like rock when I’m driving, jazz when I’m drinking, and Mozart on Sunday mornings.”

  “We’re getting closer. How about Jelly Roll Morton?”

  Surprised, he grinned again. “Yeah.”

  “And Springsteen?”

  “He caught me with The River.”

  “Marvin Gaye?”

  Ben sat back and took another long look. “Maybe we’ve got a start.” His leg brushed hers under the table. “Wanna go back to my place and listen to my record collection?”

  “Detective Paris …” Tess chose one last almond. “Trained psychiatrists don’t fall for shopworn lines.”

  “How about fresh ones?”

  “Such as?”

  “Have a late supper with me after the theater and we’ll see who can remember more old Beatle lyrics.”

  She flashed him a grin, quick, impulsive, and totally unlike the careful smiles she’d given him before. “You’ll lose, and you’re on.”

  “Do you know a guy with two thousand dollars worth of caps on his teeth and a Brooks Brothers suit?”

  Her brows drew together. “Is this a quiz?”

  “Too late, he’s coming over.”

  “Who … oh, hello, Frank.”

  “Tess, didn’t expect to see you here.” He patted the hand of the pencil-slim, exotic woman at his side. “Lorraine, this is Dr. Teresa Court, an associate of mine.”

  Obviously bored, and earning Tess’s sympathy, the woman held out a hand. “So happy to meet you.” Her gaze slid easily over Tess and latched on to Ben. “Hello.�
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  His smile was slow, and though his eyes never left her face, he took in every detail. “Hello, I’m Ben.”

  “Tess, you should’ve told me you were coming. We’d have made a party of it,” Frank said.

  Lorraine tilted her head as she looked at Ben. Maybe the night could be salvaged after all, she thought. “There’s always after the play,” Lorraine said.

  “There certainly is,” Ben murmured, and earned a swift kick from Tess under the table. His smile never wavered. “But Tess and I have to make an early night of it. Business.”

  “Sorry, Frank, we’ll have to do it another time.” Knowing escape was always in doubt, Tess was already up. “See you around the office. Bye, Lorraine.”

  “Here’s your hat, what’s your hurry?” Ben mumbled as he followed her out.

  “If you knew what I knew, you’d thank me.”

  “Your, ah, colleague has better taste in women than he does in ties.”

  “Really?” Tess made a business of brushing her coat smooth as they walked. “I thought she was rather obvious.”

  “Yeah.” Ben cast a look over his shoulder. “Uh-huh. Obvious.”

  “Some men like cleavage and mink eyelashes, I suppose.”

  “Some men are animals.”

  “She was his second choice,” Tess heard herself saying. “I turned him down first.”

  “Is that so?” Intrigued, Ben slowed her down by swinging an arm over her shoulders. “He asked you to the Coward thing and you turned him down?”

  “That’s right.”

  “I’m flattered.”

  She shot him a look. His ego didn’t need any help from her. “I only said yes to you because you’re not perfect.”

  “Hmm. When did he ask you?”

  “Yesterday afternoon.”

  “It didn’t seem to put his nose out of joint that you turned him down and were here with me.”

  Uncomfortable, Tess shifted under his arm. “I told him I had a date.”

  “Oh. You lied.”

  He said it with such pleasure, she laughed. “I’m not perfect either.”

  “That makes things easier.”

  The early night Ben had spoken of ended at two A.M., when they walked down the corridor to Tess’s apartment.

  “I’m going to hate myself in the morning,” Tess said over a yawn.

  “I haven’t even asked you to go to bed yet.”

  The yawn ended on a muffled laugh. “I was thinking about drinking a half bottle of wine and five hours’ sleep.” She stopped at her door and turned to lean against it. “I didn’t expect to have such a good time.”

  Neither had he. “Why don’t we try it again? Maybe we won’t.”

  She thought about it for three full seconds. “All right, when?”

  “There’s a Bogart festival tomorrow night across town.”

  “The Maltese Falcon?”

  “And The Big Sleep.”

  She smiled, comfortably sleepy. “Okay.” When he stepped closer, she waited for him to kiss her. If the idea warmed her, she thought it only natural. The desire to be held and touched was a human one. Her eyes half closed and her heart beat just a little faster.

  “You’ve got to replace this Mickey Mouse lock.”

  Her lashes fluttered up again. “What?”

  “Your door lock, Tess, is a joke.” He traced a finger down her nose, pleased to see confusion. “If you’re going to live in a building without security, you’d better make sure you’ve got a dead bolt on your door.”

  “Dead bolt.” With a half laugh she straightened and reached for her keys. “I can’t argue with a cop.”

  “Glad to hear it.” He put his hands over hers and kissed her before she’d prepared herself again. Later, when she could think straight, she’d wonder if he’d planned it that way.

  It was silly to believe that a kiss as gentle, as easy as this one could send shock waves through the body. Blood didn’t really heat and the mind didn’t really swim.

  She knew better, but felt it anyway. Touching nothing but her hands, he took her under.

  His mouth was clever, but she’d suspected as much. His lips were warm, soft, and he used his teeth to add a nip of excitement. They scraped over her lip before his tongue slid over hers. She told herself it was the late hour, the wine, the relaxation, but she gave herself to the moment without any of the caution she was prone to.

  She was supposed to be cool, a little aloof. He’d expected it. He hadn’t expected the heat, the passion, or the sweetness that poured from her into him. He hadn’t expected the immediate intimacy of longtime lovers. He knew women well—or thought he did. Tess was a mystery to him that demanded solving.

  Desire was familiar to him, something else he’d thought he understood well. But he couldn’t remember ever having it ram into him and take his breath away. He wanted her now, instantly, desperately. Ordinarily he’d have followed through. It was natural. For reasons he couldn’t begin to understand, he backed away from her.

  For a moment they just stared at each other.

  “This could be a problem,” he managed to say after a few seconds.

  “Yeah.” She swallowed and concentrated on the cool metal of the keys in her hand.

  “Put on the security chain, okay? I’ll see you tomorrow.”

  She missed the keyhole by a quarter inch on the first try and swore as she stuck it in on the second. “Good night, Ben.”

  “Good night.”

  He waited until he heard the click of the lock and the rattle of chain before he turned and walked down the hall. A problem, he thought again. One hell of a problem.

  He’d been walking for hours. When he let himself into his apartment he was almost too tired to stand. In the past few months he found he slept dreamlessly only if he exhausted himself first.

  It wasn’t necessary to turn on a light; he knew the way. Ignoring the need to rest, he went past his bedroom. Sleep would come only after he’d completed this last duty. The room beyond was always locked. When he opened it he drew in the faint, feminine scent of the fresh flowers he put there daily. The priest’s robe hung by the closet door. Draped over it, the amice was a slash of white.

  Striking a match, he lit the first candle, then another and another, until the shadows waved on the pristine surface of the altar cloth.

  There was a picture there in a silver frame of a young woman, blond and smiling. Forever she’d been captured, young, innocent, and happy. Pink roses had been her favorite, and it was their scent that mixed with the burning candles.

  In smaller frames were the carefully clipped newspaper prints of three other women. Carla Johnson, Barbara Clayton, Francie Bowers. Folding his hands, he knelt before them.

  There were so many others, he thought. So many. He’d only just begun.

  Chapter 4

  The boy sat across from Tess, quiet and sullen. He didn’t fidget or look out of the window. He rarely did. Instead, he sat in the chair and looked down at his own knees. His hands lay spread on his thighs, the fingers slender, the knuckles a bit enlarged from nervous cracking. The nails were bitten down below the quick. Signs of nerves, yet people often go through life well enough while cracking and snapping and chewing on themselves.

  It was rare for him to look at the person he was speaking with, or more accurately in his case, the person speaking to him. Every time she managed to get him to make eye contact, she felt both a small victory and a small pang. There was so little she could see in his eyes, for he’d learned at a young age how to shield and conceal. What she did see—when she was given even that rare, quick chance to look—was not resentment, not fear, only a trace of boredom.

  Life had not played fair with Joseph Higgins, Jr., and he wasn’t taking any chances on being slipped another shot below the belt. At his age, when adults called the plays, he chose isolation and noncommunication as defense against a lack of choice. Tess knew the symptoms. Lack of outward emotion, lack of motivation, lack of interest. A lack.
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  Somehow, some way, she had to find the trigger that would push him back to caring first about himself, then the world around him.

  He was too old for her to play games with, too young for her to meet on the level of adult to adult. She had tried both, and he’d accepted neither. Joey Higgins had placed himself firmly in an in-between space. Adolescence wasn’t simply awkward for him, it was miserable.

  He was wearing jeans, good, solid jeans, with the button fly raved about in the slick commercials, and a gray sweatshirt with the Maryland terrapin grinning across his chest. His leather high-top Nike’s were trendy and new. Light brown hair was cut into moderate spikes around a too thin face. Outwardly he looked like an average fourteen-year-old boy. All the trappings were there. Inside he was a maze of confusion, self-hate, and bitterness that Tess knew she hadn’t even begun to touch.

  It was unfortunate that instead of being a confidante, a wailing wall, or even a blank sheet of paper to him, she was only one more authority figure in his life. If just once he’d broken out and shouted or argued with her, she would have felt the sessions were progressing. Through them all, he remained polite and unresponsive.

  “How are you feeling about school, Joey?”

  He didn’t shrug. It was as if even that movement might give away some of the feelings he kept locked so tightly inside. “Okay.”

  “Okay? I’d guess it’s always kind of tough to switch schools.” She’d fought against that, done everything in her power to persuade his parents not to make such a dramatic move at this point in his therapy. Bad companions, they had said. They were going to get him away from the people influencing him, those who’d drawn him toward alcohol, a brief flirtation with drugs, and an equally quick but more uneasy courtship with the occult. His parents had only succeeded in alienating him, and hacking away a little more at his self-esteem.

  It hadn’t been companions, bad or otherwise, who had taken Joey on any of those journeys. It was his own spiraling depression and search for an answer, one he might believe was completely and uniquely his own.

  Because they no longer found joints in his dresser drawers or smelled liquor on his breath, his parents were confident he was beginning to recover. They couldn’t see, or wouldn’t, that he was still spiraling down quickly. He’d simply learned how to internalize it.