Everytime a Knot Is Undone, a God Is Released

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by Barbara Chase-Riboud


  As one could possibly imagine.

  Yet, there, in a cage … in the most dire

  Primordial circumstances, the Venus

  Has a dignity and a humanness that is totally lacking

  In her spectators and puts them to shame.

  I shed a tear. Mary does too—at her vulnerability.

  As females we all are burdened

  In the face of a male society.

  I am revolted. I try as did several other ladies

  To make eye contact with the Venus

  To communicate the sympathy I truly feel

  But there is no communication

  Except insults and threats,

  Neither between the public and the Hottentot

  Nor between the Hottentot and the white females

  To be sure she is ugly,

  She has an enormous, astounding posterior

  But her face is actually pleasant

  And she is very young

  She is now a household word in England

  And a celebrity in London Society and the popular press,

  Who use her as a plaything and political tool against Grenville

  Not a day goes by that there is not

  Another wicked, obscene cartoon

  Or caricature in the daily press.

  The politics of her, the obscenity of her

  Her servitude is a blot on English Society.

  But even the worse of scandals

  Become romantic

  And even respectable in two thousand years;

  Witness Cleopatra …

  The most virtuous read of Cleopatra with sympathy

  Even in boarding schools and were she, by some miracle

  Erased out of the book of history,

  The loss would be enormous.

  The same applies to Helen, Phryne and other bad lots.

  In fact, now that one thinks of it,

  Most of the attractive personages in history

  Male or female, especially the latter, were bad lots.

  And the true Venus?

  Haven’t the most scandalous acts

  In history been done in her name?

  In the name of passionate, unbridled, and uncontrollable fornication?

  Shouldn’t we love anything called Venus?

  I ask gazing at this strange, humiliated creature …

  If you are a woman?

  There is nothing that makes our sex more aware

  Of our own oppression

  Than witnessing the horrendous, blatant

  Torture of the brown races?

  A brown member of our own sex?

  I shudder to think I actually paid to see this!

  This ink bleeds onto

  The middle finger of my right hand

  And no, I am not going

  To denounce her suffering

  Or write about her

  Or recognize her

  Wasn’t this why I love freaks?

  I bless my stars that I have done with Tuesday.

  But alas! Wednesday arrives.

  —Jane Austen to her ghostwriter, Lady Eliza de Feuillide

  Why Did We Leave Zanzibar?

  Dark hallooed sister,

  Penumbrae jewel

  Burning in dry tobacco leaf beauty,

  Brittle and flaking discontent,

  Eyes damned with the silt of disappointment,

  Lodged and sheltered in Public Housing,

  Celled there tapping in Morse code on the bars of the mind:

  The unspeakable that resounds through

  The landscape of your nerve ends like orgasm.

  Long-fingered, long-necked

  Delicate wrist-ed and ankled sister,

  Wide-hipped and smelling of honey,

  Eyes echoing hollow words and unremembered places,

  Fingers stuttering, tearing

  And wrapping themselves around

  The essential question:

  Why did we leave Zanzibar?

  Something in the line of the back spells

  The irredeemable exhaustion of trying to make ends meet;

  Those two butt ends of our amputated history,

  Cauterized on the hot iron of self-hate,

  Lusting after self-destruction

  That we find in split vaginas,

  Smeared with the muck of barbarians,

  Birthing a race of orphans and madmen

  When we could have stayed on the beach,

  Heads severed and wombs filled with sand,

  Clutching our ancestors,

  Rejoicing in sterility,

  Reveling in abortion,

  Resplendent with infanticide,

  Cursing the living with the last breath of strangled children.

  You say we had no choice:

  There is always one alternative

  To rape and every woman knows

  it

  Dark-breathed sister,

  Sinister survival worshiper,

  Ready with the sword to smite the suicides,

  Jailer for our prison-makers,

  Grinding down our men with religion-pocked

  Grins of satisfaction (Jesus Saves),

  Crushing our defenseless sons with the jawbone of that Jew’s cross,

  Dazed and concussed, they stumble into the street to play stickball

  Driving their fathers mad with grief and shame

  So that their rage is spent in our bodies

  (Or better still, the wives and daughters of the enemy);

  And how we both glory in it,

  Smack our lips in rutting satisfaction,

  Tasting curdled blood and milk

  Left standing in the sun too long

  By absent-minded missionaries:

  Benedictus qui venit in

  Nomine Domini.

  Sassy, sweet-voiced sister,

  Moon-browed and night-mouthed

  In deepest song,

  Lying on your back in cathedrals,

  Content that another night has passed

  Without murder,

  Lying on your back in cathedrals,

  Masturbating with the true cross (Sweet Jesus)

  While black men thrash around with white flesh,

  Listening for your hysterical screams resounding in the tabernacle,

  Staining stained glass: those Technicolor prisms of Middle-Eastern legend.

  And over all, Cleopatra’s asp hovers:

  Sliding between legs,

  That perpetually open route to power,

  Posing the essential question on split tongue:

  Why did we leave Zanzibar?

  Sweet fragrant mango-stenched beach,

  Breasts pressed flat against steamed sand,

  Seeping through sieve-like flesh,

  Carrying carats of ancestor dust,

  Rattling like pearls in oyster shells.

  Sleek, earth-dyed sister,

  Madness glistening at your throat,

  We could have stayed on the beach,

  Clinging to the rocks like bats,

  REFUSING TO MOVE OUR WOMBS,

  Scraping them with flint,

  Soaking the continent with the holy blood of martyrs.

  Plum-lipped sister,

  Sad and wild-eyed with my reflection,

  I touch one apricot breast

  As you touch one brassy one,

  And we gaze into each other’s eyes

  Like the criminals that we are,

  Dark brown gall rising to the surface like oil on water,

  Casting up that bottle-wrapped question

  Flung into the sea by some desperate hand so many murders ago:

  Why did we leave Zanzibar?

  On Hearing of a Death in Prison

  For George Jackson Blois, August 21, 1971

  I heard

  A wailing, mournful, sacred

  Song,

  A bitter, screaming, humping

  Song,

  A positively displeased Nigger’s<
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  Song,

  A Maximum Security

  Song,

  A river of bile,

  Har-

  Monica fresh filled with

  Salty blood.

  I taste it

  Myself

  Now.

  I heard

  A silent Georgia

  Badlands

  Song,

  Flat-out

  In the damned black

  Of the American sky,

  White speckled with

  Filthy stars,

  Spangled,

  Cold as ice,

  Cold as Hell.

  Frozen over

  Out there,

  One

  Dies.

  I heard

  A teeth-grinding, heart-stripping lover’s

  Song,

  A fine jazz ricochet of desire,

  Drizzling gall,

  Sex-starved and slave-chained in

  Songs of sixpence,

  The inherited penalty of pain

  Passed from father to son in

  Songs

  Of penitentiaries:

  San Rafael,

  Folsom,

  San Quentin,

  Alcatraz,

  Soledad.

  I heard

  A never-ending song of

  Solitude,

  Eleven years of putrid cement,

  Nailed down

  With bullets

  And the

  Constitution

  For sixty-seven dollars net,

  A song eleven years to sing of

  Solitary confinement,

  Excrement thrown,

  The total death of pride,

  The soul-destroying body search,

  A rape of every aperture,

  A curse so foul

  Men cry.

  I heard

  Black notes on lined paper,

  Barred,

  Dropping wounded days

  Of manhood lost

  In gut-punctured, spine-shattered

  Death,

  Death of the spirit,

  Death of the bowels,

  Death in the white heat

  Of a charred sunlit court,

  So lonely it seizes

  The heart,

  That hoarded, dreamed of

  Moment of Life,

  The last.

  I heard

  A clamorous, clapper-tongued

  Sound,

  The holocaust of Easter Week,

  A trenchant trill,

  Quivering in heat over

  The Entire Race,

  Blue desert women,

  Wind and sand whipped pillars

  Stretching across Africa,

  Tattooed hands held over

  That obscene opening,

  Kohl-ed eyes weeping

  Colored tears for Colored Men,

  Red veils aspired in Rage

  In Rage, In Rage, In Rage.

  I heard

  A Song

  So rich in gut and sweat

  That any sperm would flower there,

  And any Song

  Rejoice in being

  Not

  For singing.

  X.

  KEO SIRISOMPHONE

  Australian John Everingham gained fame

  when he sought asylum for his Laotian wife Keo

  Sirisomphone by swimming her on his back out of

  Laos under the mile wide Mekong River, a war

  zone under American bombing and Cambodian

  shelling near Vientiane during the Cambodian

  war in May, 1978.

  Keo Sirisomphone

  Swimming,

  Familiar with death’s edge,

  Swimming towards you, the waters giving up

  Your frail face wracked by the

  Changing tides History & War,

  Swimming.

  Your face all I want of this planet,

  Liquid thunder in my ears, as delirium surfaces,

  And I think I hear your helpless cries,

  But it is only the wind and bursting

  Shells of panic.

  Swimming,

  The long rowing towards you,

  Arms silt-caked doing battle,

  Against men’s crimes, with only a man’s body

  Swimming,

  A wisp of pain sucks in gut then flounders

  On the sharp stake of my will,

  Stronger than snapping turtles

  Whose saw-teeth, unlike ours,

  Never kill for love.

  I feel the scaly rake of dead fish

  From the weeping wounds of a furious river

  Who does not know who I am or why I am

  Swimming.

  Sipping in death neatly, cooled by fathoms,

  Blinded by barricaded water

  That sees so clearly

  The only solution to our problem is:

  Swimming.

  Mouth filling with silver’d eels,

  The predators slipping by my temple,

  I bear the waters.

  Astonished goddesses glance from the deep, And I strike out for them

  For they know Zeus’ days of thunder are at present

  Coded missiles and heat-detecting rockets.

  Ribbons of fright stream behind me,

  Shells of longing chalice upwards,

  With dying eyes, I see you on the farthest shore,

  A thin red dress flung round your body,

  Flapping like a battalion flag.

  Weariness blurs the spot and changes my course

  Yet nothing will change our course,

  This swimmer’s race laid out for me

  By astrologers long before

  I swam.

  Ghosts of drowned men pull at my chest

  But not without awe,

  For I am no longer

  Swimming,

  But loving.

  I drag myself on shore:

  A slip of red silk bursts in flight under fire,

  Sand splicing, arms flung open and now

  We are two.

  Wholesale terror in my arms as your heartbeat

  Merges with mine and the guns spit

  Steady behind me and I dash back into the deep,

  One hard breath of yearning.

  Then all my loving is conjured for

  Swimming.

  I have swallowed your heart, diving past exploding shells,

  As I make for the other shore

  Of the horizon less Mekong.

  Your feint weight drags me down

  And allows the sky to roll over me.

  River grass rakes at your hair

  And hot metal strikes all around us,

  Like God’s sperm.

  I hear a voice like a bright hallucination

  Choking, as I try to claim my prize,

  Cursing all men

  As death-waves rock and

  Deep shutters rotate us.

  My grip loosens and you plunge downwards

  Towards terrible whirlpools.

  I dive to retrieve you,

  A nail-hold on sanity as

  River snails stare blankly,

  Watching my half-murdered burden sink,

  And I am no longer loving, but

  Swimming.

  Bloody shoulders sweep

  Onto the seventh circle

  Breaking destiny

  Which drinks in tumors of another man’s war,

  Propelling me onto that plateau beyond pain

  Swimming.

  I let the nightmare carry us where it will,

  Insidious as the pollen of our era,

  Churning like the century’s politics,

  The honky-tonk waters suddenly still, so still

  I never see

  Arms and hands relieving my burden,

  Pulling you from your comatose chaos,

  From darkness to living.

  And still I could not believe

 
When the weight faded and floated beyond me.

  I called your name

  As I was pulled from the ringing wrack,

  Your small hands and child’s arms cradling me,

  Singing, that we were no longer

  Swimming,

  But loving.

  Camellias

  We entered a cathedral

  One stormy day,

  Rain still glistening

  On hyacinths shivering orange.

  Rousing in wrath,

  The reluctant Gatekeeper

  Eyeing us like Lucifer deciding

  While we danced

  Iridescent from the rain

  And laughing, having spent

  Half an hour wailing

  To be let in,

  Stranded on this island

  Like Crusoe and his Man,

  Pagans come to incorporate

  New and lovely Gods.

  All set with the rituals

  Of our tribe,

  Revised to new and modern music,

  Ignorant of rules

  For the Primitives,

  Stories invented by that snob Peter,

  The eternal doorman

  Of the washed and scented Christ,

  Snubbing the Saint Esprit of

  Filth and red,

  Forgetting that holy men

  Would never dare to pass

  These waxed and varnished doors into

  This cheap bazaar of glass beads

  And fetishes, plastic hearts

  And Color-Glo postcards.

  Yet we pass,

  Leaving summer rain

  And Eden’s grandiose landscape into

  A musical mountain that

  Floats like a stone ship on

  Rusty water, breathless,

  Sprawling on top of sin,

  Spilling it like a sloppy drinker;

  Warm Sambucca that

  Cuts ragged and parched lips,

  Releasing in one collective heave

  The steaming Christian cant

  Nodded to and cheered on by

  The Eternal Prompter,

  Half voyeur, half pornographer,

  Who has all the forgotten clues

  From when this cathedral

  Was the scared rock of the Mother

  And not the Son.

  We entered, yearning through rows

  Of empty pews, yawning

  Like Nubian slaves being baptized

  Dark, sullen and insurrectionary,

  Subversively black,

  They crouch over,

  The white-bleached

  Skeleton of Saint Julio,

  Rattling below in his glass coffin,

  Smothered in decaying blossoms,

  Epibole on rank and startled bones,

  Afire with flickering wax,

  Worshipping but not warming

  As if any fire

  Could quench Sainthood

  Except love and so

  Love entered,

  Splattering boiling blood on chilled sacraments,

 

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