by Mia Ford
“I don’t miss them too much, to be honest,” she says quietly, answering me before I get the chance to change the topic. “When I transferred college, I was near them so I saw them a lot, but it just showed me how much I’ve changed. There’s a distance between us now that we can’t fill in. I still talk to them a lot on the phone, but we barely see one another. It’s okay though, I think it’s a relief for all of us.”
I don’t know what to say to that. I don’t have any experience. Sure, I don’t have a father around but I never did. It was always just my mom and I and we’re so close. Even now after I’ve been away for so long.
“They must be proud of you though, right?”
“I think so.” She offers me a one-shouldered shrug. “I don’t know.”
“Well, my mom thinks your amazing. She’s impressed with how far you have come.”
Her eyes snap around. “You talked to your mom about me?”
“Of course I did.” I grin and she can’t help but smile back. “She loves you, you know that.”
We continue to walk for a while in silence. We don’t really have a plan in mind, we just bought our cakes and started a moon lit walk, but actually it’s the perfect way to end our amazing date. I keep catching glimpses of her out the corner of my eye, and in the pale slithers of light through the dark night, she looks even more beautiful.
“What did you say to your mom about me?” she finally asks, needing to know.
“Just that I’d seen you and that we spent some time together. I didn’t say how we ended up in the same place at the same time though…” Addie shakes her head. I don’t think she wants to think about that because my crazy plan was all too much. “She was glad. She said she likes who I am when I’m with you.”
“I like that too…” Addie stops herself, almost as if she was meant to think that rather than say it aloud. It makes me grin to know that she’s falling for me all over again, getting to the place I have always been.
I can’t help myself. I need to test the waters, to really find out where her head is at. This might be our second date, but it’s just another part in our long history, so I figure it’s alright to say this now.
“You know, my mom always wanted us to end up together.”
“She… she did? She does?” Addie’s a bit shell shocked. Maybe I should stop surprising her so much.
“Yeah. I think she thinks that you’re perfect for me.”
Addie turns to face me in the small alleyway by the park where no one really comes at night. I don’t even know how we ended up here, it just sort of happened as we walked. I see her chest rising and falling rapidly as she eyes me curiously, trying to work something out. “And what do you think?”
There’s no one around us anyway, but even if there was, they would vanish in to nothingness at this moment. It’s only me and Addie, Addie and me, staring into one another’s eyes, trying to work out who’s going to be the first one to break this silence, to say anything about our real feelings.
It’s me, it has to be me. I’m the one who destroyed us, I need to fix us.
“I think so too.” I take a slight step closer to her. “I think we’re meant to be as well.”
“You do?” she whispers imploringly.
“I do. No matter where my life has taken me, it’s always been you for me, and it always will be.”
She stiffens, her shoulders roll up by her ears and I wonder if she’s trying to figure out how much she can trust me. I remain open in my facial expression and body language so she can see that this is all the truth.
“Me too,” she finally admits. “I have always felt the same way.”
Those words are freeing for the pair of us and in the next moment the passion over takes. I grab her, I wrap my fingers up in her hair and push her against the nearest tree, and I claim her with my mouth. She claims me right back, kissing me hard and fast, giving in to everything that she feels inside.
She’s sexy as hell, more of a seductress than anyone who’s ever come after her. There might have been women who seemed sexier on the outside, but Addie’s special sweet way of luring me in is better, so much better. And now she’s kissing me in public like she’s about to jump my bones, and I may well just let her.
“Fuck, Jace,” she groans while tossing her head back in ecstasy as I slowly, almost automatically without giving it too much thought, slide my hands up her legs. Her soft thighs make me melt, and the further up I get, the closer to where I’m desperate to touch her, the more of a puddle I become. “That feels good.”
She parts her legs and I instinctively slide between them, pressing my hardening bulge against her core. My mouth runs up and down her throat, I remember how much this turns her on and I go with that, sucking and nipping at the exposed flesh on her throat, the both of us going crazy.
“We should… we should go back to my place,” Addie pants. “Don’t you think?”
“Hmm, yeah we should,” I groan back but I don’t stop kissing her and she doesn’t stop me either.
Adorable little whimpers come out of her mouth as I run my fingers over the outside of her cotton panties. I used to live for these whimpers, they would get me through any damn day, no matter what was happening. How did it get to the stage where I stopped living for this sound and I started putting other things first?
“Fuck, Jace, this is too much,” she pants. “I need you so badly. I haven’t… had this for a while.”
Ooh, that intrigues me. Is it the right time to ask more? Damn it, I can’t control myself. I slip my eager fingers under the material and find her wet heat before I take the plunge with my question.
“How long? And has anyone ever been as good as me?”
This is a dangerous question, I might not like the answer, and as she tosses her head back so her hair spills down her back and her eyes fall closed, I almost regret saying it. I want to take it back.
“There’s no one,” she finally rasps out. “Only you. Only ever you.”
Only me? Does that mean no one has been as good as me or that there has only ever been me? No, it can’t be that, it’s been six years. She hasn’t kept to herself for all that time…
“I… I couldn’t find anyone like you,” she continues as I circle her clit with my thumb. “So, I’ve been alone.”
Fuck. I don’t know what to say to that so I kiss her harder, I plunge my fingers into her, and I focus solely on her pleasure. My cock stands to attention, straining against my trousers, desperate to break free, but I will have to wait. My cock has been real busy over the last six years; it seems that Addie hasn’t. She deserves this.
“Oh shit.” She clings to me tighter, her fingers digging into my skin, which I know means that she’s close. I move faster, touching her in the way that I know she likes. I’m an expert in her body, and I’m glad that hasn’t changed. “Oh fuck, Jace, you’re… this is too much, we can’t do this.”
But I can tell from her tone of voice that she’s just worried about getting caught, she doesn’t actually want to stop, so since I’m aware that there isn’t anyone around so I continue.
“Oh fuck, fuck…”
Her walls clamp around my fingers and she gets louder by the moment. She’s about to tip over the edge and I can’t wait. I pull back a little to watch her face. I really want to see her when she comes. I love her face contorted in ecstasy, it’s the most stunning sight in the world. And while she’s pressed up against this tree, looking like that in her red dress, I just know it’s going to be incredible…
“Oh wow!”
She screams as she falls into the abyss. She tumbles hard, her body crumbling against me, and I’m in absolute heaven as I watch her. This is the best sight in the whole world. Just her, falling apart, trusting me with her body, with her heart, with her feelings. I might not deserve it but she’s giving it to me anyway.
“Oh my god, Jace,” she laughs weakly as the waves of pleasure stop flowing through her and she collapses into my arms, trying to calm herse
lf down. “What are you doing to me? You’re too much. You make me do things that I normally wouldn’t. You… you change me.”
“I bring you out of your shell, that’s all.”
She slaps me playfully. “There’s bringing me out of my shell and there’s that.” She takes my hand in hers and grins up at me. “Now come on, let’s go back to my place, I need another drink, you crazy bastard.”
She practically drags me, allowing me to walk behind her and watch her ass swing. I want her so badly it hurts, and I might actually be about to get her…
This is one incredible night!
17
ADDISON
We crash through my front door, giggling and kissing passionately. My body aches for him, despite the fact that he just satisfied me in the most phenomenal way possible, I want him again. I want to really feel him inside of me. My hands are all over him, and his are all over me, leaving hot blasts of desire everywhere he grazes.
“Your place… it’s nice,” he gasps out in between kisses. “Really nice. Very white…”
“Er yeah.” I dart my eyes upwards but he distracts me from any explanation for why I haven’t put any effort in to decorating my place. His tongue all over my throat is too much to bear. “It’s okay…”
His hand reaches under my skirt as I fall backwards against the living room wall, and I roll my hips into his palm. I’m pulsing, throbbing, I can’t help myself. I’m spiraling out of control. I’ve shut away this side of my life for far too long, so now he has unleashed the dragon of desire. I don’t know when he’s going to go again so I need to make the most of having him here. I need to have him as many times as I can.
“Oh, Jace,” I murmur, loving the way that his name feels like a prayer on my lips. “Jace.”
He lifts me from the ground as if I’m as light as a feather and I automatically wrap my legs tightly around him. He’s hard. I can feel him pushing against my core, and that just makes me need him more. I can’t seem to stop myself from moaning, half in sheer bliss, half in agony. He’s killing me, this teasing is torture.
He flings me back on the couch and I giggle as I splay out, ready for him. His eyes run up and down me, pausing at the hemline of my skirt which has risen around my waist. My black cotton panties are trying their hardest to lure him in, but he’s got nerves of steel and he’s managing to resist for the time being.
“You have no idea how beautiful you are, Addie. Truly, you’re stunning.”
I could argue with this, since I know that he’s been with a million different women, some of them actual models which could yank my insecurities right out, but there’s something in his eyes that stops me. He really does mean what he’s saying, he truly does view me that way, which makes me feel that way.
“Will you come over here?” I grab his top and drag him towards me. “I need you already.”
He lowers his lips and kisses me gently on the mouth before he rests himself above me. I immediately mold into him, my body remembering exactly what it feels like to have him here. I recall every crevice, every dip, every peak, every muscle… although there are a few new ones, I have to admit, and it’s so natural, the last six years just melt away into nothingness. I’m back to who I used to be.
His fingers edge up towards my panties again, but this time just to peel them off. I shake my hips, edging them down, glad to be rid of them. The less material in between us the better. Then I push up in to a sitting position just to pull my dress up over my head. His eyes flicker over my naked flesh, they hood over with desire, so I reach behind my back and I ping open my bra for him. My breasts heave with each in breath.
“I can’t be here naked, while you’re fully clothed,” I tell him with a smirk. “Take it all off for me.”
I try to strip him, but my hands are shaking violently. I’m trembling all over, needing him, aching for him. Jace can see that so he takes over for me, tugging his top off first, showing me how incredible his body is these days. I knew that he’d become more sculpted, that much was obvious, but seeing it in the flesh is off the scale.
Now, he looks a lot like the sexy rock star he is. It’s easy to forget who he’s become, but now, it’s all about me.
I prop up onto my elbows to watch him, biting down on my bottom lip as he takes his trousers off. Jace sees me watching and he turns it into a bit of a funny show for me, as if he’s one of those male strippers. There isn’t any music playing but he acts like there is, and I can’t stop laughing.
This is what’s so amazing about Jace and me, everything is so much fun. Even the sexy stuff.
“You look good,” I gasp, my eyes widening in surprise as his trousers fall to the floor. His thighs are so thick and muscular; I can’t wait to run my hands all over them. “But don’t forget about the rest.”
“Ooh, you are cheeky, aren’t you?” He winks at me. “I like that about you.”
He shakes his hips and shimmies his underwear down, his cock springing free and I clap my hands to my mouth. Fucking hell, I remember him being big but again, seeing him for real is incredible. I squeeze my thighs together wondering what I’m going to do with him… or more what he’s going to do with me.
“You are just adorable,” he chuckles while tossing his boxers away. “I want you so badly.”
I lay back as he comes to me, and grin as he hands me a small silver square. Protection, yes that’s probably a good idea. We don’t want any little accidents to tie us together when that isn’t really possible. He sits in front of me and smirks while I tear the packet open with my teeth. I keep my eyes locked on his, space dust sparkling in my stomach as he looks at me like he wants to eat me alive. God, I want to be eaten by him.
I wrap the condom over him and roll it down, taking the time to stroke his cock as I do. He’s thick and warm, twitching and ready for me. I love the way he looks in my hand, he makes my fingers appear petite and sweet.
“Oh fuck, Addie,” he rasps, his voice shaking with passion. “You are tearing me apart right now.”
I continue stroking him for a while, loving his expression. His face contorts in deep bliss.
“I… I need you,” he gushes, his hand curling over mine. “I want to be inside you.”
His words work like magic, my fingers unclasp him and fling above my head as I fall back. His hands work their way up my body, as he brings himself down to join me. His cock teases my entrance as he kisses me once more. I part my thighs further, trying to edge him inside, but since Jace is on top, he has full control of me.
“You’re eager,” he says with a smirk. “I always loved that about you.”
I huff and arch my back, glaring at him. “Stop teasing me already, will you?”
He kisses me and slips in between my folds, encasing himself in my wet heat, and the both of us let out noises of sheer bliss. Our bodies are finally connected once more, after all this agonizing time. It feels fucking incredible to be back here. I need him more than I thought it possible.
I wrap my arms around Jace and cling onto his muscular shoulders and back, loving the way that his muscles ripple as he moves. He thrusts slowly at first, reconnecting with my body, but soon the passion gets the better of me and he thrusts hard and fast. His body claps against mine, filling my living room with more noise than it’s had for a very long time. My head spins. Every thrust tips me further over the edge, stars twist and twirl above me. I melt against the couch, my body so free and happy. All the tension from the day dissolves. All the tension from the last six years washes off me too. I exist only in the moment and it’s wonderful.
“Oh fuck.” My toes curl over, my muscles stiffen as I reach my peak. I toss my head back, pressing it further into the couch cushions and I wait. It’s almost as if my body is doing a mental count down, grabbing up every second of this delicious feeling before I fall hard into the abyss. “Oh fuck, Jace… Jace…”
And then I fall. I tumble head first, my body thrashing and writhing as the waves of pleasure wash over me, lapping over
every inch of my skin. It’s hot and blissful, it’s all consuming, I love it.
I love him…
That thought blasts into my brain at the peak of my orgasm, shocking me to the core. I don’t know why it stuns me, I really think I already knew that, but it’s hit me hard. I don’t know what to do…
“Wow.” Jace wraps me up in his arms while we gasp through the post orgasmic bliss. “That was…”
“I know, right.” I force a laugh, trying to forget how much I love him. This is fun, it’s a moment in time, it will end. It will. I can’t get lost in feelings for him.
“Do you remember our plans?” he says in a mooning voice. “For the future? Our cottage by the countryside once I’d made us enough money, and our two children running around our feet.”
“Oh, Lyle and Hannah? Yeah, I remember.”
That was just a fantasy. I didn’t know it then but I know it now which makes it safer to talk about. I wouldn’t be able to if I thought it could be real, but since I’m acutely aware that it won’t, I can play.
“That would have been awesome, wouldn’t it? If we’d done that.”
I stroke my fingers through his dark hair, managing to find a genuine smile. “Yeah, it would have. I have always wanted to live by the ocean, swim every day when it’s hot, spend the summer on the beach…”
“Ooh, I wouldn’t think that anymore, coming from a high powered business woman.”
A warm glow surrounds me. I like that he sees me that way. “I can’t be that forever, can I?”
“I suppose not. You could be a beach bum with the kids, teaching them to surf.”
“Swim with dolphins, grow up to be lifeguards, that sort of thing.”
His hands brush over the bottom of my back, making me shiver. It doesn’t help that I can feel the warmth of the sun radiating over me as if we’re on the beach right now, living the life that we’re talking about. With him and I married, living our fantasy existence. I wish it could really happen. It would be amazing.