Caught On Tape_A Billionaire Bad Boy Romance

by Natalie Knight

  Katherine

  “You’ve gotta be kidding,” Blake tells me, his words filled with frustration.

  I cannot deny it, the painting, even unfinished is amazing.

  The detail sends shivers down my spine. My nipples, I’ve never really studied my nipples as closely as Blake obviously has.

  I’m not sure if it is just me but the longer I look at myself, images of our sexual escapades flash through my mind. Will other people see the sex we’ve had?

  I can almost see Blake caressing gently between my legs, his tongue on my clit and hands on my breasts.

  Sexual desire oozes from the canvass.

  “It’s just too personal,” I turn to Blake who is casually leaning on his workbench, his piercing gaze set on me.

  He tilts his head to the left.

  “Nudes are personal.” Blake says. I see the glint in his eyes and I feel naked even though I’m wearing jeans and a t-shirt.

  ‘You know what I mean.’ I roll my eyes.

  I walk to the canvass and point to my neck.

  “See the way you’ve darkened my skin there ever so slightly?”

  Blake pretends to squint and study the spot I’m pointing to.

  “And?” He looks so innocent, like he truly has no idea what I’m talking about.

  “Well,” I try and work out how to explain this so he understands where I’m coming from. “It’s really personal. A private thing. Only someone who gets really close to me would notice the subtle change in my skin.”

  I fold my arms.

  “What can I say, Kat: you inspire me. You bring out the artist in me. This is you. I’m just the painter.”

  I sigh.

  “No.” I shake my head. “It’s so much more than this.”

  Should I go out on a limb and tell him all? The painting reveals so much about me, about who I really am, but at the same time…

  “It looks like we have had sex. It looks like the artist, you, wants to jump my bones.”

  Blake laughs.

  “So what? I’m not ashamed to admit we are sleeping together.”

  Unable to stand still, I start to pace the length of the studio. I need to move. I need to walk to be able to clearly express my emotions.

  I walk up and down, back and forth. Blake simply watches. He seems confused. He cannot understand where I’m coming from.

  “It’s too personal.” I blurt out again. “I think it’s way too personal to be out on exhibition for the world to see me. I…” I trail off for a moment, and I sigh before continuing. “I know the whole world won’t be looking at me, but you know what I mean.”

  Blake still says nothing. He is looking at me and then back at the painting.

  Eventually he shrugs.

  “I don’t get it. It’s you. All of you. You come through the painting just the way you are.”

  “Exactly.” I’ve stopped pacing. Hands on hips I look at him.

  “Exactly what?”

  The little smile around his lips leaves me confused. Is he trying not to understand or does he really not understand?

  “Anyone that looks at me will see all this sex aura around me.” I try again.

  “What’s wrong with that? You’re perfect.”

  He comes toward me. Next minute I’m in his arms. He kisses my face, neck and arms.

  “You’re delicious. You’re sexy.”

  I push away from him. It’s not that I don’t want him, it’s just my brain shuts down the minute there’s close personal contact between us.

  If I want him to understand how important this is to me I must keep a clear head.

  “But it’s just that the world will see me that way. Complete strangers will drool over me, maybe.”

  Again Blake shrugs.

  “What’s wrong with that?”

  Obviously I’m not getting my point across.

  “I’ve told you before. You inspire me. You inspire this painting. It’s you.”

  “Yeah. But it’s too intimate.”

  I can see Blake study the artwork again, as if being a critique.

  “You write?” His gaze returns to me.

  Since I’m not sure if this is a rhetorical question or not I nod.

  “And isn’t your writing inspired by personal matters, by intimate occasions and maybe even people you meet and fuck?”

  His crudeness surprises me.

  “It does.” I hesitate. “But it’s only words. Words on paper, words people read and re-interpret. Sometimes my experiences and what inspires me is left out so the reader can imagine it using their own experiences and put their own interpretation on it.”

  As Blake seems to ponder my words I try and remember what one of my lecturers said during my studies.

  “Writing is not really original. Everything has been written before.” I pause. There was something about writing being the clashing of words, but I’m not sure if this will add anything. “Every writer is shaped by what has been written by someone else. Writers are readers. When I write, I reinterpret what has been written by someone else.”

  I can see in Blake’s facial expression that he is trying to understand what I’m saying. He isn’t simply dismissing me. Dale used to dismiss me, and what I had to say all the time.

  Suddenly, it seems a lifetime ago that Dale had been my partner. And I cannot recall what I ever saw in the man to make me even want to be with him.

  “And so when people read, they interpret what I’ve written in their own way. It doesn’t have anything to do with what my inspiration and experiences are during the time I am writing it.”

  Blake seems to chew over my words.

  “I still don’t see what’s your problem with the painting. Don’t people also interpret what they see?”

  I laugh and point at myself in the nude, my heart tightening up as my eyes meet my naked curves again.

  “Blake…it’s too personal. It’s intimate,” I repeat for what feels like the hundredth time. “I don’t want everyone to see the true me. You caught a glimpse of that, and you’ve captured it…isn’t that enough?”

  We both say nothing for a few minutes. I can hear the ticking of the clock in the kitchen.

  Eventually it is Blake who breaks the silence first.

  “What are you trying to say, Kat…?”

  He has closed the distance between us and I snuggle into his arms.

  “I don’t want you to put me on display. By ‘me’, I mean the painting.”

  After I utter the last few words, I nuzzle my face into his chest. He smells so delicious. Will he be angry?

  I can feel his lips on the top of my head. He is kissing me.

  “If you don’t want me to display your beauty to the world, so be it.”

  I breathe a sigh of relief.

  “Promise?”

  Now he pulls my face toward his.

  “Promise.” He whispers before his lips meet mine.

  Katherine

  As expected, the Old Pearl has a queue out the front door. If it wasn’t for the fact that I knew one of the owners, Nicole, I would be right outside with about other fifty or so patrons wanting to have lunch here.

  In a matter of weeks, it has become the restaurant in town to be seen at. The food is amazing.

  I check my watch. Five minutes late. Robin was rarely late. She better have a good excuse. I don’t like to impose on others and I know a table is being kept for us.

  To distract myself, I focus on the artwork near the entrance.

  Instantly I compare it to Blake’s work.

  Whoever this artist was, he or she was not a patch on my Blake.

  Oh dear, now I am already thinking of him as mine. He is not mine. Repeat after me, Katherine, I think to myself, he isn’t yours.

  I decide the blues look too artificial. No ocean is that blue. It’s neither pale nor dark. And then there’s the boat. There’s something wrong with the boat. I think it’s out of proportion. Maybe the artist was still learning, a relative of one of the emplo
yees.

  Someone elbows me in the ribs and I check my watch again. Seven minutes late. Robin better have a good excuse.

  My eyes go back to the painting.

  Perspective. I suddenly realize the perspective is what’s wrong with the painting. Just as I formulate the specific problem, my thoughts are interrupted by an extremely unwelcome incident.

  This time someone knocks me so hard in the back I stumble forward a few steps, nearly knocking into one of the waitresses carrying three plates of mouthwatering food.

  Instead of a sorry I hear an ‘oh it’s you.’

  Slowly I turn toward the offender. My heart plummets right into my little toe. What the fuck is Dale doing here and who is the slim, big-busted blonde hanging off his arm?

  For a few seconds we stare at each other.

  I wish for some event to occur that would have me disappear from this space right now. Of course I know this is silly, but it doesn’t stop me from wishing for it to occur. We all sometimes wish for impossible things.

  Where on earth was Robin? What was the point of a best friend when she was not there when you really needed her? I needed her right here, right now.

  “What have we here?” Dale’s unpleasant voice interrupts my thoughts.

  “Hello, Dale,” I say through tight lips. Don’t stoop to his level.

  I notice that the blonde says nothing. Like a well-trained poodle, she keeps her right arm through Dale’s and pretends she notices nothing, eyes directed at something or someone in the restaurant.

  “Already been dumped?”

  The taunt in his voice doesn’t escape me. Despite my best effort not to show any emotion at this tactless remark, my heart feels as if it’s been stabbed by a pointy dagger.

  Instead of giving a reply, I raise my eyebrows so as to convey I don’t know what he is talking about.

  Dale does one of those fake laughs I always hated.

  “You can’t seriously be thinking Blake will stick with you.”

  He emphasizes the ‘you’ in a way that leaves me cringing. I know what he’s going to say, like a captain knows his ship is sinking, or a chef knows his meal is ruined, and yet there’s nothing that can be done about it.

  Again, I curse my bestie for her tardiness. Then I curse myself for having agreed to come to this restaurant of all restaurants.

  “I don’t recall asking you for an opinion.” I finally answer just to say something.

  Another fake laugh from Dale. The poodle glances at me and then goes back to staring straight ahead.

  “Really, Kath. Everyone knows Blake discards his models like other men discard their underwear.”

  I think the analogy is a poor one. I try and remain some kind of composure. I don’t want to lose self-control in public. Not here. Not now.

  “What makes you think I’m sleeping with Blake?”

  I try and sound casual. In reality my heart is beating so wild in my chest I’m surprised others can’t see it. Despite my attempts to protect myself against Dale’s words, they do hit their mark.

  This time Dale leans forward so his face is really close to mine. For the first time I realize how his breath smells like a deceased cat. Had I really once stuck my tongue into that mouth for a kiss? Goosebumps travel up my arms.

  “Come on.. Don’t pretend. Everyone knows Blake fucks all his models.”

  I feel my cheeks redden at his emphasis.

  I resist the temptation to slap him. I force myself to remember how he was having sex with the peroxide woman only a few months ago and here he is with someone different again.

  Desperate. He’s desperate and trying to hurt you, I remind myself.

  “I don’t know where you get your information.” I say as calmly as I can, my insides a battlefield of world war three. I need to keep my emotions under control. “How do you know I’m posing for Blake?”

  As far as I know, no one knows about the painting, particularly since Blake gave me his word it would never be on display.

  “I told you,” Dale has straightened up again. “Blake fucks all his models.”

  I feel a ringing in my ears and the world goes a little out of focus. Don’t take the bait, I remind myself.

  To distract myself I make a fist and dig my fingernails into the palms of my hands until it hurts.

  Searching for something suitable to say, I’m distracted by a commotion behind me.

  The poodle, Dale, and I turn around at the same time.

  No words can express how relieved I am to see my salvation has just arrived.

  Katherine

  “Sorry, sorry!” Robin apologies after almost knocking a waiter down. With her cheeks flushed, she makes her way toward me, and I notice the expression on her face. To say it is dark as storm clouds is an understatement.

  “What are you doing?” She demands, her attention entirely on Dale.

  He raises an eyebrow in pretend shock.

  “I though this is a free country and anyone could eat here. Am I mistaken?”’

  Robin hates pretentious assholes and that is exactly how Dale sounds. I also know she hasn’t forgiven him for cheating on me.

  What’s worse than a best friend out for vengeance? I pity Dale, and my thoughts are racing to come up with a way to diffuse the situation.

  “And I thought assholes were not served at this fine establishment.”

  Dale curls his hand into a fist and takes a step toward Robin.

  “Try it, sunshine, and you’ll be sorry.”

  I’m desperate to come up with something. I hate a scene in public and I don’t want my friend to get hurt. I draw a blank.

  “What are you going to do, shorty? Bite my knee caps?” Dale makes one of his smug smiles that makes you want to punch him right between the eyes.

  Robin straightens her shoulders and stands on her tippy toes.

  “Don’t tempt me.” She hisses at him and Dale laughs a metallic laugh.

  “You’re so short you’ll probably not even reach those.”

  I see Robin take a step toward Dale and it only makes him laugh harder.

  “You know what Dale? I’m just the right height to grab your dick and balls and slice them right off. Your scrotum would make a great accessory for one of those gay guys over on Seventh Avenue.”

  Obviously some of Robin’s words have an impact. Dale has taken a step backward.

  Someone taps me on the shoulder.

  “Your table is ready, Katherine.”

  Relieved, I drag Robin away from the seething Dale.

  As we make our way to our table, I hear Dale say something about no longer wanting to eat at a restaurant that gave their best table to a feral woman and her sidekick.

  No one takes any notice of him. Out of the corner of my eyes I see him leave, the poodle following obediently.

  After I take a sip of the complementary champagne, Robin bombards me with questions.

  “What did Dale say to you? How are things between you and Blake? How’s the painting coming along? Is he really as good in bed as they say he is?”

  As the bubbles dance across my tongue before sliding down my throat, I relax and feel a little better. I managed a chuckle.

  Words, Katherine, they are only words he used, I try and tell myself. It’s not working.

  “Which question do you want me to answer first?”

  Robin rests her head in her hands, elbows on the table.

  “Tell me all about you and that hunk of a man Blake.”

  I’m not sure where to start. It’s a bit public to tell all about the sex we’ve been having. And generally, we don’t really discuss the sex we’ve been having.

  “Why were you late?” I ask to buy a little time.

  I notice how my best friend goes a little red in the face.

  This is unusual.

  “I lost track of time,” she mumbles and picks up her own glass to take a sip of the cool liquid.

  Ever punctual Robin lost track of time? I can’t believe it.


  “You never,” I start, but she interrupts me.

  “Just tell me about you and Blake.”

  I make a mental note to interrogate her further about this allegation of losing track of time, but oblige her request and start talking about Blake.

  “You know,” I take another sip of my drink. “He’s really a brilliant artist. He captures his subjects in the perfect way. Colors perform the way he wants them to.”

  Robin is grinning.

  I stop talking.

  “What?” I don’t recall having said anything amusing.

  “You’re in love.”

  “Am not.” I protest and am pleased a waiter is bringing our entre.

  I take a forkful of steamed fish, which melts in my mouth. Delicious.

  “Do you make the same sound when he kisses you?”

  “Stop it.” I growl at my best friend.

  “Oh Blake don’t stop, please give me more.” Robin coos and we both laugh.

  “Stop it. You’re so cruel. We’re just–” I stop midsentence. I realize I’m not sure exactly what we are.

  “You’re in love with Blake.” Robin shrugs. –And who can blame you. I mean he looks the complete package. God-like. Unlike Dale, who is a poor excuse for a man.”

  I’m tempted to defend Dale out of habit, but then I recall his words from earlier and stop myself.

  “What’s wrong?” Robin asks.

  “Nothing.”

  “Come now Kath, it’s me Robin, your best friend not some stranger.”

  I sigh. She has a point.

  “It’s just Dale said Blake discards his models like other men discard their underwear. And,” I hesitated; “and I think I do really like him.”

  There I’ve said it. It is out in the open.

  “For starters, what does it matter what loser Dale has to say? Second you’re in love with Blake. And third, how do you know he does not feel the same way about you?’

  “I don’t.”

  She points her fork at me.

  “See what I mean? From the way you’ve described the painting, he’s done it for you as a work of love. Not to mention, he gave a promise he not to display it. I’d say he’s got feelings for you. I’d say Blake’s in love with you.”

  I shake my head. I wish I could be that confident. Dale’s words bounce around my head like an out of control basketball: everyone knows he fucks all his models and discards them once he’s painted them.