"'It is critical that corrections and reconnections be made,” Shadow insisted.
"Do we humans know how to correct the circuitry?" I asked.
“‘No, in fact, most are no longer aware of the problems. Some information is known, but not enough in humankind to address the crippling and restore the original circuitry. There is still much more than the original DNA and wiring to be explained when someone is asking for the information,' was Shadow's reply.
"Then, how can we do it?”
“‘Begin with what you know and when you need more information, ask us. Don't stop asking questions. Remember your assignment,' was Shadow's advice.
And then I asked, "If we get the bodysuit corrected will Earth's problems end?”
"I guess Shadow has a sense of humor because I heard a faint chuckle.
'Well, we all wish it were that easy, but unfortunately, the problems have been around a very long time, and the effects from them have crystallized through many Earth systems. But correcting the circuitry is a critical piece, especially when the knowledge of Original agenda and purpose for this planet is added,' was the answer.
"Piece, you mean there is more?'
“‘Oh, yes,' Shadows words came with certainty.
"Tell, me about it; I need to know as much as I can about what we are dealing with.
"I heard Shadow chuckle, 'Sounds like the Dana I know.'
"That's when the next vision opened up in my head. When the images began, I lay down under the willows and pulled my bundle to pillow my head. I worried for a minute that I would be asked by the police to move on, but that thought vanished, and I watched the story unfold.
"I recognized myself. I was floating above a home; it looked like very, very long ago. The woman was pregnant, and somehow I knew I was the intended baby. She was to be my mother. She was young, alone in the single-roomed home. The conditions were very meager. It was immaculate, and she seemed so happy about carrying me. I could hear her singing, and talking to me. Being near her, I felt loved and peaceful.
"Then I was in another place. I had a feeling it was a Spiritual home. I was discussing plans for my birth; what I was to remember, others in physical bodies from this Home with whom I was to connect for this mission, how I would recognize them and more.
"I knew that I could be gone a long time. I was told that there would be difficulties, and yet I was in an environment of such love, empowerment, and joy. I can't put it into our words. I understood and accepted that this mission to the Earth would be hard, but in that space of love, there was no way I could understand the difficulty."
Pam looked at Rory, questioning her ability to explain and his ability to understand.
He nodded and seemed to comprehend.
"I guess this was a final review before my birth onto the Earth planet because then I began to feel drawn back to the home of the young mother.
"This time, as I moved toward Earth, I sensed a great Light. I was not alone. Amazing love from my real home filled my heart. It was very much like the time I felt washed over like a watercolor canvas. As I moved toward the physical sphere, I sensed what appeared to be a dense cloud. Several other – friends- were focusing in around me as I moved. Although my friends were there, the denseness began to cut off my sense of their presence."
Pam was aware that she did not want to mention Jerra. Jerra, her most profound love and the holder of the vision. Where was he and how could she ever find him? The memory of him was her thread of connection to love and yet at times, that memory engendered her greatest pain. She stopped her mind wandering and brought her focus back to Rory.
"I cannot tell you the panic I felt as an unseen force drew me through that dark, heavy space; the shock from Earth's density; and the pain of physical birthing into the body.”
"As I relived this birth experience, I could understand why I have been angry at what I call "God." Even though all of the help from the lighter vibrational realms was available, that dense cloud of negative energy around and on the Earth made me feel cut off from them. I eventually made up stories; I have been abandoned on a dead planet, something is wrong with me, just survive and never come back here. I know others have had similar feelings. Some of the people on the streets talk of being angry, lost, and helpless. I felt like something strong and powerful had put me in situations from which I could not escape.”
"And so what had you learned by the time you were in the vision of your birth?" Rory asked.
"Well, several things like the sense of love and caring that flowed through me. I had to ask and find answers for myself. I am not alone." Pam replied. “But I wanted more. My conversations with Shadow continued over the next four years. Eventually, I was shown the beginning of the distorted energy we call "fear." I learned that we, as one family group, wanted to experience chaos frequencies. We created and inserted a chip into our flow from source that would cause distorted frequencies. When we were ready, we reconfigured our numerical formula with numbers that would occasionally allow chip vibrations. Whenever the numbers lined up, spontaneous chaos vibrations shifted us from stable to non-stable. We introduced the chip with the intention that we would shortly end the experiment. Instead, we got stuck. Now we call the stable and non-stable frequencies love and fear. We accept them as necessary and our nature. Not true, by the way.”
"It was our vulnerability during the periods of instability that allowed great parasitic invasions.”
“So, I understood that after establishing a way to access resources, the original Earth mission force's purpose was to identify anything that would diminish life or limit our abilities. “The Ancient Ones were to stay in resonance with their Divine nature of love, joy, self-valuing, and curiosity, the natural expressions of the Galactic families and Divine Home. From that place, they were to rid all energy of Outsiders and any expressions of their parasitic agendas.
I learned that those who first came to the planet were well prepared. The original design for the Earth bodysuit worked well. As the first assignment for the Ancient Ones on the mission was for those in Male suits to hold space, anchor energy from home, and support the Females in exploring the planet. Those in Male suits retained constant contact with the teams in the unseen worlds you would call Spirit. Holding space, sitting in the quiet, anchoring the energy of the Sun was their initial task. Those Souls were in the Male body were known by the Outsider forces. On the Outsider's monitoring devices, it appeared as if the Males were alone and doing nothing. It had been planned that way; a distraction from the work of the Female. Working with the Energy of the Gaia, Females were to anchor to the Earth, discover how this planet functioned, determine suitable places to settle, and develop food sources. Those in Female suits had greater access to Mother Earth because they were unseen on the parasitic monitoring devices. In this intentional invisibility, Females could design, create, and choose agendas for mission force to thrive. There were no plans for birthing to bring more volunteers. The number of Ancient Ones remained limited and consistent.”
"So everything was going well. Everything began to change shortly after the activation of Female's primary mission, the assignment to discern and remove the constricting Outsider parasitic presence.”
"After the Female and her presence was discovered the circuitry of every physical body suit was crippled. The intended communication systems were overlaid with Outsider's mechanism, and eventually, Our Divine planned body's blueprint design was replaced with the entrapping systems of the parasitic worlds.”
“Some think that Earth is a planet for learning lessons. What I was taught is that if there are lessons to be learned on Earth, it is that we are amazing, intelligent, loving beings and anything that diminishes our experience of ourselves as such, does not belong here. I also learned that all of the crippling must be transformed, all of our reasons for limit must be dissolved and that we are the ones to choose a new life and a new world.”
“Just as important, I knew that humanity, the mission volunteers, are
not here alone. We did not intend to walk this journey using only information physically discerned or abilities socially taught. There is immense help available in the unseen worlds. There are massive mission force collaborative in place to help Earth and her inhabitants to correct and transform all that has held them stuck. We are all on this mission together. Those in unseen bodies and worlds must have our help, and we cannot accomplish the goal of Sovereignty without them.”
"The value of the physical manifestations that come as imbalance, limits, or disease is that they will cause pain. The message in pain is that imprints, old patterns, parasitic constructs are in our energy fields and do not reflect our truth. The voice of those in physical bodies has the authority to name such manifestations as "NOT Acceptable here.” Then, those on the Earth and in Spiritual realms committed to restoring Earth and her inhabitants to the Light of Divine Wholeness that we call Love can take action."
OUTSIDER DOMINATION
50,000 years ago -Cro-Magnon
As Eve listened, the stranger acted as if he were the master of the Garden. How absurd, she thought. She looked over at Adam. He seemed as if he were in a trance. What was happening? She held tightly to Adam’s hand, but there was no reassuring response.
Eve heard snatches of words. “… You cannot taste that tree” … “not yours to experience” …”you cannot know what is good and evil.” "...only gods can know of the good and evil."
What did he mean? She had tasted. Of course, she could tell the difference. She had felt the joy, the excitement of some forms and the constrictions and shutting down of her breath at the taste of others. Even now, in this energy, she was having a hard time staying focused.
What was that he said? “… Have to leave… earn sustenance through sweat and hard work… no longer create effortlessly…”
Eve felt a bit weak, but Adam was unresponsive, frozen in place. She reached out to hold onto him. Whatever they must face, they would do it together. She thought that she was strong, but she was not strong enough yet for this energy. She would stay close to Adam, continue to learn from her teacher and when she was ready, she would do what was needed.
The words “…cannot know… creations through pain...” echoed in her mind as she and Adam moved away from their beautiful home.
CHAPTER 14
Making Changes
Gerri thought about the last month. Her pain had brought Rory into her life. His presence and support gave her a sense of safety that allowed her to move forward. She had decided to lock the door on people. Rory had understood her sensitivity and helped her reframe its value and to be open to skills to cope what she sensed. At times, he seemed to know what she needed before she did. Through his encouragement, she was learning to pay more attention to her feelings and thoughts.
She felt his love for her. With him, she had felt safe enough to share some of her ideas, her dreams, and her fears. It was as if she was awakening from a long sleep, but a sleep in which she had walked, talked, and eaten but was not present. She still had memories, pain, and anger with which to deal; there were definitely legal matters ahead, but she was no longer in her cave, alone.
For Rory, his meeting and times spent with Gerri were challenging him in many ways. Her encounter with Dean in the hospital had cracked open a wound she had seemingly sealed long ago. He did not understand why the memory of that event was there for him also. However, Rory was so thankful he had been there and marveled at how the timing had just "happened." Gerri was not back on top by any means, but she was out of the hospital with support to rebuild. Rory marveled that she had come into his life and surprised at his gratitude in being there for her.
Rory had seen what the normal healing course of such a traumatic experience could be. He knew it could be some time before she felt stable and safe. But then again, he had listened and watched Pam very closely. The scars, cycles, and patterns he would expect from traumatic experiences such as hers were not there. He knew that somehow Pam had managed deep healing. Her thoughts and behaviors were what some clients were beginning to reach only after many years of committed work. He wondered if Pam's insights could help Gerri to heal more deeply.
He approached Pam that evening.
"Pam, what effect has this information had on your life?" Rory began, "I’m wondering about observable, concrete changes for the better."
Pam leaned back in his office chair and thought for a minute.
"Well, at first the information allowed me to look at myself, my life and past with less judgmental eyes. That was helpful because, with different eyes, some of my anger dissipated."
Pam was silent again before she continued. "My life began to have a purpose. I was no longer just struggling to get through a day or to survive another night. Asking questions of Shadow was almost like being in school. I looked forward to the stimulation I felt with the new ideas.
"As I felt less discouraged and was less weighed down with anger, I felt hope again, and I began to believe that my life could change. But, you're right in asking about concrete changes. That's what I wanted. I wanted to move out of this cycle of poverty, non-identity, and non-value.
"Thanks to my new understanding of the realm of the unseen, I knew I had a lot of Spiritual help and what I eventually asked Shadow was, 'How can I change my life, my physical situations?'
"I had experienced that sense of light and what I called love. That gave me a marker which made me more aware of the despondency I had often felt. I decided I no longer wanted to live in that darkness. My choice was to know the way to a life of joy and peace. Am I anywhere close to beginning to answer your question?"
"Yes. I am working out some ideas in relation to what I, as a counselor, would expect to see in similar situations," was Rory's comment.
"Pam continued, "At first, I was constantly aware of the crisis my life had become. However, every time I felt the heaviness, which was almost all the time for a while, I would turn to Shadow, and I would learn more and apply the ideas. With sensitivity to the unwanted feelings or situations, I would then make specific requests that allowed those in Spirit to eliminate the cause. It was as if I were being freed from thousands and thousands of single strands of ropes, I or someone had put around myself. Eventually, peace was there about 50% of the time.”
"And then Shadow and the Spiritual healers started to teach me about masks and wounded inner parts. Increasingly, I felt more powerful, able to understand the message in the pain and release the seed imprint. I learned that pain pointed to a problem imprint. It was a message giver. I began to appreciate the process. Because I had a way to understand quickly, pain rarely escalated, and in fact, lessened.”
"In the last year and a half, my situation on the streets changed dramatically. With the answers from Shadow and using this planet's law of free agency, I took the reins of my run-away life back into my hands. Eventually, I found myself here.”
"I know that being led to the Center and meeting, you were moving toward more positive life changes. Just like the previous steps, this came just I most needed another one." Pam sat back and sighed relief at the telling.
"You said you had not shared this information with anyone else?" Rory commented.
"That's right. I have used myself as the guinea pig. However, using what I learned, I would sometimes extend what I called Spiritual healing to others."
"I don't really understand what you mean by that." Rory probed.
"Well, I discovered that Shadow was not the only friend I had in the unseen worlds. I soon had a group of healers who worked with me to dissolve my dense energy and anchor changes in my thought patterns. When I was in shelters or food lines, the frustration, anger, and hopelessness were all around me. The energy pressed in and was very uncomfortable. Can you imagine the emotional situation?"
"Yes, I can imagine," responded Rory.
"Well, I was becoming more and more sensitive to the heaviness of other's vibrations and was no longer numb as I had been.”
"I asked Sh
adow and my teachers how I could feel more peaceful in those situations and also be helpful to those around me. I was told that I could ask that the energy fields of others be cleared of the negative vibrations that surrounded them. My guides reminded me that each has unseen guides who are moving with her or him through life. Those caught up in their own imbalanced, negative situations were often overwhelmed and unaware of the presence of that help. The guides of others would hear my request for transforming the heaviness. Then, because someone in a physical body had asked, they could do what was needed for that person.”
"And so, based on the work that had been necessary for me, I made requests for those in the lines, at the shelters or in the streets. By asking, specific actions could be taken by their guides to lift the density for them. The energy around all of us became less heavy; I called it a healing by Spirit or Spiritual healing."
"Oh, I see now," Rory, said.
"Well," he paused to decide what he would say. Gerri was on his mind, she wasn't a client and yet what should he say. He decided that he would stay vague and yet indicate what intrigued him with Pam.
"The reason I am asking these questions is that I am choosing to explore ideas beyond those in my professional world. Also, I have a friend who has hit a rather big wall. I'd like to see her walk away from it more comfortably and quickly than is normally the case."
Pam closed her eyes. A shock wave rushed through her heart, and the hair on her arms stood on end.
"She was raped, wasn't she?"
"Yes," Rory remarked. "How did you know?"
"I just know. I am here because she needs me. I don't know what that means, but that is what I hear inside."
That evening, after his talk with Pam, Rory decided to try something that she had shared with him, the power of request to the unseen world of healers. He would turn his desire that Pam helps Gerri over to Spirit, those higher vibrational beings of which Pam spoke. If there were truth in her words and if beings that he could not see thought Gerri could benefit, they would bring Pam and Gerri together. Such is the laboratory of life. Try on a concept, make a choice and then see the consequences. He felt this move fit within his criteria; there was no harm possible in this idea.
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