The Pirate Story Megapack: 25 Classic and Modern Tales

by Robert E. Howard

  “’Tis no folly. I have left him of my own free will, and shall never go back to him. For he’s no more my husband than that house is mine” (pointing to the Court), “Both were got by the same means, and both are lost.”

  Then briefly she told how they had been turned from the gate by Peter, and how Mr. Godwin was now as poor and homeless as we. And this news throwing us into a silence with new bewilderment, she asks us simply whither we are going.

  “My poor Moll!” is all the answer Dawson can make, and that in a broken, trembling voice.

  “’Tis no good to cry,” says she, dashing aside her tears that had sprung at this word of loving sympathy, and forcing herself to a more cheerful tone. “Why, let us think that we are just awake from a long sleep to find ourselves no worse off than when we fell a-dreaming. Nay, not so ill,” adds she, “for you have a home near London. Take me there, dear.”

  “With all my heart, chuck,” answers her father, eagerly. “There, at least, I can give you a shelter till your husband can offer better.”

  She would not dispute this point (though I perceived clearly her mind was resolved fully never to claim her right to Mr. Godwin’s roof), but only begged we should hasten on our way, saying she felt chilled; and in passing Mother Fitch’s cottage she constrained us to silence and caution; then when we were safely past she would have us run, still feigning to be cold, but in truth (as I think) to avoid being overtaken by Mr. Godwin, fearing, maybe, that he would overrule her will. This way we sped till Moll was fain to stop with a little cry of pain, and clapping her hand to her heart, being fairly spent and out of breath. Then we took her betwixt us, lending her our arms for support, and falling into a more regular pace made good progress. We trudged on till we reached Croydon without any accident, save that at one point, Moll’s step faltering and she with a faint sob weighing heavily upon our arms, we stopped, as thinking her strength overtaxed, and then glancing about me I perceived we were upon that little bridge where we had overtaken Mr. Godwin and he had offered to make Moll his wife. Then I knew ’twas not fatigue that weighed her down, and gauging her feelings by my own remorse, I pitied this poor wife even more than I blamed myself; for had she revealed herself to him at that time, though he might have shrunk from marriage, he must have loved her still, and so she had been spared this shame and hopeless sorrow.

  At Croydon we overtook a carrier on his way to London for the Saturday market, who for a couple of shillings gave us a place in his waggon with some good bundles of hay for a seat, and here was rest for our tired bodies (though little for our tormented minds) till we reached Marsh End, where we were set down; and so, the ground being hard with frost, across the Marsh to Greenwich about daybreak. Having the key of his workshop with him, Dawson took us into his lodgings without disturbing the other inmates of the house (who might well have marvelled to see us enter at this hour with a woman in a man’s cloak, and no covering but a handkerchief to her head), and Moll taking his bed, we disposed ourselves on some shavings in his shop to get a little sleep.

  Dawson was already risen when I awoke, and going into his little parlour, I found him mighty busy setting the place in order, which was in a sad bachelor’s pickle, to be sure—all littered up with odds and ends of turning, unwashed plates, broken victuals, etc., just as he had left it.

  “She’s asleep,” says he, in a whisper. “And I’d have this room like a little palace against she comes into it, so do you lend me a hand, Kit, and make no more noise than you can help. The kitchen’s through that door; carry everything in there, and what’s of no use fling out of the window into the road.”

  Setting to with a will, we got the parlour and kitchen neat and proper, plates washed, tiles wiped, pots and pans hung up, furniture furbished up, and everything in its place in no time; then leaving me to light a fire in the parlour, Dawson goes forth a-marketing, with a basket on his arm, in high glee. And truly to see the pleasure in his face later on, making a mess of bread and milk in one pipkin and cooking eggs in another (for now we heard Moll stirring in her chamber), one would have thought that this was an occasion for rejoicing rather than grief, and this was due not to want of kind feeling, but to the fond, simple nature of him, he being manly enough in some ways, but a very child in others. He did never see further than his nose (as one says), and because it gave him joy to have Moll beside him once more, he must needs think hopefully, that she will quickly recover from this reverse of fortune, and that all will come right again.

  Our dear Moll did nothing to damp his hopes, but played her part bravely and well to spare him the anguish of remorse that secretly wrung her own heart. She met us with a cheerful countenance, admired the neatness of the parlour, the glowing fire, ate her share of porridge, and finding the eggs cooked hard, declared she could not abide them soft. Then she would see her father work his lathe (to his great delight), and begged he would make her some cups for eggs, as being more to our present fashion than eating them from one’s hand.

  “Why,” says he, “there’s an old bed-post in the corner that will serve me to a nicety. But first I must see our landlord and engage a room for Kit and me; for I take it, my dear,” adds he, “you will be content to stay with us here.”

  “Yes,” answers she, “’tis a most cheerful view of the river from the windows.”

  She tucked up her skirt and sleeves to busy herself in household matters, and when I would have relieved her of this office, she begged me to go and bear her father company, saying with a piteous look in her eyes that we must leave her some occupation or she should weary. She was pale, there were dark lines beneath her eyes, and she was silent; but I saw no outward sign of grief till the afternoon, when, coming from Jack’s shop unexpected, I spied her sitting by the window, with her face in her hands, bowed over a piece of cloth we had bought in the morning, which she was about to fashion into a plain gown, as being more suitable to her condition than the rich dress in which she had left the Court.

  “Poor soul!” thinks I; “here is a sad awaking from thy dream of riches and joy.”

  Upon a seasonable occasion I told Dawson we must soon begin to think of doing something for a livelihood—a matter which was as remote from his consideration as the day of wrath.

  “Why, Kit,” says he, “I’ve as good as fifty pounds yet in a hole at the chimney back.”

  “Aye, but when that’s gone—” says I.

  “That’s a good way hence, Kit, but there never was such a man as you for going forth to meet troubles half way. However, I warrant I shall find some jobs of carpentry to keep us from begging our bread when the pinch comes.”

  Not content to wait for this pinch, I resolved I would go into the city and enquire there if the booksellers could give me any employment —thinking I might very well write some good sermons on honesty, now I had learnt the folly of roguery. Hearing of my purpose the morning I was about to go, Moll takes me aside and asks me in a quavering voice if I knew where Mr. Godwin might be found. This question staggered me a moment, for her husband’s name had not been spoken by any of us since the catastrophe, and it came into my mind now that she designed to return to him, and I stammered out some foolish hint at Hurst Court.

  “No, he is not there,” says he, “but I thought maybe that Sir Peter Lely—”

  “Aye,” says I; “he will most likely know where Mr. Godwin may be found.”

  “Can you tell me where Sir Peter lives?”

  “No; but I can learn easily when I am in the city.”

  “If you can, write the address and send him this,” says she, drawing a letter from her breast. She had writ her husband’s name on it, and now she pressed her lips to it twice, and putting the warm letter in my hand, she turned away, her poor mouth twitching with smothered grief. I knew then that there was no thought in her mind of seeing her husband again.

  I carried the letter with me to the city, wondering what was in it. I know not now, yet I think it contained but a few words of explanation and farewell, with some pray
er, maybe, that she might be forgiven and forgotten.

  Learning where Sir Peter Lely lived, I myself went to his house, and he not being at home, I asked his servant if Mr. Godwin did sometimes come there.

  “Why, yes, sir, he was here but yesterday,” answers he. “Indeed, never a day passes but he calls to ask if any one hath sought him.”

  “In that case,” says I, slipping a piece in his ready hand, and fetching out Moll’s letter, “you will give him this when he comes next.”

  “That I will, sir, and without fail. But if you would see him, sir, he bids me say he is ever at his lodging in Holborn, from five in the evening to eight in the morning.”

  “’Twill answer all ends if you give him that letter. He is in good health, I hope.”

  “Well, sir, he is and he isn’t, as you may say,” answers he, dropping into a familiar, confidential tone after casting his eye over me to be sure I was no great person. “He ails nothing, to be sure, for I hear he is ever afoot from morn till even a-searching hither and thither; but a more downhearted, rueful looking gentleman for his age I never see. ’Twixt you and me, sir, I think he hath lost his sweetheart, seeing I am charged, with Sir Peter’s permission, to follow and not lose sight of any lady who may chance to call here for him.”

  I walked back to Greenwich across the fields, debating in my mind whether I should tell Moll of her husband’s distress or not, so perplexed with conflicting arguments that I had come to no decision when I reached home.

  Moll spying me coming, from her window in the front of the house, met me at the door, in her cloak and hood, and begged I would take her a little turn over the heath.

  “What have you to tell me?” asks she, pressing my arm as we walked on.

  “I have given your letter to Sir Peter Lely’s servant, who promises to deliver it faithfully to your husband.”

  “Well,” says she, after a little pause of silence, “that is not all.”

  “You will be glad to know that he is well in health,” says I, and then I stop again, all hanging in a hedge for not knowing whether it were wiser to speak or hold my tongue.

  “There is something else. I see it in your face. Hide nothing from me for love’s sake,” says she, piteously. Whereupon, my heart getting the better of my head (which, to be sure, was no great achievement), I told all as I have set it down here.

  “My dear, dear love! my darling Dick!” says she, in the end. And then she would have it told all over again, with a thousand questions, to draw forth more; and these being exhausted, she asks why I would have concealed so much from her, and if I did fear she would seek him.

  “Nay, my dear,” says I; “’tis t’other way about. For if your husband does forgive you, and yearns but to take you back into his arms, it would be an unnatural, cruel thing to keep you apart. Therefore, to confess the whole truth, I did meditate going to him and showing how we and not you are to blame in this matter, and then telling him where he might find you, if on reflection he felt that he could honestly hold you guiltless. But ere I do that (as I see now), I must know if you are willing to this accommodation; for if you are not, then are our wounds all opened afresh to no purpose, but to retard their healing.”

  She made no reply nor any comment for a long time, nor did I seek to bias her judgment by a single word (doubting my wisdom). But I perceived by the quivering of her arm within mine that a terrible conflict ’twixt passion and principle was convulsing every fibre of her being. At the top of the hill above Greenwich she stopped, and, throwing back her hood, let the keen wind blow upon her face, as she gazed over the grey flats beyond the river. And the air seeming to give her strength and a clearer perception, she says, presently:

  “Accommodation!” (And she repeats this unlucky word of mine twice or thrice, as if she liked it less each time.) “That means we shall agree to let bygones be bygones, and do our best to get along together for the rest of our lives as easily as we may.”

  “That’s it, my dear,” says I, cheerfully.

  “Hush up the past,” continues she, in the same calculating tone; “conceal it from the world, if possible. Invent some new lie to deceive the curious, and hoodwink our decent friends. Chuckle at our success, and come in time” (here she paused a moment) “to ‘chat so lightly of our past knavery, that we could wish we had gone farther in the business.’” Then turning about to me, she asks: “If you were writing the story of my life for a play, would you end it thus?”

  “My dear,” says I, “a play’s one thing, real life’s another; and believe me, as far as my experience goes of real life, the less heroics there are in it the better parts are those for the actors in’t.”

  She shook her head fiercely in the wind, and, turning about with a brusque vigour, cries, “Come on. I’ll have no accommodation. And yet,” says she, stopping short after a couple of hasty steps, and with a fervent earnestness in her voice, “and yet, if I could wipe out this stain, if by any act I could redeem my fault, God knows, I’d do it, cost what it might, to be honoured once again by my dear Dick.”

  “This comes of living in a theatre all her life,” thinks I. And indeed, in this, as in other matters yet to be told, the teaching of the stage was but too evident.

  CHAPTER XXXIV.

  All agree to go out to Spain again in search of our old jollity.

  Another week passed by, and then Dawson, shortsighted as he was in his selfishness, began to perceive that things were not coming all right, as he had expected. Once or twice when I went into his shop, I caught him sitting idle before his lathe, with a most woe-begone look in his face.

  “What’s amiss, Jack?” asks I, one day when I found him thus.

  He looked to see that the door was shut, and then says he, gloomily:

  “She don’t sing as she used to, Kit; she don’t laugh hearty.”

  I hunched my shoulders.

  “She doesn’t play us any of her old pranks,” continues he. “She don’t say one thing and go and do t’other the next moment, as she used to do. She’s too good.”

  What could I say to one who was fond enough to think that the summer would come back at his wish and last for ever?

  “She’s not the same, Kit,” he goes on. “No, not by twenty years. One would say she is older than I am, yet she’s scarce the age of woman. And I do see she gets more pale and thin each day. D’ye think she’s fretting for him?”

  “Like enough, Jack,” says I. “What would you? He’s her husband, and ’tis as if he was dead to her. She cannot be a maid again. ’Tis young to be a widow, and no hope of being wife ever more.”

  “God forgive me,” says he, hanging his head.

  “We did it for the best,” says I. “We could not foresee this.”

  “’Twas so natural to think we should be happy again being all together. Howsoever,” adds he, straightening himself with a more manful vigour, “we will do something to chase these black dogs hence.”

  On his lathe was the egg cup he had been turning for Moll; he snapped it off from the chuck and flung it in the litter of chips and shavings, as if ’twere the emblem of his past folly.

  It so happened that night that Moll could eat no supper, pleading for her excuse that she felt sick.

  “What is it, chuck?” says Jack, setting down his knife and drawing his chair beside Moll’s.

  “The vapours, I think,” says she, with a faint smile.

  “Nay,” says he, slipping his arm about her waist and drawing her to him. “My Moll hath no such modish humours. ’Tis something else. I have watched ye, and do perceive you eat less and less. Tell us what ails you.”

  “Well, dear,” says she, “I do believe ’tis idleness is the root of my disorder.”

  “Idleness was never wont to have this effect on you.”

  “But it does now that I am grown older. There’s not enough to do. If I could find some occupation for my thoughts, I should not be so silly.”

  “Why, that’s a good thought. What say you, dear, shall we go a-p
lay-acting again?”

  Moll shook her head.

  “To be sure,” says he, scratching his jaw, “we come out of that business with no great encouragement to go further in it. But times are mended since then, and I do hear the world is more mad for diversion now than ever they were before the Plague.”

  “No, dear,” says Moll, “’tis of no use to think of that I couldn’t play now.”

  After this we sat silent awhile, looking into the embers; then Jack, first to give expression to his thoughts, says:

  “I think you were never so happy in your life, Moll, as that time we were in Spain, nor can I recollect ever feeling so free from care myself—after we got out of the hands of that gentleman robber. There’s a sort of infectious brightness in the sun, and the winds, blow which way they may, do chase away dull thoughts and dispose one to jollity; eh, sweetheart? Why, we met never a tattered vagabond on the road but he was halloing of ditties, and a kinder, more hospitable set of people never lived. With a couple of rials in your pocket, you feel as rich and independent as with an hundred pounds in your hand elsewhere.”

  At this point Moll, who had hitherto listened in apathy to these eulogies, suddenly pushing back her chair, looks at us with a strange look in her eyes, and says under her breath, “Elche!”

  “Barcelony for my money,” responds Dawson, whose memories of Elche were not so cheerful as of those parts where we had led a more vagabond life.

  “Elche!” repeats Moll, twining her fingers, and with a smile gleaming in her eyes.

  “Does it please you, chuck, to talk of these matters?”

  “Yes, yes!” returns she, eagerly. “You know not the joy it gives me” (clapping her hand on her heart). “Talk on.”

  Mightily pleased with himself, her father goes over our past adventures—the tricks Moll played us, as buying of her petticoat while we were hunting for her, our excellent entertainment in the mountain villages, our lying abed all one day, and waking at sundown to think it was daybreak, our lazy days and jovial nights, etc., at great length; and when his memory began to give out, giving me a kick of the shin, he says: