Witness of Gor

by John Norman

  "To make a wig for a free woman," speculated one.

  "But I am a free woman!" said the free woman.

  "They could even certify it honestly as the hair of a free woman, and then brand you a moment later."

  "Brand me?" asked the free woman, weakly.

  "Surely you do not expect not to be branded and collared?" said the second girl.

  Most of the hairpieces, and wigs, and such, affected by free women are certified as being from the hair of free women. Most on the other hand, I am reasonably confident, are from the hair of slaves.

  "They might also use it for catapult cordage," said one of the girls.

  The free woman shuddered.

  Anything, of course, could be done with her. She was now, for all practical purposes, though her body had not yet been marked, the property of masters.

  I touched my own hair, nervously. I, too, of course, could be shorn. Some masters harvest the hair of their slaves every two or three years, understanding this, I suppose, as a part of the productivity of the slave. To be sure, most Gorean masters like long hair on their slaves, and pleasure slaves are seldom shorn, except as a punishment or discipline. Some girls do have their hair cropped, for example, such as might work in the factories, the laundries, and such. Too, girls transported in slave ships are commonly shaved completely, to protect them from vermin below decks. It is not unknown for shorter-haired slaves to ascend the blocks, slaves whose hair, for one reason or another, has been cut short, but they are the exception. Also, they are usually low girls, stable slaves, field slaves, kettle-and-mat girls and such.

  "Farewell, girl," said one of the two slaves.

  "Farewell, girl," said the other.

  They then left.

  I alone, of the original group, was now with the free woman.

  That I had lingered would, I supposed, suggest to the free woman that I might have done so for a purpose. To be sure, this was true. But it was not for any purpose which she was likely to suppose.

  The information I wished I could not well obtain from either a free person, without great risk, or, indeed, from a slave either, for they would presume that anything so obvious must either be known to me or for some reason forbidden to me. They would not wish to risk telling me what I wished to know. What if the masters should find out? Curiosity, I recalled, was supposedly not becoming in a kajira. Yet we are, I suspect, among the most inquisitive of creatures.

  "You dally, slave," said the free woman.

  I shrugged.

  "Perhaps you enjoy seeing free women in coffle, stripped and shackled," she said.

  "It is where they belong," I said.

  "Had I my whip," she said, "I would make you rue that remark!"

  "That would not make it less true," I said.

  She cried out with rage.

  "It is no longer yours to hold the whip," I said. "It is now in the hands of others."

  She jerked at the shackles, angrily.

  "Did you used to whip slaves?" I asked.

  "Yes!" she said.

  "It is now you who must fear the whip," I said.

  She looked up at me.

  "It is such that it may now be used upon you," I said. "It will be interesting to see how you like it."

  She looked down. She shuddered. "I do not want to be whipped," she said.

  "Please the masters," I said.

  "They would not give me water, unless I said 'Sir' to them," she said, wonderingly.

  "Yes," I said. That seemed like a small enough thing to me.

  "I have never before in my life addressed men in such a way," she said.

  "With respect?" I asked.

  "Yes," she said. "I have strange feelings," she said, "when I address men in that fashion."

  "Such feelings are natural," I said.

  "But you do not address them as 'Sir'?"

  "No," I said. "We address them as 'Master.'"

  "I would be terrified to do that," she said, "how it might make me feel."

  "You will learn to do it," I said. "And you will also learn that it is a quite meaningful mode of address. They are the masters."

  "You are a barbarian!" she said.

  "Yes," I said. "I am a barbarian."

  "It is thusly fitting that you should be a slave!" she said.

  "But not such as you?" I asked.

  "No, no!" she said.

  "Why?" I asked. "Are you less female than I?"

  She looked at me, wildly.

  "You have fought your femaleness for a long time," I said. "But the masters will not permit your continuing to do so."

  She shook with terror.

  "For the first time in your life," I said, "you are going to become a full woman, a true woman, the woman you were born to be."

  "No!" she protested.

  "What is important here," I said, "has nothing whatsoever to do with one's origins. They may condition and flavor our slavery, and make us of more or less interest to one man or another, but they are, in themselves, of no great importance. What is crucial here is not whether one is a barbarian or not, or comes from this city or that, but what we have in common, whether one is a female or not. That is what is of ultimate importance in these matters, our sex, our femaleness."

  She jerked in the chains, helplessly.

  She put her head down. She sobbed.

  Then she looked up at me. There were tears in her eyes. "But then it would be fitting," she whispered, "that we both be slaves."

  "Yes," I said.

  "Do you understand the numbers written on my body?" she asked, looking up at me.

  "You want to know your category, your future brand, your likely disposition, your period of training, a possible place and time of sale, such things?" I asked.

  "Yes!" she said. "Yes!"

  "I did not even know they were numbers," I said, lightly.

  "You are illiterate?" she said, suddenly, angrily.

  "Yes," I said.

  "Why have you dallied here!" she said.

  "Perhaps to give you an apricot," I said.

  "Give it to me!" she said.

  "No," I said. I wanted one for myself. The other I thought I would give to the Lady Constanzia.

  "So that is why you have remained here!" she said. "Not to feed me, not to help me, unknown to the others, in fear of me, or seeking my favor, but, like them, to torment me!"

  "I think you are little to be feared now, free woman," I said. "And, if I were you, I do not think I would overrate the favors you have to dispense. Even men will take from you precisely what they please, and in any amounts or modalities they wish, and at any time of the day or night. And you will strive desperately with all your beauty and intelligence to please them."

  "You want only to torment me, like the others," she said.

  "You were not really very nice to them," I said.

  "But they are nothing, only slaves, and I am a free woman!" she said.

  "You, too, will soon be nothing," I said, "only a slave."

  She looked up at me, angrily.

  "And you, too, will learn to fear free women," I said. "You will learn to fear them terribly."

  "Is this your petty vengeance on a free woman," she asked, angrily, "you illiterate, stupid, sleek, embonded, collared little she-urt?"

  "I do not think I am smaller than you," I said.

  "It is you who are stupid," I said.

  "I, you illiterate, collared she-urt?"

  "You were brought here hooded," I said. "You do not even know in what city you are."

  "I am not stupid," she said. "It is you who are stupid, if you think I do not know where I am!"

  "Oh?" I said.

  "It is you who are stupid, not me," she said. "Anyone would know where he was, here in this place. Do you think I do not know in what mountains I am? Do you think I cannot tell the coloration of the Voltai, the Scarlet Mountains? Do you think I am totally unaware of the distances and times I have traveled? Do you think I cannot recognize the accents of the men who
brought me here? Do you think I cannot understand the emblems and accouterments of the men of this place? Do you think the markings on the tarn saddles are in some foreign tongue? Do you think the songs of the crowd are unintelligible to me? Do you not think I can recognize the seven towers of war, the wall of Valens, the standards on the bridge behind us, the banners about, those that fly even from the warehouses themselves?"

  "I do not know," I said.

  "I am in Treve!" she cried. "I am in Treve!"

  I smiled.

  "You tricked me!" she cried.

  "Yes," I said.

  But my triumph was short-lived, for at that very moment two strong masculine hands closed on my upper arms, from behind. "Do you think it is nice to trick a free woman, tasta?" he asked. It was the voice of he who had been behind me in the crowd.

  "No, Master," I said. "Forgive me, Master!"

  "Her manner changes quickly," observed the free woman.

  "I wondered why you were dallying here," he said.

  "Forgive me, Master," I said.

  "What a slave she is," said the free woman.

  "What was it you wanted to know?" he asked.

  "In what city I wear my collar, Master," I said.

  "So small and simple a thing?" he asked.

  "Yes, Master," I said.

  "It seems you might have found that out in a thousand ways," he said.

  "I am illiterate, Master," I said. "It is not so easy."

  "Why didn't you ask me?" he asked.

  "Would Master have told me?" I asked.

  "No," he said. "And then I would have beaten you, and then bound you and wired a note to your collar, testifying to your indiscretion."

  "Yes, Master," I said, in misery.

  "But it is now too late for such things," he said, "for you have tricked a free woman and have now learned in what city you are."

  "Forgive me, Master," I begged.

  "Close your eyes," he said.

  "Yes, Master," I said.

  "You have discomfited this free woman," he said.

  "Forgive me, Master," I said, frightened, my eyelids pressed shut.

  "You are now going to kick and squeak before this free woman," he said.

  "Master!" I moaned.

  He spun me about. "Oh!" I cried, as I was lifted from my feet.

  I heard the free woman gasp.

  "Oh!" I cried, again.

  "Excellent little tasta," he said.

  "Master?" I said. "Master?"

  I heard some men laugh, doubtless passers-by.

  But then, in moments, my feet off the ground, my arms and legs clutched about him, I began to gasp. Then, a little later, he lowered me to the ground and, mercifully, bundled my head in his cloak, only then permitting me to open my eyes. I could see the darkness inside the cloak, and sometimes, as I was turned toward the sun, the coloring of it, red, and light through the tiny openings in the weaving. And then, shortly thereafter, as he took me again from myself, as men can, and mastered me, I began to kick and squeak.

  After a time he was through with me.

  "Close your eyes," he said.

  "Yes, Master," I said.

  He then removed his cloak from about my head.

  "The free woman," he said, "will tell you when I am gone. Only then may you open your eyes."

  "Yes, Master," I said, lying on the stones of the docking area, my body a medley of sensations, physical and psychological, of confusion, humiliation, fear, and rapture.

  "When you return to your kennel tonight," he said, "you are to tell your keeper what you have done today."

  "Please, no, Master!" I begged, my eyes pressed shut. "Yes, Master," I said, in misery.

  I lay on the stones.

  "He is gone," whispered the free woman, after a time.

  I opened my eyes, and rose to all fours, and looked at the free woman.

  "Are you going to tell your master, or keeper?" she asked.

  "Yes, Mistress," I said.

  There would be inordinate risks in not doing so.

  "Surely you will be whipped, at least," she said.

  "Yes, Mistress," I said.

  "But you will tell, anyway?"

  "Yes, Mistress." Surely she must understand the ease with which the matter could be brought to the attention of the authorities. The simplest, most casual, check could determine whether or not I had complied. I did not know, of course, whether or not that check would be made. But it could be made, tonight, or tomorrow, or months from now. I would not care for it to be made and have its result not in my interest. It might be the difference between a lashing and being thrown to sleen.

  "How helpless you are, as a slave," she marveled.

  "Yes, Mistress," I said. I knelt.

  "What is it like to be so helpless, so vulnerable, so subjugated, so dominated?" she asked.

  "Doubtless Mistress will learn," I said, softly.

  "Men are such powerful brutes," she said. "Why will they not compromise with us, and do what we tell them?"

  "It is we who are slaves who must do as we are told," I said.

  "I may be made a slave," she said.

  "Mistress may be assured of it," I said.

  "Then what was done to you could be done to me," she said. "I would have to obey!"

  "Yes, Mistress," I said.

  "Men could use me, me, a free woman—"

  "Once a free woman," I said.

  "—to satisfy their terrible, ferocious lusts!"

  "Be pleased," I said, "that on this world men are so free, so healthy, so strong. Here their lusts have not been reduced to tepidities."

  "I would have to serve!" she said.

  "Wholly," I said.

  "I would be branded, and collared!" she said.

  "Yes," I said.

  "It is so different from being a free woman!"

  "Yes," I said.

  "Then I would have to vulnerably answer to their lusts," she said.

  "And how else," I asked, "could your own needs be satisfied?"

  She looked at me.

  "I do not refer to the tamenesses, the banalities, the lukewarmnesses," I said. "I do not refer to the tepidities. I refer to perilous heights and formidable depths. I refer to matters of force and power, of storms and fire, of songs and blood, of shouting and crying, of laughter and tears, of realities, of victories, of dominance and submission, of owner and owned, of master and slave, of the joy of absolute and uncompromising conquest and the rapture of utter, unconditional surrender."

  "I have dreamed of such things," she said.

  "So, too," said I, "has every woman."

  "I would have no choice," she said.

  "No," I said. "You would be only a slave."

  "I could learn," she said, "to lick and kiss for a candy."

  "Or an apricot?" I smiled.

  "Yes," she said.

  "You will learn just how precious such small things may become," I said.

  "I am sorry that I called out so cruelly to the slaves," she said.

  "You yourself will doubtless discover, in time," I said, "what it is to be insulted by, and abused by, and even whipped by, free women."

  "I did not understand," she said.

  "It is hard to understand, if one is not in the collar," I said.

  "Don't go!" she said.

  "I must be getting back," I said.

  "I awakened in my bed," she said, "as I was being gagged. I could not cry out. It was a young, blond raider of Treve who captured me. I was stripped and bound, and put to his pleasure, in my own bed! Then he hooded me and carried me to the roof where his tarn was waiting. Later I served him nude in his camp, as though I might be a slave. I knelt, serving him his food. I poured his wine."

  "And how did you feel about this?" I asked.

  I saw she was struggling to speak. Then she whispered, "I loved it!"

  I nodded.

  "But this distressed me," she said, "that I should have such feelings!"

  "Yes?" I said.

>   "So I was insolent—"

  "What occurred then?" I asked.

  "He seized me and swathed my entire upper body with coarse rope," she said. "He then put me to his pleasure, briefly and brutally. He then swathed my whole lower body with similar rope. He then left me that way for the night! I wept and begged his forgiveness toward morning, but it earned me only a kick and a warning to be silent. Then, the next day, he put me on the common chain. Afterwards I would cry out to him that I hated him, and then, a little later, I would beg him to keep me!"

  "I understand," I said.

  "You cannot read the numbers on my body, truly, can you?" she asked.

  "No," I said. "I am sorry."

  "What kind of slave do you think I will be?" she asked.

  "That is easy to see," I said.

  "What?" she asked.

  "You have beautiful hair," I said. "And your body and face, too, are very beautiful."

  "Do you think they will see me as a pleasure slave?" she asked.

  "Certainly," I said.

  "That is the sort of slave I wish to be," she said.

  "Have no fear," I said. "It is in that category that you will ascend the block."

  "But I want to belong to he who captured me," she said.

  "It is not yours to say to whom you will belong," I said.

  She regarded me, in misery.

  "Anything could be done to you," I said. "You could be taken anywhere. You could be sold to anyone."

  "No!" she said.

  "Yes," I said.

  "I thought he liked me!" she said.

  "That is quite likely," I said, "as he had you serve him in the camp."

  "What did I do wrong?" she said.

  "It seems," I said, "from what you have said, that you were unpleasant, or insolent. Perhaps you showed him a side of your personality which he did not care for."

  She looked at me.

  "To be sure," I said, "such things can be whipped out of a slave."

  She moaned.

  "He may not have wanted to spend the time and effort on you, to reform you," I speculated. "There are, after all, many slaves."

  "I can change," she said. "I want to change!"

  I regarded her.

  "It was not truly I who spoke," she said. "It was not the slave."

  "I understand," I said.

  "But why would he not want me?" she asked. "Do I not have lovely hair, am I not beautiful?"

  "Such things are mere externals," I said. "They are easily come by, in any market."