5 Soul of the Fire

by Goodkind, Terry

  "I don't think I can explain it. Just something not quite

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  right. I think, looking at them, I would know it was not a woman."

  His intent brown-eyed gaze turned to her for the first time. "And I know it is not a chicken."

  Kahlan entwined her fingers. "Maybe in the morning, after you have had a good sleep, you will see only a chicken when you look at a chicken?"

  He merely smiled at her suspicion of his unpaired judgment. "You should go eat. Take your new husband. I will send someone for you when I find the chicken that is not a chicken."

  It did sound like a good idea, and she saw Richard heading in their direction. Kahlan clasped the Bird Man's arm in mute appreciation.

  It had taken the whole afternoon to gather the chickens. Both structures reserved for evil spirits and a third empty building were needed to house all the birds. Nearly the entire village had joined in the grave cause. It had been a lot of work.

  The children had proven invaluable. Fired by responsibility in such an important village-wide effort, they had revealed all the places the chickens hid and roosted. The hunters gently gathered all the chickens, even though it was a Barred Rock the Bird Man had at first pointed out, the .same striated breed Richard chased out when they went to see Zedd, the same breed Richard said had waited above the door while they'd been in to see Juni.

  An extensive search had been conducted. They were confident every chicken was housed in one of the three buildings.

  As he cut a straight line through the chickens, Richard smiled briefly in greeting to the Bird Man, but his eyes never joined in. As Richard's gaze met hers, Kahlan slipped her fingers up his arm to snug around the bulge of muscle, glad to touch him, despite her exasperation.

  "The Bird Man says he hasn't yet found the chicken you want, but he will keep searching. And there are still the two other buildings full of them. He suggested we go get some-

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  thing to eat, and he will send someone when he sees your chicken."

  Richard started for the door. "He won't find it here."

  "What do you mean? How do you know?"

  "I have to go check the other two places."

  If she was only annoyed, Richard looked frantic at not finding what he wanted. Kahlan imagined that he must feel his word was at stake. Back near the door, Ann and Zedd waited, silently observing the search, letting Richard have the leeway to look all he wanted, to do as he thought necessary.

  Richard paused, combing his fingers back through his thick hair. "Do either of you know of a book called Mountain's Twin?"

  Zedd held his chin as he peered up at the underside of the grass roof in earnest recollection. "Can't say as I do, my boy."

  Ann, too, seemed to consider her mental inventory for a time. "No. I've not heard of it."

  Richard took a last look at the dusty room packed with chickens and muttered a curse under his breath.

  Zedd scratched his ear, "What's in this book, my boy?"

  If Richard heard the question over the background of bird babel, he didn't let on, and he didn't answer. "I have to go look at the rest of the chickens."

  "I could ask Verna and Warren for you, if it's important." Ann drew a small black book from a pocket, drawing, too, Richard's gaze. "Warren might know of it."

  Richard had told Kahlan that the book Ann carried and was now flashing at him, called a journey book, retained ancient magic. Journey books were paired; any message written in it appeared simultaneously in its twin. The Sisters of the Light used the little books to communicate when they went on long journeys, such as when they had come to the New World to take Richard back to the Palace of the Prophets.

  Richard brightened at her suggestion. "Please, yes. It's important." He started for the door again. "I've got to go."

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  "I'm going to check on the woman who lost the baby," Zedd told Ann. "Help her get some rest."

  "Richard," Kahlan called, "don't you want to eat?"

  As she was speaking, Richard gestured for her to come along, but was through, the door and gone before she finished the question. Zedd followed his grandson out, shrugging his perplexity back at the two women. Kahlan growled and started after Richard.

  "It must be like a fanciful children's story come to life for you, for a Confessor, to marry for love," Ann commented while remaining rooted to the spot where she had been for the last hour.

  Kahlan turned back to the woman. "Well, yes, it is."

  Ann smiled up with sincere warmth. "I'm so happy for you, child, being able to have such a wonderful thing as a husband you dearly love come into your life."

  Kahlan's fingers lingered on the lever of the closed door.

  "It still leaves me utterly astonished, at times."

  "It must be disappointing when your new husband seems to have more important things to attend to than his new wife, when he seems to be ignoring you." Ann pursed her lips. "Especially on your very first day being his wife."

  "Ah." Kahlan released the lever and clasped both hands loosely behind her back. "So that's why Zedd left. We are to have a woman-to-woman talk, are we?"

  Ann chuckled. "Oh, but how I do love it when men I respect marry smart women. Nothing marks a man's character better than his attraction to intelligence."

  Kahlan sighed as she leaned a shoulder against the wall. "I know Richard, and I know he's not trying my patience deliberately ... but, this is our first day married. I somehow thought it would be different than this .. ..this chasing imaginary chicken monsters. I think he's so worried about protecting me he's inventing trouble."

  Ann's tone turned sympathetic. "Richard loves you dearly. I know he is worried, though I don't understand his reasoning. Richard bears great responsibility."

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  The sympathy evaporated from her voice. "We all are called upon to make sacrifices where Richard is concerned."

  The woman pretended to watch the chickens.

  "In this very village, before the snow came," Kahlan said in a careful, level tone, "I gave Richard over to your Sisters of the Light in the hope you could save his life, even though I knew doing so could very well end my future with him. I had to make him think I had betrayed him in order to get him to go with the Sisters. Do you even have any idea ..."

  Kahlan made herself stop, lest she needlessly dredge up painful memories. Everything had turned out well. She and Richard were together at last. That was what mattered.

  "I know," Ann whispered. "You do not have to prove yourself to me, but since it was I who' ordered him brought to us, perhaps I must prove myself to you."

  The woman had surely picked the peg Kahlan wanted pounded, but she kept her response civil, anyway. "What do you mean?"

  "Those wizards of so very long ago created the Palace of the Prophets. I lived at the palace, under its unique spell, for over nine hundred years. There, five hundred years before it was to happen, Nathan the prophet foretold the birth of a war wizard.

  "There, together, we worked on the books of prophecy down in the palace vaults, trying to understand this pebble yet to be dropped into the pond, trying to foresee the ripples this event might cause."

  Kahlan folded her arms. "From my experience, I would say prophecy may be far more occluding than revealing."

  Ann chortled. "I am acquainted with Sisters hundreds of years your senior who have yet to understand that much about prophecy."

  Her voice turned wistful as she went on. "I traveled to see Richard when he was newborn life, newborn soul, glimmering into the world. His mother was so astonished, so grateful, for the balance of such a magnificent gift come of such brutality as had been inflicted upon her by Darken

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  Rahl. She was a remarkable woman, not to pass bitterness and resentment on to her child. She was so proud of Richard, so filled with dreams and hope for him.

  "When Richard was that newborn life, suckling at his mother's breast, Nathan and I took Richard's stepfather to recover the Book of Count
ed Shadows so when Richard was grown he might have the knowledge to save himself from the beast who had raped his mother and given him life."

  Ann glanced up with a wry smile. "Prophecy, you see."

  "Richard told me." Kahlan looked back at the Bird Man concentrating on the chickens pecking at the ground.

  "Richard is the one come at last: a war wizard. The prophecies do not say if he will succeed, but he is the one born to the battle-the battle to keep the Grace intact, as it were. Such faith, though, sometimes requires great spiritual effort."

  "Why? If he is the one for whom you waited-the one you wanted?"

  Ann cleared her throat and seemed to gather her thoughts. Kahlan thought she saw tears in the woman's eyes.

  "He destroyed the Palace of the Prophets. Because of Richard, Nathan escaped. Nathan is dangerous. He is the one, after all, who told you the names of the chimes. That perilously rash act could have brought us all to ruin."

  "It saved Richard's life," Kahlan pointed out. "If Nathan hadn't told me the names of the chimes, Richard would be dead. Then your pebble would be at the bottom of the pond-out of your reach and no help to anyone."

  "True enough," Ann admitted-reluctantly, thought Kahlan.

  Kahlan fussed with a button as she began to imagine Ann's side of it. "It must have been hard to bear, seeing Richard destroying the palace. Destroying your home."

  "Along with the palace, he also destroyed its spell; the Sisters of the Light will now age as does everyone else. At the palace I would have lived perhaps another hundred years. The Sisters there would have lived many hundreds of years more. Now, I am but an old woman near the end of

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  my time. Richard took those hundreds of years from me. From all the Sisters."

  Kahlan remained silent, not knowing what to say.

  "The future of everyone may one day depend on him," Ann finally said. "We must put that ahead of ourselves. That is why I helped him destroy the palace. That is why I follow the man who has seemingly destroyed my life's work: because my life's true work is that man's fight, not my own narrow interests."

  Kahlan hooked a strand of damp hair behind her ear. "You talk about Richard as if he's a tool newly forged for your use. He is a man who wants to do what's right, but he has his own wants and needs, too. His life is his to live, not yours or anyone else's to plan for him according to what you found in dusty old books."

  "You misunderstand. That is precisely his value: his instincts, his curiosity, his heart." Ann tapped her temple. "His mind. Our aim is not to direct, but to follow, even if it is painful to tread the path down which he takes us."

  Kahlan knew the truth of that. Richard had destroyed the alliance that had joined the lands of the Midlands for thousands of years. As Mother Confessor, Kahlan presided over the council, and thus the Midlands. Under her watch as Mother Confessor, the Midlands had fallen to Richard, as Lord Rahl of D'Hara. At least the lands which had so far surrendered to him. She knew the benevolence of his actions, and the need for them, but it certainly had been a painful path to follow.

  Richard's bold action, though, was the only way of truly uniting all the lands into one force that had any hope of standing against the tyranny of the Imperial Order. Now, they trod that new path together, hand in hand, united in purpose and resolve.

  Kahlan folded her arms again and leaned back against the wall, watching the stupid chickens. "If it is your intent, then, to make me feel guilty for my selfish wishes about my first day with my new husband, you have succeeded. But I can't help it."

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  Ann gently gripped Kahlan's arm. "No, child, that is not my intent. I understand how Richard's actions can sometimes be exasperating. I ask only that you be patient and allow him to do as he thinks he must. He is not ignoring you to be contrary, but doing as his nature demands.

  "However, his love for you has the power to distract him from what he must do. You must not interfere by asking that he abandon his task when he otherwise would not." "I know," Kahlan sighed. "But chickens-" "There is something wrong with the magic." Kahlan frowned down at the old sorceress. "What do you mean?"

  Ann shrugged. "I am not sure. Zedd and I believe we have detected a change in our magic. It is a subtle thing to endeavor to discern. Have you noticed any change in your ability?"

  In a cold flash of panic, Kahlan wheeled her thoughts inward. It was hard to imagine a subtle difference in her Confessor's magic-it simply was. The core of the power within, and her restraint on it, seemed comfortingly familiar. Although...

  Kahlan recoiled from that dark curtain of conjecture.

  Magic was ethereal enough as it was. Through artifice, a wizard had once gulled her into thinking her power gone, when in fact it had never left her. Believing him had nearly cost Kahlan her life. She survived only because she realized in time that she still had her power and could use it to save herself.

  "No. It's the same," Kahlan said. "I've learned it's easy to mislead yourself into believing your magic is waning. It's probably nothing-you're just worried, that's all."

  "True enough, but Zedd thinks it would be wise to let Richard do as Richard does. That Richard believes, on his own, without our knowledge of magic, that there is grave trouble of some sort, lends credence to our suspicions. If true, then he is already farther in this than are we. We can but follow."

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  ask you not to badger him with your understandable desire to have him pay court to you. I ask that you allow him to do what he must do."

  Pay court indeed. Kahlan simply wanted to hold his hand, to hug him, to kiss him, to smile at him and have him smile back.

  The next day they needed to return to Aydindril. Soon the thorn of mystery over Juni's death would be shed for more important concerns. They had Emperor Jagang and the war to worry about. She simply wished she and Richard could have one day to themselves.

  "I understand." Kahlan stared out at the clucking, churning, throng of stupid chickens. "I'll try not to meddle."

  Ann nodded without joy at having gotten what she wanted.

  Outside, in the gloom of nightfall, Cara paced. By her chafed expression, Kahlan guessed Richard had ordered the Mord-Sith to remain behind and guard his new wife. That was the one order inviolate for Cara, the one order even Kahlan could not invalidate for the woman.

  "Come on," Kahlan said as she tramped past Cara. "Let's go see how Richard is doing in his search."

  Kahlan was discontent to find the miserable rain still coming down. If it wasn't falling as hard as before, it was just as cold, and it wouldn't be long before she was just as wet.

  "He didn't go that way," Cara called out.

  Kahlan turned along with Ann to see Cara still standing where she had been pacing.

  Kahlan lifted a thumb over her shoulder in the direction of the other house for evil spirits. "I thought he wanted to go see the rest of the chickens."

  "He started toward the other two buildings, but changed his mind." Cara pointed. "He went off in that direction."

  "Why?"

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  "He didn't say. He told me to remain here and wait for you." Cara started out through the rain. "Come. I will take you to him."

  "You know where to find him?" Kahlan realized it was a foolish question before she had finished it.

  "Of course. I am bonded to Lord Rahl. I always know where he is."

  Kahlan found it disquieting the way the Mord-Sith could sense Richard's proximity, like mother hens with a chick. Kahlan was envious, too. She pressed a hand to Ann's back, urging her along, lest they be left behind in the dark.

  "How long have you and Zedd had this suspicion about something being wrong," Kahlan whispered to the squat sorceress, only implying that she meant what Ann had told her about there being something wrong with the magic.

  Ann kept her head bowed, watching where she was walking in the near darkness. "We noticed it first last night. Though it is a diff
icult thing to quantify, or confirm, we did a few simple tests. They did not conclusively verify our impression. It's a bit like trying to say if you can see as far as you could yesterday."

  "You telling her about our speculation that our magic might be weakening?"

  Kahlan started at the familiar voice suddenly coming from behind.

  "Yes," Ann said over her shoulder as they followed Cara around a corner, sounding as if she wasn't at all surprised that Zedd had come up behind them. "How was the woman?"

  Zedd sighed. "Despondent. I tried to calm and comfort her, but I didn't seem to have as much luck as I thought I might."