Not One of Us: Stories of Aliens on Earth

by Neil Clarke

  Outside, the dust flies like shrapnel. Noel hides his face in the peaked hood of the jacket and wishes he’d brought his goggles. The transplanted eucalyptus trees are lurching with the wind, near cracking, as he battles his way into the courtyard. Sand peppers his exposed calves and feet like a thousand tiny wasps.

  Through the maelstrom, Noel catches a flash of angular silhouette: Danny, hobbling away toward the parking lot, through the archway of thrashing trees. Noel opens his mouth to shout and ends up chewing sand. He pulls the hood tighter and follows Danny, eyes squeezed to slits, fists clenched inside the balled up ends of his sleeves.

  By the time he fights his way to the end of the tile and scuttles down the worn steps into the lot, Danny is sitting where they buried the water scorpion. His head is bent against the wind and his overlong arms envelop his knees, compacting him. Waves of dust belt across him, rocking him back and forth.

  “What are you doing?” Noel demands, fists still clenched, chest still scalding. The wind scours his words away, but Danny notices him. He looks up with all of his glittering black eyes. Then he reaches into the dirt and pours a handful over his head. The puff of dust is nothing in the storm, but Noel understands. He understands even before Danny’s thin distorted voice slides under the windy howl.

  “This is you,” Danny says, shaking another handful of dust. “Watch this.”

  Noel’s stomach plummets. He reaches for his anger. “Get up,” he shouts. “You’ll get us in trouble. You’ll get me in trouble.” He tries to kick at him and loses his flip flop. “Come back inside!” His eyes are stinging from sand and now tears, sliding thick down his grimy cheeks. “Come on,” he pleads. He tries to haul Danny up by the shoulder, but his hand’s shrugged off.

  Noel feels a panic welling inside, panic for Danny’s face crumpled purple, for a grave dug with one shovel. “Stay, then,” he hollers. “Stay and get sand in your lungs and die.”

  Danny’s head cocks up at the last word. He considers the sand trickling through his fingers. “This is Maya,” he says.

  Noel doesn’t realize he’s no longer standing until his kneecaps scrape the dirt. “I’m sorry,” he says, crawling forward, face level with Danny’s. “Danny. Sorry. It wasn’t your fault. It’s not your fault.” He goes to drape his arms over Danny, but is shoved off. “Come inside,” Noel begs.

  Danny turns away. Another billow of dust blasts across them; Danny takes the brunt of it and every bit of him wilts. As the wind roars louder, Noel strips off his jacket and pulls it over their heads like a tarp. Danny stiffens, then allows it.

  Their breath is hot underneath the nylon. Noel feels his skin press against Danny’s clammy back. He feels the puckered marks left by flying sand.

  “Not your fault,” Noel mutters. The storm dances all around them.

  He waits, and waits, for the echo.

  Kelly Robson grew up in the foothills of the Canadian Rocky Mountains. In 2018, her story “A Human Stain” won the Nebula Award for Best Novelette, and in 2016, her novella “Waters of Versailles” won the Prix Aurora Award. She has also been a finalist for the Nebula, World Fantasy, Theodore Sturgeon, John W. Campbell, and Sunburst awards. In 2018, her time travel adventure “Gods, Monsters, and the Lucky Peach” debuted to high critical praise. After twenty-two years in Vancouver, she and her wife, fellow SF writer A.M. Dellamonica, now live in downtown Toronto.

  The Three Resurrections of Jessica Churchill

  Kelly Robson

  “I rise today on this September 11th, the one-year anniversary of the greatest tragedy on American soil in our history, with a heavy heart . . .”

  —Hon. Jim Turner

  September 9, 2001

  Jessica slumped against the inside of the truck door. The girl behind the wheel and the other one squished between them on the bench seat kept stealing glances at her. Jessica ignored them, just like she tried to ignore the itchy pull and tug deep inside her, under her belly button, where the aliens were trying to knit her guts back together.

  “You party pretty hard last night?” the driver asked.

  Jessica rested her burning forehead on the window. The hum of the highway under the wheels buzzed through her skull. The truck cab stank of incense.

  “You shouldn’t hitchhike, it’s not safe,” the other girl said. “I sound like my mom saying it and I hate that but it’s really true. So many dead girls. They haven’t even found all the bodies.”

  “Highway of Tears,” the driver said.

  “Yeah, Highway of Tears,” the other one repeated. “Bloody Sixteen.”

  “Nobody calls it that,” the driver snapped.

  Jessica pulled her hair up off her neck, trying to cool the sticky heat pulsing through her. The two girls looked like tree planters. She’d spent the summer working full time at the gas station and now she could smell a tree planter a mile away. They’d come in for smokes and mix, dirty, hairy, dressed in fleece and hemp just like these two. The driver had blond dreadlocks and the other had tattoos circling her wrists. Not that much older than her, lecturing her about staying safe just like somebody’s mom.

  Well, she’s right, Jessica thought. A gush of blood flooded the crotch of her jeans.

  Water. Jessica, we can do this but you’ve got to get some water. We need to replenish your fluids.

  “You got any water?” Jessica asked. Her voice rasped, throat stripped raw from all the screaming.

  The tattooed girl dug through the backpack at Jessica’s feet and came up with a two-liter mason jar half-full of water. Hippies, Jessica thought as she fumbled with the lid. Like one stupid jar will save the world.

  “Let me help.” The tattooed girl unscrewed the lid and steadied the heavy jar as Jessica lifted it to her lips.

  She gagged. Her throat was tight as a fist but she forced herself to swallow, wash down the dirt and puke coating her mouth.

  Good. Drink more.

  “I can’t,” Jessica said. The tattooed girl stared at her.

  You need to. We can’t do this alone. You have to help us.

  “Are you okay?” the driver asked. “You look wrecked.”

  Jessica wiped her mouth with the back of her hand. “I’m fine. Just hot.”

  “Yeah, you’re really flushed,” said the tattooed girl. “You should take off your coat.”

  Jessica ignored her and gulped at the jar until it was empty.

  Not so fast. Careful!

  “Do you want to swing past the hospital when we get into town?” the driver asked.

  A bolt of pain knifed through Jessica’s guts. The empty jar slipped from her grip and rolled across the floor of the truck. The pain faded.

  “I’m fine,” she repeated. “I just got a bad period.”

  That did it. The lines of worry eased off both girls’ faces.

  “Do you have a pad? I’m gonna bleed all over your seat.” Jessica’s vision dimmed, like someone had put a shade over the morning sun.

  “No problem.” The tattooed girl fished through the backpack. “I bleed heavy too. It depletes my iron.”

  “That’s just an excuse for you to eat meat,” said the driver.

  Jessica leaned her forehead on the window and waited for the light to come back into the world. The two girls were bickering now, caught up in their own private drama.

  Another flood of blood. More this time. She curled her fists into her lap. Her insides twisted and jumped like a fish on a line.

  Your lungs are fine. Breathe deeply, in and out, that’s it. We need all the oxygen you can get.

  The tattooed girl pulled a pink wrapped maxi pad out of her backpack and offered it to Jessica. The driver slowed down and turned the truck into a roadside campground.

  “Hot,” Jessica said. The girls didn’t hear. Now they were bitching at each other about disposable pads and something called a keeper cup.

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sp; We know. You’ll be okay. We can heal you.

  “Don’t wait for me,” Jessica said as they pulled up to the campground outhouse. She flipped the door handle and nearly fell out of the truck. “I can catch another ride.”

  Cold air washed over her as she stumbled toward the outhouse. She unzipped her long coat and let the breeze play though—chill air on boiling skin. Still early September but they always got a cold snap at the start of fall. First snow only a few days ago. Didn’t last. Never did.

  The outhouse stench hit her like a slap. Jessica fumbled with the lock. Her fingers felt stiff and clumsy.

  “Why am I so hot?” she said, leaning on the cold plywood wall. Her voice sounded strange, ripped apart and multiplied into echoes.

  Your immune system is trying to fight us but we’ve got it under control. The fever isn’t dangerous, just uncomfortable.

  She shed her coat and let it fall to the floor. Unzipped her jeans, slipped them down her hips. No panties. She hadn’t been able to find them.

  No, Jessica. Don’t look.

  Pubic hair hacked away along with most of her skin. Two deep slices puckered angry down the inside of her right thigh. And blood. On her legs, on her jeans, inside her coat. Blood everywhere, dark and sticky.

  Keep breathing!

  An iron tang filled the outhouse as a gout of blood dribbled down her legs. Jessica fell back on the toilet seat. Deep within her chest something fluttered, like a bird beating its wings on her ribs, trying to get out. The light drained from the air.

  If you die, we die too. Please give us a chance.

  The flutters turned into fists pounding on her breastbone. She struggled to inhale, tried to drag the outhouse stink deep into her lungs but the air felt thick. Solid. Like a wall against her face.

  Don’t go. Please.

  Breath escaped her like smoke from a fire burned down to coal and ash. She collapsed against the wall of the outhouse. Vision turned to pinpricks; she crumpled like paper and died.

  Everything okay in there?”

  The thumping on the door made the whole outhouse shake. Jessica lurched to her feet. Her chest burned like she’d been breathing acid.

  You’re okay.

  “I’m fine. Gimme a second.”

  Jessica plucked the pad off the outhouse floor, ripped it open and stuck it on the crotch of her bloody jeans, zipped them up. She zipped her coat to her chin. She felt strong. Invincible. She unlocked the door.

  The two girls were right there, eyes big and concerned and in her business.

  “You didn’t have to wait,” Jessica said.

  “How old are you, fifteen? We waited,” the driver said as they climbed back into the truck.

  “We’re not going to let you hitchhike,” said the tattooed girl. “Especially not you.”

  “Why not me?” Jessica slammed the truck door behind her.

  “Most of the dead and missing girls are First Nations.”

  “You think I’m an Indian? Fuck you. Am I on a reserve?”

  The driver glared at her friend as she turned the truck back onto the highway.

  “Sorry,” the tattooed girl said.

  “Do I look like an Indian?”

  “Well, kinda.”

  “Fuck you.” Jessica leaned on the window, watching the highway signs peel by as they rolled toward Prince George. When they got to the city the invincible feeling was long gone. The driver insisted on taking her right to Gran’s.

  “Thanks,” Jessica said as she slid out of the truck.

  The driver waved. “Remember, no hitchhiking.”

  September 8, 2001

  Jessica never hitchhiked.

  She wasn’t stupid. But Prince George was spread out. Buses ran maybe once an hour weekdays and barely at all on weekends, and when the weather turned cold you could freeze to death trying to walk everywhere. So yeah, she took rides when she could, if she knew the driver.

  After her Saturday shift she’d started walking down the highway. Mom didn’t know she was coming. Jessica had tried to get through three times from the gas station phone, left voice mails. Mom didn’t always pick up—usually didn’t—and when she did it was some excuse about her phone battery or connection.

  Mom was working as a cook at a retreat center out by Tabor Lake. A two-hour walk, but Mom would get someone to drive her back to Gran’s.

  Only seven o’clock but getting cold and the wind had come up. Semis bombed down the highway, stirring up the trash and making it dance at her feet and fly in her face as she walked along the ditch.

  It wasn’t even dark when the car pulled over to the side of the highway.

  “Are you Jessica?”

  The man looked ordinary. Baseball cap, hoodie. Somebody’s dad trying to look young.

  “Yeah,” Jessica said.

  “Your mom sent me to pick you up.”

  A semi honked as it blasted past his car. A McDonald’s wrapper flipped through the air and smacked her in the back of the head. She got in.

  The car was skunky with pot smoke. She almost didn’t notice when he passed the Tabor Lake turnoff.

  “That was the turn,” she said.

  “Yeah, she’s not there. She’s out at the ski hill.”

  “At this time of year?”

  “Some kind of event.” He took a drag on his smoke and smiled.

  Jessica hadn’t even twigged. Mom had always wanted to work at the ski hill, where she could party all night and ski all day.

  It was twenty minutes before Jessica started to clue in.

  When he slowed to take a turn onto a gravel road she braced herself to roll out of the car. The door handle was broken. She went at him with her fingernails but he had the jump on her, hit her in the throat with his elbow. She gulped air and tried to roll down the window.

  It was broken too. She battered the glass with her fists, then spun and lunged for the wheel. He hit her again, slammed her head against the dashboard three times. The world stuttered and swam.

  Pain brought everything back into focus. Face down, her arms flailed, fingers clawed at the dirt. Spruce needles flew up her nose and coated her tongue. Her butt was jacked up over a log and every thrust pounded her face into the dirt. One part of her was screaming, screaming. The other part watched the pile of deer shit inches from her nose. It looked like a heap of candy. Chocolate-covered almonds.

  She didn’t listen to what he was telling her. She’d heard worse from boys at school. He couldn’t make her listen. He didn’t exist except as a medium for pain.

  When he got off, Jessica felt ripped in half, split like firewood. She tried to roll off the log. She’d crawl into the bush, he’d drive away, and it would be over.

  Then he showed her the knife.

  When he rammed the knife up her she found a new kind of pain. It drove the breath from her lungs and sliced the struggle from her limbs. She listened to herself whimper, thinking it sounded like a newborn kitten, crying for its mother.

  The pain didn’t stop until the world had retreated to little flecks of light deep in her skull. The ground spun around her as he dragged her through the bush and rolled her into a ravine. She landed face down in a stream. Her head flopped, neck canted at a weird angle.

  Jessica curled her fingers around something cold and round. A rock. It fit in her hand perfectly and if he came back she’d let him have it right in the teeth. And then her breath bubbled away and she died.

  When she came back to life a bear corpse was lying beside her, furry and rank. She dug her fingers into its pelt and pulled herself up. It was still warm. And skinny—nothing but sinew and bone under the skin.

  She stumbled through the stream, toes in wet socks stubbing against the rocks, but it didn’t hurt. Nothing hurt. She was good. She could do anything.

  She found her coat in the mud,
her jeans too. One sneaker by the bear and then she looked and looked for the other one.

  It’s up the bank.

  She climbed up. The shoe was by the log where it had happened. The toe was coated in blood. She wiped it in the dirt.

  You need to drink some water.

  A short dirt track led down to the road. The gravel glowed white in the dim light of early morning. No idea which way led to the highway. She picked a direction.

  “How do you know what I need?”

  We know. We’re trying to heal you. The damage is extensive. You’ve lost a lot of blood and the internal injuries are catastrophic.

  “No shit.”

  We can fix you. We just need time.

  Her guts writhed. Snakes fought in her belly, biting and coiling.

  Feel that? That’s us working. Inside you.

  “Why doesn’t it hurt?”

  We’ve established a colony in your thalamus. That’s where we’re blocking the pain. If we didn’t, you’d die of shock.

  “Again.”

  Yes, again.

  “A colony. What the fuck are you? Aliens?”

  Yes. We’re also distributing a hormonal cocktail of adrenaline and testosterone to keep you moving, but we’ll have to taper it off soon because it puts too much stress on your heart. Right now it’s very important for you to drink some water.

  “Shut up about the water.” She wasn’t thirsty. She felt great.

  A few minutes later the fight drained out of her. Thirsty, exhausted, she ached as though the hinge of every moving part was crusted in rust, from her jaw to her toes. Her eyelids rasped like sandpaper. Her breath sucked and blew without reaching her lungs. Every rock in the road was a mountain and every pothole a canyon.

  But she walked. Dragged her sneakers through the gravel, taking smaller and smaller steps until she just couldn’t lift her feet anymore. She stood in the middle of the road and waited. Waited to fall over. Waited for the world to slip from her grasp and darkness to drown her in cold nothing.

  When she heard the truck speeding toward her she didn’t even look up. Didn’t matter who it was, what it was. She stuck out her thumb.