I Can See You

by Karen Rose

  “A snake?” She looked confused. “Like, a real snake?”

  “A real rattlesnake,” Jack said grimly. “It bit her.”

  “Did he do that to Martha?” she asked, troubled.

  “No,” Noah said. “And we’re not sure why.”

  “Did he sexually assault these women?” she asked.

  Jack frowned. “Why do you want to know?”

  “Did he?” she insisted and Jack shook his head, disgruntled.

  “No, he didn’t.”

  “So he meets them in the virtual world, attacks them in their own homes, strangles them, then stages a hanging. And now he uses a snake, a common phobia.”

  Noah glanced at her again in the rearview. She’d become very quiet, her expression contemplative. “Do you know why he used the snake, Eve?”

  “Maybe. Something Jeremy said today just struck me. He was on a diatribe, telling me why I didn’t belong at Marshall, throwing out things he had no business knowing.”

  “Like?” Noah prodded gently.

  “My favorite color and that I don’t like beets. Or heights.” She said the last words slowly. “I’m trying to remember who I told that to. The only thing I can think of is that I filled out a questionnaire when I was first admitted to the program. We did something similar with our study, asked all the things they love, hate, things that comfort, scare them…”

  Noah got it. “If he has the files, he would have seen Christy’s questionnaire.”

  Eve nodded. “And if she wrote she was afraid of snakes, he would have known. Did Martha’s autopsy show anything odd?”

  “Her blue lungs,” Jack murmured.

  “She had blue lungs?” Eve asked. “Why?”

  “The ME thinks her killer shoved her face in a toilet,” Noah said. “We need to see those study files, Eve. We need to know what these participants said they feared, and as soon as we request the subpoena, your role in this will come out.”

  “I know.” She hesitated. “I can get the files for you faster.”

  Jack frowned. “And more secretly?” he asked pointedly. “And more safely for you?”

  Noah glared at him yet again. “Jack.”

  “No, you listen. Anything she gets by hacking is poisoned fruit. The DA will throw any arrests out like yesterday’s garbage and us with it. No hacking. We do it by the book.”

  There was an anger in his partner’s voice that Noah wasn’t sure he’d heard before, but before he could get closer to its cause, Eve spoke, calmly, coolly.

  “My role in all this will come out, Detective Phelps. That’s a given at this point. I’ll be taken before the committee and probably thrown out of the program. If that happens, I’ll be blackballed from any other program. I think it’s safe to say my career is over, so secrecy—and safety—for myself isn’t my main concern.”

  “So what is your main concern?” Jack asked, his voice also cool.

  “That you not show your hand to this monster too soon. If he knows you know his MO, he’ll change it. He will kill again. It gives him… pleasure.”

  A shiver went down Noah’s spine, not from her words, but from the way she said them, almost as if she were in a trance. “How do you know that it gives him pleasure?”

  She looked away, the spell broken. “It just makes sense. Get your subpoena for the files if you like. I don’t know what the file names are, but I can get you a description. That should speed your warrant. Now, if you wouldn’t mind, I’d like to go home.”

  Tuesday, February 23, 10:35 a.m.

  “You didn’t have to walk me up, Detective,” Eve said as she let herself in.

  Noah followed her inside her apartment, closing the door behind him. She’d become formal again. He’d liked it much better when she’d relaxed her guard and wondered how to get her to do it again. “Yes, I did. Where’s Hunter?”

  “Probably buying roofing supplies.” Her smile was brittle. “I’m fine, as you can see. Your partner is waiting for you, so go.” She went to the window and stood, eyes closed.

  “I’ll go in a minute.” He stood behind her, wanting to touch, but knowing she didn’t want him to. “I know you weren’t offering to get us access to protect yourself.”

  “Don’t be so sure your partner wasn’t right,” she murmured. “Maybe I was.”

  He gave in to the need to touch her, grasping her shoulders gently. She tensed, but her face reflected in the window remained unmoving. He kneaded, wishing he could turn her around and kiss her again. She’d know it was real this time.

  But he didn’t, instead dropping his hands to his sides. “I don’t want you here alone.”

  She shrugged. “It’s much more likely Buckland was here last night, and not your killer. He’d been following you and latched on to me.”

  “Still, if Buckland prints your name, the man who killed three women will know you are involved. Then he may come after you.”

  Her mouth firmed, her chin lifted. “I hope he does. I’ll be ready for him.”

  Alarm had him frowning. “Eve, this isn’t the virtual world where you can kick ass as Nemesis or Greer. This is real. He’s killed three times. He won’t blink at four.”

  “Which is why as Eve,” she said, with a calm that rattled him, “I have a very real gun and I know how to use it. It goes with the whole survivor thing.”

  He knew he should go, but didn’t. “What else goes with the survivor thing?”

  “Different things. I wasn’t always like I am now. I sat in the dark for two years after my assault. Never looked in mirrors and didn’t leave the house unless I had to, and when I did it was under an inch of makeup because I was afraid.”

  “Of?” he asked softly.

  “Of the way people looked at me. I was young, before. Pretty. Then, I was a freak. Scarred. People stared in horror, grateful it hadn’t happened to them, scared that it could. Nobody looked me in the eye. Once I made a child cry, he was so afraid of me.”

  She’d dropped her eyes, shame in her voice and Noah’s heart squeezed so hard it hurt. But there was nothing he could say that she’d want to hear, so he stood, helplessly listening. After a moment she lifted her gaze, meeting his reflected in the glass.

  “My world was in the computer. It kept me connected to people, and in many ways it kept me sane. When I finally got the courage to come out of the dark, helping people to break free like I did became more than a wish. It became my purpose. People need purpose, Noah. That’s a survivor thing, too.”

  “I know,” he murmured. And he did know. “But I don’t want you to get caught.”

  “I’m going to get caught, Noah. I’ll have to give up what makes me get up in the morning.” She swallowed hard. “And it’s killing me. But if I stand by and do nothing, I slide back into the dark. I can feel it, always there at my back, luring me back to where it’s safe. But even though it’s safe, it’s not right. I can’t expect you to understand that.”

  But he did, more than she knew. In his mind he could see himself clawing his way out of the bottle. Out of the dark. Trying to escape the demons that had driven him there. Every day he had to renew that resolution. Every day he staved off the dark.

  One day at a time had always seemed like a corny metaphor. Until it became his life. “I do understand.” He made himself smile. “It’s why I drink tonic water.”

  She drew a quick breath, her eyes widening. “I’m sorry. I didn’t think.”

  He brushed his palm down her arm, just once. “I didn’t want you to. But you’re not alone and I do understand. Will you keep trying to get into the Shadowland files?”

  “Do you want me to?” she asked and he carefully considered his answer. She had a purpose and he suspected she’d sacrifice a great deal to keep that purpose alive. But right now, he was more concerned about keeping her alive. And out of jail.

  “What I want is to stop this guy before he kills anyone else. Including you. But I don’t want you to break the law. Jack is right on that. Nothing you give us that’s a prod
uct of an illegal enterprise can be used in court. We could catch him, but have to let him go. And, Eve, if you did something illegal, I couldn’t protect you either.”

  “I don’t expect you to.” She turned suddenly, looking up with eyes that were almost black. Intense. He couldn’t have turned away had he tried. “Do you want me to stop?”

  Desire surged through him like a storm and he tightened his hands into fists to keep them to himself. This is not the time, Webster. Focus. “Are you close?”

  Her dark eyes flashed dangerously. She felt it too. “Very.”

  He made himself think of Martha and Christy and Samantha. He thought of Eve, drawn into this mess because she couldn’t, wouldn’t look away. Then he thought of the other names on her list and wondered who would be next because a killer was playing a damned game. “No,” he whispered hoarsely. “I don’t want you to stop.”

  She settled. “All right then. I’ll call you when I have something I think you can use.”

  Cautiously he lifted his hand to touch her cheek. “Earlier, in the Deli…”

  Her cheek grew flushed beneath his fingertips. “It won’t happen again.”

  “Yes, it will. And when it does, it won’t be an act. For either of us.” He took a step back, dropping his hand from her face. “I need to go.”

  She nodded, unsteadily, making his blood churn. “Don’t forget your hat.”

  Noah took his hat from the bookshelf where he’d left it the night before. Questions filled his mind, too many to ask. But she’d opened the door to her life and he’d ask a question before she closed it again. “I read about what happened to you six years ago. But I couldn’t find anything about why. Why did that man try to kill you?”

  “To get to his wife and his son. They’d run away because he’d beaten them for years. I knew them, loved them both. I didn’t know who he was at first, but figured it out. I was afraid he’d find Caroline and Tom and make their lives a living hell all over again.”

  “So he was trying to stop you from warning them?”

  “Partly, yes. But he had a gun. He could have just shot me and finished the job. Mercifully. But he didn’t.” She swallowed hard. “Instead, he stabbed me eight times. Slashed my face open. Nearly filleted my hand. Then he strangled me.”

  “Because it gave him pleasure,” Noah said grimly.

  “Yes.” She crossed her arms over her chest, body language screaming volumes. “I know the kind of monster you’re seeking, Noah. I stared mine in the eyes as he pulled that twine tighter around my throat. Yours won’t stop. He won’t stop until you stop him.”

  “And you?” He had to force the words from his tight throat. “Until you stop him?”

  Her eyes were dark. Stark. So incredibly alone. “I didn’t stop my monster. In my dreams he comes back, again and again. I’d do almost anything to stop yours.”

  He nodded hard. “Lock your door.” He waited until he heard the deadbolt slide into place, then went back to the car where Jack was drumming his fingers impatiently.

  “Are we ready to go to work now?” he asked acidly.

  “In a minute.” Noah dialed Abbott. “It’s Web. Eve’s fine, but she’s had Buckland from the Mirror and her advisor’s secretary on her ass.”

  “Where’s her ass now?” Abbott asked dryly.

  “We just took her home. We’re going to Marshall to talk to Lyons and Donner, then work the waffle houses. Has Faye run checks on Jeremy Lyons and Donald Donner?”

  “I’ll check and call you,” Abbott said.

  Noah made himself say it. “We need to make a formal request to the university for their subject files. Eve said each participant listed their worst fear on a questionnaire.”

  “The snake,” Abbott said. “That actually makes sense. As soon as we make the request, Eve’s going to be the first person they look to for the leak.”

  “She knows that. She’s prepared to take the consequences.”

  Abbott sighed. “Maybe Carleton can help her so this doesn’t damage her too much.”

  “Damage control,” Noah murmured, fighting the urge to lick his lips. “I hope so.”

  Jack’s jaw was tight when he’d hung up. “Now we get to work?”

  Noah took one last look in his rearview before putting the car into gear. “Yes.”

  Tuesday, February 23, 10:45 a.m.

  Frowning, Harvey watched Webster and Phelps drive away. “Who lives here?”

  Dell was busily inputting the address into the property tax web-site he’d brought up on his BlackBerry. “Deed’s held by a Myron Daulton.”

  “Webster was here three times last night. She’s important. I got a picture of Webster walking her inside. Unfortunately, he didn’t touch her, today or last night.”

  Dell snorted. “He sure did at that coffee place. Take a look.”

  Harvey looked at Dell’s camera display where Noah Webster and the woman were locked in a passionate embrace. “Webster is using taxpayers’ vehicles on taxpayers’ time to drive his lady friend around. But that’s not nearly enough.”

  “No,” Dell murmured. “It’s not. Not nearly enough.”

  “Dell. Remember our plan.”

  Dell smiled slightly. “Of course. The plan that’s working so well.”

  Harvey’s hand was slapping Dell’s mouth before he knew it. “Watch your mouth.”

  Dell touched the corner of his lip. “Whatever you say, Pop.” But his eyes were hard and angry and Harvey wondered how much longer he’d be able to control his own son.

  “Which way are they headed now?” Harvey asked.

  Dell checked the navsat screen he held. Planting a tracking device under each of the detectives’ cars had been Dell’s idea, and a damn good one. “Toward the city.”

  “Then follow. I’m right behind you.” Dell got out of the Subaru and went back to his own car while Harvey thought about Webster having a girlfriend. Women were weak. They’d be able to get all kinds of good information out of her with the right inducement.

  Tuesday, February 23, 12:15 p.m.

  “Thanks.” Eve glanced up briefly as David put a sandwich next to her elbow, then returned her eyes to her computer screen. “I appreciate you doing the shopping.”

  “I thought I’d better, since I’d like to eat while I’m here,” he said. “Are you in?”

  “Finally. ShadowCo’s security is better than average. Took longer than I thought.”

  “And? What did you find?”

  “What I expected. He altered the avatar files on both Martha’s Desiree and Christy’s Gwenivere. It’s how he made their faces look as if they’d been made up. He also changed the rooms in their virtual homes with the rope and the shoes he left behind.”

  “And so? Can you figure out who he was?”

  “Not directly. He made these changes using his victims’ user IDs. But both avatars have been changed the same way. If you dig deep enough, the graphics are just lines of code. The code gets kind of clunky, where he changed it.”

  “Clunky.” He gave her an amused look. “So he’s an amateur?”

  “Perhaps. The code he wrote gets the job done—the avatar’s face changed. But a professional programmer would have done it more elegantly.”

  “Now you sound like Ethan,” David commented blandly. “He likes to say ‘elegant.’ ”

  “Ethan taught me a lot,” she said cautiously. To love Dana could have meant David had to hate Ethan, but Eve knew that wasn’t true. Still, she was careful not to lavish too much praise on the man who’d made her guardian happy and her friend miserable.

  “Like how to break and enter, virtually. Which can get you arrested in the real world.”

  “Now you sound like Noah.”

  “Whose hat is no longer on your bookshelf.”

  Irritated, she kept her eyes on the screen. “You get the stuff to fix my roof?”

  “Ordered it. I pick it up after three. I can take you up to get your car on the way.”

  “Thank you. I’ll
pay you for all the supplies.” She had enough put aside. She hoped.

  “Miss Moneybags,” he scoffed gently. “I’ll pay for it. You do know you’re ultimately helping your landlord? Once he kicks you out, he’ll have an improved roof at no cost.”

  “But he’ll learn that he can’t kick people around. That he can’t kick me around.” Then she understood. “You’re helping because you don’t want him kicking me around, either.”

  “Too many people have,” he said quietly. “You’ve pulled yourself out of something that would have broken most people. I’m proud of you.” Her throat closed, her eyes filled. There were no words, but she knew he understood. “Get back to your virtual B&E. But I want you to give Webster a chance. That’s my price for fixing your roof.”

  He left her alone, but Eve couldn’t focus. She saw Noah’s face reflected in the window, worried and understanding. That’s why I drink tonic water. She wondered what journey had brought him to the place of a recovering alcoholic.

  She chided herself for being so selfish that she hadn’t seen, or cared for, his feelings. And for just a second she let herself remember how he’d tasted when she’d kissed him. How good she’d felt when his arms wrapped tight around her.

  But giving him a chance? No. Not even for David. Because in the end she didn’t want to hurt Noah Webster or any other nice guy who was looking for a future, because in the end, there would be none. Not with me. That was Eve’s reality.

  She blinked, clearing her eyes so that she could see her screen. For Noah, she had to be careful. After he’d left, she’d called Ethan and at his direction had taken precautions, routing through a dozen proxy servers to make tracing her online movement difficult. But ShadowCo could still find her, and the blame might fall on Noah.

  And that wouldn’t do at all because Noah was a good man. There had to be a way to stop this monster. Just knowing he’d been in Shadowland, messing around with avatars, wasn’t good enough. She had to use what she knew to make him show his face in the real world. It wouldn’t be easy. Noah’s monster was very smart, so far staying one step ahead of them. I’ll just have to be smarter.