Whip Hand

by Dick Francis

  ‘Yes, but …’

  ‘There’s Peter Rammileese,’ I said. ‘Perhaps Eddy Keith might really sort out those syndicates, now. It would only get Rammileese deeper in if he boasted that he’d bribed Lucas, so I shouldn’t think he would. I doubt if he’d talk about Chico and me, either.’

  Except perhaps, I thought sardonically, to complain that I’d hit him very hard.

  ‘What about the two men from Glasgow?’ Sir Thomas said. ‘Are they just to get away with it?’

  ‘I’d rather that than go to court again as a victim,’ I said. I half smiled. ‘You might say that the business over my hand successfully deterred me from that sort of thing for the rest of my life.’

  A certain amount of urbane relief crept into both the faces and the general proceedings.

  ‘However,’ Sir Thomas said. The resignation of the Director of Security cannot be undertaken lightly. We must judge for ourselves whether or not what you have said is justified. The photographs of Mr Barnes aren’t enough. So please … take off your shirt.’

  Bugger it, I thought I didn’t want to. And from the distaste in their faces, they didn’t want to see. I hated the whole damn thing. Hated what had happened to us. Detested it. I wished I hadn’t come to Portman Square.

  ‘Sid,’ Sir Thomas said seriously. ‘You must.’

  I undid the buttons and stood up and slid the shirt off. The only pink bit of me was the plastic arm, the rest being mottled black with dark red criss-crossed streaks. It looked, by that time, with all the bruising coming out, a lot worse than it felt. It looked, as I knew, appalling. It also looked, on that day, the worst it would. It was because of that that I’d insisted on going to Portman Square on that day. I hadn’t wanted to show them the damage, yet I’d known they would insist, and I would have to: and if I had to, that day was the most convincing. The human mind was deviously ambivalent, when it wanted to defeat its enemies.

  In a week or so, most of the marks would have gone, and I doubted whether there would be a single permanent external scar. It had all been quite precisely a matter of outraging the sensitive nerves of the skin, transient, leaving no trace. With such a complete lack of lasting visible damage, the Scots would know that even if they were brought to trial, they would get off lightly. For a hand, all too visible, the sentence had been four years. The going rate for a few days’ surface discomfort was probably three months. In long robbery-with-violence sentences it was always the robbery that stretched the time, not the violence.

  ‘Turn round,’ Sir Thomas said.

  I turned round, and after a while I turned back. No one said anything. Charles looked at his most unruffled. Sir Thomas stood up and walked over to me, and inspected the scenery more closely. Then he picked up my shirt from the chair, and held it for me to put on again.

  I said ‘Thank you,’ and did up the buttons. Pushed the tails untidily into the top of my trousers. Sat down.

  It seemed quite a long time before Sir Thomas lifted the inter-office telephone and said to his secretary, ‘Would you ask Commander Wainwright to come here, please?’

  If the administrators still had any doubts, Lucas himself dispelled them. He walked briskly and unsuspectingly into a roomful of silence, and when he saw me sitting there he stopped moving suddenly, as if his brain had given up transmitting to his muscles.

  The blood drained from his face, leaving the grey-brown eyes staring from a barren landscape. I had an idea that I must have looked like that to Trevor Deansgate, in the Stewards’ box at Chester. I thought that quite likely, at that moment, Lucas couldn’t feel his feet on to the carpet.

  ‘Lucas,’ Sir Thomas said, pointing to a chair, ‘sit down.’

  Lucas fumbled his way into the chair with his gaze still fixedly on me, as if he couldn’t believe I was there, as if by staring hard enough he could make me vanish.

  Sir Thomas cleared his throat. ‘Lucas, Sid Halley, here, has been telling us certain things which require explanation.’

  Lucas was hardly listening. Lucas said to me, ‘You can’t be here.’

  ‘Why not?’ I said.

  They waited for Lucas to answer, but he didn’t.

  Sir Thomas said eventually, ‘Sid has made serious charges. I’ll put them before you, Lucas, and you can answer as you will.’

  He repeated more or less everything I’d told them, without emphasis and without mistake. The judicial mind, I thought, taking the heat out of things, reducing passion to probabilities. Lucas appeared to be listening, but he looked at me all the time.

  ‘So you see,’ Sir Thomas said finally, ‘we are waiting for you to deny – or admit – that Sid’s theories are true.’

  Lucas turned his head away from me and looked vaguely round the room.

  ‘It’s all rubbish, of course,’ he said.

  ‘Carry on,’ said Sir Thomas.

  ‘He’s making it all up.’ He was thinking again, fast. The briskness in some measure returned to his manner. ‘I certainly didn’t tell him to investigate any. syndicates. I certainly didn’t tell him I had doubts about Eddy. I never talked to him about this imaginary Mason. He’s invented it all.’

  ‘With what purpose?’ I said.

  ‘How should I know?’

  ‘I didn’t invent coming here twice to copy down notes of the syndicates,’ I said. ‘I didn’t invent Eddy complaining because I’d seen those files. I didn’t invent you telephoning Chico at my flat four times. I didn’t invent you dropping us at the car park. I didn’t invent Peter Rammileese, who might be persuaded to … er … talk. I could also find those two Scots, if I tried.’

  ‘How?’ he said.

  I’d ask young Mark, I thought, He would have learnt a lot about the friends in all that time: little Mark and his accurate ears.

  I said, ‘Don’t you mean, I invented the Scots?’

  He glared at me.

  ‘I could also,’ I said slowly, ‘start looking for the real reasons behind all this. Trace the rumours of corruption to their source. Find out who, besides Peter Rammileese, is keeping you in Mercedes.’

  Lucas Wainwright was silent. I didn’t know that I could do all I’d said, but he wouldn’t want to bet I couldn’t. If he hadn’t thought me capable he’d have seen no need to get rid of me in the first place. It was his own judgement I was invoking, not mine.

  ‘Would you be prepared for that, Lucas?’ Sir Thomas said.

  Lucas stared my way some more, and didn’t answer.

  ‘On the other hand,’ I said, ’I think if you resigned, it would be the end of it.’

  He turned his head away from me and stared at the Senior Steward instead.

  Sir Thomas nodded. ‘That’s all, Lucas. Just your resignation, now, in writing. If we had that, I would see no reason to proceed any further.’

  It was the easiest let-off anyone could have had, but to Lucas, at that moment, it must have seemed bad enough. His face looked strained and pale, and there were tremors round his mouth.

  Sir Thomas produced from his desk a sheet of paper, and from his pocket a gold ball-point pen.

  ‘Sit here, Lucas.’

  He rose and gestured to Lucas to sit by the desk.

  Commander Wainwright walked over with stiff legs and shakily sat where he’d been told. He wrote a few words, which I read later. I resign from the post of Director of Security to the Jockey Club. Lucas Wainwright.

  He looked around at the sober faces, at the people who had known him well, and trusted him, and had worked with him every day. He hadn’t said a Word, since he’d come into the office, of defence or appeal. I thought: how odd it must be for them all, facing such a shattering readjustment.

  He stood up, the pepper and salt man, and walked towards the door.

  As he came to where I sat he paused, and looked at me blankly, as if not understanding.

  ‘What does it take,’ he said, ‘to stop you?’

  I didn’t answer.

  What it took rested casually on my knee. Four strong fingers, an
d a thumb, and independence.

  20

  Charles drove us back to Aynsford.

  ‘You’ll get a bellyful of courtrooms anyway,’ he said. ‘With Nicholas Ashe, and Trevor Deansgate.’

  ‘It’s not so bad just being an ordinary witness.’

  ‘You’ve done it a good few times, now.’

  ‘Yes,’ I said.

  ‘What will Lucas Wainwright do after this, I wonder.’

  ‘God knows.’

  Charles glanced at me. ‘Don’t you feel the slightest desire to gloat?’

  ‘Gloat?’ I was astounded.

  ‘Over the fallen enemy.’

  ‘Oh yes?’ I said. ‘And in your war at sea, what did you do when you saw an enemy drowning?’ Gloat? Push him under?’

  ‘Take him prisoner,’ Charles said.

  After a bit I said, ‘His life from now on will be prison enough.’

  Charles smiled his secret smile, and ten minutes further on he said, ‘And do you forgive him, as well?’

  ‘Don’t ask such difficult questions.’

  Love thine enemy. Forgive. Forget. I was no sort of Christian, I thought. I could manage not to hate Lucas himself. I didn’t think I could forgive: and I would never forget.

  We rolled on to Aynsford, where Mrs Cross, carrying a tray upstairs to her private sitting room, told me that Chico was up, and feeling better, and in the kitchen. I went along there and found him sitting alone at the table, looking at a mug of tea.

  ‘Hullo,’ I said.

  ‘Hullo.’

  There was no need, with him, to pretend anything. I filled a mug from the pot and sat opposite him.

  ‘Bloody awful,’ he said. ‘Wasn’t it?’

  ‘Yeah.’

  ‘And I was dazed, like.’

  ‘Mm.’

  ‘You weren’t. Made it worse.’

  We sat for a while without talking. There was a sort of stark dullness in his eyes, and none of it, any longer, was concussion.

  ‘Do you reckon,’ he said, ‘they let your head alone, for that?’

  ‘Don’t know.’

  ‘They could’ve.’

  I nodded. We drank the tea, bit by bit.

  ‘What did they say, today?’ he said. ‘The brass.’

  ‘They listened. Lucas resigned. End of story.’

  ‘Not for us.’

  ‘No.’

  I moved stiffly on the chair.

  ‘What’ll we do?’ he said.

  ‘Have to see.’

  ‘I couldn’t …’ He stopped. He looked tired and sore, and dispirited.

  ‘No,’ I said. ‘Nor could I.’

  ‘Sid … I reckon … I’ve had enough.’

  ‘What, then?’

  ‘Teach judo.’

  And I could make a living, I suppose, from equities, commodities, insurance, and capital gains. Some sort of living … not much of a life.

  In depression we finished the tea, feeling battered and weak and sorry for ourselves. I couldn’t go on if he didn’t, I thought. He’d made the job seem worthwhile. His naturalness, his good nature, his cheerfulness: I needed them around me. In many ways I couldn’t function without him. In many ways, I wouldn’t bother to function, if I didn’t have him to consider.

  After a while I said, ‘You’d be bored.’

  ‘What, with Wembley and not hurting, and the little bleeders?’

  I rubbed my forehead, where the stray cut itched.

  ‘Anyway,’ he said, ‘it was you, last week, who was going to give up.’

  ‘Well … don’t like being …’ I stopped.

  ‘Beaten,’ he said.

  I took my hand away and looked at his eyes. There was the same thing there that had suddenly been in his voice. An awareness of the two meanings of the word. A glimmer of sardonic amusement Life on its way back.

  ‘Yeah.’ I smiled twistedly. ‘I don’t like being beaten. Never did.’

  ‘Sod the buggers, then?’ he said.

  I nodded. ‘Sod ’em.’

  ‘All right.’

  We went on sitting there, but it was a lot better, after that.

  Three days later, on Monday evening, we went back to London, and Chico, humouring the fears he didn’t take seriously, came with me to the flat.

  The hot weather had gone back to normal, or in other words, warm-front drizzle. Road surfaces were slippery with the oily patina left by hot dry tyres, and in West London every front garden was soggy with roses. Two weeks to the Derby … and perhaps Tri-Nitro would run in it, if the infection cleared up. He was fit enough, apart from that.

  The flat was empty and quiet.

  ‘Told you,’ Chico said, dumping my suitcase in the bedroom. ‘Want me to look in the cupboards?’

  ‘As you’re here.’

  He raised his eyebrows to heaven and did an inch by inch search.

  ‘Only spiders,’ he said. ‘They’ve caught all the flies.’

  We went down to where I’d parked at the front and I drove him to his place.

  ‘Friday,’ I said. ‘I’m going away for a few days.’

  ‘Oh yes? Dirty weekend?’

  ‘You never know. I’ll call you, when I get back.’

  ‘Just the nice gentle crooks from now on, right?’

  ‘Throw all the big ones back,’ I said.

  He grinned, waved, and went in, and I drove away with lights going on everywhere in the dusk. Back at the flats I went round to the lock-up garages to leave the car in the one I rented there, out of sight.

  Unlocked the roll-up door, and pushed it high. Switched the light on. Drove the car in. Got out Locked the car door. Put the keys in my pocket.

  ‘Sid Halley,’ a voice said.

  A voice. His voice.

  Trevor Deansgate.

  I stood facing the door I’d just locked, as still as stone.

  ‘Sid Halley.’

  I had known it would happen, I supposed. Sometime, somewhere, like he’d said. He had made a serious threat He had expected to be believed. I had believed him.

  Oh God, I thought. It’s too soon. It’s always too soon. Let him not see the terror I feel. Let him not know. Dear God … give me courage.

  I turned slowly towards him.

  He stood a step inside the garage, in the light, the thin drizzle like a dark grey-silver sheet behind him.

  He held the shotgun, with the barrels pointing my way.

  I had a brick wall on my left and another behind me, and the car on my right; and there were never many people about at the back of the flats, by the garages. If anyone came, they’d hardly dawdle around, in the rain.

  ‘I’ve been waiting for you,’ he said.

  He was dressed, as ever, in city pinstripes. He brought, as always, the aura of power.

  With eyes and gun facing unwaveringly my way, he stretched up behind him quickly with his left hand and found the bottom edge of the roll-up door. He gave it a sharp downward tug, and it rolled down nearly to the ground behind him, closing us in. Both hands, clean, manicured, surrounded by white cuffs, were back on the gun.

  ‘I’ve been waiting for you, on and off, for days. Since last Thursday.’

  I didn’t say anything.

  ‘Last Thursday two policemen came to see me. George Caspar telephoned. The Jockey Club warned me they were going to take proceedings. My solicitor told me I’d lose my bookmaking licence. I would be warned off from racing, and might well go to jail. Since last Thursday, I’ve been waiting for you.’

  His voice, as before, was a threat in itself, heavy with the raw realities of the urban jungle.

  ‘The police have been to the lab. My brother is losing his job. His career. He worked hard for it.’

  ‘Let’s all cry,’ I said. ‘You both gambled. You’ve lost. Too bloody bad.’

  His eyes narrowed and the gun barrels moved an inch or two as his body reacted.

  ‘I came here to do what I said I would.’

  Gambled … lost … so had I.

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��I’ve been waiting in my car around these flats,’ he said. ‘I knew you’d come back, some time or other. I knew you would. All I had to do was wait. I’ve spent most of my time here, since last Thursday, waiting for you. So tonight you came back … with that friend. But I wanted you on your own … I went on waiting. And you came back. I knew you’d come, in the end.’

  I said nothing.

  ‘I came here to do what I promised. To blow your hand off.’ He paused. ‘Why don’t you beg me not to? Why don’t you go down on your bloody knees and beg me not to?’

  I didn’t answer. Didn’t move.

  He gave a short laugh that had no mirth in it at all. ‘It didn’t top you, did it, that threat? Not for long. I thought it would. I thought no one could risk losing both their hands. Not just to get me busted. Not for something small, like that. You’re a bloody fool, you are.’

  I agreed with him, on the whole. I was also trembling inside, and concerned that he shouldn’t see it.

  ‘You don’t turn a hair, do you?’ he said.

  He’s playing with me, I thought. He must know I’m frightened. No one could possibly, in those circumstances, not be frightened to death. He’s making me sweat … wanting me to beg him … and I’m not … not… going to.

  ‘I came here to do it,’ he said. ‘I’ve been sitting here for days, thinking about it. Thinking of you with no hands … with just stumps … two plastic hooks.’

  Sod you, I thought.

  ‘Today,’ he said. ‘I started thinking about myself. I shoot off Sid Halley’s right hand, and what happens to me?’ He stared at me with increased intensity. ‘I get the satisfaction of fixing you, making you a proper cripple instead of half a one. I get revenge … hideous delightful revenge. And what else do I get? I get ten years, perhaps. You can get life for GBH, if it’s bad enough. Both hands … that might be bad enough. That’s what I’ve been sitting here today thinking. And I’ve been thinking of the feeling there’d be against me in the slammer, for shooting your other hand off. Yours, of all people. I’d be better off killing you. That’s what I thought.’

  I thought numbly that I wasn’t so sure either that I wouldn’t rather be dead.

  ‘This evening,’ he said, ‘after you’d come back for ten minutes, and gone away again, I thought of rotting away in jail year after year wishing I’d had the bloody sense to leave you alone. I reckoned it wasn’t worth years in jail, just to know I’d fixed you. Fixed you alive, or fixed you dead. So I decided, just before you came back, not to do that, but just to get you down on the ground squealing for me not to. I’d have my revenge that way. I’d remind you of it, all your life. I’d tell people I’d had you crawling. Make them snigger.’