Wesley [Resistant Omegas 7] (Siren Publishing Ménage Amour ManLove)

by Joyee Flynn

  “Glad someone feels that way,” I replied, shooting Bay, Harkin, and Levey a dirty look as I stood with the pups in my arms.

  “We didn’t say that we weren’t glad you’re here or that you’re a bad guy, Wes. That’s not fair,” Bay said quietly.

  “Neither was you guys assuming the worst about me but mine was at least in response to that. What’s your excuse?” I didn’t wait for an answer, walking towards the house with Adam.

  Most of the pack lived in their own houses on the land whereas the main house was just for the Alpha and inner circle. That might actually make things harder for me given we wouldn’t be in mixed company and they could say what they wanted to me without others listening in.

  Oh well, one issue at a time.

  Adam ended up finding some temporary garden fencing in the barn and we set up a small pen, attaching it to some stakes he pounded into the ground. My inner circle didn’t join us, probably realizing they weren’t welcome.

  I thanked him when we were done, stepping inside just to get my debit card out of my wallet. Adam left and I sat down with the pups and fed each of them. They were so damn cute, curling up against each other and going right to bed when they had full tummies. I leaned against the side of the house and watched them.

  “I thought you might be hungry,” Levey said quietly as he came out of the house with a plate of sandwiches and chips.

  “Thanks.” I took it from him and the pop, not meeting his gaze. He hurt me and I wasn’t just going to forgive him and pretend everything was okay now that I’d chewed them out.

  “I am sorry, Wes. I didn’t think it through. I thought we all had a trial period and you seduced me out of it. But you’re right. I am a grown man, older than you even, and knew what I was doing. I was afraid Bay and Harkin would be pissed at my lack of control and it was easier to blame you. It was wrong of me and I really, truly am sorry. And the last thing I ever wanted to do was ruin your first time having sex that you actually wanted. I should have handled this better.”

  “Yes, you should have,” I agreed after a moment of thought. It was a good apology but I wasn’t over it yet. “I know what it’s like to not have a choice in things, in anything really. That’s the last thing I would ever want for someone else and I’d never trick a person into something they didn’t want. I knew what I was doing and I didn’t want you guys being careful or worrying about my taking time I didn’t need. That didn’t mean I didn’t want you as badly as I said I did.”

  “I’m sorry.”

  “Well, that’s a start I guess.”

  “How can we make this up to you?” Bay asked from the doorway, Harkin there as well.

  “Hell if I know.” I shrugged and started eating. I couldn’t tell them how to fix what they broke. They watched me eat and when I was done I handed Levey back the plate. Then I shifted and snuggled up with the pups. For now, I knew I needed space away from them and these little guys had no one else but me.

  I could be there for them and right then, that was the only thing I knew for sure.

  Chapter 5

  I woke the next morning to whimpering. Glancing down, I realized I was in wolf form and it was the pups I’d rescued. Odd that they didn’t ever seem blurry to me as if I was meant to find them and even my screwed-up brain and powers understood that. Or they were just so innocent that they couldn’t ever be anything but vivid in my vision.

  I liked that idea too.

  Shifting back, I picked them up in my arms, grabbed my discarded shirt from yesterday, and headed inside. At first I wasn’t sure what to do with them while I made the formula. But after a moment I figured out how to wrap them in my shirt and a kitchen towel so they couldn’t roll off the counter or something. I quickly got everything together, grabbed a bottle of water for myself, and then carried the cubs back outside.

  Once I got them settled in their pen, figuring out a way to hold both their bottles at once so they could feed together, I simply watched them. Just when they were wrapping up I heard movement in the kitchen and winced. I didn’t want to deal with any of them. I really didn’t.

  But I didn’t get what I wanted ever it seemed and the back door opened.

  “How do I remember them?” I whispered in shock. I couldn’t even remember my best friend or anyone after I’d slept so why could I remember everything now?

  “Morning,” one blurry man said quietly. I glanced at them, not being able to see two of them, but knowing that they were either Bay or Harkin. Levey though… Him I could see.

  “Damn you, Levey,” I whimpered. “Damn you to hell.”

  “How can you see me?” Levey asked, his eyes going wide. And then I saw the realization hit him. “This is great, Wes!”

  “I hate you right now,” I growled, wiping my eyes before shifting. It wasn’t great. It broke my fucking heart into a million pieces!

  “I don’t get it,” Levey said as he glanced at Bay and Harkin. “Why is this a bad thing? He can remember.”

  “Because it means his vision was right,” Bay surmised, hitting it right on the head. I still couldn’t see him but I knew their voices. “He was right that we were the ones he saw and need to help him. But he was hoping he was wrong after the way we screwed up. He doesn’t want us to be the ones anymore.”

  “Plus, I’d think this is something he’d want to celebrate except he can’t with us since we’re the jerks who hurt him,” Harkin added.

  “Oh,” Levey whispered, looking as if his whole world was shattering around him. I knew the feeling. “I’m so sorry, Wes. You can bite me if it would make you feel better.” I thought he was kidding until he knelt by the pen and extended his arm out to me. “If you want to bite me somewhere else I offer it to you freely.”

  I turned around, giving them my back. The pups whined, feeling my distress, and I lay down with them. They jumped all over me, trying to play and cheer me up. I didn’t want to be happy right then but the pups had been through a lot and needed comfort. They didn’t need a depressed adopted dad right then.

  Nipping one of their tails, I snorted when the other launched himself on my face and growled. I licked his tummy and he gave a happy yip. We spent the next half an hour playing until I wore them out. They snuggled up against me and went right to bed. My stomach growled and I knew it was time to take care of myself even though the idea of eating wasn’t all that appealing.

  “I could shift and keep them company while you eat and stuff,” Levey offered. I turned and saw they were all still there. I’d been so intent on ignoring them that when the pups distracted me I really had forgotten they were there. I shifted back and gave him a long stare.

  “You screw this up or hurt them and I will never forgive you. Are we clear on that?”

  “Yeah, I’m just going to shift and snuggle with them. I won’t hurt them, Wes. I like pups.”

  “I’ll only be a few minutes,” I hedged as I got to my feet, glancing at the pups again. “I’m just going to stuff my face and grab my laptop. I want to order them some stuff. Do you guys have Wi-Fi here?”

  “Yeah, but we keep the network hidden and it has a password. If you get me into your laptop I’ll get you all connected and the network saved,” Bay offered. It annoyed me that I couldn’t see them. I stepped over the pen and towards him.

  “I still can’t see you and it’s annoying me,” I told him as I stood on my toes. He got the idea and gave me a quick kiss right before Harkin did the same. “That doesn’t mean I forgive you.”

  “We screwed up. We know that. It was a misunderstanding, Wes,” Harkin said quietly as he pulled me into his arms.

  “You really see it that way? That’s all you think happened here?” I pushed him away and hissed under my breath so the pups didn’t wake up. “You didn’t trust me. You treated me like I was some manipulative monster. Hell, I’m hurt you could even think that about me. After all I’ve been through you thought I could ever stomach the idea of taking someone else’s choices away.

  “The c
hoices of the men I signed a contract with and made out with. This is so much more than a simple argument or misunderstanding.” I shook my head and stepped towards the house. “Levey, I leave my pups in your care. Don’t screw this up too or I swear I will bite you in the worst places.”

  “Got it.” He swallowed nervously as he got undressed. Then he stepped into the pen, shifted, and snuggled with the pups. Once I saw they didn’t freak out by his presence I headed into the house. I quickly did all the normal morning grooming in my room, grabbing my laptop, and heading into the kitchen. I checked on Levey out the back window, seeing he was even napping with the pups now.

  I booted up my laptop and left it for Bay to deal with. Then I made myself some toast since my stomach was in knots. I had realized something last night and I didn’t like what I had to do.

  “One of you can claim me this afternoon when the pups are sleeping if Levey doesn’t mind taking care of them while we do it,” I said. The room was so quiet after that as I buttered my toast, I could only hear the crunching of the knife rubbing against it.

  “So you forgive us?” Harkin asked hesitantly.

  “No, not even remotely. But I knew what I was getting into when I let Levey take me. I need an inner circle to ground me and this will help me. That doesn’t mean that things are fine now or I want anything real with the three of you. I will do my duty as your Omega and make you and this pack strong. Other than that, I want nothing to do with you.”

  “That’s not what we want,” Bay growled, moving closer to me and surrounding me from behind. “We want all of you, baby.” His lips were warm and soft against my shoulder as he cornered me against the counter. “Gods, you drive me insane. You’re walking around here naked, pissed at us, but still so fucking hot that all I can think of is having you.”

  “Go ahead. As long as Levey and the pups don’t wake up we can do it now,” I said with no real feeling. I was theirs and I knew my duty. Plus, they were hot and they wouldn’t ever beat me.

  That didn’t mean I’d give them another chance at my heart.

  “Kiss me,” he moaned as he tried to turn me around.

  “No,” I whispered, using my powers to keep me where I wanted. He was stronger physically but I was a new level of Omega with gifts most couldn’t fathom. “You can have my ass, not my lips, not my heart. Take it or leave it.”

  “Fine,” he growled as he undid his jeans. “For now, but we will change your mind.”

  I shrugged. He could believe that, but I didn’t. And saying it wasn’t going to happen would only start an argument. I didn’t want that either. If I wasn’t going to have love with my inner circle as I had hoped when I signed the contract, at least maybe I could have some peace.

  Bay lifted me up and moved me over to the kitchen island, laying me facedown on the counter. Then he quickly stretched me out with lots of slick.

  “Are they still asleep?” I asked Harkin, nodding towards the window as Bay pushed his cock inside of me.

  “Could you at least focus?” Bay bitched.

  “I am,” I countered, then bit my lip. I hadn’t meant to be a shit there but the pups were my first priority.

  “On me!” he growled as he shoved the rest of the way inside of me. “It’s our claiming sex. The least you could do is focus on me for five minutes.”

  “Would you shut up and just do it? Gods, it’s all so about what you guys want, what you need, what I’m doing wrong. I’m here and this isn’t the way I wanted things either. So quit your bitching and get it done or don’t bother doing it.”

  He didn’t say anything then, kissing my shoulder instead. I figured that was his way of apologizing. Maybe? I wasn’t sure but at least he stopped whining like he was the injured party here. He molded his body to mine, making sure my dick wasn’t getting smashed against the counter. Then he pulled me off the counter slightly, not enough so my feet touched the ground, but so his hand could jack me off while he took me.

  “I’m so sorry, Wes,” he whispered as he thrust into me over and over again, kissing my neck and shoulders.

  “Harder,” I demanded, hoping that he’d stop trying to make love to me and just fuck me. He did as I wanted, grunting and moaning as I was. I enjoyed it. He was fabulous and knew what to do. That didn’t mean my heart was into it.

  “Is this good?”

  “Yes, oh gods, yes!” He picked up the pace, spurred on by my desire, stroking me faster as well. “I’m gonna come.”

  “Do it, baby.” He licked the nape of my neck and then bit me, bonding us for the rest of our lives. I cried out as I reached my peak, coming all over his hand. Bay moaned and went stiff seconds before filling me with his release. He let go of my flesh as he kept pumping more and more of his cum into me.

  When we were spent he slumped to the ground, pulling me with him on his lap. I rested back against his massive chest, needing a few moments to recover.

  “That was fantastic,” he purred, rubbing his hands over my hips as he started to get hard inside of me again. “We could do that all day if you wanted, my mate.”

  I flinched at the term and pulled away from him. “I’m your Omega, not your mate. The sex was great, but that’s all it was.”

  “I know you’re hurt and angry with us but how can you be so cold? You know that was more than great sex.”

  “Don’t. Don’t you dare judge me on something else. You don’t get to say if I’m being cold or not,” I whispered as I stood on shaky legs, making sure he couldn’t see the tears in my eyes. But Harkin did. I walked over to the sink, wetting some paper towels and then cleaning myself up. “I have to get back to the pups.”

  “Wesley,” Bay sighed. I shook my head and tossed out the towels before grabbing more and my breakfast. I walked out the back door, not even being able to look at him. They’d hurt me. I could barely deal with being their Omega and they sure as hell didn’t even deserve that.

  I plopped down in the pen, leaning against the house. Levey’s eyes opened and he sniffed the air. He gave me a hungry look that had nothing to do with the food in my hands, but I ignored it. I’d hit my drama limit for one morning. The moment I was done eating I set my garbage outside of the pen and got on all fours.

  “You can shift back and do whatever it is you need to do,” I told Levey. He nodded and moved away from the pups. When I felt the air vibrate to signal that he was changing forms, I shifted into my wolf. We didn’t need to talk to each other and this way I couldn’t. Hopefully he got the hint.

  “Thank you for giving me the chance to show I’m worthy of your trust.” He leaned over to me and kissed my wolf nose before getting to his feet. I sighed as I moved where he had been and wrapped around the pups. Watching him walk away in all his naked beauty hurt my heart. I had wanted something real with them so badly that I felt as if I’d been lied to again on how things could be.

  I cried myself to sleep, deciding to try my best on focusing on the pups and nothing else. They didn’t have anyone else and it seemed neither did I.

  * * * *

  The next week I spent most of my time with the pups. I talked to Tristan a few times, lying through my teeth that everything was fine. I did tell him that the trial period was over and all about the pups. He smiled and wished me the best, probably knowing I was full of shit. He told me to take some time to get to know my mates and next month he’d be sending me an Omega to work with.

  I’d flinched at the word mates but hoped he hadn’t noticed.

  Harkin had claimed me as well so now I could see and know who people were. As much as that should have thrilled me, I found myself slipping deeper and deeper into depression. I had sex at least twice a day, normally with two of them while the third watched the pups for me.

  At least the wolf pups were doing well. Stacy had been helping me with them, letting me know that soon they’d be off the formula and I could start bringing them live kills to supplement their food intake.

  I had ordered a bunch of toys for them and a child’s pl
aypen in case I had to leave them alone so they wouldn’t run off. They followed me everywhere, no matter which form I was in. And they were so smart, mimicking whatever I did. I knew they were natural wolves, but in a way, they were my kids. My wolf had bonded with them and he was incredibly protective of them.

  I also kept up with cleaning the lake. Granted, I wasn’t going around to a bunch of different spots on the lake like the original plan so the process was slower. Instead I kept throwing out the biggest power net I could and dragging things to our shore as I could. Then I’d help grow the water plants and remineralize the soil as it needed.

  It was complicated and I wasn’t really even sure how I was doing it, but Mike told me that they were seeing more fish on their trips out on the boats. So that was something.

  The second week I was tired all the time, napping with the pups as they did. Part of it was the fact that they didn’t sleep through the night, needing formula and basically doing what babies did. So when they slept, I did.

  But it was more than that. The sex with my inner circle left me feeling empty and it got worse each time we did it. I started avoiding them or coming up with excuses as to why I couldn’t. They seemed confused but didn’t say much.

  I also spent a lot of time crying in my wolf form. This wasn’t the life I had imagined when I’d signed that contract. I had wanted more, real love, and a real mating. Instead the only love I got was from the pups.

  The beginning of my third week at Medical Lake, I had given the pups their first lesson in hunting. After they were fed, they fell right to sleep, and I headed inside. They wanted to stay with me now and I didn’t have to worry about someone watching them constantly. Granted, I never left for all that long, but I didn’t have to be with them always at least now.

  “There you are,” Bay purred as I headed towards my room. They were all in the kitchen for lunch and my Alpha pounced on me.

  “I need a shower,” I sighed as he touched me intimately. “I want to brush my teeth and get cleaned up.”