The Finder

by Colin Harrison

  The bouncers saw a man go down, nodded to each other, and lifted Ears up by the elbows. He wasn't light. His mouth was wet and hung open.

  "Okay, pal."

  They dragged him out the front door as a Mexican kid vacuumed up the glass. A cab was waiting. A cab was always waiting at this place. Ears gurgled and thrashed his head.

  "SoHo Grand," said the bouncer, pushing Ears inside and slamming the door shut. He gave the cabby a fifty, more than enough to shut him up, and meanwhile counted himself pleased with the easy money he'd just earned. The big guy had slumped over in the seat.

  "He gonna get out by himself?" said the worried cabby.

  "The doorman will help."

  The cabby lifted his open palms. "Is this bullshit or what?"

  "All right." The bouncer peeled off another twenty. Seventy dollars for a fifteen-buck fare.

  The cabby nodded in disgust, took the bill, and let his foot off the brake. Thirty blocks south he turned off into one of the side streets. The SoHo Grand was a hot place, filled with movie stars and rich Europeans. The doormen wouldn't take this guy. Plus the cabby didn't like how quiet it was back there. Usually the drunk guys rolled around a bit, started to snore. He clicked off his meter. If anyone asked, which they wouldn't, the fare had told him he didn't feel well and wanted to walk, get some air. He turned off his lights and engine and just sat there.

  Nothing. The street was empty. He noticed a smell in his cab, a bad smell, and pulled over.

  He was about to yank the guy out into the gutter for shitting up his cab, when he decided to see if he had any money on him. A quick inspection of his coat pocket revealed an envelope with more than $20,000 in it.

  I could buy myself a new car, the driver thought.

  He slapped Ears, checking his reaction.

  Nothing, just his head tossed back, panting, eyes open but unseeing.

  Ears took nine distinct cab rides in the next three hours. The car's windows were down. Each was a plausible fare, uptown, downtown, crosstown, to and from the usual places. For each, the cabby made careful notations on his fare log, tore off the receipt and tossed it. He made sure to drive for a few minutes between fares, as if looking for a passenger. Finally, near the end of his shift, he pulled over on a dark off-ramp of the FDR Drive, in a spot where the long cement traffic control barriers ran parallel to each other, leaving a narrow three-foot-deep slot between them. It was a hell of a job, but he managed, hoisting Ears up over the traffic barrier to flop down into the gap, still alive but not for long. He made a rasping noise. Could easily be weeks before somebody found him. The driver flipped the man's wallet out the window forty blocks south, and an hour later had pulled into his driveway in Sunnyside, Queens, where he could be seen wiping down his passenger seat with Lysol scented disinfectant, as he always did, eager to make his cab fresh for the next day.

  24

  Please, God, make me rich is a prayer of the poor. The rich, of course, can afford to pray for other things. But it is a truth not widely known that as men become very wealthy, with a minimum personal net worth of, say, $100 million, they cease to worship their god in any of the usual places. They may well continue to attend church or synagogue or mosque, but if they do, the quality of their worship is diluted or even nullified by the attentions, welcome or not, from others. People are watching them, they know, for signs of happiness, torment, greed, sickness, health, greatness, generosity-anything. Genuine worship is difficult under the circumstances. The alternative is to worship in a place where one is unknown, but wealthy men prefer to be known, for to be known to be genuinely rich confers protections and advantages and identity unavailable to those who are not. Of course, it is possible that such men do not worship at all, and many do not-especially the younger ones, thus far untroubled by disease or grief or bad luck. But as very wealthy men age, they generally choose to confront big questions in places of tranquillity. The best places to do this are either places where they may be alone or places where they appear to be doing something other than worshipping.

  East Hampton, New York, one of the most expensive seaside villages on earth, is loaded with men too old and too wealthy to bother going to houses of worship anymore. On weekends they are generally found on a tennis court or golf course, as might be expected. But not a small number of them may be found at Gooseman's Nursery a few miles outside of town. Very often they arrive having not necessarily set out to go there nor having told anyone where they were headed. They are drawn there, parking their Mercedes or Land Rover or whatever else they happen to be driving that day, and without speaking to anyone, set off on a private journey. The nursery covers eighty acres of the most beautiful specimen and ornamental trees to be found anywhere, trucked and flown in from around the world to decorate the ceaselessly changing face of the Hamptons. Where else may one wander into a grove of perfect Kwanzan cherry trees, then onto a beautiful miniature forest of blue atlas cedars, then among a nearly infinite array of Japanese maples, red, yellow, orange, then through a winding path of weeping birches, onward and onward through row after row of beautiful trees? Pin oaks, dogwoods, paper birches, Alaskan spruces, sycamores, dwarf pear, holly, Austrian pine, golden larch, weeping willow… it's all there. More private than a park, yet more orderly than a forest. A man wandering through Gooseman's Nursery confronts a godlike variety, an infinity of forms, the spectacular promise of growth. The power of time, expressed as a small tree. For the reality is that men can plant and move only small trees. A genuinely large tree, say higher than sixty feet, cannot be moved. So to confront small trees is to confront time future, and as everyone knows, trees may live much longer than any man. A wealthy man in his sixties, say, brushing against the soft needles of six-foot eastern white pines, knows that these trees will still be young when he is truly old and will be alive long after he is not. To look at trees is to apprehend time and death.

  Martz loved Gooseman's Nursery. He drove there several times a year. Connie didn't even know it existed. Only his first wife knew and that was because they'd picked out some ornamental plantings there. Years back. Many houses ago. That first weekend place had been bulldozed and built over with an eleven-thousand-square-foot shingle-style monstrosity that was itself bulldozed and built over with a twenty-three-thousand-square-foot Tuscan villa. He didn't like to think about it, just enjoyed wandering through the cedars and spruces, in particular, sitting on a favorite bench to rest. Which is what he did now, enjoying the sweat of walking in the sun, the smell of the trees.

  He looked at his watch. Time now.

  "I got the wrong row," croaked a voice.

  A man in plaid shorts and a white tennis shirt appeared from between the pine trees. He shuffled a bit, watching his footing in the sand, his thin calves spidered with varicose veins.

  "Right here," Martz said, not bothering to stand but lifting his hand to shake the hand of Elliot Sassoon.

  "How are you, Bill?"

  "Worse than ever."

  Elliot laughed as he sat down. "You always say that."

  Martz nodded. "Hey, thanks for making the trip."

  Elliot shrugged. "For you, my friend, the world. It's been awhile."

  "Couple, five years."

  "Still with Connie? Because if you're not, I want her number."

  "Still with her."

  "I figure if she'll look at you, she'll look at me."

  "She's probably looking at a few other guys, not that I could possibly blame her. What about you?"

  "I'm diabetic now, that's my big news. Just take pills. Can't have sugar."

  "You look thinner."

  Elliot shrugged. "We're old men now, Bill."

  "I know guys taking human growth hormone, swear by it."

  Elliot shrugged. Death stalked everyone. "So what are we doing today?"

  Martz's gaze went soft as he seemed to peer into the cave of his own imagination. Things lived in there, monstrous desires, wriggling schemes, petrified memories. "I'm going to do a lift soon, and I'm looking
for a little help."

  "When?"

  "Soon. I'm thinking we start Monday night."

  "That is soon. What's the play?"

  "It's Good Pharma. I came in for big shares. I'm negatively leveraged at around three hundred million."

  "Big position."

  "It's down a lot, thirty percent."

  " Big hole. I thought that was a good story. Promising stuff in the pipeline."

  "It is. Or was, anyway. There's some kind of leak and some Chinese guys rode it down. Made a lot on shorts. I'm not short on it, though, I need that price to come up."

  Elliot nodded.

  "I need to do this one thing and then dial it all back, Elliot. I got Connie, health pressures, I just want to clean up this little problem, go out on top, hand it over to the young cowboys."

  "Couldn't understand more. What's the total cap?"

  "About thirty bil."

  Elliot hummed through his nose.

  "I think we can move it with four hundred million," Martz said.

  "I don't have that kind of cash today. We can drop some things in the morning."

  "It's going to come quick."

  "Tell me the numbers? I haven't been following it."

  "It's riding around thirty-one. I want to get it up to forty-five, I'll take forty-three. I'd appreciate help around thirty-four as it's getting started, and maybe you'd get out at thirty-eight?"

  "I'd rather get in at thirty-two, get out at thirty-five, six."

  Martz smiled. "Knew you'd say that."

  "I knew you knew."

  "Okay, fine. Thirty-two on one end, thirty-six on the other."

  "Anything else to tell?"

  "Get your money ready. Be ready to night-trade. We're going to run this against a bunch of Chinese bastards who won't notice until their normal day of trading."

  "Volume or speed?"

  "I'll let you know how it will work. I don't have all the pieces in place yet."

  "But you will? Because if I'm really going to get the cash together, not wait until the next meeting…"

  "I'm getting the pieces into place. Don't worry."

  "I'm too old to worry. Instead I just mentally masticate."

  "Masturbate?"

  "That would be a most welcome sensation. I said masticate. You know, chew."

  The two men rose and ambled along the sandy trail between the rows of six-foot pine trees. As they neared the busier section of the nursery, Elliot turned to Bill and shook his hand. "Okay, big guy."

  Bill watched Elliot trudge along in front of him. He stood a minute or two longer, to be sure Elliot left first. Connie thought he'd gone out to get the newspaper. He didn't like to do lifts, had only performed four in the last fifteen years, all with Elliot. Each case involved a smaller company on the way up, where something anomalous had driven the share price lower, interrupted the story line. Lifts were risky: they might fail after a lot of money got spent. The share price could stay sticky, not move much, too many people selling into the artificial buying. It could even go down. That had been known to happen; the volume rose but the price dropped slightly as shareholders looked to unload big positions without getting whacked. A lift was also risky, if the SEC noticed. Elliot was the best in the business, but that didn't mean he was invincible.

  I'm really going to do this, Martz told himself glumly. I'm fucking how old and I'm still doing this shit? He found his car and buckled himself in. He needed Tom Reilly in his back pocket and he needed Chen. Well, he had Chen, who had called him just a few hours after the golden bull was delivered. They were on for tomorrow night. A surge of aggression ran through him as he gunned the car into traffic. He flipped open his cell phone as he drove, in violation of New York State law, and dialed his executive assistant, even though it was Saturday morning. "Call Kepler in China and transfer me," he ordered. The connection took a moment.

  "Bill?"

  "What'd you get on Chen?"

  "Good bit. Hooked in to the biggest guys. Banks, heavy industry. Fancies himself a master of the universe. He's in New York looking for his sister. We got that through his personal assistant."

  He knew this already, of course. But he needed to learn more before their dinner the next evening.

  "He's a principal investor in the Dwai Group, which is getting big now. Many of their members have seats or affiliations on the Shanghai Exchange. They are very tough investors. My gut feeling is that if he were to call up some big pals and green-light a major move on an American stock, then they would take him at his word. He's made big money for people, he'd be in the country, they'd think he was talking to guys like you, whoever, you know, and they'd probably sign up, take the shot. But he's very loyal to these people, Bill, he's not just going to roll over."

  "He needs the proper motivation."

  "Don't we all."

  Yes, Martz thought after hanging up. That's the part I don't have yet. I'm an old guy with a bad prostate and a wife with beautiful fake tits and my happiness rides now on understanding a young scam artist who crawled out of the gutter in Shanghai. Utterly ridiculous, except that it made absolutely perfect sense.

  25

  Violet had called him, a most unusual event. He waited for the buzzer, then climbed the stairs. She was in bed, shades drawn, smoking, a pile of magazines on the bedspread.

  "Jesus, Violet, why don't you kind of, you know, get it together a bit, you know?"

  She shifted her large bulk under the covers. "Can't, baby."

  "Why?"

  "Got what I need, more or less."

  "So, what did you want?"

  "I heard something that's going to interest you a lot."

  "What?"

  "Just pour me one first, okay?"

  He went to the dresser. The bottle he'd brought her the day before was still there, half empty.

  "So listen, Victor, I was talking to some people and they were saying about those girls who were found out by the beach-"

  "What's this got to do with me?"

  "Maybe nothing, all right?"

  He brought her the drink and sat down next to her. She sipped the glass.

  "I just thought you should know," Violet said, her eyes worried. He hadn't seen her like this in a long time.

  "All right, what?"

  "There was a third girl in that car."

  "What?" But of course that made sense. He thought there might be three people when he was following the car along the Belt Parkway, then later figured he'd been wrong.

  "Yes, she came out of the weeds, the grass near the little parking lot they got. Mrs. Polanzi's cousin has a house over there, she doesn't sleep much because her husband uses oxygen. She saw a pretty Chinese girl come running up the road there. It was raining, hard to see. She didn't think about it until later. She told the police about it the next day at the scene and they said thank you for the information, kind of like they knew already. Then a couple of days later she saw a big white limousine out there in the lot with a bunch of Chinese men in good suits. She'd never seen that before. It made her remember the Chinese girl. She wrote down the name of the limo company when the car went past again. She gave it to her cousin Frank, and Frank mentioned it to me and-"

  "Frank some other guy who plays hide the salami with you?"

  She punched him. "What do you care?"

  "Just curious."

  "You want to know?" she dared him. "You want me to tell you everything?"

  He stood to go.

  "Listen to me, Vic. I'm trying to help you. My friend Ronnie, who runs the limo service over in Bay Ridge, I asked him to make the call to the limo company even though it was a Manhattan company, he's got some connections there, you know, and he got through to the manager and the guy said that particular limo had real Chinese guys, from China, I mean, and that the bill went to some kind of Chinese bank or something. He said he charged them three times the usual, just to see what they'd do, and they said fine, whatever, charge it to our company, and he asked his driver, who was not Chin
ese, where they went and stuff and basically the driver said he didn't understand anything except that they were really looking for the girl who was in that car." Violet played with the edge of her nightgown. "Vic, she's some kind of important person for some Chinese guy with a lot of money, okay?"

  He sat on the bed, thinking about it, incidentally rubbing his hand across her large, soft breast. He didn't care if Violet could tell by his silence that this information was important to him. The driver would know more than he pretended, like where the limo went and who else might have been in the car. Vic leaned close and kissed Violet on the cheek. "What would I do without you?" he said.

  "Oh, Vic." She took his hand and kissed his fingers. "I just kinda got worried, you know."

  He let his other hand caress the back of her head. She liked this, he could see. Ah, his thing with Violet. It was a thing they had, no doubt about it. Sad but real. She was maybe the only person who actually cared about it him. And for all he knew, she might have just saved his life. I've got the advantage now, Vic told himself, I'm going to get this guy.

  26

  His father was sleeping, and Ray studied him, feeling a stillness come over him. He had known this sensation before, had felt it when he carried out the body of a seven-year-old boy to his own father on a hillside in Kashmir, and though the boy had been dead for more than a day, the weather had been cold and the body was stiff and smelled like the stone dust it had been buried in. Ray had watched the father collapse silently to the ground, struck unconscious with grief, and while someone else ran for water and a blanket, Ray had held the boy in his arms, watching the wind lift his beautiful dark hair. It was a privilege to hold the body of boy for a man who loved his son so much, humbling, too, and Ray had known then he would hold the child as long as was needed. In such moments he had seen that everything he had ever wanted or might want was deeply insignificant, and that the secret to whatever peace might be available was to want as little as possible for yourself and as much as possible for others, especially those who wished no ill toward anyone. In such moments, and others like them-when he spent forty-six straight days carrying the tsunami dead, when he built a city of tents on a Turkish mountainside-he felt old parts of himself disappear. His religious training as a boy, never more than halfhearted, had cracked and fallen away. And one night while having sex with a young Italian nurse, a lovely girl, bouncy and true and seemingly untroubled by the grim work of the day, he had understood that he was fucking a corpse, and so was she. Worms and dust and putre faction, a terrible thing to know about yourself. Was his lust improved by the scent of death? He did not know. He did not know a lot of things anymore. He did not know, for example, whether he was an American. Of course others would identify him as such, and while he loved America, despite its ills and evils, his love was a sad thing to him, perhaps even an inescapable burden. Americans knew so little about the rest of the world. The expats whom he'd met who'd spent many years abroad admitted that their American essence had started to disappear, whether they wanted it to or not. And so too with Ray. Maybe this was why he had come home. He had come home to be with his father but also to find out if America was still his home. Or could be again.