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The Complete Poems of A R Ammons, Volume 2

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by A. R. Ammons


  but they’re scary

  if you’re chary

  toward the poor

  or you’re a doer

  15of evil: mostly

  it’s too costly

  to have morals

  if nothing’s to eat:

  so animals tweet

  20or slide silent:

  they have no bent

  to make souls repent:

  and that’s why

  if you ask I

  25most creatures

  aren’t preachers.

  Old Sweet

  Love can make a sucker of you: it can

  lick you before you know it: overblown,

  you can crack open and release a

  dependent, solely yours: a misstep or

  5assent can journey remembering:

  flanked by rising rivals, you can admire

  the cocksure too much, those quick

  on the trigger: what does it mean to

  marry a selfish person with incompatible

  10views: lust can lead you out along

  the ground like a gutted worm: you better

  look out for love: it’s really interesting.

  (1998)

  Coffee Shoppe

  Short, heavy-set

  guy (rebuilding going

  on around the corner)

  comes in for a muffin,

  _________

  5his crotch noticeable,

  most of the tall

  run out of him into dick.

  [“Early Woods,” first collected in Highgate Road, also appears here in Fucking Right, between “Coffee Shoppe” and “Getting It on Straight.” The text of the poem is identical to that in Highgate Road.]

  Getting It on Straight

  I said to

  myself when I

  was a boy,

  Archie, I said,

  5nobody’s

  going to

  care about you,

  freckle face,

  not for

  10yourself alone

  (or your

  red hair)

  you better

  learn to do

  15something

  people can get

  interested in:

  I was right,

  _________

  nobody’s proved

  20interested in

  me yet for myself alone

  but I was wrong

  one way or the

  other

  25about the other:

  nobody cares

  what I do, either.

  1975

  Weeding

  If you don’t go the way

  you want to go you

  don’t know which way to go:

  the one way becomes one of

  5indifferent thousands, the

  roads all limber with unwillingness.

  Bong

  Genghis Kong

  did some wrong,

  killing Bills

  just for thrills,

  5killing Johns

  for bonbons,

  also girls

  for pretty pearls,

  and Lords for lands

  10and high commands,

  so much spunk

  only a skunk

  could love him:

  great deeds stem

  15from unsavory men,

  notable when

  many die

  to raise them high:

  but might is right,

  20and it’s just trite

  not to think so:

  lines high and low

  are redrawn, rules

  reversed, when fools

  25beget slaughters

  instead of daughters

  and sons: sweet loot

  tells the troot.

  Bad Goods

  All my

  life I’ve

  been saving

  myself for

  5something: I

  wdn’t go

  here, do that:

  hello, death,

  I’ve brought

  10you everything.

  Foreshortening

  A circumcision is

  No prick nick.

  (1998)

  Outdoor Plumbing

  My father said

  this fellow got

  up on a cold

  morning and his

  5thing was so

  shriveled up he

  got a hold of

  his belly

  button and

  10pissed his pants.

  1994

  BOSH AND FLAPDOODLE (2005)

  Fasting

  Not two months off till the shortest day, the

  shadows near noon all flop over one way as if

  it were soon to be dusk: that’s winter coming

  all right, slanted over, long-casting, &

  5pale: the trees are suddenly bristled

  stripped: did the sun steam a frost up and melt

  the leaves: probably not: squirrels shook

  the leaves out of the lofts: some (people)

  are strict, spare, and pure; some strew gems

  10in the mud: I perforce raise the level of the

  mud till it endows shining, like lake

  ice or sunny water or like a distant field of

  pumpkins, leafless and unpicked, or even like

  the first rye fields against gray woods, so

  15bright green: hark, the jewels are lost in

  the general rising, and the rare and priceless

  are cheapened by white towers in a still-blue

  day: of course, you can’t wear an image, a

  windchurned figure from a volcano core, on

  20your finger, and some thoughts are too grand

  to diadem a brain: (the tree by the road now

  looks like a sketch for a tree): Halloween

  _________

  needs what we have today—a stir: not a gale

  so constant and high but gusts that show up

  25out of nowhere, presences that are not there,

  little twirls of leaves that scoot across the

  street and then just wilt out, forms,

  air-whorls that are made out of nothing

  but that touch your face or rustle into the

  30bushes, whispering and hissing: all kinds of

  cases where motion charges the show

  and where motion gives its form away by

  picking up miscellany and throwing it off, motion

  the closest cousin to spirit and spirit the

  35closest neighbor to the other world, haunted

  with possibility, hope, anguish, and alarm.

  Reverse Reserve and You Have Reverse

  This morning, with small swirls of the season’s

  first snowflakes dropping and rising in the

  air, a bushy black dog, his head high, his

  tongue aloll, his tail also high, comes down

  5the street: lost, he looks wildly all around,

  turns into and out of driveways, reverses

  his run and goes back to places as unfamiliar

  as if he had never come through them: my wife

  has lost her taste for eggs: she would rather

  10have a piece of toast with raspberry jam and

  _________

  a little (real) butter than over, scrambled,

  poached or boiled hard: I ask her, where has

  the taste gone, but it’s just like losing yr

  dog, she doesn’t know where it is: eggs in

  15popovers are still found in her taste: she

  just loves popovers, with jam, I mean, and

  a little (real) butter: cultural conditioning

  has changed us so we have to look at the apes,

  the gorillas, chimps, and babs to see what a

  20little cultural conditioning does: if we

  didn’t have cultural conditioning, we males

  would (as we sometimes still do) soften up the />
  females with attention or pursuit to bend them to

  the primary imperative: for baboons, you

  25know, females, wouldn’t want an infant swinging

  from their belly or arms or riding on their

  backs if it wasn’t for estrus compelling them:

  we already know that women prefer romance and

  cuddling to anything invasive: whereas, we

  30males desire above all to get it in and get

  rid of it: sometimes women will snarl, fake

  headaches, pretend to be asleep because who

  wants to risk her life having babies and lose

  her life taking care of them, you might say:

  35so males have to hold them up a little into

  mindless obedience so the sperm can run: of

  _________

  course, we are so cultivated now that the

  woman can stand right in the kitchen and

  refuse to get on the table: where does that

  40leave the urgent one with his outstanding

  example of firmness in hand: it is, then,

  without doubt the sharpness of male need that

  perpetuates the species (which, truly, might

  better be left alone):

  45RULLY OUTSTANDING

  Surface Effects

  Nature, you know, is not a one-way street: its

  most consistent figure is turning—turning

  back, turning in, turning around: why?, because

  it has nowhere to go but into itself: all its

  5motions are intermediate: if carrion turns

  into flight (as it becomes in the wings of

  buzzards) why it is not long before flight is

  carrion again: of course, if nature is a

  one-way street it is some kind of superlative

  10avenue, some large summary that takes its

  account from time—that is, if time is a

  one-way street: that is, if time, too, doesn’t

  bend back into itself and start its intermediaries

  over again: if, for example, dry years cause

  _________

  15the brook to cut its way one-sided, maybe that

  deepens at least that narrow flow so fish can

  get up the ledges to the pools and sleepy

  shallows: or the worn-out ledge grist may

  make a place downstream to put a willow in: so

  20nature, turning, does not turn on itself, for

  whatever it turns into is nature anew: Mars,

  desolate on the surface, doesn’t mind desolation:

  Venus’s boiling stones are just a lit merriment:

  the hillside, drenched by rain after wild

  25fires, doesn’t mind collapsing: what is wrong

  for us is wrong for us; we may even

  be wrong in reckoning it wrong; it may be

  right, and we haven’t yet learned how: when

  we correct wrongs, we may interfere with

  30the swing-around that will bring things right,

  possibly righter than they were before:

  don’t worry about nature: it is always nature:

  when we divert water into California’s valley

  deserts, we produce mucho melons, but we

  35leave the salty mouth of the Colorado dry: we

  play our arrogances small scale: slowly we

  learn that surplus carbon monoxide feeds a soil

  microorganism: the large designs are filigrees

  through which nearly still measures move, turn, split,

  40come and go again.

  (1997)

  Aubade

  They say, lose weight, change your lifestyle:

  that’s, take the life out of your style and

  the style out of your life: give up fats,

  give up sweets, chew rabbit greens, raw: and

  5how about carrots: raw: also, wear your

  hipbones out walking: we were designed for

  times when breakfast was not always there, and

  you had to walk a mile, maybe, for your first

  berry or you had to chip off a flint before

  10you could dig up a root: and there were

  times when like going off to a weight reduction

  center you had a belly full of nothing: easy

  to be skinny digesting bark: but here now at

  the breakfast buffet or lavish brunch you’re

  15trapped between resistance and getting your

  money’s worth and the net gain from that

  transaction is about one pound more: hunting

  and gathering is a better lifestyle than

  resisting: resisting works up your nerves

  20not your appetite (already substantial in the

  wild) and burns up fewer calories than the

  activity arising from hunger pangs: all in

  all this is a praise for modern life—who

  wants to pick the subrealities from his teeth

  _________

  25every minute—but all this is just not what

  we were designed for, bad as it was: any way

  I go now I feel I’m going against nature, when

  I feel so free with the ways and means, the

  dynamics, the essentialities honed out clearly

  30from millions of years: sometimes when I say

  “you” in my poems and appear to be addressing

  the lord above, I’m personifying the contours

  of the onhigh, the ways by which the world

  works, however hard to see: for the onhigh

  35is every time the onlow, too, and in the

  middle: one lifts up one’s voice to the

  lineations of singing and sings, in effect,

  you, you are the one, the center, it is around

  you that the comings and goings gather, you

  40are the before and after, the around and

  through: in all your motions you are ever

  still, constant as motion itself: there with

  you we abide, abide the changes, abide the

  dissolutions and recommencements of our very

  45selves, abide in your abiding: but, of course

  I don’t mean “you” as anyone in particular

  but I mean the center of motions millions of

  years have taught us to seek: now, with

  space travel and gene therapy that “you” has

  50moved out of the woods and rocks and streams

  _________

  and traveled on out so far in space that it

  rounds the whole and is, in a way, nowhere to

  be found or congratulated, and so what is out

  there dwells in our heads now as a bit of

  55yearning, maybe vestigial, and it is a yearning

  like painful sweetness, a nearly reachable

  presence that nearly feels like love, something

  we can put aside as we get up to rustle up a

  little breakfast or contemplate a little

  60weight loss, or gladden the morning by getting

  off to work. . . .

  Oil Ode

  My wife says that the two guys on TV say that

  the most important thing is changing the oil:

  and my wife says this friend of hers said go

  over to Doug’s Fish Fry in Homer, they change

  5the oil often: and this fellow I met in a

  factory once told a joke in which a guy sticks

  up his middle finger to this lady and says,

  check your oil? that is not very nice: I

  mean, what could he do for her: just say,

  10lady, your oil’s fine: because what if it

  wasn’t, could he replenish a drought: my

  father’s friend once said he needed to “grease

 

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