A Haunting of Horrors: A Twenty-Novel eBook Bundle of Horror and the Occult

by Chet Williamson

  Rock, rock.

  The thing that killed was in her mind.

  Then it was good to take the medicine, so the killing would never happen again.

  She was aware of an emotion, a sense of suffocation and loss. It made her tense. She rocked patiently, certain that the emotion would drift away. But this time it didn’t. It grew stronger, and tears seemed a possibility, although she scarcely remembered what it was like to cry.

  But what happens to Gillian? she thought, rocking faster. When I take the medicine, I stop being Gillian.

  Rock, rock.

  The thing that kills is in the mind. It’s in the mind. It’s in the mind.

  If I can’t be Gillian, who can I be? What can I be?

  Rock, rock.

  The music on the stereo was Slow Down, a boogie number by Alvin Lee, which Hester had brought with her and asked Gillian to play. Hester liked it good and loud. Gillian looked on in mild astonishment as Hester, practically right under Gillian’s nose, furtively but deftly emptied the capsules of diazepam and seco-barbital into a damp Kleenex she held in the hollow of one hand. At the same time she kept a sharp eye on the hall door, which was standing open.

  “What are you doing?”

  Hester put her mouth close to Gillian’s ear in order to be heard. “I’m cutting you off completely tonight.”

  “Why?”

  “Because I have to get you out of here soon,” Hester said, secreting the wadded tissue inside the ribbed sleeve of her sweater. She handed Gillian the empty capsules and a cup of water. “Swallow them,” she said.

  “Why do you want me to leave?” asked the baffled Gillian.

  Hester looked frightened, which made Gillian feel apprehensive too.

  “Because if you don’t get out of here,” Hester explained as she bent over the rocker, “you’ll disappear just like Robin Sandza did. I know that’s what they’ve got in mind for you.”

  “Who?”

  “Oh, Gillian, you’re too fucking dopey for me to get anything across tonight! God, how am I going to pull this off?”

  “Hester, don’t be upset.”

  “I’ve gradually been taking you off the tranquilizers for the last two days, but your system is jammed with junk. Tonight you go cold turkey. It’ll be a shock. But you’ve got to keep pretending that you’re still—just smile and act vague no matter what you feel. Don’t make them suspicious! I’ll talk to you again in the morning, by then I should have it worked out, I’ll know how to get you out of this place.” Hester saw the sheen of tears in Gillian’s eyes. “Honey, no, don’t start bawling! Everything will be all right. Trust me! And above all don’t let on you’re not stoned. I am in a lot of trouble if Dr. Roth finds out I’ve been shaving your medication. Do you understand? You don’t want to get me in trouble, do you?”

  Gillian shook her head excitedly.

  “Steady—take it easy.” Hester darted a look at the door. She snatched up a hairbrush and was smoothing Gillian’s tresses over one ear when Mrs. Cunningham reappeared, wincing at the volume of the sound. Hester put the hairbrush in Gillian’s own hand and tried to smile with real enthusiasm as she patted the girl’s shoulder.

  Gillian smiled whimsically back, and then a look of concern cut across her eyes like black thought, like a cat low on a fence.

  “Be brave,” Hester whispered, turning down the stereo. “Have a good night.” And she got out of there, barely in time to make her futile seven o’clock telephone call from a windy toll station on York Avenue.

  Okay. Two goddamn weeks without a word, and here she’d committed herself to a hasty course of action that was shaping up as a disaster. Peter had warned her often enough: don’t be cute, don’t play around with these people. If Peter was dead, then what good would it do to spring Gillian from Paragon Institute, provided she was dumb lucky enough not to bungle the job?

  But dead—that was just too grim and awful and final. Hester refused to believe it. There was a very good reason why he’d let so much time go by without getting in touch: Peter had something clever up his sleeve.

  If that was the case, then there was a good chance he didn’t need Gillian any more.

  Hester was ashamed of the relief she felt. The hell with what Peter needed or didn’t need, what about poor little Gillian? What was going to happen to her in a matter of hours—a few days at the most?

  Psi Faculty would happen to her. Whatever that was. Hester had risked her neck having another go at the computer. A number of cases—meaning, undoubtedly, real people—had been transferred from Paragon Institute to this other place. Hester knew no more than that about Psi

  Faculty; she knew it existed, somewhere, for the purpose of swallowing up gifted psychics like Robin Sandza and Gillian Bellaver.

  So, all other motives aside, it was morally right for her to try to smuggle Gillian out of Paragon before she disappeared. Problems on top of problems: Hester didn’t have the semblance of a workable plan, and supposing she eventually came up with something and succeeded, Gillian would be virtually helpless on her own. She couldn’t be handed back to her parents; they’d put her in Paragon to begin with. Probably grateful to be rid of the unfortunate kid. Hester, with a conventional small-town, middle-class upbringing, had a low opinion of monied and prominent Americans. Being worshipers of the almighty dollar, they were all cold-blooded and essentially not very loving people. No, she couldn’t risk returning Gillian to them with the hope they’d do the right thing.

  But Hester knew she would be under considerable suspicion at the Institute: she would have to weather their suspicions while protecting and looking after Gillian until Peter showed up. And what would Gillian be like once she was off the tranquillizers? Half mad, therefore unreliable and potentially as dangerous (through no fault of her own) as Bubonic Plague. Hester might need some protection herself.

  Nine o’clock. Music on. Rock, then mordant blues from a twenties cotton-chopper with a voice dark and rich as Louisiana coffee.

  Oh, liver-rot me baby, treat me

  To your death’s head pearly smile:

  Then you can ride me on down to your boneyard

  In a twelve-cylinder automobile

  Hester, wondering how Gillian was getting along at this moment, had the shakes. If Gillian acted badly, if she gave herself away, then Hester was doomed. Bummer time. Each vague voice in the hall outside her door, every footfall, caused her to freeze and sweat, freeze and sweat. Nine-thirty. When she heard her friends the Bundys go out singing an old Cole Porter song, happy as clams, she wanted to rush downstairs and be swept along for a random and light-minded evening: a few drinks here, a few laughs there. She got as far as the door, but she didn’t open it. No good. No use trying to duck out. If MORG wanted her, they’d find her. If not—There was nothing else to do but prowl the neat three-room flat and get slowly potted on vintage woe, and dread the coming of morning when she would have to begin herding events already restlessly in motion toward the desired conclusion.

  Turn down your sireen woman

  You like a ambulance on the street

  It was after two in the morning when she came up with her great idea: out of desperation, perhaps, because everything depended on Gillian’s reactions once the escape began. But Hester liked the plan. It wasn’t complicated; it depended for success on surprise and, hopefully, a half-minute of total confusion, Unfortunately, there was a potential stumbling block in Mrs. Cunningham. She didn’t look like a woman who was easily confused, and she seldom strayed far from Gillian’s side when Gillian was out of her rooms.

  But Hester was all thought out; it was the very best she could do. All she needed now was a third party, a sweet dumb guy who would willingly do what he was asked to do without raising too many questions. She’d dated plenty of those, so Hester had already picked her man when she tottered off to bed and fell asleep in mid-yawn.

  Casket-eyed baby

  Pull them shades down to the floor

  And hand me your blank check, honey


  For my final signature

  Gillian was restless after she went to bed, restless and vocal. Mrs. Cunningham looked in on her twice. She was thrashing and tugging at the covers, muttering through her teeth. The second time Mrs. Cunningham turned on the lamp by the door she saw Gillian’s face glistening with sweat.

  “This room. This bed. Robin’s room. He—”

  “What’s that, dear?”

  Gillian was suddenly quiet, gazing at her as if from a far corner of the mind.

  “Would you be sick to your stomach, darlin’?”

  “A little,” Gillian croaked.

  Mrs. Cunningham smiled to assure her that something would be done about it. She closed the bedroom door and, using the telephone in the sitting room, rang Maylun Chan We. Maylun prescribed an antinausea drug and a sleeping pill. Mrs. Cunningham then called the medical associate on night duty at Paragon; he brought the pills up from the dispensary.

  When Mrs. Cunningham cracked the bedroom door again Gillian was lying on her side; she seemed peaceful at last. Mrs. Cunningham spoke softly to her. No response. Obviously Gillian’s discomfort had eased. If she woke up later, the medicine was handy. Satisfied, Mrs. Cunningham went back to the sitting room and the bile, gall and bad blood of the nightly TV news, unaware that for the time being she was tending a shell instead of a sleeping girl—

  Gillian had been lured elsewhere.

  She was now a notion of horizon and winter

  Laid on with a trowel snowfields moon

  Burning in blunt weather

  Deflected by too much brilliance, all motion

  Discontinued according to laws of time and

  Distance

  She waits for a confrontation with his psychic’s

  Mind waits with an eye for the precious past,

  An expectancy he is bound to fulfill.

  “Robin?”

  Following the line of least resistance, they

  Meet with no great shock of recognition

  Eyelocked burning, in snowfields, windless

  as the grave.

  Something quite formal between them, a new development—she is taken silent by the animus of his gaze.

  “Come on,” he says is off again

  highly combustible like starflash

  between the charring crosses. Sustained by the narrow and merciless vision of her trust, she follows in her skin of bridesmaid’s tears

  to the bed of his whore:

  (Slash

  eyed

  bushed

  baby

  featly boned

  and throbbing

  luscious

  to blood’s

  tame purr

  ing posture

  all strung out &

  affording

  a lewd

  glimpse

  of asshole)

  Whore

  Prance Robin showing off riding her

  Sideways upside down

  or feet on the floor You name it

  Blood’s a cataract

  Nerves fine black beneath the skin

  like waxed violin string’s hum here

  he comes

  His way of declaring himself

  shooting off Roman candles of confession

  creating galaxies of unrepented sins

  How do you like her Gillian? Slow eyes sink wounds

  Her smile curling like flame blackens

  the spirit, and he is (as he should be)

  terrified as well as amused, having full

  knowledge of the hereafter and heretofore

  while his body, unequal to the strain

  of living everywhere at once

  Threatens to disintegrate.

  “Now go away.”

  With a simple motion of his hand she is

  swept, brief as a gnat, through time.

  Excited by his cruelty insatiable

  he turns again to drowsy Gwyneth. He is

  eager for accolades,

  and the absolution that is sure to follow.

  When Hester reported for work at eight on Thursday morning Roth and Maylun were already there. Apparently they’d had a long conference. Something was in the air, undoubtedly involving Gillian. Hester didn’t have a clue. But at least the girl was still at Paragon: she’d been afraid they might steal away with her in the middle of the night.

  At eight-twenty she accompanied both doctors upstairs. Gillian was awake and sitting up in bed, gazing out through frost-stippled windows. There was a bland smile on her face, but her eyes were puffy and humid and seemed, unless Hester was overempathizing, distressingly sad. Hester held her breath when Gillian glanced her way, but Gillian’s smile didn’t change, and her manner was indifferent. Hester couldn’t decide if the indifference was studied or real. If real, then without a doubt sometime during the night they’d shot her full of shit, and that did the trick, that just totally wrecked the plan right there.

  Hester asked Gillian what she would like for breakfast, and Gillian said, “I don’t care,” and then Dr. Roth examined her. Gillian’s blood pressure had climbed and her pulse was faster than it had been twenty-four hours earlier. Roth seemed to feel that was encouraging.

  “I’d like to take a bath before I eat,” Gillian said.

  “Surely,” Roth said.

  “Could Hester stay and shampoo my hair?”

  “Don’t see why not. Hester?”

  “I’d be happy to,” Hester replied, trying not to study Gillian’s mood. Maylun left medication and vitamins for Gillian and the doctors withdrew, heads together, talking in low tones.

  “What sort of day is it?” Gillian asked, looking out the windows again.

  “Cold.” Hester shuddered for emphasis, then smiled at Mrs. Cunningham, who was laying out a dress for Gillian. “You could have your breakfast while I’m doing Gillian’s hair.”

  “That’s a fine idea.”

  “I’d like jeans today, Mrs. Cunningham,” Gillian said.

  “When you have all those lovely dresses?”

  “I feel like jeans.”

  “Whatever you say, darlin’.”

  Hester went into the bathroom, leaving the door ajar. She ran Gillian’s bath water, and when the big tub was half full Gillian came in. She didn’t look at Hester. She took off her nightclothes in a corner, carelessly pinned up her hair, then stepped into the hot water and stood looking downcast at her body, which, though it needed replenishing right now, was elegantly structured and revealed modest curves that would round gloriously into womanhood. She was a ewe-necked beauty, five-feet-nine with shady good looks and flaky lips—she’d probably never have a pimple, Hester thought wistfully. Gillian settled down to the breastbone, knees wide apart, and began to soap herself. Then, almost without warning, she went to pieces.

  Hester stood by rigid with anxiety as Gillian tried to smother big sobs in the washcloth. Then she used her head and switched on the noisy exhaust fan in the ceiling, hoping that the microphones she knew had to be in the bathroom wouldn’t pick up the sounds of grief which they’d drug-programmed Gillian not to feel.

  That much accomplished, Hester, in a mothering twitch, knelt by the tub and put an arm around the slippery girl.

  “Oh, Hester, it’s the end of the world!”

  “Gillian, Gillian.”

  “I want to get out of this place!”

  “It’s practically all set. Shh, shush, now. I’ll take care of you.” Covering her mouth with her two hands, Gillian stared unbelievingly at her.

  “But we can do it: I know we can.”

  “When?”

  “This afternoon.”

  “H-how?”

  Hester kneeled facing the door, watching in case Mrs. Cunningham appeared surreptitiously. She started Gillian’s shampoo, and while she lathered she whispered in an ivory ear.

  When she had finished laying out the plan all Gillian said was, “Mrs. Cunningham has a gun.”

  “Oh, God! Are you sure?”

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sp; “It’s in a pocket of her cardigan sweater.”

  “But she wouldn’t shoot you.”

  “She might shoot you.” Gillian couldn’t control her tears, and her nose ran too.

  “This will positively work, Gillian, and don’t worry. Nobody will be hurt.”

  “I’m afraid, Hester; I know I’ll do something really stupid and—where should I go again? I forgot already! My mind just gets blank.”

  “You’ll be okay, I wrote it down for you.”

  When Gillian was out of the tub and robed Hester took a round Band-Aid from her pocket. She reached inside the robe, which startled-Gillian, and stuck the Band-Aid high on the inside of one thigh.

  “It’s all written out. If you forget anything, just tear the Band-Aid open.”

  Gillian’s teeth were clicking. Hester went to work on her wet head, rubbed until the scalp was a newborn pink. Gillian’s head bobbed with the massage. She yawned and slowly went slack in Hester’s capable hands.

  “Hester, I can’t stay with you, no matter what.”

  “We’ll worry about that later.”

  “I’ll have to be alone. Alone! For the rest of my life. Robin hates me, there’s no place I can go now. He m-must hate me, to do what he did.”

  Hester was eager to ask questions about Robin. But the phone had rung in the bedroom, she had to answer it. Mrs. Cunningham. Gillian’s breakfast had been prepared, and perhaps she’d like to eat in the Morning Room for a change. Hester promised to bring her right down.

  She hung up, and remembered to pocket the medication that was on the little tray beside the bed. The vitamins she fed to Gillian.

  Mrs. Cunningham should have walked upstairs to fetch Gillian herself; was she getting just a little lazy and careless? A good sign. Hester helped Gillian to dress warmly. Too much clothing for indoors, but she’d have to endure it.

  Further serious conversation was out at this point, so Hester prattled about movies and fashions and the difficulties a working girl had making ends meet in the Big Apple. Gillian listened without comment, her head fallen forward; she appeared to be in a rueful daze.