Black Hart

by L. J. Swartz

  I went straight to the liquor store, then to my hotel room last night. I drank almost an entire bottle of rum before passing the fuck out. I was almost late for work this morning. Luke loudly informs Dave in front of me that Carmen's leaving today. I'm not sure how I feel about that really, so I'm not going to think about it. I'll get my tattoos done today and head over to Kiki's later. That's how I deal with difficult situations in my life. Why change now? I walk over and start to get my station set up. I keep thinking of caramel and emeralds. I shake my head. I had a dream about Carmen last night that caused my sheets to need a washing.

  _I sit her on my tattoo table. She smiles all sexy as I step between her legs sliding my hands to her hips kneading my finger tips into them as she leans forward grazing her lips up my neck. A chill runs down my back. I swallow hard as she does it again on the other side only this time she nips my ear lobe. I close my eyes trying not to let her mouth on me drive me crazy. The problem is everything she does drives me crazy. Even things she has no control over like her emerald eyes, the way her lips are just a bit too big for her face, the way her tongue looks flicking out wetting her bottom lip. I open my eyes then slide my hands around her pulling her to the edge of the table as I press myself to her. She closes her eyes then tilts her head to the side. I trail kisses up her neck. I'm not one for all this foreplay shit, but with Carmen, I kind of am. She reaches between us running her finger tips along the waistband of my pants. My dick jumps in response. I bite her neck lightly. She moans then slides her hands to the button of my pants undoing it then slides the zipper down slowly. Her finger tips graze along me. I swallow hard wishing she'd hurry up and go slow at the same time. I have never been so ready to be with someone yet wanted to enjoy every second. She pushes my pants and boxers from my hips. I look down as she does. She gets a smile on her face then moves her dress up. The soft fabric caresses her thighs revealing more and more of her gorgeous skin. I slide my hands up keeping my fingers trailing behind the material. I finally catch a glimpse of pink stain panties. I dip my finger under the edge of her panties trailing it along the seam of her lips. She holds my gaze swallowing hard as I dip my finger into her. "Oh god." She whispers then closes her eyes. I pump my finger into her over and over again. Once I can tell she can handle it I add my middle finger. She lifts off the table a bit as I work her over. "Dalton don't stop." I pump my fingers into her harder and faster. She's so damn sexy. I've never been with a woman so dauntingly beautiful. She clenches hard around my fingers. I take them from her while she is still trembling and bring them to my mouth tasting her. I move between her legs ready to lose myself in her. She opens to me. I slide in easily almost losing it on the first pump. She's so tight around me. I groan then move in her slowly at first. I pick up the pace. She wraps her legs around me tightly. I'm shocked by how strong she is for such a tiny thing. I grab her hips holding her still as I pump into her harder and faster still. She bites her lip hard. I watch as she draws blood. I lean forward taking her lip between my teeth licking the blood from it. She groans louder. I can't take it anymore. I pound into her so hard the table is squeaking as it moves from the force of my movements. She grabs onto my neck digging her finger nails in as she calls out, "GOD YES." I close my eyes and let myself go. _

  I shake my head as I reach down adjusting my rock hard cock. This shit is not going to fly with me. I walk over to the desk. Sunny smiles at me asking, "Hey Dalton can I do something for you?" I raise my eye brow. Now that's an idea. I glance over my shoulder then lean forward on the counter. "I have a few ideas of some things you could do for me." She stops what she's doing and looks to me with a raised eye brow. I smirk at her. I know damn well she's been wanting me since she started. I didn't want to do that to Steve. I still don't really, but I need a distraction from my thoughts. I nod toward the bathroom then walk off. I get to the bathroom and am there for about 2 minutes before she comes in closing and locking the door. I smile as she steps in front of immediately unbuttoning my pants. I swallow hard as she drops to her knees. Well ok then. I slide my hands into her hair as she pulls me from my boxers then wraps her lips around me sliding me back her throat. She adds her hand pumping up and down me as she sucks and nibbles my tip. I close my eyes clearing my head as I focus on what she's doing. There's a knock at the door. "Someone's in here." I call out then tug on her hair as she does this awesome fucking tongue flick before slamming me back her throat. "Hey man have you seen Sunny?" Shit it's Steve. "No man." I call out then hold in a groan as she applies more pressure with her lips. I knead her head as she picks up her pace moving her hand with her mouth. "Ok man." He walks away, thank god. "God your good at this." I hiss as she starts moaning. I don't know if she's really as into it as she is making it seem. I don't really care if I'm being honest. I just needed a distraction, and if she's willing, why not get off at the same time. I apply a bit of pressure on the back of her head. She fucking opens her mouth wider sliding me back further. I moan then widen my stance. "Sunny I'm close." I warn. She makes an, "mmmhmmm," sound never changing her pace. I close my eyes as I release into her mouth. She swallows then slides her lips from me making me bend over groaning. She smiles up at me then licks her lips. I smile at her as she stands asking, "Better?" I nod then watch as she turns and walks from the bathroom. I know damn well there's a good chance someone just saw her leave and will see me leave in a few minutes. All these guys know how I work. If any one of them is surprised by what just happened, then that's their problem. I don't know what her and Steve are to each other, but if it meant anything to her, she would had told me no. Not came in here and sucked me like I'm her favorite lollipop. I piss and wash my hands then exit the bathroom. I immediately meet eyes with Dave. He shakes his head back and forth then nods to my left. Just as I am about to look at what he's nodding at Steve grabs me by my shirt slamming me to the bathroom door. I get that he's angry or may have an opinion about what I just did with Sunny, but that's no excuse to put his hands on me. I grab his shirt switching our positions. He's short and chubby making it effortless on my part. I don't care if he owns this place, I will not let him make me look like a bitch. "Fuck you Dalton." He hisses red faced. I smirk because I'm a dick like that. "Look Steve I don't know what you think you know, but your probably right. Maybe you shoulda been more of a man and she wouldn't have wanted to be with me so bad. I didn't even have to ask." I tell him calmly then turn and walk over to my station. All eyes are on me. There's only one client here. I don't give a fuck what he thinks either. I expect Steve to yell at me or come over and get in my face, he doesn't. "Jesus Dalton what the fuck are you doing?" Dave hisses as he steps up next to me. I look to him with a smile. "I was thinking I would like to get off and Sunny seemed more than happy to oblige." He huffs. I look to him with my eye brow raised. "You got something to say Dave?" He shakes his head then turns and walks away.

  Steve never says anything else to me about it. I saw him and Sunny head toward the break room earlier. Hey it's none of my business. She was willing and who the fuck says no to a woman literally on her knees. Not this guy. I'm cleaning my shit up to head out. I need a drink. Many drinks actually. "Hey Dalton." Luke calls out from his station. I stop and look to him annoyed. "Carmen just text and wanted me to ask if you got her present." I clench my jaw. I had actually forgotten her after my time with Sunny. I raise my eye brow shaking my head back and forth. He nods. "Check at your room." I nod then finish cleaning up. What the fuck could she have possibly left me? I get my coat on and head for the door. "Night Dalton." Sunny calls out as I pass by the desk. I stop and look to her winking then walk out backwards holding her gaze. She gets a smile on her face then bites her lip as I push through the door back first. I turn then walk down the street toward Kiki's. Part of me wants to go to my hotel room to figure out what Luke is talking about. I'm not doing it. It can wait. I slide my hands into my pockets and continue to Kiki's. I get there a few minutes later. "Hey man." Wes calls out as I sit. I nod then look to the bar letting out a breath. "W
hat can I get ya?" I meet his gaze as he steps in front of me telling him, "Rum." He nods as he grabs the bottle and a glass. He should know by now what I want. I always drink rum. He pours me a double then walks over to wait on someone else. I have three drinks in a row getting myself quickly into a more comfortable haze. "Dalton." I hear from across the bar. I turn on my stool to see perky tits walking toward me. I roll my eyes then turn back around. ANY other day and I would be excited to see her. I'm starting to really feel like shit over what I did to Steve. She steps up next to me. "Hey." She practically purrs like a cat as she slides her hand to my arm. I smile at her then take a swig of my drink. "What are you up to tonight?" I let out a loud breath. "Drinking." I hiss then take another swig. She shifts from foot to foot nervously. I'm being a dick, and I know it. I stand and tip up my glass downing the rest. I slam the glass to the bar calling out, "Wes I need my bill." He nods then walks over to get my slip. "You want some company?" I look to her about to tell her not tonight when Abby walks through the door. Fuck me. Can't a guy catch a break? I look to perky tits. "Yeah sure." She smiles then points over her shoulder. "Let me grab my coat." I nod then look to Wes as he steps up to me holding my slip out. I look to it then pull my wallet out handing him a hundred. "Keep it man." He nods saying, "Have a good one." Then shoots me a knowing smile. I smirk then walk toward perky tits as she pulls her coat on. Tight ass is at the table with a hot ass red head. She winks at me. I nod at her. "Ready." I press my hand to her back leading her toward the door. We pass by Abby. She doesn't say anything, but the look on her face let's me know she's not super pleased with me. I could care less. I'm done with her. We get outside. Perky tits slides her hand to the crease of my arm. We walk in silence. I'm struggling with this. I don't really want to be with her right now. I've never not wanted sex before. "You're staying in a hotel?" She mumbles disgusted as I lead her into the paring lot. I nod then motion up the stairs. She gives me a look but starts up them. As soon as I clear the top step I stop. Carmen is sitting outside my door. She looks to us. I hold her gaze as she gets a pissed off smirk on her face. She stands and walks toward me. I swallow hard. She was supposed to be gone. "Hey, um I see you're busy, but I wanted to give you this. It's yours after all." She holds my sketch out to me then looks down shaking her head. I don't reach for it. I watch as a tear falls from her eye to the concrete floor. I feel like an even bigger dick now. I reach out slowly taking it. She starts to walk past me not looking at me. I need to see those eyes one more time. I catch her arm. She shakes her head as she jerks her arm away then jogs down the steps. I spin around and jog after her calling out, "Carmen." What the hell am I doing? I feel like such a pussy, but I NEED to look into her eyes. She stops at the bottom of the steps leaving me stuck on the last one. She turns slowly looking up at me. I'm not sure why I needed her to look at me because the pain in her eyes literally makes me nauseous. "What?" She whispers through clenched teeth as tears stream down her face. She doesn't try to wipe them away. I wish she would. Seeing the continuous flow of them falling from her eyes makes me wanna beat the shit out of myself. I reach out slowly. She starts to step away then changes her mind letting me touch her face. "I'm sorry." She whispers. I'm shocked. She must read it all over my face because she quickly explains. "This is so unfair of me. I don't want to make you feel bad. It was great meeting you Dalton. Thank you for the tattoo....for everything." She turns and walks away leaving my hand suspended in the air. I take a deep breath. I can't move. I just watch her walk away.

  I can't stop staring at it. It's like my past came rushing back and now it's all I can think about. I look at each and every line remembering the pain I felt. The freedom I felt when I left it all behind. Now.... I can't seem to forget how much it hurt that my father walked out on me, like that's just what you do to your 5 year old. I pick up my phone dialing my mom. "Hey Dalton. Been about a month. Glad to know you're alive at least." She hisses. This was a bad idea. "Yep well just wanted to check in, so...... been fun." I start to take the phone away from my ear. "Dalton wait are you ok?" Her tone stops me. My mother has NEVER asked me that question. Not after dad left. Not after grandma died, and I was forced to move back in with her. Not after.... I shake my head back and forth. "I'm, uh......" She huffs loudly. "Are you in fucking trouble again? The only time you call me is for money. Will the cops be showing up looking for you? I have no problem telling them I don't know where you are since I don't actually." I got caught with weed one time by a cop. He took my weed and dropped me off at my house. Ever since all she talks about is me getting in trouble. I've never even been to jail. I sigh. Of course. I was fucking foolish to think she could actually tell I needed her to be a mother for once. "Nope. All's good. Bye mom." I hang up and just stare at my phone. I feel a rush if anger shoot through me. I stand and chuck my phone at the wall. It explodes. Pieces fly all over the fucking room. I bust up laughing. That's gonna cost me. I shake my head as I walk over and pick up the bottle of rum I went and bought last night after my Carmen encounter. I just left. I never said anything to perky tits. I just left her standing there. When I got back she was gone, so at least I know she can take a hint. Well now that my phone's wrecked... I might as well head into work. I take another swig then walk over and pull on a black v neck t shirt, black jeans, and a black sweater. I put on my favorite black beanie and my black chucks. I look in the mirror. I look like I feel. Dark. I pffft at myself then turn and walk out. I jog down the steps and head toward work. I actually enjoy walking to work in the morning. I need to fucking wake up. I hardly slept all night. Maybe I'll just go to Mabel's before the shop. Yeah that's a plan. I walk down the street and stop at the cross walk on the corner across from Mabel's. "Dalton." I look up as Dave comes down the sidewalk on the other side of the street. I see no one is coming and jog across the street to him. "Hey man." I smile but it drops when he gives me a funny look asking, "Who died?" I roll my eyes then start for the door to Mabel's. "Where ya been?" He asks stepping up behind me holding the door as I open it. I give him a funny look. "At the hotel..." He searches my face then chuckles. "Ok but I meant why did you blow off your first appointment? Steve was pissed dude. He blew up yelling that he can take you getting head from his girl, but not blowing off appointments." I didn't realize what time it was. I shake my head getting really pissed off at myself. I never let personal issues affect my work. I walk over to the counter. Mabel steps up with a smile on her face then gives me a look. "Dalton hunny you ok?" I nod smiling weakly. "Can I get a large coffee to go?" She nods then walks over to the coffee pots. Dave steps up next to me. "I'll fix it." I hiss sliding my hands into my pockets. "There's nothing to fix man. I did your appointment. It's fine." I shake my head back and forth then slide my hands from my pockets up and down my face. If a client wants me, they expect to have me. I have never missed an appointment. NEVER. I slam my hands off the counter. Dave touches my arm. "Hey man what's wrong? You're always kind of weird and shit, but today you're freaking me out." I look to him. I need to talk to someone. "Carmen was waiting at the hotel for me last night. I brought one of the college girls back with me." He gets an understanding look on his face. "Double booked huh?" He chuckles. I don't find it funny. He stops immediately when he sees my face. "The sketch she had that I tattooed on her back..." He nods. "I drew that in high school." He gets a confused look on his face. Of course he would be. I never talk about my dad or how him leaving made me feel. I'm pretty sure no one even knows I have parents that are living. "I'm not trying to be a dick. I'm just not sure what that means." He tells me quietly. I shake my head. "It means nothing." Mabel steps up to the counter holding out my coffee too me. I hand her a ten dollar bill and turn walking out. "Hey Dalton wait." Dave calls out. I keep walking. I don't know how to talk to people. I don't know why I even tried. I walk through the doors of the shop 2 minutes later. Steve walks right to me getting in my face. "I don't like you very much. But you bring lots of business in here. I've looked past your lifestyle and the fact that you're the biggest dick on th
e planet for that reason. You EVER blow off an appointment again. You're fired. You got me?" I don't say a word. I just nod my understanding. There's no point in fighting him. He's right. He looks shocked. I raise my eye brows. "Can I go get step up for my next appointment now?" He nods. I walk out around him. "He's here already." Sunny calls out. "Give me 5 minutes." I tell her as I walk over to get set up. This should be my industrial sugar skull. It turned out pretty fucking awesome if I do say so myself. I chug down my coffee ignoring the burn. I need to get my shit together. My work is the only thing I have that I'm proud of.