The Throne of Amenkor

by Joshua Palmatier

  “You never ask yourself what the marks have done? Why the Mistress wants them dead?”

  “No. I told you before. I don’t need to know. The Mistress wants them dead, that’s all that matters.”

  “What if she’s wrong?”

  Erick shook his head. The frown was gone. “She can’t be wrong. She sits on the Skewed Throne.”

  “But—”

  “No,” Erick said with force. But there was strain in his eyes, doubt. “She can’t be wrong. Saying she’s wrong is the same as saying the Skewed Throne is wrong. They’re the same. If she’s wrong, then—”

  But he halted, a flash of fear crossing his face—a fear that he quickly suppressed. A fear I didn’t think was new, just as the doubt wasn’t new. I’d seen both before, in his eyes after he’d backed down from Bloodmark, and again at the bridge leading to Amenkor.

  “No,” he said again. “The Mistress is never wrong. The marks deserve to die.”

  “Why?”

  “I don’t know,” Erick said impatiently, not looking at me. “I don’t think about it beyond that. I believe in the Mistress. I have faith in the Skewed Throne. There’s a reason the marks need to die, one that only she needs to know. I don’t. I’m not that important.”

  The doubt I’d seen in his eyes a moment before had crept into his voice. And I heard the lie. He did think about it, had been thinking about it, at least recently.

  His faith in the Mistress, in the Skewed Throne, was wavering.

  I hesitated, then said quietly, “Mari isn’t a mark.”

  He looked at me sharply. “Why not? How do you know?”

  I almost said, She’s gray, but caught myself. “I’ve watched her.” I saw Rec drawing the knife down her cheek, saw her eyes, the defeated slump of her body, her lax arms.

  Erick’s eyes narrowed. “The Mistress . . .” he began, but trailed off. He stared at me hard, considering, then drew himself straight. “Show me.”

  * * *

  We didn’t speak on the way into the depths. I led, moving fast, not hiding, not lurking, moving with purpose. Erick followed behind me, hissing once for me to slow. But after that he seemed to catch my urgency, sped up, enough that I could feel him at my back, so close he could reach out and touch me, push me.

  But I felt as if I were already being pushed. I’d felt it as soon as we’d left Cobbler’s Fountain. A pressure against my back, tightening my shoulders, prickling the skin.

  So I moved faster. Until the night air burned in my lungs, harsh and loud and cold. As cold as it had been the night of the White Fire. Sharp and piercing. I heard Erick breathing hard behind me, heard him gasping at the pace.

  But the pressure didn’t relax.

  Instead, it grew.

  We were close—so close—when I felt the ice-rimmed hand press hard into my chest and heard the first scream. A woman’s scream. High-pitched, desperate, and filled with shuddering, as if she were struggling, as if she were fighting.

  I stopped cold, Erick staggering to a halt behind me, one hand on my shoulder to steady himself.

  It felt eerily real against the icy pressure of the hand on my chest.

  “Gods,” he gasped, dragging in a deep breath. “Where is it coming from?”

  I didn’t answer. I knew.

  I bolted forward, barely aware that Erick stayed right behind me. The scream filled the air, escalated, then dropped in pitch, fading, although still strong, still desperate. It was falling down into sobs, struggling down, trying not to give up hope.

  I was at the doorway, colored tiles beneath my feet. I was at the inner room.

  I halted at the door, caught myself at its edge. Rec’s body lay half off the blood-soaked bed, his torso twisted, one hand stretched out before him, reaching. The spilled contents of the stewpot created a glistening sheet of wetness in the center of the room. Two figures struggled on the far side of the fire—Bloodmark and Mari. I saw all of it in a heartbeat.

  But Erick moved faster.

  Bloodmark had hold of Mari’s wrists, one in each hand, one grip loose and cumbersome because he still held his dagger. Mari struggled, but there was already blood on her chest, seeping from a deep gash in her side, and another higher up, near her neck, above her breast. Her arms had grown weak, and she was sobbing, her head shaking back and forth.

  Bloodmark snarled, let go of Mari’s wrist with the hand that held his dagger, and plunged the blade twice more into Mari’s chest. Deep strokes. Penetrating strokes. Each followed by a visceral grunt. Spittle flew from his mouth, his teeth clenched.

  And then Erick hit him, body to body. Hit him so hard they flew across Mari, struck the granite floor and rolled. Bloodmark’s eyes opened wide in terror. His arm flailed, scored Erick hard along his back with the dagger. Erick hissed, lurched back, away, and Bloodmark jerked into a crouch, coming around fast, like an adder.

  All of us froze. Erick on the floor, on his side, ready to move, his glare focused on Bloodmark. Bloodmark in a crouch three paces away, breathing hard, dark eyes fixed on Erick. The terror in his face was gone.

  Mari gasped, a sickeningly wet gasp. Her arms had fallen to her sides.

  As I watched, she tried to roll over, pushing herself weakly up onto her side so that she faced me, her back to Erick and Bloodmark. Her eyes met mine and she sobbed, the sound shuddering in her chest.

  She hunched forward, drew her hand up close to her face. It dragged on the floor, trailed through blood, flopped weakly beside her mouth.

  She paused, gathered herself with a single breath—

  And tried to lift herself up.

  I watched her eyes close with the effort, watched the muscles strain, her arm tight, her chest tight, her teeth clenched. I watched sweat break out on her face, watched her eyes squeeze tighter, her neck muscles taut. Her shoulder lifted an inch. Her arm began to tremble. . . .

  And then she collapsed, breath expelled in a ragged, hopeless sob. She cried into the floor, shaking, mouth flecked with spit and blood.

  She drew in another breath and opened her eyes. She stared straight at me, seemed to be gathering herself for another try, her eyes intent, her palm flat against the stone before her.

  And then she died.

  Chapter 6

  The room held silent for a moment, stilled, expectant. . . .

  “She wasn’t a mark.”

  I said it with force, looking at Erick. The fist-sized solidness of stone began to form in my chest, right beneath my breastbone. Familiar stone. Hatred and anger made real. I tasted it, thick and fluid and acidic.

  I straightened at the doorway, stepped into the room.

  “She wasn’t a mark,” I repeated, louder, and knelt down at her side, placed a hand on her shoulder. But I kept my eyes on Erick. “She didn’t deserve this!”

  “What do you mean she wasn’t a mark?” Bloodmark spat. His breath came in ragged gasps, deep and forceful.

  “I mean that she didn’t deserve this! That there was a mistake!”

  Bloodmark snorted, turned to Erick. “That’s the woman you sent us after, isn’t it?”

  Erick pulled his gaze away from mine, glanced down at the woman. He stared at her a long time, then said, “Yes.”

  “Then she deserved it,” Bloodmark said. His breath had calmed, was no longer intense, no longer . . . excited. He shifted, wiped the blood from his blade. “Besides,” he added, “she’s the one that killed the man. She beat me to it, the bitch.”

  I shot a glance at Bloodmark.

  “Shut up,” I said, voice hard, vicious.

  He glared at me, shifted his stance again. His eyes bled hatred.

  “What? Don’t you believe me?” He laughed, without humor. His eyes were dark.

  I shifted uncomfortably.

  “Oh, yes, she killed him,” he said, voice softening. “I watched her do it
. She moved from the fire and stood over him while he slept. If I’d known what she was going to do, maybe I would have stopped her, saved the mark for myself.” He smiled, a slow smile, like Garrell’s smile as he stared down at the girl playing with the green cloth. “She stood over him for a long time. A long, long time. She had the knife in her hand, turned it as she clutched it at her side. Then she knelt down and stabbed him in the throat.”

  “Shut up,” I said again, but this time it didn’t have as much force. I saw Mari in that last moment before I’d left, saw her squatting before the fire, staring at the knife.

  Her voice had changed after Rec had used the knife to cut her cheek. It had hardened. Her eyes as well.

  “I saw it,” Bloodmark said, and his smile deepened. “I watched her do it.”

  “Shut up,” Erick said flatly.

  Bloodmark flinched, cast a glare in his direction.

  Erick had moved while we spoke, so quietly I hadn’t noticed. He now squatted, facing Bloodmark, his eyes intent.

  “You watched,” he said quietly, his voice deadly. It wasn’t a question. “Why?”

  Bloodmark’s brow creased. “What do you mean?”

  “Why didn’t you stop her? Why didn’t you act?”

  “Because I didn’t know she was going to stab the bastard. Besides, he was a mark. He deserved it.”

  “How do you know?”

  Bloodmark grinned. “Because you sent us after him.”

  A stricken expression crossed Erick’s face, a grimace of regret, as if he’d tasted something sour. But it cleared, there and then gone in a breath.

  “No,” he said, and shook his head. “I think you watched because you enjoyed it. I think you enjoy it far too much.”

  I straightened where I knelt at Mari’s side. Hope flared up inside me, like fire.

  Erick’s gaze narrowed as he watched Bloodmark. I could see him thinking, could see it in his eyes, in the muscle that twitched at the back of his jaw as he clenched his teeth.

  Then he shook his head once. “No. It’s over. It’s gone on long enough.”

  I almost barked a laugh, caught myself, held it tight.

  Bloodmark stilled, and when he spoke, his voice was as low and dangerous as Erick’s. “What do you mean?”

  “I mean,” Erick said slowly and with purpose, “that I’ll give you no more marks.”

  Bloodmark’s eyes narrowed. “You can’t do that.”

  “Go back to the Dredge,” Erick growled. “I should have sent you back long ago. Should never have brought you in on this in the first place, should have listened to Varis. You’re too dangerous.”

  “They were marks! They deserved—”

  Erick took one step, but Bloodmark was expecting it. He launched himself away so fast he seemed a blur. But he halted at the door, shot Erick a dark glare, me one filled with hatred and venom. And something more, something I didn’t understand.

  “Bitch,” he spat.

  And then he was gone.

  Erick remained motionless, stared at me in mute apology. The flare of hope that had suffused me a moment earlier died, the stone of hatred and anger still burning beneath my breastbone.

  I knelt over Mari, trembling, hand on her shoulder, looked into his eyes.

  “You shouldn’t have let him go,” I said. “After what you saw him do. . . .”

  “They were marks—”

  “No!” I spat. “Don’t tell me that! Don’t—”

  “They were marks!” And now his voice was hard, unforgiving. “No matter what you think, the Mistress said they were marks!”

  I drew in a deep breath. “Mari was gray,” I said. I ignored the look of confusion that crossed Erick’s face, confusion that after a moment transformed into sudden understanding, as if he’d seen something for the first time, something that had been dangling in front of his face, that should have been obvious. I thought of what Bloodmark had said instead, that Mari had killed Rec. I knew what he’d said was true. I’d seen the intent before I left, in Mari’s eyes, in her stance. But I hadn’t recognized it, had refused to recognize it. “She was gray,” I repeated. “She wasn’t a mark.”

  “She killed him,” Erick said, his voice grudging. “You heard Bloodmark. That makes her a mark.”

  “Does it?” I spat. “If that’s all it takes, then I’m a mark as well.”

  Erick frowned. “What do you mean?”

  “She killed Rec to save herself,” I said harshly. “He’s the one who sliced her up. He cut her while I was here, before I came to get you. He cut her because he enjoyed it.” I shook my head. “Mari killed him to save herself, just as I killed the ex-guardsman to save myself, and the man with the garrote. Just as I killed the fat man to save you.”

  Erick drew in a sharp breath. Fear flashed across his eyes, and doubt.

  But again he pushed the doubt back, forced down the fear. He shook his head, said in a tight voice, “It was Bloodmark’s decision, just as previous marks have been your decision. He killed her, just as you killed Garrell.”

  I flinched, felt the dagger slide into Garrell’s chest, felt myself step away. “No,” I said, hardening my voice. “No. It’s not the same. I killed Garrell. Bloodmark murdered Mari.”

  Erick glanced down at Mari’s body, but said nothing. The fear shimmered in the back of his eyes, pushed back but not gone.

  He knew what I said was true. But if he admitted it . . .

  If he admitted it, then the Mistress was wrong, the Skewed Throne was wrong. And then everything that he’d believed in and trusted would be in doubt. No matter that the city had been slowly dying since the Fire, that the Mistress seemed incapable of doing anything to save it. No matter that what the Mistress did do only seemed to make matters worse. I knew the Dredge was dying. I saw it every day. I lived it. I saw what it had done to people like Mari, saw what it was still doing to people like her, and to me.

  “You shouldn’t have let Bloodmark go,” I repeated, and then I turned to Mari, shut Erick out. It didn’t matter now. It was done. Mari was already dead.

  Erick held still a long moment, began to shift closer, but stopped himself.

  In a strained voice, he said, “We need to mark her.”

  I felt the stone of hatred harden further. “No. Mark him, but not her.”

  Erick hesitated, then shifted away, toward Rec’s body. He lifted the man’s head, made three clean strokes, and then set Rec’s head back down in the pool of blood that was already tacky, already darkening to rust.

  I sat next to Mari as he worked. I heard her screaming, saw her in my mind, her body lax against Rec’s body, shuddering as he drew the blade down her cheek. I saw her eyes—a light brown, lighter than I’d ever seen on the Dredge, with streaks of yellow—saw them flinch shut as Rec began to cut her. I heard her breath hiss between clenched teeth.

  She had been gray.

  I should have run faster.

  I never should have left to find Erick in the first place.

  Erick had finished, had come to stand beside me. He reached for my shoulder, but hesitated, not quite touching me. As if he were afraid to touch me.

  His hand dropped.

  And then the ice-rimmed hand slammed into my chest, so frigid I gasped. Its ice burned across my shoulders, burned up into my arms. It slammed into my chest with so much force I jerked backward in shock, stumbled where I knelt—

  In the next breath, I choked on the smell of yeast, of dough and flour, the scent so strong it overpowered everything, overpowered the stench of fresh blood, of sickening sweat, of oily smoke.

  “Oh gods,” I choked, and tasted vomit. “Oh gods, oh gods, oh gods.”

  I suddenly understood the look on Bloodmark’s face as he’d left. Hatred and anger, but mixed with self-satisfied content.

  He knew how to hurt me.

 
“What is it?” Erick barked, stepping forward. His eyes were wide with fear. But he was moving too slow.

  I turned from him, lurched up into a crouch and launched toward the door, stumbling with the weight of the smell of yeast, with the weight of the ice-rimmed hand burning through my chest. I gasped as I hit the edge of the doorway with my shoulder, then caught myself and ran.

  Ran through the outer room, through the room with the shattered clay tiles, out into the narrows, into the depths beyond the Dredge, the depths that had swallowed me as easily as they had swallowed Mari. I ran through the niches, through the abandoned courtyards, through the alcoves and doorways and gaping windows and half collapsed walls, so fast Erick could not possibly follow. I ran through my home, catching glimpses of the other animals of the Dredge. The startled face of a man, no more than skin laid over bones, huddled over a heap of rotten garbage. The rag woman, who cackled as I veered past, her heated laughter echoing down the alley. The boy, no more than seven, who held a broken spoon like a weapon, who clutched a pitted apple in one hand, one side already rotten, already brown and writhing with maggots. I ran, gasping in the frigid night air, muscles burning in my legs. I ran for the white-dusty man’s door.

  The ice-rimmed hand blazed deeper, tingling now in my hands. The stone of hatred grew harder beneath my breast, grew larger, until it choked me, lodged at the base of my throat. The scent of yeast, of dough, of heat and flour, burned in my nostrils, burned on my tongue, tasting of bread, of rolls, of cheese—

  And then the scent flared, so strong I gasped at the intensity, so real saliva filled my mouth, coated my tongue—

  And then it died.

  I staggered to a halt, cried out to the sky. A raw, unintelligible wail that drew from deep inside. A wail of pure anguish, that sucked everything from me, that sucked the strength from my legs, from my arms, from my chest.

  I gasped, collapsed into the nearest wall, hit it hard with my shoulder, scraped down its mud-brick side until I lay huddled in a ball at its base, arms wrapped around my legs, face drawn tight to my knees. I cried—harsh racking sobs that tore in my chest, that filled my mouth with the taste of phlegm, that sent my blood pounding through my forehead, pulsing in my ears. I choked, not able to draw in enough breath, not wanting to draw in another breath. I felt a gaping hollowness fill me, a horrible emptiness that claimed everything inside me, everything in my chest, in my arms, in my legs. A hollowness that left me fragile, vulnerable, and utterly alone, that left me abandoned.