by Lee Heaven
I finally kiss him on the forehead again and back away slowly. “Sorry I have to go, Decker. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
Passing Maggie on the way out she raised an eyebrow and smirks at me.
“See you in the morning, Maggie. Call me if he needs anything.”
“Bye, Sarah,” she said with a grin and a devilish smile on her face.
~~~
Once out of Decker’s building I exhaled deeply. Part of me was dying to stay. I didn’t want to go back to my house. I didn’t want to leave a place where I just had the best weekend in my whole life. I wanted to stay where I felt safe and loved even though I shouldn’t.
I hit the send button on the Bluetooth, the ringing coming through the speakers of the car. Picking up on the third ring I hear laughing.
“Hey did you finally leave Decker’s bed?” Chrissy laughed through the phone.
“Shut up. We didn’t sleep together.”
“I bet he kissed you at least,” she said in that teasing voice she has.
“Yeah we kissed.” I sighed back to her.
“Shut the fuck up. I was just joking. You actually kissed Decker fucking Jensen!” Chrissy screamed so loud I had to wince.
“Yeah.” I sighed back at her.
“Yeah, yeah is all you have to say. What was it like?”
“Well the first...”
“Wait first? How many times did you kiss?” she interrupted me.
Trying to tell Chrissy a story when it came to Decker was like trying to get a toddler to sit still. Completely impossible! She never can let me get a thought out before interrupting me.
“Twice. The first time was Friday night in the elevator.”
“In an elevator?! Wow, are you daring!”
“No, Chrissy, not like that. It was after we got back from dinner. You saw the news about Friday right?”
“Yeah, I saw something happened. What was it?”
“I had a bad panic attack, to the point where I was out of it for like ten minutes. Well Decker was scared and jammed the elevator open and put me on the floor so the paramedics can attend to me and not leave me out in the open so the hounds can get more pictures.”
“That was very sweet of him.”
“I know. Well after the paramedics were done checking me out, he was scared and rambling on about what happened. He dropped down to his knees then he yanked me up into his lap and kissed me.”
“Wow. That’s hot. What was it like?”
“Chrissy, I just about had an orgasm.” I giggled like a little school girl instead of the grown woman I was.
“Wow that fucking great huh? You lucky fucking bitch.” She belted out laughing.
“I know, right.”
“So tell me about the second time. Was it just as good?”
“It was last night. We spent the day together doing things around the city.”
“Like what I haven’t seen the gossip yet?”
“We went for a carriage ride in Central Park, went to see Phantom of the Opera…”
“You bitch, I can’t believe you went without me,” Chrissy said laughing.
We had always planned to see it together if she ever moved back home. Neither one of us knew anyone else who wanted to see it. Even though I broke that by seeing it with Decker I knew she wouldn’t care, but she still would have to bust my chops about it.
“It was so great. I cried. Well after the show we went to dinner and then he took me clubbing. We danced for hours. Then when David Guetta’s Titanium came on something changed. I could feel his dick getting harder…”
“Was it huge?”
Such a pervert she was. But you have to love her.
“Oh, Chrissy, huge isn’t the right way to explain it. It’s more like ginormous. Three or four boy scout troops could have camped out under it.”
“Holy shit!” she exclaimed so loudly I had to turn the volume down on the Bluetooth.
“I know right! Well anyways, we were dancing with my back against his chest and at that point I turned in his arms. When I looked up in his eyes I was sold. They were dripping with the ‘I need you now and I will do anything to have you’ look. He bent me backwards and planted his face in my stomach. Well as he slowly pulled me up, he ran his tongue from my hip bone, straight up the middle of my stomach to in between my breast stopping right below my ear.”
“Holy shit, Sarah. That is damn fucking hot.”
“Check out the picture I just sent you.”
I can hear her pressing buttons on the phone getting to her text messages; she must have dropped the phone because there was a loud clanging noise. “Holy fucking shit, Sarah. That’s, that’s, that’s…I don’t even know what that is, but fucking God damn now I’m turned on.”
“That’s not even the hottest part.”
“What!” she just about yelled in my ear. “You have got to be kidding me what could be hotter than that?”
“When he got to my ear he growled ‘let’s go home’ so we left. But we didn’t make it any further then the car before he was all on me. The second the door was closed he had yanked me in his lap. We were dry humping and making out in the back of the car like a bunch of horny teenagers. We both had orgasms.”
“Wait you were both clothed?”
“Yup.”
“And he, all in his pants?”
“Yup, all in his pants.”
“Wow. That’s fucking crazy. So anything else happen after that?”
“No nothing else. I couldn’t. Chrissy, I just wouldn’t fit in his world. Look at who he usually dates. They’re famous, or models. All tall and skinny and beautiful. I’m short and curvy and plain.”
“Maybe that’s why he has never settled down. All those models and famous people kept him in that fast pace lifestyle. You could be the one to bring him that calm.”
“Someone got a pic inside the club. I only had a tank on so my back was showing…”
“Oh so you let you wings come out and play.” Chrissy laughed.
“Well some of the papers are calling me his angel and that I was sent down to save him.”
“Maybe you are and maybe he’s your angel.”
“That’s what his dry cleaner seems to think.”
“What are you talking about?” she questioned me.
“I dug my fingers into my hands when I had my attack Friday night and I guess I dug in pretty hard. Well when I went for my iPod I got blood all over the purse I was using. So we went and took it to the dry cleaners he usually goes to. Decker got a call while we were there and the lady asked if I loved him. I said no and tried to explain we were just friends but she wouldn’t hear of it. And I quote she said, ‘I see it in the eyes, eyes do not lie. You good for him. You tame him. He heal you broken heart. You heartbroken way too long. Pretty girl with sad heart, big man with big heart will help.’ I never met her how does she know my heart has been broken for so long?”
Chrissy sighed loudly. “That’s amazing. She sounds like she knows what she’s talking about. Maybe Decker told her about you.”
“No, he hasn’t gone anywhere since the accident without me and we haven’t gone to the dry cleaners at all.”
“So she is obviously seeing something there. And it is time you start healing your heart. It has been so long.”
“Kevin sent me a message on Facebook.”
“What did that asshole want?” she growled just as angrily as I had this morning.
“That’s the same thing I called him. I thought I said it to myself but I guess I said it out loud and Decker heard me. I told him who he was and what happened.”
“What Decker say?”
“He was pissed, wanted me to give him my phone so he could tell him where to go shove it.”
“Ha ha ha that’s great. Decker is so protective of you.”
“I know. It’s sweet. I haven’t had that since Ely.”
For the next half hour of the drive home Chrissy and I talked about everything from Decker to Shawn to her husb
and Jermey. I think she was trying to convince me to leave Shawn and that I could just go to Decker, but she never just came out with it. I needed to get the subject on her and away from me.
“So when are you moving back then?” I asked her.
“Probably sometime in June. As soon as school is out and I can get everything packed.”
“Are you going to tell him you’re leaving or just up and leave?”
“I think in a way he already knows. We haven’t been getting along, I threatened him with divorce papers, the bank has once again served us with foreclosure papers and probably putting the house on the market. Once we did that I told him he either needed to stop hiding his paycheck and pay the bills or it’s over.”
“You should just come back. You and I can just start over. It will be like old times.”
“You won’t need me. You’ll have Decker!”
“Yeah me, you, and every other girl in this country wishes,” I say laughing.
“You’ll see, Sarah. Your dreams will be coming true soon. Decker will make sure of it.”
Oh Lord the subject is back on me. Will it ever stay off of me or am I doomed until I die.
“Chrissy, if I were to leave Shawn and hook up with Decker, I just don’t know. The whole world knows he doesn’t want to settle yet and I don’t want to be walked all over again. Plus I only have two weeks left and then he goes to spring training in Florida and I go back to my life.”
“So go to Florida with him and leave Shawn for good.”
If only it was that simple. If only it worked that way.
“He’d never allow me to take Josie and I’m not leaving her. He’s told me I can leave with her, but if I leave the state he’ll call the cops and report me for kidnapping and since I would cross a state line that becomes a federal case and I don’t want that.”
“Don’t worry we’ll get everything figured out for both of us.”
“We will. We’ll both be happy again somehow. Anyways, I’m home and Shawn should be home any minute so let me go and I’ll call you during the week.”
“I love you, Sarah. Keep your head up.”
“Love you too, Chrissy.”
Chapter 4
The x-ray on Monday went great. Decker’s leg is healing better then the doctors expected and he should be ready for spring training in two weeks. We’ve also not talked about what happened over the weekend and he hasn’t tried anything new. I may just be able to survive this last week and half.
It’s Wednesday night, Decker has some of the guys over. There’s Roman Emmerson, the first baseman; Tobias Charles, the center fielder; and Tyler Ellis, the third baseman. Of course I need to make a huge dinner so I can feed all four of them and Maggie. All four are like teenage boys eating anything and everything.
I’m in the kitchen when I hear the front door open and Tyler whistle. “Geez, Jensen, do you hire any women who doesn’t knock your socks off. This one’s just as good as Sarah.”
That makes me smile. I’ve met most of the guys already. They stop by during the day, but Maggie being the night nurse hasn’t met them yet. I’m not even sure if Jen, the weekend nurse, has met anyone yet.
“Maggie, I’m in the kitchen. Hurry up before one of these animals attack you,” I yelled laughing.
Maggie comes bouncing in the room with the biggest smile I’ve ever seen.
Oh boy she’s going to be in trouble if she doesn’t reign herself in.
“Don’t let those boys make you all swoony or anything, Maggie.” I chuckled.
“Wow, Sarah, those boys are just as good looking as Decker. Which ones are single?”
“Maggie, Maggie, Maggie. Keep it together or you won’t make it through the night.”
“I know. What’s left to cook?”
I explain what is left to do and tell her I’ll see her in the morning. I head for Decker and the boys to say goodbye.
“I’m outta here. I’ll see you in the morning,” I tell Decker as I plant a kiss on his forehead. Of course now all the other guys are sticking their foreheads out and clearing their throats at me wanting a kiss of their own. With a laugh I make my way around the room and give them all a kiss on their forehead.
“Decker, you have the best baby sitter in the world. Your mom has to give my mom her number so she can come watch me,” Roman teases and squeezes my ass as I plant a kiss on his forehead. I swat his hand away playfully.
I see the scowl move across Decker’s face. Oh relax, Decker. He’s just joking and he’s married! Not like you’re my boyfriend anyways.
“I’ll call you at eight-thirty to go over tomorrow’s schedule, ok?” Decker asks as I plant the last kiss on Tobias.
“Good. Bye guys. Behave and don’t harass poor Maggie too much. She’s already in celebrity overload.”
~~~
My phone starts to ring and Shawn growls. He was already in a bad mood and now this is going to push him over the edge.
“It’s Decker we just have to go over the appointments for tomorrow and that’s it. Shouldn’t take more than half an hour,” I say to Shawn with my eyes looking at the floor.
Shawn rips the phone from my hand. “What do you want?” He screams into the phone. “You play house with her all weekend and get her all day. Now it’s my turn and you have to interrupt.” Decker says something to Shawn I can’t hear and Shawn looks like he could punch something. “You have ten minutes and whether you’re done or not she’s off the phone with you. I’ll be so glad when you’re done with her next week and she can stop ignoring her cleaning duties here and get back to her real life serving us without you interrupting.” Shawn spats into the phone as he hands it to me.
I can hear Decker grumbling to the guys in the back ground and what sounds like keys rumbling.
“Decker?” I asked when he didn’t say anything into the phone.
“I’m here. Are you alright? He sounds mad?”
“He’s just in a mood.” I tried whispering but I guess I wasn’t as quiet as I thought.
“I’m not in a mood, I’m just sick of your shit, you bitch,” Shawn yells loud enough to make sure Decker can hear him.
“I’m fine. Please ignore him, Decker. Let’s go over tomorrow’s schedule real quick.”
Just as we get to his last appointment Shawn rips the phone out of my hands. “All right, your time’s up, asshole. Now it’s my turn to have her. Who knew someone so rich could be such a prick,” he growled into the phone before slamming it on the table.
“Shawn, that is my boss. I wish you wouldn’t talk to him like. He is paying me after all.”
“I can’t wait till you stop working,” he yelled as his fist clenched at his side.
I stand two feet from him glaring into his eyes that are filled with pure hatred. However, I will not back down from this fight. My boiling point has finally come and now I’m fuming. I cross my arms across my chest and widen my stance. I’m ready for this yelling match that is about to berate me.
“You’re never happy are you? You complain that I don’t work and spend all your money. Then I get a job and you’re not happy because I’m working. How do you want it? You can’t have it both ways.”
I was not expecting his next move however. He slaps me across the face. Stunned I stare at him. Blood trickles down my lip which has now split open. Shawn may have mentally beaten me down but he has never ever laid a hand on me.
Then in a move that stuns me even more he grabs me by the hair and pulls me across the house. Every time I stumble he pulls on my hair harder. Losing my footing on the stairs at one point I smack my face on the steps and my nose starts bleeding, Shawn just laughs as he pulls my hair tighter.
He wails on me for what seems like forever. Switching between hitting and kicking me as I lay in a ball on the bedroom floor, he keeps accusing me of cheating on him all the time. Telling me I only got the job with Decker because he feels sorry for such a pitiful excuse for a woman and if I think I’m gonna be able to sleep my way to a better social
status I have another thing coming because no man will want me once they see me scars.
Then the doorbell rings, “Who the fuck is that? It’s almost ten at night,” Shawn growls angrily.
Grabbing me by the hair he chucks me down the stairs. I smack the wall so hard my head spins. Whoever is at the door is going to know I was pushed down the stairs. “Get the door, you fucking bitch,” Shawn growls at me.
Knowing my face is bloody and bruised I don’t even bother to turn on the light in the hall or front porch. I barely got the door open an inch when a hand reaches in and yanks me out of the door. Before I even knew what was happening I’m against Decker’s chest and his arms are wrapped around me. I barely see Tyler and Roman entering the house and pushing Shawn against the wall. Tobias is running up the sidewalk with a couple of police officers behind him.
“Sarah, are you all right?” I can hear Decker asking over and over again.
I can’t answer him. The ringing in my ears is too loud and my head is spinning, I could barely concentrate. I just stared wide eyed at him as tears pooled in my eyes.
“Mama?” I hear Josie’s little voice coming out from all the commotion pulling me back into a state of semiconscious state.
“Baby girl, come here.” I motion for her to come to me. I grab her up and hug her tight. “Baby, this is Tobias. Can you do Mama a big favor and take him to your room and show him your doggies. Tobias loves doggies and would love to see yours. Maybe you can even get him to play doggies with you.”
Josie gives Tobias a look over. “Sure, Mama. Come on Tobias!” She practically jumps into his hands. I give Josie a kiss on the cheek and hand her off to Tobias while mouthing a thank you. He kisses me on the forehead as he grabs Josie.
As soon as they are out of sight the cops have Shawn in handcuffs and he’s shouting at me, “You fucking bitch. You’ll pay for this. I’ll make sure you walk away from me with nothing. You fucking think he’s gonna want you when he learns about how you’re not a woman. Ha you should be glad I wanted you.”