LONG SHOT: (A HOOPS Novel)

by Ryan, Kennedy

  “I can do that,” I agree.

  “And I can write a check for a generous amount to get you settled.” Mr. Bradley pulls out his dreaded checkbook again.

  “No.” I’m not yielding on this. “I don’t want your money. I don’t want to take anything from your family into our new life. As matter of fact, I have something for you, Caleb.”

  I reach into the front pocket of my jeans, remove the engagement ring Caleb forced on me, and slide it across the table with such force it skips across the hard surface and lands on the floor, repaying his earlier disrespect.

  Caleb’s cheeks mottle with emotion. The corners of his eyes tighten.

  “Yours, I believe.” I rub at my ring finger as if it’s contaminated.

  Mr. Bradley slips the checkbook back into the inside pocket of his jacket. “We’ll draw up the papers tomorrow, and—”

  “I want the papers today.” I gather my things and the tiny scraps of self-respect I’ve recovered and turn toward the door. “Instructions for delivery are in the folder. I’m leaving town tomorrow.”

  “Where are you going?” Caleb demands. “Where are you taking Sarai?”

  “You heard the terms, Caleb,” Maury interrupts. “If you don’t want to lose everything and find yourself in a well-earned prison cell, you don’t get to know, and you don’t get to follow. Regardless, you’ll need to find yourself a new agent.”

  Maury grimaces, taking in the gruesome images of my pummeled face and body. “Iris, are you sure you don’t want to press charges? He shouldn’t get away scot-free.”

  A bitter laugh precedes my answer. “I press charges and what? He gets a slap on the wrist? Probation? A year for what he’s done by the time his lawyers whittle it down? And still can get joint custody of my daughter?”

  I glare at Caleb before going on. He blanks his expression, looking deliberately bored, like I’m wasting his time.

  “Should I live looking over my shoulder, waiting for him to decide he wants me back?” I continue. “Or wants me dead? Is that the justice you want me to seek? No, thank you. I’ll make my own justice. It’s not perfect and it may run out one day, but it’s the best I can do right now for Sarai and me.”

  I shake my head. “I’ve taken the things from him that matter most: access to me and my child. Forgive me for being more concerned about our freedom than whether or not he is ‘scot-free.’ The only thing he wants to do more than hurt me is to protect himself.”

  “Well then let’s get on with it,” Maury says, standing and extending his arm for me to precede him through the door.

  I’m walking out when Caleb snatches me by the arm, his touch setting off an alarm system in my body, red lights flashing, sirens blaring, and sprinklers spitting water. Shackled to him again, protest roars through me.

  “Get your hands off me,” I ground out.

  Maury pushes against his chest, but Caleb won’t let go, his fingers tightening painfully over my bruises.

  “Iris, don’t leave me.” Desperation fills his eyes and some sick kind of sorrow, but no regret. “I …” His gaze dips to Maury’s face and then to his father, who stands by, disgust and disappointment marking his expression.

  “I need you, baby,” he whispers. And I know it’s true. He needs something to control, to manipulate, to toy with when the pressure is too much, but I’m not his punching bag. I’m not his anything anymore.

  “Get your fucking hands off me.” I jerk at my arm, but he refuses to let go. “Or the deal is off and your precious endorsements and your career—they’ll all be over.”

  For a moment, just a flash, maybe a trick of the light, I think he’ll refuse. It looks like holding onto me means more to him than all I hoped he held more dear, but then the frigid calculation, the ruthless cannibal who ate my heart and nibbled on my soul, shuts off all emotion. The monster is back.

  “You stupid whore.” He laughs, releasing my arm and sliding his fists in the pockets of his pants. “Like you can do better.”

  A smirk tickles the corner of my mouth, and I can’t resist thrusting a sword through the one spot where I know he’s weak.

  “Oh, you and I both know I can do much better, Caleb.” Butter wouldn’t melt in my mouth when I smile.

  Seeing the smirk fall apart on his face is small comfort, but any comfort is better than nothing. I won’t be seeking out August anytime soon. I can’t. Not feeling stained and smudged and shamed the way I do. Rationally, I know what happened to me was not my fault, but shame doesn’t reason.

  Where I’ll go, I don’t know yet. Caleb’s a demon constrained to hell with chains of gossamer. It’s a fragile exile I’m making for myself, but I’ll l take it and run for shelter while I can. And if he breaks free, I’ll run again, maybe for my life.

  I slip on oversized sunglasses and a hat to cover my bruises, looking like a Lifetime movie cliché, I’m sure.

  In the lobby, Lo holds Sarai in her lap. She looks chic, her long braids tucked into a snood. She wears skinny jeans, a leather blazer, and ballet flats. Caleb rushes past me, headed for Sarai. Before I can put myself between them, Lo points a slim finger at Caleb and squints one eye, as if she’s peering through a telescope. I wonder if she still sees the shadow on his soul because I may not have seen it then, but I can attest that it’s there. There’s latent power in her eyes, in the strong, slender arrow of her arm aimed at him.

  “You’ll have to pay,” Lo says.

  Caleb breaks stride, like her voice sprouted tentacles that slithered through the air and locked around his ankles. Something ominous hangs around Lo, and goosebumps pepper my skin.

  “What the hell are you talking about?” he mumbles but doesn’t step closer.

  A knowing grin blooms on Lo’s pretty face, and she opens her fist, revealing her gris-gris ring.

  “These are your days.” She blows over the ring, eyes clinging to his face. “Scattered, and lost, and falling to the ground like dust.”

  “Are you threatening me?” he asks, only half-laughing. I bet if I peeled his sleeve back, his arms would be covered in gooseflesh, too.

  “No. A threat you see coming.” The smile drops from Lo’s face. “It’s not a threat. It’s real justice, and by the time it reaches you, it’ll be too late.”

  Caleb pales under his tan, but while he stands there, no doubt considering the cryptic message Lo delivered, I rush past him and scoop Sarai into my arms. He approaches, but Lo interjects herself.

  “Walk while you can, Caleb,” she says, her words in a lower register that sounds laced with danger.

  With one frustrated look at me and Sarai, he moves on. The breath trapped in my lungs releases in a rush. His father and Maury emerge from the conference room, their heads bent together. They glance at me, and I don’t know if it’s pity or respect in Maury’s eyes, but I’ll take either as long as it means he executes the papers and keeps Caleb away from me.

  “So what now?” Lo asks.

  “What was that all about?” I ignore her question.

  “What was what all about?”

  “Um, the powerful voodoo priestess act.”

  “I don’t act,” Lo says with a humorless curve to her full lips. “I am.”

  Twilight Zone.

  “Where will you go?” Lotus asks, redirecting me, distracting me.

  “I need to go somewhere far from Caleb,” I answer in a rush. “Somewhere he doesn’t know about and can’t get to. I need some time without him in my life at all. Time to heal, I guess, because right now I just feel so …”

  I can’t articulate how I feel. Hurt, but numb. Lost. What do I do now? Next? Where should I go? I have to find my place.

  Center.

  I’d play you at the five. If you were mine, you’d be at the center of my life.

  August’s words filter through tiny gaps in the barbed-wire fence surrounding my heart. That could be my place. Instinctively, I know August would put me at the center, but one could argue I was Caleb’s center, too. A dark, twisted c
enter with the sides closing in and choking, but the center nonetheless. What if I’ve misjudged August as badly as I misjudged Caleb? Hell, as badly as I misjudged myself?

  I need time to find my place in this world without anyone else at the helm. As much as I feel for August, I need to stand on my own. I need to do what’s best for my daughter and savor life and freedom and everything we almost lost.

  “I know where you need to go,” Lo says as we step outside the hotel and onto the sidewalk.

  “Where?”

  Lo hooks her arm around my neck like she did when we were kids.

  Hopscotch.

  Gratitude overtakes me, and I blink tears away. She came. I called, and Lo came. She hasn’t condemned me or called me a fool for not calling sooner. The closeness between us didn’t fade when she moved to the bayou. It didn’t wash away when Katrina came, and I moved and Lo stayed. And it didn’t budge when Caleb came between us. Not really. The closeness never moved. I did. I hid behind my anger and shame, and now it’s all exposed. The light breathes grace on me.

  “It’s so obvious where you should go,” Lo says.

  “If it’s so obvious, then why don’t you enlighten me?”

  Lo kisses Sarai’s forehead and then mine. I swear when she looks up, I feel a hot, sultry breeze tease my hair, hear the distant sound of jazz, and taste a harvest of rich flavors on my tongue.

  “Where you belong, Iris,” Lo insists softly, “is home.”

  33

  August

  “Did she say anything else?” I ask, carefully molding my mouth into a normal-looking, I’m-not-a-stalker smile. “Tell me again what Iris said.”

  Sylvia sends me a longsuffering look over the clipboard pressed to her chest. The same look she’s been giving me the last few days. When Iris didn’t show the day after Caleb came, I was worried but didn’t have a way to reach her. I started bugging Sylvia then, and have been bugging her ever since, but it’s only today that she has any answers.

  “She called to apologize for missing the last two days of camp but said she had to leave town unexpectedly and wouldn’t be back.”

  “It was her?” I demand. “Or was it Caleb delivering the message?

  “Like I told you the first three times you asked, it was Iris,” she says impatiently.

  My harmless smile slips a millimeter. That was not the answer I wanted to hear.

  “Isn’t that unusual?” I lean against the wall in the community center hall, my attempt at looking casual. “I mean, Iris shows up every day to volunteer and then just calls to say she’s leaving town and won’t be back. Are you concerned?”

  “No.” Sylvia knits her brows. “Why would I be concerned? Concerned how?”

  “Well, that she’s okay.” I rein my frustration, remembering how Caleb swept in and ruined everything. The rage in his eyes.

  “The woman had a bodyguard.” Sylvia’s wry smile does nothing to ease my concern.

  “Yeah, well the bodyguard’s creepy as fuck,” I say bluntly, abandoning any semblance of calm. “And Caleb looked …”

  Unhinged. Enraged. Dangerous.

  The thought of him hurting Iris somehow is driving me crazy. Why did I not get her damn number … again?

  “Look, I’ve seen where she lives,” Sylvia says, her voice dry and void of sympathy. “I’ve seen the car she drives, her ring, her clothes. She was being very well taken care of, let me tell you.”

  “What the hell does that have to do with her safety?” I demand, through gritted teeth.

  “Safety?” Sylvia asks with a wry smile. “Really, August? You think Caleb did what? Hit her? Hurt her? He can be arrogant, high-handed, but he’s crazy about her. If anything, I feel sorry for him if she’s left. He’s probably devastated.”

  Someone up the hall calls Sylvia’s name, and she turns away from me briefly to answer before giving me her attention once more. “I have to go,” she says, sighing heavily. “Thank you for helping us. The kids loved it.”

  “Yeah, I loved working with them, too.” It’s the truth, but right now I can’t focus on it.

  “She’s gone, but she’s fine, August.” Sylvia pats my arm as if I’m a cat who should drink the milk set in front of me and leans in to whisper, “There are lots of other girls out there.”

  After delivering that humiliating pearl of wisdom, Sylvia scoots down the hall without a backward glance.

  Outside, I spot Jared parked on the street. When I ease into the passenger seat, he watches me warily … wearily? Maybe both. He’s handling me with caution and also tired of my ass.

  “No answers?” He taps his thumbs against the leather-wrapped steering wheel.

  “The wrong answers.” I shake my head, still trying to make sense of it. “Sylvia says Iris called to say she was leaving town and wouldn’t be back.”

  “Well then that’s that,” Jared says. “Hooters for lunch?”

  “Dude, this is serious.”

  “Maybe she’s left Caleb. Isn’t that what you wanted?”

  It’s only half of what I wanted. I also wanted her to come to me. And Sylvia may be satisfied with this incomplete picture, but I’m not. I won’t be until I hear it from someone who does know what the hell is going on.

  I flop my head back against the seat and side-eye Jared. “I need a favor.”

  “No.”

  “You don’t even know what I’m gonna ask.”

  “Oh, I don’t?” He shoots me a look that is both disgusted with me and satisfied with himself. “Then why’d I already call the Stingers’ training facility to see if Caleb’s scheduled to work out today?”

  I grin and pull on my seat belt. “This is why I keep you around.”

  “And because I chauffeur your ass everywhere.” He pulls away from the curb and glances at my leg. “At least temporarily. How’s the leg?”

  “Good.” It’s actually hurting like a motherfucker today, but I don’t want any lip from Jared about me overdoing it. I need my brother right now, not an agent.

  “I’m taking you because I knew you wouldn’t rest until you got some answers,” Jared says, looking away from the interstate only long enough to catch my eyes. “But don’t get into shit with him, Gus.”

  “I’m not,” I say defensively. “I’m just gonna make sure Iris is okay.”

  “Oh, yeah. That won’t infuriate him at all.”

  “Ask me how many fucks I got for that,” I snap. “Sylvia made Iris seem like some gold-digger who should just be happy she has a roof over her head.”

  “Well …” Jared shrugs. “I mean, he did take care of her.”

  I boil in scorching silence. Is Caleb some kind of warlock? Does he cast a spell so everyone misses what a complete asshole he is? He just skates through life without consequences. I saw it while we were growing up over and over. Son of a bitch breaks my fucking leg in front of the whole world, and he doesn’t even get fined.

  And I’m not just saying that because he has Iris and Sarai.

  Had Iris and Sarai. Maybe.

  “In and out,” Jared says, breaking into my hostile thoughts.

  “Huh?” I look over at him questioningly. “What’d you say?”

  “We’re here.” He points through the window to the building where the Stingers train. “Find him, ask your questions, and get out. No fights. No scenes, bro.”

  “I really hate it when you call me ‘bro,’” I say, matter-of-factly.

  “I know. Why do you think I do it?” He studies me closely, the little bit of humor on his face fading. “You need me to come with you?”

  “No, I needed a chauffeur, not a chaperone,” I say, climbing carefully out of the car. “Be right back.”

  It doesn’t take me long to find Caleb. He’s pressing weights, spotted by a tall, lean man wearing a Stingers T-shirt. The guy looks up, his eyes widening when his eyes lock on me. Everyone in the league knows how bad the blood is between Caleb and me.

  “Hey, you can’t be in here bec—”

  I wedg
e myself between the trainer and the bench where Caleb is lying down. I grab the bar from Caleb’s hands and place it on his neck enough to cause discomfort but keeping the full weight from pressing down.

  I bend over so he sees me upside down.

  “I’m only asking you once, Caleb,” I say calmly, while his eyes bug and he starts to turn red. “Where is she?”

  “He can’t breathe!” the trainer guy says, sputtering and pointing.

  “That’s kind of the point.” I nod to the exit. “Get out. We got shit to settle. I promise he’ll still be in one piece as long as he cooperates.”

  Caleb manages to shake his head, his eyes latched onto the trainer dude’s as he puffs air and claws at the bar I hold over his throat.

  “I said, get out!” I yell at the indecisive trainer. He’s still looking back over his shoulder until he disappears through the exit.

  I lift the bar just enough for Caleb to breathe and talk, but not enough that I can’t drop the full weight on his throat if he doesn’t give me what I want: answers.

  “Fuck you,” he hisses, the blood vessels sprouting around his eyes.

  “Wrong answer.” I drop the bar a little more, and he immediately starts gasping again. “I will break your fucking windpipe, Caleb, so I suggest you answer the question I already told you I would not ask twice.”

  I lift the bar an inch, and his arms fly up, trying to dislodge me. I can hear Jared now if I actually fight this dude with my leg in its current state. Not to mention the insurance the San Diego Waves have on my body. I’m pretty sure there’s not a brawl clause in the multi-million-dollar policy. I step away and let him breathe while I compose himself.

  “Answer the question,” I snap.

  “What business is it of yours?” he rasps, sitting up and grabbing his water bottle to guzzle.

  “I’m making it my business. Iris didn’t show up at the center, but Sylvia says she called to say she wouldn’t be coming back.”

  He pauses mid-sip, narrowing his eyes at me. “Really concerned about finding another man’s girl, huh?”

  “Not here for games, dude. Tell me what’s going on.”

  He stands, mopping the sweat from his face with a nearby towel. “What is ‘going on’ is that she’s gone.” Bitterness corrupts the line of his mouth. “Iris left. Didn’t take her phone, so good luck calling it.”