Red Clocks

by Leni Zumas

  Then she would be called in to help boil the puffin.

  THE MENDER

  Walks home from the library the long way, past the school. The three o’clock bell is big over the harbor, flakes of bronze dropping slow to the water, bell in her mouth, bell in her scabbard. The blue school doors open: boots and scarves and shouts. Part-hid behind a bitter cherry, the mender waits. A string of Aristotle’s lanterns—the spiky teeth of sea urchins—hangs on her neck as protection. Last week she stood here an hour until the last child came out and the doors stopped; but the girl she was waiting for did not appear.

  The mender herself performed quite poorly at Central Coast Regional, which she left, fifteen years ago, without a diploma. Fails to meet minimum standards. Acts deliberately uninterested in what goes on in class. Oh bitches, it was no act. Her brain wasn’t even in the room. In class the mender made sure never to talk except to fled souls or a bulb moon blown down into the stomach of the ocean. Her brain cells thrumming in their helmet went off to the forest road, where lay mole mother torn open by owl, her spent babies like red seeds; or to frondlets of sea lawn dragged into mazes by crabs. Her body stayed in the room, but her brain didn’t.

  They come through the blue doors, little and big, bundled for weather: fishermen’s children, shopkeepers’ children, waitresses’ children. Girls with white cheek paint and black eyelids and crimson lips who are not the girl she is waiting for. The girl she is waiting for doesn’t wear makeup, at least not that the mender can tell. She smells smoke. Her aunt Temple’s brand. Is Temple close? Has Temple come—? Stupid, stupid, they don’t come back. It’s the blond weasel, who teaches at the school. His hair and his teeth go in all directions. She has seen him with his daughter and son on the cliff path, pointing at the water.

  “Looking for someone?” he says.

  She gives him the side-eye.

  The blond weasel sucks and blows. “Seems like you are.”

  “No,” she says, and goes.

  She shouldn’t be seen trying to see the girl. People already think she’s unhinged, a forest weirdo, a witch. She is younger than the broomy witches people know from TV, but that doesn’t stop them whispering.

  Up the cobbly lane to the cliff path. Then back and back into the trees. A Douglas-fir was felled on a hillside, sawn into logs, truck-hauled to a mill. Boards were cut and trimmed, planed true. A man bought the boards and notched them together to make a cabin. Two rooms and a toilet closet. Wood stove. Double sink. A cupboard north and a cupboard south. The lamps and mini fridge run on batteries. Showerhead outside, nailed up. Wintertime she sponge bathes or stinks. The goat shed and chicken coop sit behind the cabin on either side of a dead black hawthorn, lightning split. In its cleft the mender has built nest boxes for the owls, swallows, marbled murrelets, golden-crowned kinglets.

  She ought to be more careful. Can’t let people see her watching. The yellow-haired, tumble-toothed weasel looked suspicious. It is no crime to watch someone, but humans like to name these things normal and those things peculiar.

  Clementine comes to the mender’s door with a picnic cooler and a pain. Her last complaint was vicious burning when she peed; today’s pain is new. “Pants off and lie down,” says the mender, and Clementine unzips herself, kicks away the jeans. Her thighs are white and very soft, underwear the size of a shoelace. She plumps back on the mender’s bed and opens her knees.

  A vesicle on Clementine’s south lip, the inner fold, white-red in the browny pink: how much does it hurt?

  “Oh God, a lot. Sometimes at work I’m like ‘Eeesh!’ and they think I’m—Anyway, do I have syphilis?”

  “No. Plain old cunt wart.”

  “My vadge isn’t having a good year.”

  The ointment: emulsion of purslane, bishopswort, and devil’s claw in sesame oil. She dabs a few drops on the wart, recaps the vial, hands it to Clementine. “Put this on it twice a day.” More warts are likely to join it, possibly a lot more, but she doesn’t see cause to say this.

  After Clementine leaves, the mender misses her, wants back the soft white thighs. She likes her ladies big-sirenic, mermaids of land, pressing and twisting in fleshful bodies.

  Out in the shed she pours a scoop of grain and waits for Pinka and Hans to come galloping. Hans nuzzles the mender’s crotch, and Pinka lifts a front hoof to be shaken. Hello, beautifuls. Their tongues are hard and clean. First time she saw a goat’s pupil—rectangular, not round—she felt a stab of recognition. I know you, strangeness. They will never be taken from her. They know to behave, now, after that mischief near the trail.

  Clementine brought black rockfish as payment. Her brothers are fishermen. The mender lifts it from the cooler, plops it into a bowl, picks up the little knife. She feeds the flesh to Malky and crunches the bones in her own mouth. The eyes she throws into the woods. Malky needs protein for all the hunting he does. Gone for days and comes back thin. Fish bones shouldn’t be feared; you just have to chew them right so they won’t pierce your throat walls or stomach lining.

  “Your science teacher will tell you,” said Temple, “fish bones are pure calcium and can’t be digested by the human body, but let me assure you, that’s not the whole story.” One of the things the mender loved best about her aunt was “let me assure you.” That and she cooked regular meals. Not once while living with Temple did the mender have to eat sautéed condiments for dinner. Temple became her guardian after the mender’s mother left a note saying Your better off with auntie don’t worry I will send letters! The mender was eight years old and herself not the best speller, but she noticed that the first word of the note was wrong.

  Temple said the things she sold in her shop, Goody Hallett’s, were props for tourists; but if her niece happened to be interested in the true properties of alchemy, she could teach her. Magic was of two kinds: natural and artificial. Natural magic was no more than a precise knowledge of the secrets of nature. Armed with such knowledge, you could effect marvels that to the ignorant seemed miracles or illusions. A man once cured his father’s blindness with the gall bladder of a dragonet fish; the beat of a drum stretched with the skin of a wolf would shatter a drum stretched with the skin of a lamb.

  The mender bottled her first tincture soon after her mother left. Per Temple’s instructions, she gathered dozens of stalks of flowering mullein, yellow and shaped cheerfully. She picked the flowers and laid them to dry on a towel. Scooped them into a glass jar with chips of garlic, filled the jar with almond oil, left the jar on the sill for a month. Then she strained the oil into six small brown bottles, which she lined up on the kitchen counter—she was already tall enough—and brought Temple to see. Her aunt stood over her, aswirl with red hair, all that long, ropy, sparkling hair, and said, “Well done!” and it was the first time in her life the mender could remember being praised for doing something instead of for not doing it. (Not talking, not crying, not complaining when her mother took six hours to come back from the store.) “Next time your ear hurts,” said Temple, “this is what you’ll use.” The promise of fixing and curing sent hot waves through the mender’s belly. Show them how Percivals do.

  When she wakes, the cabin is so dark from the rain and the trees, she doesn’t know it is morning. But it is, and Malky is scratching, and the door is knocking.

  She drinks a tea of horse-flavored ashwagandha. Eats brown bread. The new client wants nothing but water. Her name is Ro Stephens. Face dry and worried, hair dry and dull (feeble blood?), body thin (not perilously). She has lost people, the mender senses. A tiny smell, like a spoonful of smoke.

  “I’ve been trying for a long time with Dr. Kalbfleisch at Hawthorne Reproductive Medicine.”

  The mender has heard of Kalbfleisch from other clients. One described him as a NILF: Nazi I’d Like to Fuck.

  “So you’ve been taking their medications.”

  “A shit ton, yes.”

  “How’s your cervical mucus?”

  “Fine, I guess?”

  “Does it resemble egg
whites, near ovulation?”

  “For a day or two. But my period’s not—that regular. With the medications it gets better, but still it’s not, like, clockwork.”

  She is so worried. And trying to hide the worry. Her face keeps twitching out of its behaving lines, cracking with What if? What then? then smoothing, obeying again. Deep down she doesn’t believe the mender can help, no matter how much she wants to believe it. This is a person unaccustomed to being helped.

  “Let’s see your tongue.”

  White scum over the pink.

  “You need to stop drinking milk.”

  “But I don’t—”

  “Cream in coffee? Cheese? Yogurt?”

  Ro nods.

  “Stop all of that.”

  “I will.” But Ro looks like she’s thinking I didn’t come here for nutrition tips.

  Eat warm and warming foods. Yams, kidney beans, black beans, bone broth. More red meat: the clock walls need building. Less dairy: the tongue is damp. More green tea: the walls are weakish still. All in the elementals, bitches. Everyone wants charms, but thirty-two years on earth have convinced the mender charms are purely for show. When the body is slow to do something, or galloping too fast toward death, people want wands waved. Broth? That’s it? The mender teaches them to boil meat bones for days. To simmer seed and stem and dried wrack, strain it, drink it. Womb tea makes a cruel stench.

  She pulls down the tea jar from the north cupboard. Shakes some into a brown bag, tapes it closed, hands it to Ro. “Heat this up in a big pot of water. After it boils, turn the heat down and simmer for three hours. Drink a cup every morning and every night. You won’t like the taste.”

  “What’s in it?”

  “Nothing harmful. Roots and herbs. They’ll make your lining lusher and your ovaries stronger.”

  “Which roots and herbs, exactly?”

  She’s one of those people who think they will understand something if they hear its name, when really they will only hear its name.

  “Dried fleeceflower, Himalayan teasel root, wolfberry, shiny bugleweed, Chinese dodder seed, motherwort, dong quai, red peony root, and nut grass rhizome.”

  The tea tastes (the mender has tried it) like water buried underground for months in a bowl of rotted wood, swum through by worms, spat into by a burrowing vole.

  The hair on Ro’s upper lip. The irregular bleeding. The scummy tongue. The dryness.

  “Has Dr. Kalbfleisch checked you for PCOS?”

  “No—what’s that?”

  “Polycystic ovary syndrome. It affects ovulation, so it could be contributing.” Seeing Ro flash with fear, she adds: “A lot of women have it.”

  “Wouldn’t he have mentioned it, though? I’ve been seeing him for over a year.”

  “Ask for a test.”

  Ro has a gentle face—freckled, laugh lined, sad in the mouth corners. But her eyes are angry.

  How to make boiled puffin (mjólkursoðinn lundi):

  1. Skin puffin; rinse.

  2. Remove feet and wings; discard.

  3. Remove internal organs; set aside for lamb mash.

  4. Stuff puffin with raisins and cake dough.

  5. Boil in milk and water one hour, or until juices run clear.

  THE DAUGHTER

  Is seven weeks late, approximately, more or less.

  She stares at the classroom floor, arranging linoleum tiles into groups of seven. One seven. Two seven.

  But she doesn’t feel pregnant.

  Three seven. Four seven.

  She would be feeling something by now, five seven, if she was.

  Ash passes a note: Who finer, Xiao or Zakile?

  The daughter writes back: Ephraim.

  Not on list, dumblerina.

  “So what are we talking about here?” goes Mr. Zakile. “We’ve got whiteness. The white whale. How come it’s white?”

  Ash goes, “God made it white?”

  Six seven.

  “Well, okay, that wasn’t really what I was…” Mr. Zakile paws through his notes, likely ripped whole from online, searching in those cut-and-pasted sentences for the brain he wasn’t born with.

  Of all divers, said Captain Ahab, thou hast dived the deepest.

  Has moved amid this world’s foundations.

  The daughter wants to float down into the murderous hold of this frigate Earth.

  Hast seen enough to split the planets.

  Seven seven.

  And not one syllable is thine.

  She’s been late before. Everyone has. The anorexics, for instance, miss periods constantly, as starving shuts down the blood; or if you haven’t been eating enough iron; or if you’re smoking too much. The daughter smoked three-quarters of a pack yesterday. Ash’s sister, Clementine, says tweaker girls have sex fearlessly because meth prevents conception.

  Last year one of the seniors threw herself down the gym stairs, but even after she broke a rib she was still pregnant, and Ro/Miss said in class she hoped they understood who was to blame for this rib: the monsters in Congress who passed the Personhood Amendment and the walking lobotomies on the Supreme Court who reversed Roe v. Wade. “Two short years ago,” she said—or, actually, shouted—“abortion was legal in this country, but now we have to resort to throwing ourselves down the stairs.”

  And, of course: Yasmine.

  The self-scraper. The mutilator.

  Yasmine, who was the first person the daughter became blood sisters with (second grade).

  Yasmine, who was the first person the daughter ever kissed (fourth grade).

  Yasmine, who made him use a condom but got pregnant anyway.

  The daughter wishes she could talk to her mom about it. Get told “Seven weeks late is nothing, pigeon!”

  In most areas, her mom is sensible and knowledgeable—

  “My poo is furry!”

  “Don’t worry. It’s from that green cleanse you did. It’s mucoid plaque sloughing off the intestinal walls.”

  —but not in all areas.

  Can you tell me what color eyes my grandmother had?

  What color hair my grandfather had?

  Were my great-aunts all deaf?

  My great-great-uncles all lunatics?

  Do I come from a long line of mathematicians?

  Were their teeth as crooked as my teeth?

  No, you can’t tell me, and neither can Dad, and neither can the agency.

  It was a closed adoption. Zero trace.

  Are you mine?

  Ephraim doesn’t have an orgasm, he stops after a couple of minutes, says he isn’t feeling it. Shifts his weight off her. The first thing she feels is relief. The second is fear. No male teenager ever passes up the chance for intercourse, according to her mom, who last year gave her A Talk that included, thank God, no anatomical details but did feature warnings about the sex-enslaved minds of boys. Yet here is Ephraim, sixteen going on seventeen, passing up a chance. Or stopping mid-chance.

  “Did I, like, do something wrong?” she says quietly.

  “Unh-unh. I’m just way tired.” He yawns, as though to prove it. Pushes back his blond-streaked hair. “We’re doing two-a-days for soccer. Hand me my hat?”

  She loves this hat, which makes him look like a gorgeous detective.

  But her own clothes: Black wool leggings. Red tube skirt. White glitter-paste long sleeve. Purple loop scarf. A pathetic outfit; no wonder he stopped.

  “Want me to drop you at Ash’s?”

  “Yeah, thanks.” She waits for him to say something about the next time, make a plan, allude to their future together, even just You coming to our game Friday? They get to Ash’s and he hasn’t. She says, “So…”

  “See you, September girl,” he says, and kisses, more like bites, her mouth.

  In Ash’s bathroom she drops the purple scarf in the trash and covers it with a handful of smushed toilet paper.

  Eivør Mínervudottír’s family lived on fish, potatoes, fermented mutton, milk-boiled puffin, and pilot whale. Her favorite foo
d was the fastelavnsbolle, a sweet Shrovetide bun. In 1771 the Swedish king ate fourteen fastelavnsboller with lobster and champagne, then promptly died of indigestion.

  THE WIFE

  Bex won’t wear a raincoat. They will be in the car mostly and she doesn’t care if her hair gets wet between the car and the store and she hates how the plastic feels on her neck.

  “Fine, get wet” is Didier’s answer, but the wife isn’t having it. It’s pouring. Bex will wear a raincoat. “Put. It. On,” she bellows.

  “No!” screams the girl.

  “Yes.”

  “No!”

  “Bex, nobody is getting in the car until you put it on.”

  “Daddy said I don’t have to.”

  “Do you see how hard it’s raining out there?”

  “Rain is good for my skin.”

  “No, it’s not,” says the wife.

  “Jesus, let’s go,” says Didier.

  “Please back me up on this.”

  “I would if I agreed with you, but we’ve been standing here for ten goddamn minutes. It’s ridiculous.”

  “Enforcing rules is ridiculous?”

  “I didn’t know we had a rule about—”

  “Well, we do,” says the wife. “Bex? Do you want to keep holding everyone up, or are you ready to act like a six-year-old and wear your raincoat?”

  “I’m not a six-year-old,” she says, arms crossed. “I’m a little babykins. I need my diaper changed.”

  The wife slaps the raincoat across Bex’s shoulders, yanks the hood into place, and ties the strings under her chin. Lifts up the girl’s rigid body and carries her out to the car.

  Her husband’s hands sit on the wheel at ten and two, a habit that in their courting days shocked the wife: he had played in bands, done drugs, punched his father in the face at age fourteen. Yet he steered—steers—like a grandma.