The Passenger

by Ulrich Alexander Boschwitz

  Silbermann opened the cigarette case that was lying on the table. “Shall we get back to business?” he asked as calmly as he could.

  “Well,” Findler replied, “I’m really not so tempted. I’m not even sure if it’s still possible to buy property from Jews. No idea. If you had your way you’d flimflam me before I could count to three. Well?”

  This constant “well,” which sounded so fat and smug, was gradually bringing Silbermann to the point of despair.

  “Do you actually want to buy the building or just talk about buying it? What do you want to do?”

  “Well,” said Findler as he stretched in his armchair. “I really wrenched my hip earlier. What do you say to that? Wouldn’t it be better if we waited to see what new regulations are coming? It’s too risky for me. I pay for a place and end up not getting it. The government has in mind all sorts of things for you Jews.”

  “All right then fifteen thousand!”

  “I don’t know, Silbermann, I really have no idea if I should or not. What say we wait a few weeks, and if nothing happens in the meantime I’ll still be able to buy the place. First I also have to speak with my lawyer, absolutely.”

  “But ten minutes ago…”

  “Since then I’ve started to have some doubts. I also don’t want you to have any trouble because you’re selling your home. But most of all I don’t want any trouble myself.”

  “Just so we can finish this: I let you have the building for a down payment of fourteen thousand marks. But you have to agree now.”

  “Is that so? Well … let’s talk about it again tomorrow. Fourteen thousand marks is a heap of money, that’s for sure! I’m not an ogre. I don’t want something for nothing. But I have to ask myself whether this place is really worth a fourteen thousand down payment. And of course you realize that the payment could only be made after the deed gets notarized and registered. And in case of any force majeure the whole transaction would be void. Fourteen thousand marks … Do you honestly believe I’m getting a bargain if we shake on it this evening and call it a deal?”

  “You wanted to pay fifteen thousand marks and now you’re hesitating at fourteen?”

  “I’m just thinking there are other deals I could make with the money, maybe better ones. You just always have to see for yourself where you are in life. Well?” He sighed contentedly.

  Silbermann jumped up.

  “Of course I can’t influence your decision,” he said impatiently. “But since I don’t have any more time I’d appreciate it if you could make up your mind right here and now. Otherwise please consider my offer as no longer valid. I don’t even know if you’re seriously interested in the purchase or not.”

  “There’s no need to sound like that,” Findler replied testily. “I’ve always known that you Jews aren’t cut out for doing business, at least not with people who know what they’re doing, well…”

  Silbermann saw how much Findler was enjoying this extortion—the man was even proud of it. Silbermann had a sharp response on his tongue, something to the effect that he, Silbermann, couldn’t compete with blackmailers and had no desire to, and that he was used to conducting business in a decent manner. Except there are times when the most simple-minded swindler has the edge over the most intelligent and decent person.

  But he didn’t manage to spit out the uncivil thoughts that were bubbling up inside him or even to answer Findler more mildly—which would have been far more reasonable—because suddenly there was a wild ringing at the door. Without paying attention to his visitor’s bewildered face or excusing himself even with a single word, Silbermann hurried out of the room into the hall, where he met his wife.

  “You have to leave,” she whispered, upset.

  “No, no, I can’t leave you here alone!”

  Not knowing what he should do, he headed toward the door. She stopped him.

  “Nothing can happen to me if you’re not here,” she assured him, blocking his way. “Spend tonight in a hotel. Now be quick and go.”

  He thought for a moment. The bell rang again and fists began pounding at the door.

  “Open up, Jew, open up…” several overlapping voices bellowed. Silbermann’s jaw dropped. He fixed his eyes on the door.

  “I’m getting my revolver,” he said, almost inaudibly. “I’ll shoot down the first one who breaks into my home! No one has the right to barge in like that.”

  He started to pass his wife and head to the bedroom.

  “We’ll see about that,” he said. “We’ll see about that…”

  Fists again pounded the door and the bell was ringing shrilly.

  “Well?” asked Findler, who had stepped into the hall when he heard the noise. “What’s happening here? That’s just great. If the brothers catch me here, in their excitement they might take me for a Jew and smash my teeth in.”

  He ran his hand tenderly over his mouth.

  “Don’t you have a back door?” he then asked Silbermann, who was standing there watching him, as though he were expecting help and advice. “And to hell with it, you can foist your damned building on somebody else,” he added.

  “I’m getting my revolver,” Silbermann repeated mechanically, “and I’ll shoot the first one who breaks into my house!”

  “Now there,” said Theo Findler, to calm him down. “Easy does it. Better you should go. I’ll talk to them. See that you get out through the back door. And I’ll take the place for ten thousand. Do we have a deal?”

  “You are … All right, all right, it’s a deal.”

  “So then get a move on! I need you alive so you can sign the deed.”

  “Go, go,” his wife begged.

  The doorbell rang again, and Silbermann wondered why no one was kicking in the door.

  “And what will happen to my wife?” he asked helplessly.

  “Just count on me,” said Findler, full of confidence. “I’ll take care of everything, but now see to it that you get out of here!”

  “If anything happens to my wife … you won’t get the building.”

  “Fine, fine,” Findler reassured him, “but if you don’t disappear, then you’ll be putting both your wife and me in danger!”

  He straightened his jacket, ran his right hand over his bristly hair, took a deep breath, and went to the door.

  “Well?” he asked in a booming voice. “What’s going on?”

  “Open up, Jew!”

  “Have you ever seen a party block leader who is a Jew?” Findler asked coarsely.

  “Shut up, you filthy pig, open up!”

  Findler turned around to make sure Silbermann had left the hall with his hat and coat, then signaled to Frau Silbermann that she should hide in one of the rooms, and then shouted, “I’m a member of the party!” He tore open the door. “There is no Jew here!” he announced.

  Six or seven young men were standing in front of him. For a moment his forceful appearance intimidated them. He reached into his breast pocket to show them his party book.

  “The Jews swindle everybody,” said one of the men. “Silbermann a party member—of all the Jewish nerve!”

  “I’m not Silber—” Theo Findler doubled over and fell to the floor. One of the men had kicked him in the crotch.

  TWO

  Silbermann hurried down the back stairs. They’re probably lying in wait for me, he thought. Ach, I should have stayed. What’s going to happen to Elfriede now? He wondered whether he shouldn’t go back. But Findler’s there, he reassured himself. A good thing that is, too. The man’s a decent person despite everything. If I’d stayed upstairs I’m sure I would have done something out of desperation. Resisted, or actually fired the gun, after all you have to do something, you can’t just let them do whatever they want to you. Not that it would have helped matters—on the contrary. Silbermann realized that if he had fired, it would have been out of fear. Fear, plain and simple. Fear of the concentration camp, fear of prison—and fear of being beaten.

  Dignity, he thought, a person has his dignity
and that’s something you can’t let anyone take away.

  He stopped moving when he saw a man standing at the bottom of the stairwell, smoking a cigarette. Silbermann straightened up and approached the man with measured steps, calmly withstanding his gaze. As he came close, he asked the man for a light.

  The man reached into his pocket, took out a pack of matches, lit one, and held it out to Silbermann.

  “Here you go,” the man said. Then he asked, “Tell me, do a lot of Jews live here?”

  “No idea,” Silbermann answered, amazed at how indifferent he sounded. “You should ask the doorman. I’m a stranger here myself.” He raised his arm and said, “Heil Hitler.”

  The other man returned the greeting, and Silbermann walked past him without being stopped. Don’t turn around, he told himself. Don’t walk too fast or too slow. Because if you stick out precisely when you’re trying so hard not to, if you look suspicious because you’re trying to look as unsuspicious as you can … My God, what do these people want from me?

  He had already left the hallway and crossed the courtyard. As he walked he reached up and felt his nose. How important you are, he thought. Now everything depends on what you look like, it’s up to you whether a person is a free man or a prisoner, you determine how a person lives, or even if a person stays alive. And if a person wasn’t lucky with how you happen to look, you just might get him killed.

  Outside the entrance to the apartment building he ran into another shady character. “Well,” he said in a forceful voice, instinctively imitating Theo Findler, “what are you hanging around here for?”

  The man gave a start and automatically assumed what weak people consider a strong stance.

  “Oh,” he said, in a way that was both chummy and respectful, “just a little Jew-hunt.”

  “Ah,” said Silbermann, with apparent disinterest. Then he walked on, casually raising his arm in the official greeting. Once more he was not stopped. When he reached the street he paused for a moment to take everything in. What’s happening upstairs? he worried. If only I knew. Surely they won’t … Yes they will. But Findler is there.

  Suddenly he felt very afraid. The thugs could come down any minute and leave the building, or one of their lookouts might suddenly get suspicious and decide to stop him after all. So he again set off, quickening his pace.

  It’s strange, he mused, as he crossed the street, thinking he’d be safer on the other side. Ten minutes ago it was my house that was at stake, my property. Now it’s my neck. Everything’s happening so quickly. They have declared war on me, on me personally. That’s what it is. War has just been declared on me once and for all and right now I’m completely on my own—in enemy territory.

  If only Becker were here. Hopefully the business won’t go to pieces. That’s all I need. I absolutely have to have that money in easy reach. Hopefully Becker isn’t gambling it away. Oh well, he’s the only one I can count on after all. And what if he does lose a few hundred marks at cards, what does that matter? More important things are at stake.

  But I do need that money. Money means life, especially in wartime. A Jew in Germany without money is like an unfed animal in a cage, something utterly hopeless.

  He passed a phone booth, then turned around and went back. I’ll just make a call, he thought, and then I’ll know what’s going on.

  The idea cheered him up, but the phone was occupied, and he had to wait awhile. The lady’s voice was too loud to be contained by the booth, and Silbermann learned all about a fur coat that needed mending, about the film Love in the South, and about some man named Hans who had a sore throat.

  Silbermann paced nervously up and down. Finally he tapped on the glass pane to signal he was waiting. The lady turned her face toward him, and that made such an impression that he granted her another five minutes’ conversation before deciding to give the glass another tap.

  Finally the phone was free and he hastily dialed his apartment. No one answered. He tried twice more to connect, but without success.

  Findler must be still dealing with them, he reassured himself, and hung up. Those boys are hard to get rid of. Calling was a dumb idea anyway, because as long as those people are there nobody can say anything to me. Silbermann then dialed his lawyer.

  A tearful female voice answered. “Herr Doktor Löwenstein and his wife aren’t here.”

  “Where is he then?” No answer.

  “He isn’t here…”

  “I see, and who are you?”

  “I’m the servant girl.”

  “Then please tell Herr Doktor Löwenstein that…”

  “It would be better if you called another time,” she interrupted. “There’s no telling when he’ll be back.”

  Silbermann hung up.

  “No doubt they’ve rounded him up, too,” he mumbled.

  He dialed the number of a Jewish business friend, but no one answered there, either.

  Silbermann grew more and more dismayed. Hilde was right, he concluded, all Jews have been arrested, and I may be the only one who’s escaped.

  He rang up his sister.

  “It’s Otto,” he said. “I’m calling from a phone booth. They showed up at my…”

  “I don’t want to hear about it, Otto.” She cut him off. “Our whole apartment is one big heap of ruins. I wish I’d been there when they came. As far as I’m concerned they could have taken me, too. Now I’m stuck here wondering what’s happened to Günther. A fifty-six-year-old man, fifty-six. And he can’t take getting upset like that. This is the end…”

  “But surely they’ll let him go.” He tried to calm her down. “Can I help you somehow? Although I don’t particularly want to come over.” He heard a crackle on the line. “Good-bye,” he called out, startled. “I hope things go well with you, very well. I’ll be in touch.”

  They’re tapping the lines, he thought. He quickly left the booth and looked around. The arresting officers will be here right away. Is it still even possible to telephone?

  He climbed on one bus and rode to the Schlesischer Bahnhof, where he had to change for another. As he stood on the platform wedged between many other people, he noticed a young man and woman next to him pressed tightly together. He observed them closely, first examining the relaxed face of the girl and then that of the man.

  Peace! he thought. They still have peace. Their small world is shielded by millions of lives just like theirs … and together they love and together they hate—and always in the majority. Although in the end it won’t do them much good, either.

  He asked for a ticket, and after he had paid for it, he leafed through the bills in his pocketbook to see how much money he had on him.

  One hundred eighty marks, he determined. Enough to leave the country—assuming that was possible. But even if it was, he thought, he wouldn’t do it. He wanted to save his fortune. He wasn’t about to let that get snatched away so quickly.

  If everything goes well, he thought optimistically, Becker will bring eighty thousand marks tomorrow. Then—he calculated further—I’ll get another ten thousand in cash for the house, and if I’m lucky I can sell the mortgage note with a discount. He smiled weakly. I’m still a pretty wealthy man, he concluded. And there are plenty of poor anti-Semites—if there still is such a thing as a genuinely poor anti-Semite—who despite everything would happily trade places with a rich Jew like me. There was something about the idea that cheered him up a bit. They really ought to take a poll to find out, he thought. But why should they trade anything at all? They’ll simply take my money and then they’ll be rich anti-Semites.

  The bus stopped, and Silbermann bought a newspaper from one of the vendors who were mobbing the exiting passengers. He frowned at the headlines: “The Murder in Paris.” “Jews Declare War on the German People.” Shocked and angered, he crumpled the paper and threw it away.

  I was fully aware that war had been declared, he thought. But that I’m the one declaring it is news to me. It all sounds like a bad joke, like “Robbers Severely Wound
ed in Attack by Cash Courier” or “Patient Robs Doctor to Pay His Fee.” As if the pike declared war on all carp and accused them of being accessories to attempted murder just because one he ate gave him a stomachache.

  Silbermann lit a cigarette.

  So a seventeen-year-old boy resists the suggestion he do away with himself and instead fires in the general direction of the source of such advice. And in so doing he, and therefore all of us, have attacked the German Reich.

  Silbermann left the bus and pushed his way through the people thronging the streets until he reached the hotel where he had often stayed when he lived in a suburb that had no nighttime transport. To this day he always ate his midday meal there if he happened to be in the neighborhood.

  He walked past the concierge, whom he’d known for years, and was annoyed at the unresponsive expression of the man, who had averted his eyes as soon as Silbermann had entered, undoubtedly to avoid having to greet him.

  I remember a quite different welcome, Silbermann thought, and he felt a small, hollow twinge in his stomach.

  He searched for a familiar face as he walked slowly through the lobby and entered the reading room. Only a few men were sitting there, mostly traveling businessmen who were leafing through the magazines, studying the stock prices on the last pages of the newspapers, or busying themselves with writing letters. Silbermann glanced around the comfortably furnished room, and for a moment he had a pleasant feeling of security.

  Everything is just the same, he thought. Then, again feeling anxious, he repeated the sentence: everything is just the same. And nevertheless I have the feeling that something must be different, and not only for me.

  Morosely he looked over at the others.

  There you sit, he thought. In your countries it isn’t customary for law-abiding citizens to be attacked in their homes and hauled off to prisons or concentration camps. In your homelands the chair of the board of directors doesn’t have a machine gun next to him when he asks for a vote of confidence. But when these things happen here in Germany, when all is said and done you find it rather novel and quaint. Because no one does anything to you, and the same hotel that for me has now become a jungle full of dangers is for you a peaceful abode where you can happily drift along according to your custom. And when you go back home, you will report that one can dine quite well there in the Third Reich.