Rock My Heart

by Selene Chardou

  Kaz and I were married and although our marriage license, certificate and the press would scream “Mrs. Gillian”, I was now officially a Cox.

  This is what scared my grandfather the most. I belonged to that bastard’s family and what a family it was. It made the Jerry Springer show seem horribly ordinary and the goings on in that family were the stories of nightmares, not dreams.

  Unfortunately for my poor grandfather, I wouldn’t have preferred it any other way because I was willing to carry any last name to be with Kasper for the rest of my life.

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  The Wedding Night

  KAZ COULDN’T BELIEVE how great the reception turned out, especially when you mixed rock stars with high society figures who were worth so much money, they depended on their personal financial advisors, Fortune Magazine and Forbes to keep them up to date with their net worth.

  However, the rock stars in question were well behaved and he didn’t feel bad about not telling Jaden what had happened to Faith because for the first time, it seemed like he and Talia were talking to one another and that made him happy.

  He’d hoped his marriage to Syd would make his brother realize what he was missing and perhaps he’d want the same for himself.

  It was true, Faith and Jaden had quite the history but he and Talia had a child and no matter how much history existed, the presence of an innocent being born from two people severed everything.

  Kaz had history with Keren too, much longer than he’d ever had history with Damira but when she told him she was pregnant, it didn’t matter. His relationship with Keren had been severed for good and he was ready to move forward with Damira.

  Not that their wedding had been this elegant and understated because he simply hadn’t had the money he possessed now, nor was Damira like Sydney. Her family was much worse off than his because as much as his father liked to play the pauper, the man was swimming in illegal cash from gun running, drugs and crooked deals.

  He’d not thought much about his father until he was dancing with Sydney to “Wild Horses” by the Rolling Stones when his phone buzzed in his pocket.

  She smiled at him before she leaned in and whispered in his ear, “Is that your cell phone or are you just happy to see me?”

  Kaz laughed out loud. “Both,” he replied as he took out his phone and looked at the number.

  It was Dizzy and the motherfuckin’ bastard had the nerve to call him on his wedding day.

  “I have to take this.” He tried to pull away but Syd’s grip was strong and unyielding.

  “You can take that call right here. You might want to listen to what your father has to say.”

  He looked into her eyes and they were calm, clear and pure blue with only gray striations circling within her irises near the pupils.

  Kaz answered the phone and said, “Hello?”

  “I hope I didn’t interrupt you and that beautiful bride of yours but…I forgot to tell you something. On purpose of course.”

  “What’s that, Dad?” he questioned in a cold voice.

  “Sydney knows everything about you. So, all that true confessions crap you planned like you were on some sad episode of a soap opera doesn’t have to happen. Her grandfather paid me five million dollars for the information. And he also paid me enough to sever your ties with the club. You need to get rid of the LS tattoo ASAP. I would suggest having something tattooed over it but it truly is your choice. Either way, I see you with LS ink the next time we meet and you’re dead.”

  The phone call ended and Kaz stuck the phone in his pocket.

  Sydney placed her head on his shoulders and they danced in sync with one another perfectly.

  “You don’t have to say a word because I understand why you didn’t tell me. Just know that I will protect you and you’ll never have to worry about the club again. You’re married to a Landvik and we keep our promises…always.”

  Kaz breathed a sigh of relief.

  The weight that had been lifted off his shoulder was phenomenal. He didn’t have to confess his dirty little secrets because she was aware of every one and still had married him. That was true love if he’d ever known it and truth be told, he hadn’t, not until Sydney came along.

  “I love you so much,” he whispered into her ear.

  “I know you do because I love you just as much as you love me.”

  They finished their dance and all the time, he couldn’t wait to get her home. He desperately needed to make love to her once and for all.

  KAZ SLOWLY UNDRESSED his bride and it was only because her wedding dress was so gorgeous, he almost hated he had to remove it from her body.

  Almost.

  He needed to be with he so badly, they kissed one another and it was all tongues and hungry mouths pressed against one another as he removed his suit, layer by layer until he was as nude as Syd.

  His kisses led down to the base of her neck as he squeezed her breasts softly and played with her nipples, his index and thumb softly squeezing until he got an eyeful of breast milk.

  Syd laughed out loud. “Yeah, I should have warned you not to squeeze too hard.”

  “Let’s just say I’m well aware of it now.” He sat up and grabbed a Kleenex to clean his face before he deposited the tissues in the trash.

  Now that he knew her breasts were ultra-sensitive, he kissed lightly before his tongue flicked over her nipple. She moaned out loud before he switched sides and lightly licked the other nipple with enough pressure to give her pleasure but not too much to cause her milk to start flowing.

  “Oh the kinky games we could play,” he sung in her ear before she grabbed his face with both hands and her open mouth sought out his again with a generous tongue.

  “Yes, but not tonight,” she replied after their kiss ended.

  Kaz was a bit taken aback when she flipped them over until she was on top and she kissed down his body. She sucked his nipples, which was quite a turn on, and led her tongue all the way to his belly button although his cock, hard as a rock, was in the way. He was so turned on at that moment, it lay flat against his stomach like a soldier at attention.

  Syd gripped his manhood and licked the head before her mouth in all of its wet, moist sweetness surrounded him and slowly allowed inch by ever loving inch to sink into her until the head of his dick danced past her tonsils.

  She slid him out and did it again and he knew if she continued to tease him like this while her hands massaged his balls in between careful fingers running up and down his perineum, he was going to come violently in her mouth.

  When she pulled him out a third time, he grabbed her by the shoulders and pulled her up. She rested on top of his body except for a raging hard-on between the two of them.

  Kaz flipped them over and he spread her legs where paradise awaited him in the form of a Brazilian waxed pussy made for his lips, tongue, and cock. He spread her open and tackled her swollen clit with a hungry tongue as he slid two fingers inside of her. She was turned on but not dripping wet and they both knew why. He slid his fingers out of her, liberally coated them with his saliva and pushed into her again until he felt that spongy, soft tissue that was her G-spot.

  Syd’s legs spread wider as his mouth assaulted her clit, suckling on the swollen nub in between licking her hard and her hips bucked involuntarily to the feeling of pleasure. An orgasm gently flowed over her and with that orgasm came a burst of moist pleasure that coated his fingers, still buried inside her, liberally.

  He crawled back up her body but she was far from done with her power play. She flipped them over again. All this flipping had him scared they were going to eventually hit the floor in a tangle of naked limbs, desperate in their anticipation to have one another.

  She grabbed his cock and guided it inside of her and Kaz was met with tight, hot, moistness, the closest he would ever get to heaven. Her strokes were languid and paced at just the right speed because as she rode him like a cowgirl at the local rodeo, he loved the way her vaginal muscles clenched his dic
k and then eased up.

  Kaz could spend forever buried inside the beautiful woman who was now his wife but the torture she caused with that beautiful cunt of hers was enough to drive him over the edge.

  He flipped them again, the opposite way this time, and as he continued his quest and hers all the way to a well-needed release, he sped up the pace just a bit, sinking himself deep as possible inside her before he would pull out a little and then slowly thrust into her again and again.

  Syd wrapped her arms around his neck and their mouths found one another’s again, their tongues melding to one another, tasting each other and themselves and he continued his rhythmic pace inside her and she squeezed her vaginal muscles tighter against him, making the pressure interminably and extremely pleasurable while his orgasm became that much more imminent.

  They made love with all the frantic urgency of two beings coming together after spending months apart. There was no denying the love they felt for one another and it showed in every arch, kiss and caress.

  Kaz felt Syd as her muscles clinched involuntarily and the shudder she gave him as she moaned out loud; it was enough to cause his own orgasm and he came inside her with such furious intensity, it felt like heaven and he knew he was finally home.

  Afterwards, they laid in bed together and held hands.

  Kaz could never remember a time he felt so completed and he knew it was because he finally was with a woman who knew every part of him. It was a scary feeling to be so exposed but at the same time, he wouldn’t have had it any other way.

  “Why didn’t you tell me?”

  Syd looked in his direction. “Would it have made a difference?” Her smooth silky hands touched his face and felt so reassuring yet granted him the peace of mind he’d never known could exist between two people. “I love you and now that I know who you truly are, I love you even more. You have faced some horrific situations and you’re still around to tell the tale. Not many rockers get out of this life alive, especially legends like you. Just consider yourself one of the lucky ones.”

  “I do. Every time I gaze at Xander and Baby Kaz, I have this thought and it’s I’m one of the luckiest men on earth because I found my soul mate and I have such a wonderful family. My life couldn’t be better because I have you by my side and that means everything to me.”

  She kissed his lips and their passion for one another ignited yet again in a growing inferno of heat, lust, desire and pure unadulterated love. It was so easy for them to come together again and become one. They made love like they fought, with so much passion, it escaped through their pores and kept them both on edge yet full of love for one another.

  In the afterglow of their lovemaking session, they finally fell asleep in one another’s arms and it felt right, perfect and honest.

  Kaz had finally met his match and this one was a firecracker. She was stronger than him and would always be there for him. There was no doubt in his mind, he was one of the few who found love the third time around and the thought made him fade into his dreams with a smile on his face and pure unadulterated bliss in his heart.

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Happy New Year!

  THE NEW YEAR’S Eve concert held at Vogue Hotel and Casino was beyond brilliant and I’d dressed the part knowing it would be; Scarlet Fever and Winter’s Regret on the same stage again? Together they made magic and I had no doubt in my mind it wouldn’t be any different that New Year’s Eve.

  I wore a short black designer skirt which showed off my toned legs, a slinky silver halter top from some big time French designer and knee length Christian Louboutin shit kicking boots with four inch heels that could slice a man’s dick off.

  My honey blonde hair was down and had recently been cut to shoulder length. I seriously didn’t need all the hair and with the chestnut lowlights I’d added, I actually looked young and carefree.

  Talia texted me to meet her in her dressing room back stage as she got ready for her performance. Unfortunately, I got held up in the VIP section watching all the different live acts.

  It had been a night of outstanding songs and great acts.

  The winner from Talented Voices, Gemma Hughes, had wowed the crowd with her rendition of Alicia Keys’ “Girl On Fire” followed by a haunting take of Pink Floyd’s “Comfortably Numb”.

  After she’d stepped off the stage, Damian Phillips was in prime shape to warm the crowd up with his sexual and bass heavy songs. He sang two of his number one hits from his latest album, “Ready When U R” and “Simply Beautiful.” The second was a mid-tempo song and the women in the audience screamed their appreciation before he said good night to the audience.

  His performance was followed by an obviously drunk but still lively act by Trilogy. Sydney found it amazing that Juli could sing just as well intoxicated as she could sober and she had some deep-throated, sexy-voiced, rockin’ songs for the crowd.

  “I hope you’re tired of that easy listening shit,” she began as she swallowed a shot of Jack Daniels on stage. “Because Trilogy doesn’t play easy…we play motherfuckin’ hard! So get ready because here we come and we are ready to rock you.”

  Her cigarette laced voice was intoxicating as the band broke into a rendition of one of the crowd’s all-time faves, “Buy Me A Little Happiness”. She sang the way she lived and her voice was hypnotic, haunting, grating and beautiful at the same time.

  “I’ve been down and out for too long

  and that’s why I wrote this fucking song.

  To all of you who betrayed me,

  made me suck you off and then left me,

  I’m up here for you—scars and all!

  Daddy, daddy, please see me,

  don’t think you fucking need me

  to be the silent one in your kingdom of hell.

  I’ve stripped myself down to the bone,

  I can’t belong to anyone,

  the road is mine and it’s my home

  and you’ll never see me again.”

  She paused as she played a gorgeous solo on her bass while her boyfriend strummed his guitar like it was a part of his body before she broke into the chorus.

  “We have tonight, we might have tomorrow

  but all we know is that life brings us sorrow.

  So I wait with anticipation,

  swallow shots with my imagination,

  don’t think I need you around.

  If you can’t take me as I am,

  will you feel bad when I confess,

  fuck you, I’ll buy myself a little happiness…

  buy me a little happiness.”

  I shook my head because if Gemma Hughes was a younger version of Chyna Bleu who had yet to play than Juli was a younger version of Talia nipping at her heels.

  I finally broke away and strolled to Talia’s dressing room where I sat on the sofa as she looked up at the screen monitor every now and then. “Juli’s good, isn’t she? Now you know why I had to have them on our upcoming tour.”

  “Most definitely. Are you going abroad?”

  “It hasn’t been decided yet but this tour will only three months so if we do decide to go abroad, it’ll probably be Western Europe, Japan and Australia. I can’t do another long winded tour like we did with the Gods of Rock. To be honest, the road is no place for a baby and I hate I have to bring Kaelan along but I couldn’t stand to be apart from him all that time either. However, it does give me a break from Jaden and I have given him that time to make up his mind. By April, he’ll either have to shit or get off the pot. I’m tired of the goddamn merry-go-round to be honest and I am too old to be any man’s ‘secret’ lover.”

  She paused and stopped applying her mascara. “By the way, did you hear what happened to Faith?”

  There was a name from the past. I hadn’t been keeping up with my best friend lately therefore I merely shook my head. “What happened to her?”

  “Apparently, Mz. Thang planned on crashing you and Kaz’s wedding. She was pulled over by a Nevada Highway Patrolman. You know the
re’s that zero tolerance thing here when it comes to driving under the influence of alcohol or drugs…well, he suspected her of being intoxicated. Her vehicle was searched and they didn’t find any booze but they found a shitload of prescription drugs and cocaine.

  “She called her mommy and step-daddy to come save her but they won’t be able to get her out of doing jail time since she’s already been in rehab and has had numerous offenses covered up by the police department in Calabasas. It doesn’t look good for her…that’s all I can tell you.”